yes now i AM online. anybody figured out why i dint come online for the past 2 days? stupid sasser virus. downloaded the removal kit from symantec today and yay, gotten rid of the virus from the comp. finally. phew.
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i am friggin pissed right now. with my bloody computer that refuses to work, irregardless of whatever methods i try to revive it. what the hell. so freakin tired and pissed off now. sheeesh. im better off marking comprehensions and tidying up my table and revising my jap with this time. and reading my books. the weather aint helping. it's so damn bloody hot that im not cooling down at all.

im ready to snap and break. so ready. fuck.

sorry if i sounded distant and all on the phone. i know you meant well by trying to help, by suggesting ideas and methods. and for burning the programs for me. i really appreciate your help. but im just so freaking pissed that i snap at the person who's just right next to me, and you so happened to be there, over the phone. so sorry if i snapped at you. cant help it la. one of my bad habits. i know. i just cannot control my temper.

oh sigh. i'd rather be far away from this comp right now. take me away from this freaking computer that serves no purpose at all, except to type and save documents. yeah.

maybe i should go take a nap. or read a book. it might help me relieve my stress of this bloody computer. this konpyuta or pasokon. whatever.

thank you for the dictionary. it is really useful. i merely wanted to borrow your old one, dint expect you to get a new one for me. honestly, i felt kinda guilty. i know this jap-eng dictionary is not cheap. as in, i look at the US price for it, and i can roughly gauge the Sing price for the dictionary. so. yeah. felt kinda guilty. i wouldnt have minded using the old one, seriously. and i did enjoy yesterday, thank you.

so enjoyed my jap class this morning. me and amanda were talking about taking the official jap exams. we'll prolly finish the advanced course at cambridge, before registering for the exams at the official jap school. i mean, sensei is really nice and sweet and we're already so used to her style of teaching, we might as well stay here and finish the course, which by then, would prolly be about at the end of the year? yeah i suppose so. think im getting the hang of things now. i can remember, what she taught last week, about people and animals and prepositions. grin. as usual, jap class seems like a relaxer course for me.

dont wanna return to school tmr. ohs well. looking on the bright side of things, i have only 3 periods tmr and i will need to cancel remedial cos the p says the students need their own time to do self revision so there. yeah. grin. abit more spare time. watch tv, listen to music and chill out la. relax before the 200 scripts come in on thursday. oh shit.

dated: 4.18pm on 020504
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wah i feel damn shitified now la. blogging offline while my comp is hit with this anonymous virus that the singtel people cant figure out what went wrong.. and it's not just me alone la. according to the singtel tech people, there are at least 100 plus people hit by the lousy virus. what the heck. oh sigh. i wonder what did i do, to kena such a thing. fine i dont have anti virus software but it was just plain expensive to get a copy of it la. i mean the original version. now how the hell am i suppose to survive without the internet? i mean, the net is so much part of my life la. oh sigh. checking email, blogging, playing neopets, playing popcap, chatting on msn and icq. and now i am deprived of all these things, during a weekend somemore!! goodness. i feel like im doing offline processing. just like opmv. the moe offline marks processing thingy. which is staring at me right now cos the disket is on my comp table. im just plain thankful that i finished my social studies paper last night and finished searching for all my pictures. *phew* was soooo upset just now.

oh sigh.
first john stevens, now this.
whine.

watching dawn of the dead later. wonder how much gore is there. heh.
now my parents are complaining they cant play neopets. grin. now they have to learn how to survive without playing the jackpot machine in neopets for goodness knows how many days. will prolly put this up online on monday in school. my slack day ma, monday. grin.

actually blogging offline aint that bad an idea. it looks pretty fine to me. and i can save somemore. just that it aint realtime. meaning, i cant post it immediately online after i finish blogging. and i have to take into consideration the time im blogging myself right now. ohs well.

thankew to the people who helped me through this ordeal. i would like to call it an ordeal beause it wrecked my entire morning. couldnt eat my breakfast properly, couldnt read my papers properly as well cos i was running to and fro the dining table and the computer. sorry to my mummy, for flaring up at her just now cos that's what im like. flaring up at the immediate person who wrecked my comp.
put it this way la. my comp and my hp, they are my life. i cannot survive without one or the other. hee.
maybe other girls can, but i cant. cant help it la, me a gadget girl. but hey, im a girl too. as in, i would do things that other girls do. grin. ah get what im saying? i think i do. it's interesting to see people drop jaws and ask, "girls dont usually look and shop for gadgets." i mean, why is there the stereotype of girls being the computer idiots? i dont believe we girls, cant be experts in computer lingo and software and hardware, plus the computer games. i mean, if we do have the interest and passion, girls can excel at such things as well. but well of course, if some girl comes to me and tell me she doesnt know her own comp speed, that's quite jialat la. i'd rather take things into my own hands and start fixing it myself, before i surrender and let the experts do their jobs. yeah.

time now is twelve noon. going to eat lunch, mark abit of work before going out. and live my life without my computer.
computer, me love you. grin.