it was tough trying to ignore you yesterday. yet you treated it like a joke initially. took you some time to realise. so hurting. so tough. i was pissed. and disappointed at the same time. what was i to say to you? given my stubborn and irritating nature, i'd just ignore you. ignore. ignore. ignore. cancelled his calls. ignored his smses. ignored your icq msges.

you msged this morning while i was waiting for the bus. finally i replied. maybe because my anger subsided. and maybe you thought i kicked up a fuss for nothing. so it seemed. but then again. i feel justified. i dont know.
made up this morning and all became fine and well. so it seems.
i know both parties were hurt this time round.
but if that is what you can say, sorry i cant take it.
then when am i to know if it's true, and when it is just plain tongue in cheek.
i'm sorry. for hurting you like that. but. you hurt me first.

fine fine. im just plain stubborn.
i know i always am.
ever since the day i was born.
just hope something like that doesnt happen again.





distractions.
if i was a student again, nothing of such sort would happen in the first place. because i would never allow such things to happen. never.
it's a different story all together now.
sighhh.

he's back in camp now. coincidentally the same camp and unit as mok. hope they dont kill each other, if they dont 'click'. and if they 'click', may mok not dish out all my juicy secrets. oh how great. sense my sarcasm? im more worried that they kill each other instead, and squash me in the centre. aiyoh.
feels weird that he's back in camp now. quite weird.