oh goodness. i was damn confused and dint know what to choose this evening. but i think i've more or less made up my mind. i think. put events and mkting comn first and foremost, then gotta give the thai YEP trip a miss. sians. i really do wanna go for a yep trip. just that the timing will clash with our events comn's event. haiiii.
anyone interested in going for a june tsunami relief YEP under sife in june period at indonesia?
anybody is welcome to join me. i dont wanna go alone.. but if there's really no one, i'd prolly not end up going. SIANS. why must it always happen this way, when things come along, everything comes along at the exact same time, and forces me to choose. and the problem is, i want everything. and when i have nothing to do, nothing comes along. ARGH. i REALLY REALLY REALLY wanna go for YEP.

in any case, i realised to my utmost horror/surprise [depends on how you look at the situation], that i might have too many committments during the hols. it sounds as though there's too much. there's events comn, there's going hk. hopefully going bangkok with kailyn. if i become a facil for orientation, more work there. plus organising asoc camp. and i wonder if i can chup in for PCP this year, gotta check with soon tien about that. mmm. plus i wanna go back to bukit ho swee and resume comn serve. prolly help out for streetwise this year :) whee. in any case, i'd rather be kept busy than to flounder around and have nothing to do. and i'd prolly end up working part time, considering everything happens in bits and pieces such that i cant find a proper job to work from 9 - 5. go find a part time job i guess. wonder what can i do. hehehe. i need to work to earn money.

oh wells.
today was quite a horrible day.
it started out alright, talked to him on msn for a while, helped to relax my nerves before BGS test. and elaine was saying i was smiling discreetly! hahaha. oh wells. grin.
and then BGS test started. URGH. our entire row was the noisiest. busy saying stuff like "pass your paper to me later..", "dont look at mine unless you want reference to the wrong answers etc" twas quite amusing. i was in btw doug and elaine. and alternate people had the same scripts. test started, we were flipping through the paper. flip flip flip. turn back to the first page, flip flip flip. oh wells. pick up the pen, scribble some nonsense. flip to the front, frown at the mcqs, circle circle circle. flip to the back, enlightened for a while, scribble again.
and doug was stressed by me! hahaha. my fault, as usual. old habits never die la. as usual i was scribbling non stop for the short answer questions [but believe me, mine was FULL OF SHIT.] and apparently he was stressed by the speed i was writing and doing my paper. some one commented on this trait of mine in jc as well, for GP i think. scribble scribble scribble non stop. and ms heng once asked me how do i manage to write so much yet keep my handwriting utmost neat at the same time. grin. habit yea, habit. hahaha. then occasional mumblings could be heard. handed in the paper, and instead of feeling lightheaded, i felt as though a headache was coming. blearh. dint put me in the best of moods.
PLUS we had to cheong finish AS homework by 5pm. so you could see half the class spreaded across the benches outside biz level 2, copying/discussing AS homework. the heat was kinda getting to me, plus papers were strewn everywhere. and i was trying to complete the hmwk on my own, with the notes i made yest. acks. but i dint succeed. the temptations of AS wkshts lying all over the place was too great. argh.
finished the hmwk, left them with anna and laurene, me elaine and gina went for the thai YEP briefing. dont know why, the more they talked, the more uncomfortable i felt. not with the project per se, but more of the time frame. oh wells. i should have seen it coming. blearh. got a little short fused.
then went home. and stoned. tried to study. but but but. urgh.

i need to sleep.
nitex.