ahhh. finally finished my part for MA. after many distractions and only reaching home at 7pm cuz the bloody 189 took a damn long time to come and it was freaking crowded. acks. but then again, i got my pay today. :)

just felt like blogging again. dont ask me why.
maybe i just felt like blogging to make up for the next two days without blogging. for all i know, i might be energetic to blog the details of the camp on sunday night. that is provided i get a good night's sleep tmr night. hopefully there are enough beds in the girls bunk cuz we only booked one lodge. *prays hard* one weekend is going to pass really fast. just like that. phoo. gee.
hopefully this camp doesnt make me too shack for monday morning's class. and i have 3/4 a mind to pon finance on monday to study for bgs.
i havent packed my bag yet. just reminded people to bring stuff for tmr, yet i havent packed my bag. as usual lazy me. muahaha.
in tow i shall bring my bgs text, in hope i can read at least one chapter.
considering i havent been doing consistent work, and prof gilbert says that at least 10 hours of studying will "allow" you to get a satisfactory grade. does reading constitute studying? muahaha.

havent used my home pc for a long time and today i've settled myself in front of the home pc working on ma. cuz usually i'd use my lappie to work on projects as all my info is kept in there. but today, i just felt like typing on my old keyboard. the noisy sound and protruding surface makes typing all the more fun and enjoyable. dont ask me why.

one year ago, we were in the shoes of our juniors today.
three years ago, the saga of 02s36/33 was going on.
im reminded over and over again how time flies and how old im feeling.
yea i know, all of us have to grow old.
but i cant imagine, roo collecting her Alevels results next year! [dearie, i hate to remind you of this, but in my mind, you're forever the sec2 and me, the sec4. :) ]
neither can i imagine my sis collecting her proper Olevels results next year.
when i was young, i used to think of the year when im in uni year 2, and my sis mugging for Olevels. dont ask me why. its happening this year.

i think and i observe. alot. its just me to do it.
you may not know it, but im obseving silently. and i think to myself, why is this man/woman/creature/being doing something like this.
it may be just a casual remark. or a casual action. or a casual gesture. but its all duly noted by me.
dont ask me why. i just do it.
there's nothing wrong with me today, im just thinking and letting my thoughts flow. albeit a little jumbled yes, but still i wanna pen this down. for no reason. for those reading this blog to know me slightly better.
i've put my blogspot on msn. for those on my msn list to see. no special reason, just to let my mates know me better even if they aint as close to me as others may be. for the closer ones to be reminded that, im still alive, this blog shows my mere existence on this earth and may i not be forgotten by them.

i'm alright seriously. just a little spiffed by the comment of a friend that 2 out of 3 of us are attached and im the only one who aint attached. shrugs. the right guy may not have passed by yet. in the meantime i'll just wait. just dont wanna be hurt again. i'd rather not be hurt, than to love and hurt. the recovery process takes a long time.

i dont understand why im like this tonight. i simply dont understand.