i will not go into a tirade against comestics and beauty packages. i will not. i must control. ah what the heck.

girls lemme tell you this. we dont need cosmetics nor beauty packages to make us look good. when you feel good and confident of yourself, you are good. and presentable. the thick layer of chemicals over the sensitive skin does not help in enhancing the rosiness in your cheeks now nor giving your face a total makeover. it just blocks your pores for that particular period of time you put on the thick layer of chemicals. sheesh. i mean, come on. we dont need make up now at this point in time when we're supposed to be youth and cheery and bright. time is on our side now. we're not in our 40s or 50s so to speak. so what the hell with all the cosmetics and things like that? sheesh. i hate seeing people walking along the streets with blue eyelids and rosy like red cheeks with purple lipstick. that is called painting your face, and not putting on makeup to look better. instead i'd think you look like a ghost. going for halloween instead. goodness. if you look good, you will need nothing to make you look good. if you think you dont, there's something wrong with your confidence level. which was what i thought in the past, and maybe now too. i dont have that much confidence as what some people think. im just -me-. somebody who cant accept makeup right now so stop pushing makeup products in front of my face and complain when i dont use them. cos i just plain dont wanna use. natural beauty is the foremost important thing. you may be able to put on makeup the whole day through but at the end of the day, you wash them off, leaving a clean and natural face. wont that feel so much more comfortable than having tons of makeup piled on your innocent face? who knows, cosmetics may actually do more harm than good if you look at it from the skin's point of view. wont you feel, more yourself? not having to put on a stupid facade the whole day through. or are you trying to say that you would rather live with the facade and not yourself? if so, i have only one word for you and that is FAKE.
look i am not pinpointing anybody in particular but i would just like to rant out my feelings about not using cosmetics and makeup. come one. they do more harm than good to your skin. so what if you look better? it's all artificial. all paint.
maybe i might come to regret whatever im saying right now in time to come, but as my stand now is: i will not be putting on makeup and nobody can force me to do so.
sheesh. what the hell man.

pant pant pant.
im tired after blasting cosmetics and beauty products.
come challenge me if you beg to differ.
im waiting.

yawn.
saw life this morning and they were talking about american idol 3.
finals is tmr and it's going to be 2 hours long. all the way to midnight. groan. think im going to fall asleep in school on thursday and chong will have to send relief teachers to take my class since im asleep in my cubicle. and yeah, i managed to wriggle my way out of the humans meeting on thursday. now lemme try to escape tmr's english dlc. grin. cant wait for the finals actually. i want diana degarmo to win. not fantasia barrino. sorry sean, but to each his/her own i guess. i mean, look at diana. she has matured from a 'tryingtoactcutebutfailingtodosocoshersizeishuge' girl to a girl who can captivate and hold the audience using her voice. she has power lungs that's for sure. somehow, she reminds me of celine dion. a white lady with power lungs.
let's take a look at the top 12 contestants. of course from my point of view. grin. or else why would i blog about it here.
let's start off with my favourites.
George Huff:
he's got charisma, charm. you name it he has it. loved the way he sang 'bring me to the pilot' my goodness. i downloaded the song and has been replaying it ever since i got the mp3 clip. like what simon said, he can connect and i think he does have a good voice. simply melts when he sings the love songs, entirely touching and it hits you straight at the heart. ahh. i miss him on stage. truly do. groan. if only i can see him perform on stage with the songs he sang for the finals.
Latoya London.
She is the woman. or 'da bomb' as Randy Jackson puts it. i mean, my ideal top 2 would be george and latoya. then i wont know who to vote for if given a chance. ah what the heck. vote for two la. been humming 'all by myself' ever since i heard her sang it. when jasmine trias sang it again, i thought latoya was so much better. so so so so much better. latoya's version of 'all by myself' sent shivers down me. for being so heart pounding, and fantabulous. it's simply an american idol classic. like fantasia's 'summertime'.
John stevens.
my man. sniff sniff. i mean, yeah he has a different sounding voice and that was what made him unique. different. of course that dint help him when they had to sing different genres of songs to test their variety of song breadth since they're coming up with an american idol and not a jazz singer. so yeah. but he's MY man. for staying so innocent and unique and different throughout the entire competition. for staying strong after so many bullets had been shot through it. this was what simon said. somehow. if i dint remember it wrongly. yeps. sniff. if only i could hear him sing 'as time goes by' once more.
jasmine trias.
sweet hawaiian hula girl. missed the times when she had the flower in her hair. think she tried to change by taking the flower out when simon kept emphasising on their young ages ( i.e. jasmine john stevens and diana) but sad to say, she dint succeed. she was good, but not great. she dint quite deserve to be in the top 5 honestly. maybe jennifer hudson but then again.
Diana Degarmo
She's grown. like what i mentioned above. she has improved. tremendously. wonderfully. her 'dont cry out loud' last week was FLAWLESS. another classic. how can people not want her to win when she's on a roll? she knows how to connect, and deliver. she's one, who has grown since the competition and i want her to win.
fantasia barrino.
i hate her. (sorry sean!!) she sounds like a donald duck and behaves like one. she used her daughter to gain sympathy votes and she's not improving. in fact i think she's deproving. but then again, her rendition of 'summertime' was wonderful. so touching that it made paula cry.

and the rest are pretty much rather insignificant to me so yeah. there you go. amy adams with her pink hair. camille leah matthew and jon peter lewis. not much of an impression there. but i suppose we'll hear more from the top 5 in future, when they're awarded contracts with recording companies. i mean, look. people like george and latoya WILL get contracts. so will fantasia and diana. just like clay and rubuen. i still prefer the cuddly teddy to the skinny fella. grin.
i bet there would be a big hoo-haa over the votes again. mark my words.
till then. seacrest out. oh wait. aint it nana out?
grin.