argghh.

can somebody save me from this shitload of work. it just dawned upon me that i have tons to do, inclusive of my project work, plus assignments to hand in. im on the verge of breaking down. soon. arghhhhhhhhhh.


*breathe in* *breathe out* tons to print, tons to do. finish comn studies assignment by tonight [which i havent started], finish the last bit of stats by thurs [which should be easy to finish up], finish my brochure [which im only 1/3 through. if firdaus/minyuan/ivan happen to stumble upon this *sorry*] by friday because i have a meeting on friday, get in touch with the 9 organisations we sent out proposals to [by now only 2 replied me so i have to wait or call 7 more up], mug for finan acct cos there's a quiz next friday, finish up FA presentation qns [or at least try to do] so that i wont go through next lesson blur as a sotong, read up on econs so that i wont try and fake my way through again. by tmr, i will have to start editting video for a leader i've known for LTB. arghhhhhhhhhhh. *cowers* *is there anymore?* *racks my brain*


i wanna cry. life in smu aint as easy as i thought uni life would be.
sometimes i'd rather go through lectures and tutorials, not having to worry about participation cos i havent quite mustered the courage to speak up in class. i'd rather mug shitload work than to be worrying about things like projects and participation. im not as strong as what everybody thinks.
sometimes i think, i'd rather be a nobody than try to be a somebody when im failing terribly. i cant even cope.


i feel like a timebomb, about to explode any minute.