at home now. as usual. blogging at the usual time. as usual. again. wasnt in a very good mood for today. which is not as usual. yawn.

blame it on:
1. boredness at the office.
2. the weather, for raining suddenly.
3. my fellow new colleague
4. rita's sudden decision to quit teaching
5. all of the above.

life is getting very boring at the office. nobody to talk to me. nobody to laugh with me. nobody to gossip with me. basically you get what i'm trying to say. yeah. as usual, i still miss yanlian's presence. wonder what is she doing at home now, sleeping and eating away, like what she said? hm. anyway, i have two presents from auntie beng huat and auntie chan, nicely packaged to be given to her. will prolly give it to her on friday when i see her in school for the results. remind me, somebody. or else it will slip my mind and i'll never be able to remember to pass her presents to her. yeah.

i hate it when it rains without warning. i know, i'm a sucker for rainy weather, when it's nice and cold and i can get to snuggle in bed and read my book and chill out to music, but not when i'm at the office, one hour away from knocking off. like hello, i wanna go home nice and dry la. i'm plain lazy at taking out my umbrella and the long distance i have to walk from the school to the bus stop to take 187 to go home, please, dont rain the next time round.i know i wont melt in the rain but like any normal sane soul who just knocked off, i dont wanna be a drenched chicken (read chinese = luo tang ji ) *grin* i'm trying me best to entertain myself.

thirdly. my fellow new temp is quite irritating. i told mok she's a pain in the ass. not initiative and even lazier than me. to think i'm lazy enough. i am lazy, i know. to think i spent all my time and effort and saliva teaching her the basic things to do in the office and she can happily wait for me to serve the crowd while she stares blankly into the crowd, presuming an air of innocence because she's new and doesnt know the simplest thing to do. please. you're old enough to be my mother. and being new doesnt give you the right not to answer phone calls. dont tell me i even have to teach you how to pick up the phone, and say the correct things? oh well. just wait till term 2 starts. then i'll be gone and you can do everything yourself. oops. too bad i guess.

i guess rita's decision was the ultimate that sent me into a really foul mood. she barely took over kailyn for 2 days and she told ms teo that she quit. partially because she has no confidence in teaching english, and also because she got another offer from elsewhere to teach geog and social studies. fine la. you can quit to your liking but what about the students? it sure doesnt help to dampen their morale by quitting after teaching them for 2 days lor. it's plain unfair to them. this decision not just affect the HOD and the relief teacher, it also affects the numerous classes that she is (or rather, was) teaching. like what the hell la. im not pissed about the part that i'll be all alone ( not that i was very close to her in the first place, unlike kailyn ) but pissed about the fact that she just quit without giving much thought to her students. i would like to say that if she has no confidence in teaching english, then she shouldnt even have taken up kailyn's offer in the first place. and to give ms teo more trouble right before the school official opening this friday, it's downright unfair to her la. the world does not plain revolve around you and no one else la. relief teachers out there who are thinking about quitting, please spare some thoughts to 1. your students. 2. your beloved HOD or teacher in charge of you. 3. the office admin who has to go into the system to painstakingly find a new relief teacher to take over you. and who might just quit in 2 days time again. just like the previous one. it's a viscous damned cycle, to put it simply. what the hell.

so everything accumulated itself and i became quite .. yeah. we all get the idea. usual me. i start thinking about everything anything and my mood worsens. as usual. wasnt even in the mood to pick up DUNE to read, just when im at the exciting part. sigh. was staring blankly at the rehearsal outside with the contingents marching past. practising their drills for the opening ceremony. reminds me when i was in redcross. the emphasis on footdrills and the lack of emphasis in first aid. how ironic. yeah. this shows how bored i am.