life&death

Life

the day you're born. your birth-day. as how mayday would sing, "happy birth.day."

life is a roller coaster, fun exciting yet scary. life is when you feel all emotions: spite, anger, jealousy, sadness, happiness, joy. you know people, you get to know people, and you build relationships with them. you like them, you get close to them. you dont like them, you withdraw from them.
life is a very magical thing that has so much power, to give and deprive you of many things. so much so much power. and as you enjoy life to your maximum, learn to appreciate how others give life to you, making it meaningful, making it fun. making it exhilarating and enjoyable. every year, when you celebrate your birthday, give thanks to your close ones around you, for they are the ones making the special effort of the day you're born to the face of this earth, and bring about emotions to everyone.
a birthday is a simple day. some people think of it as the most important day of the year, some not as much. to me, any day can be a birthday, so as long as you're together with the people you love, and you have fun of course.

it was absolutely a blast tonight. and many thanks to all those who have made my 3 part birthday celebrations a whole success.
thank you to:
roo - for taking one day out and spending it with me at my favourite place, pigging out on food and icecream. its real good to have your as my mei :)
mok - kor, thanks for remembering my birthday even though you're in the faraway lands of uk! come back soon!
yy & jt - thankew for the treat! *huggies* and i love the vouchers [and the bag i got on the same day teehee]
ruoling szeyi lifang - my 3 favourite babes!! :) thankew for so so so many things! i dont know where to start from, but im sure you girls know what i mean la. :) ruoling, i loveee your card!
tim - thankew for being there for me when i need a listening ear, and be around for me to bully! muahahaha. :)
kailyn - though we havent done much, we'll do it after i come back yea? hoping for the best for you.

so thats life for you, intricate and complicated. simple but fun. nice but traumatising. your pick.

Death

dont you think death happens in the blink of an eye? today she's here and the next she's gone. news of what ruoling told me this morning, plus her blog entry reminded me of what happened almost 3 years ago, when justina left us for a better place.

that period of time was upsetting. the frantic flipping of photographs to save whatever memories i had of her, looking at the events we had, times we shared in class and PSB. breaking down halfway during lecture or class. people going around school, talking about the suicide that happened in one of our fellow close junior college. the one that involved my ex classmate and good friend. the rumours and suspicions that were spreaded around, that made us want to go up and slap the gossipmongers left right centre to shut their trap.

death takes people away. and even after they are gone, remmants remain. the girl ruoling told me about, happens to be my sister's classmate's cousin. we read his blog, about his pain and sufferings and its scary to see how much i could identify with it. of course the hurt and pain he's going through is alot more, cuz thats kinship. but for us teens and young adults, friendships are almost as close as kinship.
take care, for those who know this one girl. cry, hurt, and then move on with the wonderful memories you've had with her.
AND FOR THOSE DOING WAT, EXCHANGE AND WHATEVER NOTS, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LOOK AFTER YOUSELF! [note to: junjun, mok kor, yuan, venus, benson]
a reminder to myself to be wary and careful too. =X

death may not just mean taking away of lives.
how about death of senses, death of your hearing, or your sight.
without those, its almost as though you're reliving a new life, the old has passed and the new has arrived.
i'll be hoping for the best for you, for you to regain whatever you can.
and i promise [even though i know you cant see this] i'll be with you when i come back. meanwhile, people like yy & jt will have to entertain you! teehee.


these few days have been so tumultous.
i've lost the sense of excitement for tmr's flight.
especially when alvin told me i'm not rooming alone. damnit. =X