moving on?

had a short terse phonecall with him yesterday noon. gist of the call was that he wanted time to cool off. doesnt want to talk, sms or icq/msn while he cools off. fine. so be it. then what? one fine sunny day he comes back into my life saying 'hi lets be friends.' all over again. what do i do then? i dont know. how ironic.


have a tendency to go into extreme mood swings these few days. bursting into tears alone in my room. looking at the remmants left behind in my room. i cannot be left alone, lest i start thinking. always thinking too much. been trying to keep myself occupied. visiting xinxin venus and ramnik yesterday at ntu. crashing nus looking for yy and joycet on thursday. meeting kailyn for dinner on friday. but ultimately i need to deal with this alone. myself. but i need to talk things out. thrash things out. how. i feel so tired. sian.


i know it's time to move on. let time heal the wounds. but its hard to move on. when i cant propel myself forward. when i need somebody to pull me. where's that somebody?


i dont wanna go to school on monday. no close friends around me. i feel alone. neglected.
i dont wanna go to school on monday. i dont want to.