somehow in the middle of the night at 3 am this morning i woke up and i couldnt get back to sleep.
started reflecting upon this blog. the reason for its exisence.
somehow in the middle of the night at 3 am this morning i felt as though all this was a waste of time and efforts.
and dint feel up for updating the blog every once in a while.

this blog has accompanied me for what, 3 years odd and it has definitely seen many of my ups and downs in the past 3 years. much more downs than ups i must say.
i did promise myself that i will never shift from this address, as the nolstalgia of this address keeps me addicted.
but somehow in the middle of the night at 3 am this morning, i had a weird idea to shift away from all these crap and move to somewhere new. somewhere hidden away where i can really put what i want.

many people come here. who exactly you are i dont know.
recently i dont blog much, as compared to my past history, as pointed out by rl.
somehow i just cant lift my fingers to type.
i stare blankly at the blinking cursor and ponder for nearly 15 minutes, before i click the mouse at some other window that i have open.
after half an hour, i come back and stare at the blinking cursor for another 15 minutes.
then its "alt F4" and off i scoot onto my bed for a nice book and read, or snuggle up in bed and watch a movie on my laptop.
i simply dont know what to write.

in the past, a mere listing of the day's events could provide the subtance i want in blogging. and i revel in it. now i grow tired of telling the audience what i did that particular day. i dont want the audience to know what exactly i've been doing these few days. somewhat hiding in the corner and refusing to come out.
maybe im stuck in a rut.
shrugs.

maybe its time for a new change.
a new venue.
i wonder.