went out with junhui today in the morning and we explored the esplanade together.. havent been out with her for such a long time, realised i actually missed going out with her.. then met up with shu and ling, almost went with them to the art musuem but decided to accompany junhui to esplanade instead.. as usual talked to shu for a long time, from sch to topics like relationships and then to blogging.

guess what she said was true.. blogs are personal space for people to pour out their feelings, emotions, ideas and whatever stuff they wish to put up.. many people treat blogs as another facade used to give readers an impression, which is true and not impossible.. and i realised that after realising people are reading my entries, i started to restrict myself in whatever i put up here, and not being entirely truthful to myself in terms of emotions and feelings. started to minimalise whatever is being put up so as not to offend people in anyway or whatsoever.. which should not be the case as i realised today. somebody once commented to me that most blogs are depressing to read. which is true. people usually use blogs as an outlet to destress and pour out their true feelings which they might not want to face up in real life. i do that sometimes. all normal human beings do. so i should not control myself in what i put up here, i realised. if people read and get offended, it's their own problems and not mine for i AM entitled to my own views, aint i? so to whoever is reading my entries, i dont really give a damn to what you think. if you are offended in whatever i say, be my guest.

shu also mentioned something about people linking up and allowing people to read others' entries. and the example she mentioned was rather scary i think. the one about admirers wanting to read someone's blog and it was a personal one so they resorted to searching for the website in search engines. which would probably not work since the website is most likely to be unlisted. not that i'd be so honoured to have admirers seeking to read my website but to have people whom i dont know reading my innermost feelings is rather freakish. imagine somebody from some other jc knows about somebody's existence and their true feelings and this poor somebody doesnt have an inkling to who these people are. but i guess this poor somebody will probably never ever know. am i being coherent here? doesnt really matter, since i know what im saying. *grin* im sure not trying to use twin language here since i do not have a twin, and the notion of twin language came to me only becos im reading "regina's song" right now and it's quite an exciting book. by david eddings. go read it if you have the time. thanks to tim for reccomending the book to me..