this is scary. the number of times my friendster profile has been viewed jumped up by 10 from yesterday to today. 87 to 97. dots. it has been viewed 97 times ever since first of march. that is an avg of 4 clicks a day so far. who on earth is viewing my profile so often?!? let's just pray hard its my ex-students yea.

ooh im quite proud of myself. cuz i managed to figure out how to use the in built modem in our ibm t41s. after it finally hit me that our in built modem is only a 56k one. this only occured after i was reading the adverts on ibm lappies in the straits times this morning. ARGH. to think i was trying to sign in with my broadband password. how dumb can i get. urgh. disgusted with myself. teo nana, and you still call yourself a techie. blearh. i can be relegated down to the dumb blonde status soon. ACKS.

yea im scolding myself. hahaha. feeling rather proud of myself as i managed to finish my finance homework within the span of 2 hours. yea in the midst of trying to mug for MA, cuz i have to hand in finance homework by today when we go for the CEO talk later in the evening. i am so screwed for MA quiz this saturday. absolutely no time to study. no time man. bleaah. wanted to study on tues night, ended up rushing AS group proj. sians. and yesterday night was spent reading finance and watching american idol/amazing race, two tv shows i'd never give up watching for the life of mine. yea i procrastinate and cannot manage my time well, such that i still insist on watching tv given such a tight schedule. but i do recognise the fact that im the sort of people who need such time to rest and let my brain unwind. no matter how short the time may be.

considering the fact that i havent watched a movie for a long time. in fact, what was the last movie i watched in a theatre? i dont count watching movies on my laptop watching movies, cuz i watch that alone. think the last movie i caught in the theatre was alfie with the smu people long long time ago. right? no? think i caught another one with ruoling, which was.. RAY. ahh. how absent minded can i be. i had to refer to my latest movie tix stub to remind myself. ahhh.

AHHH. i wanna watch plenty of movies. miss congenality 2, the wedding date. and i wanna watch it in a cinema theatre. BUT considering how busy mugging everyone is, i dont think anyone would wanna spare the time to watch with me. how i miss the times when even during exams, there would always be someone who's willing to slack with me and not cheong and mug/pia all the way through like a bulldog. and that only happened in jc, when people were studying and pia-ing during exams, we were playing bridge. and playing bridge all the time. what's a mere 2 hours when you can take the time to rest, recharge and go a longer distance, as compared to burning out easily after mugging for a straight 6 hours? if you can take the 6 hours, im impressed. but i'd take the 2 hour break, catch a movie, and get back to studying with a more refreshed and awake mind. that was how we did it for Alevels too. watching matrix revolution on the day it opened, at the earliest time slot possible. and settled down at YMCA macs to continue to mug. yea the crazy things we used to do. but it was the matrix revolution, the last of the series! yea. 7 of us watched it? and we dint end up with thatt bad results. see?
so.
anyone, up for watching ms congenality 2 or the wedding date?
i still dont suppose there would be any hands up. sighhh.
as expected.
sighhh.



i dont understand why, whenever we wanna have a trip, or outing, it ultimately only boils down to me and ruoling. the rest dont seem to be quite interested, sadly. we're still trying to look for people for the pattaya trip, but no one is interested and somehow, i have this feeling it will be cancelled. how about if we push the dates? i have no idea.. i really wanna go overseas, out there to play and frolick with this bunch of jc mates, but somehow, no one seems to want to. either make the effort, or simply just cant be bothered. i know some of them, may have parents who might not allow. but how bout the rest? sighh. just ranting. just let me rant. it always comes down to disappointment. never expect much from them. never.

and for the record, i am not attached. at least for now.
liking a person who seems to like you does not equate to being attached alright. im not even quite sure whats going on here.
hence lets get that clear first.
im still a swinging single. ha ha ha.


this entry doesnt seem to be very jovial. maybe cuz exams are coming. stress hasnt exactly hit me yet, but i think the main reason for that is that, the reality of exams hasnt quite sunk in yet. i know its 3 more weeks to freedom, 2 more weeks to exams. and i cant quite wait for it to start.
but suddenly, i seem to be quite free during the hols now.
no more events/marketting comn stuff [unless we're gonna pick up from where we left off after the school dint approve the proposal], no more thai YEP [and currently still waiting for shanghai yep to get back to us asap], no more facilitating for orientation. that last one is really a bummer. still dont understand why i wasnt selected. really. haiz. oh, and no more pattaya.
no more this, no more that.
whats left.
HK trip. horse riding. asoc camp. thats it. sounds slack huh. oh yea, and tuition.
what a happening holiday i have. and its gonna be for a freaking 4 months.
time to look for a job dudette. maybe i would.
in the midst of it all, my birthday. coming in about 2 months time, slightly more. hitting the big 20. sounds scary. but its part and parcel of what everyone has to go through.
i expect a boring birthday this year.
yawns.
i wanna play and chill all day all night long.

Frank Sinatra ~ Fly me to the Moon
Fly me to the moon
Let me play among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and mars

In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby kiss me

Fill my heart with song and
Let me sing forever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

listening to sinatra croon now.. oh how i love his voice~