happy and disappointed. at the same time.

happy

happy that ruoling gave me a bible to start me reading. i hope i can understand some of it. i hope. but i wonder what my mum will say. i'm not converting. yet. i'm just interested in reading the bible. that's all. i think my mum will flip.

disappointed

disappointed by what mrs wong told me today. untrained teacher teaching geo posted to hillgrove. the p is contemplating between me and the untrained teacher. in short the ugt. ah please take me. i've already started working on my lessons and planning the exam paper. in fact i've gotten ready the percentage of what to set done liaoz. and im starting on the mcqs. and looking for maps for the basic techniques and mapreading. please dont tell me you dont want me. mrs yeow is just worried that i'll leave like kailyn and rita. i cant tell her kailyn left because of the bio lab research and rita left because of better offering from boon lay sec right? guaranteed i wont leave. but she'll never know. and i think she'll prolly choose the ugt. after all, that person IS an untrained teacher from NIE. unlike me, just one of those Alevel grads who dint get perfect score of 4As for Alevels. she must think i'm dumb or sth. what the hell.

i dont care la. i'm still going to do my lesson plans and transparencies, and visit the geo work room tmr to gather more materials. and plan my exam paper as well. if she really chooses the ugt, then i'll just give him/her whatever i did. and i'd prolly be out of a job. cos i have no idea if i would still stay in the front office. ah sigh. if she chooses me, then i'll be very happy. but i guess, she wont give a damn to how much i want to teach and the past 3 months i've worked with the school. mrs wong wants me, that i know, cos she likes the way i work. but what is mrs wong to the p? the p's word is final. what a disaster. everything seemed to go smoothly and something just had to disrupt it. as usual.

as usual. i shouldnt expect too much. i always fall with a loud thud. always. without fail. how interesting.