after last night and today.

i realise i have alot of friends around me. just that i might not make the effort to keep up with some, but we still remain in each others heart somehow. we may not see each other in years. or months. but we are always around. its only a matter of remembering them, and thinking of them.

im perfectly happy with life @ smu now. maybe cuz i found myself an anchor, something all girls need. people like elaine and yixin who are always there for me, thank you girls. *hugs* but that doesnt mean i forget about friends elsewhere. friends whom i've shared wonderful memories with. if i go down the timeline, i would find plenty of chums, who are all over the world now. and im pretty sure, if you put us together all over again, we'll have a real good time just catching up. was talking to lixin last night, and we both agreed that we both would like to meet up more often, together with ruoling and the rest of the people. but somehow, others simply have different priorities on their list. and friends, dont seem to rank as high up.

i know myself perfectly well. that im a diehard for my friends. give me any chance to catch up with friends, no matter how busy i may be, i will try to squeeze out time to meet up with them. which explains why i jumped at the chance for the psl gathering this morning, cuz i havent seen them for ages. had a pleasant surprise when qihui smsed me last night. and was glad for her action in trying to get us all together. today's turnout was alright, considering most people has school and some are not in singapore, given our small size of 18, being able to get 4 was a nice number. coupled with the fact that mrs chia was there, made the trip all more warmly and worthwhile. had a pleasant time catching up with el qihui shang and mrs chia, and at the same time hear mrs chia grumble about the current rg system, and talking about everything, anything. its the pleasant feeling throughout the entire session that made me felt so comfortable, considering the last time i saw them was in july 2003. its alr 2005. see the time lapse? went borders and we walked around for a while, browsing books, and just talking. us threesome got stuck at the stationary section of popular [as usual, considering the infamous habit of major stationary purchasing is a hobby of rg girls ;) ] looking at pens, highlighters, files, notebooks and desperately trying to stop ourselves from buying too much. el refused to get go of the markers she saw at 2 bucks. (: and then, i fondly remembered the times when me and ruoling were at the exact same location, doing major pen shopping, and leaving popular with almost 10 bucks worth of pens each, all coloured. but hey, these stationary spur us on to mug, and make notes. (: ended the journey at mos, where we simply caught small bites, and parted after that. nice morning. grin.

had a rather different night last night. people who know me knows that i seldom talk on the phone. seldom. but last night was marathon phone night. lixin wanted to talk, so we yakked about anything for nearly 1 hour odd 2 hours. tried grilling her about her love life, but to no avail. as usual. muahaha. then tim called, surprise of all surprise. and we talked for about 2 hours? wanted to turn in early, but ended up sleeping at nearly 1.30am in the morning. and i was supposed to wake up early this morning cuz i had driving. but it felt really nice talking to them, got a huge load of my mind. thanks for talking to me (:



back on the friends topic.
friends in sec school are usually your friends for life. that was what jun's mum, mrs wong, said.
which i guess, its true. a 2 year jc is too short for strong friendships. i count my blessings that i found wonderful friends in lixin and ruoling *hugs* but its apparent that the others are slowly drifting away. hence lixin and ruoling are true gems. just within a short span of 2 years. me and ruoling would prolly have ended up as casual acquaintances if we werent given this second chance, since we were both from rg, but different classes different houses, different ccas. i guess it all boils down to fate.

but sec sch is a different story all together. 4 whole years. these 4 years happen to be in the period when your character is developing, your mind is maturing, and when people, matters, things create the biggest impact in your development. this is when you start realising the importance of friends, friendship and when you truly appreciate them. people like junhui, wanyu and joycez. my sec 1 to 4 close buddies. they've never been strangers to me ever since we got together since sec 1. people like joycet, whom i only knew and got close to since sec 4, she's been never far from my heart ever since then. people like fishball, we've been through so much together, 403, hadley house, cybermatrix, spsl. so much so much. throughout the all 4 years. if i had stayed on in redcross, my yearmates, people like cynthia and jorin, whom i used to be extremely close to in lower sec. but my main focus was PSB. the one that moulded me into who i am today, the one that made me find out more about myself, and redefined what i wanted to do in future. really thankful for peer support board, and the friends i've made inside. we went through so much together during our 2 years as psl, and then spsl. psl camp, orientation, sessions with sec ones, convention, carnival. all 18 of us. mrs chia asked us today, "what did you bring away from PSB?" then it dawned upon me that PSB is the one that made me today, made me clear of what i truly wanted to do outside from school, it gave me skills that fellow peers would learn it much later. skills that was imparted during LTB course last year, those were already instilled into me when i was at the tender age of 15/16. learning to be resourceful, learning to build on each others' strengths, learning to listen, learning to help others. all these came from Peer Support Board. at the same time, the interaction with sec ones, was fulfiling and insightful. we were once sec ones, and as psls, we got to be sec ones again. we understood how they feel, listened to their woes. im pretty sure all psls enjoyed their term as a psl, before stepping down. glad that i made the choice to continue, and be a spsl. where stronger bonds were made, closer friends found. im really honoured to be a senior peer support leader. this morning had just got me reflecting. though PSB may not be something like the PB, which most [i emphasise most] students would look up to, especially the sec ones, it has coloured my sec sch life, and gave me so much. im really really thankful and honoured.




may the spirit of peer support never die.