i wonder.

i wonder.
when this entire saga will end. or rather, it has already ended. and im just waiting for my feelings to subside. hopefully school can be a good distraction. plus the occasional meetings i have with my friends. like im meeting jun on wed and fri. wed to watch spidey2 at imax (GV grand). and fri im crashing NUS med again. together with jun. i know i will see him there. considering two options. 1. ignore him. 2. talk to him as a friend. im confident of myself of talking to him as a friend. but do i want to. after the stuff that i've been hearing after the break up. or should i go with my initial judgement and what i know of him. though one undeniable fact is that we can talk easily. [or else why would we have gotten together in the first place?] but after putting bits and pieces of information together with roo, he sounds like a total jerk. maybe he has been feeding me lies all along. i dont know. *shrugs* by right i shouldnt be giving a damn now. but somehow im just curious. who has been getting the true side of the story? or have we been fed half truths? it's scary to realise that i may no longer be able to trust him, even as a friend. i wonder what he might make out of this relationship. i truly dont understand. for his own ego or what? i really dont understand. i seek to understand the truth, but should i? would it affect me again, or would i be nonchalant to his answers, cos they may still not be the truths.
im confused. ehh urgh.
i dont know.
but im fine le i think. yeaps.



sunshine finally peeking through the clouds. :)