i wonder what kinda impression i give the smu people actually.

according to a casual accquaintance, she thinks that i play alot. not guai. mm. i aint guai?
i thought i was extreme guai. or maybe "guai" is a relative term.

according to a fellow classmate, he thinks im a happy go lucky person. mm. am i?
i dint think i was the happy go lucky sort.

who am i exactly?
i think i've lost my jc self. which was the one i loved the most.
how can i look for that again?
or have i changed such that i cant go back there again?