SECOND DAY

somehow school is starting to feel like home, for some weird reason or other. its comforting to walk around school with friends, and meet friends along the way, catch up for a few minutes along the corridors. it feels good to be meeting people by chance in the same building twice in two days, and yakking like we havent seen each other for a million years. it feels warming, when some of our teammates get teased for being so tight even after coming back from shanghai, and having me whine non stop to alvin, trying to convince him to get jacob to change the minds cafe outing to next tuesday, with rodney laughing by the side, and encouraging me on.

somehow i feel, this is what school should really be. the hustle and bustle of a warm friendly environment, with familar faces and friends all around. this is what i call, school.

its weird that this only dawn upon me after 2 whole years of education in the smu system. i remember vividly, i used to hate it alot, with a veageance. that was when i felt lonely in the environment, with people passing me by and strange faces along the corridors. but now after 2 years, familar faces in my fellow batch of accountancy mates will give an occasional smile along the way even though we barely know each other. we know each other with the mere reason of each other's existence and knowing that, it will be further entwined in the coming years, whether we like it or not. its comforting to have fellow friends who are no longer in the same classes as we were once in, yet emailing each other, jio-ing to go for XXX recruitment talk, or YXZ career fair together. at least now, i know that i wont have to face all these alone.

its reassuring to know, that you have been missed. bumped into xin today at SOA B1 while i was waiting for the lift to meet alvin, and yakked with her for a while, only to have her tell me that fellow friends were wondering why i dint take AFA or AMA classes with them. really, that small little action touched me alot. it only goes to show that im not some passing figure who once shared some fun times with them, and after that one class im gone *poof* and even though i was telling yuan that she has a bunch of super power guys in her AFA class, i also remember the times we had, rushing the ais report and presentation, how dorky and lame the guys became, and yet funny enough for me to treasure the memories. those are sweet memories you know.

feels kinda weird not to be having the exact same classes as xin, i miss her already! but tis okay, i'll see her on thurs for tax planning! and then i'll see yihua and huikeng and zhihui and siying :) the same bunch of friends who have accompanied me through most of my classes in smu from year 2 onwards. and i miss friends like elaine and gina and nicole!! the times we used to have.. its okay, we'll see each other in school and love those meetings even more, like how me and elaine plan to have lunch together every monday :)

i think, the feeling of being a senior is very different from being a freshie. we are no longer the blur and lunzhun freshies who bumble around the school aimless, trying to find their bearings in the school both literally and figuratively. we are the ones who stride confidently down the corridors, knowing where we are going and where we want to be headed ultimately. at least, we should be. there's this sassiness that you can find easily in seniors, that we have matured gracefully and are ready to let things go if there is a need to be. if it is to be, if it comes, so be it. if it is not meant to be, if it doesnt come, so be it as well.

its time when i see my fellow 1985 males as people who are less of age then the 1985 females. dont ask me why, its just a FEEL. dont even think of flaming me for it. its only a FEEL. somehow, i see them as .. xiao didis? hahaha. okay it sounds weird. i take them ALL back *crosses fingers*
okayokay. i shant say anymore, if not i might just really get flamed for thinking im "older" than the guys born in the year of 1985. but hello, nasir said via msn last night that he felt as though i was their BIG SISTER with this cheery grin and reassuring smile during LTB. >.< do i have a cheery grin and reassuring smile? o.O


LOLS.
time for me to get started on work.
tmr's THE class which i bidded alone for. wish me luck :)