i'm tired.
the headache still lingers.
i feel tired.
when i only had 3 periods today.
and 2 relief periods with 1T1. the class that was controllable until ruzaimi came in. together with that irritating david. and xavier. the three with ankle socks. and the three who wont stop talking until i threatened to hold the entire class back 30minutes after they shut their trap. worked perfectly fine. but i had to hold them until 2pm. school ended at 130. now i feel as though i have a sore throat. ouch.

got back the second draft today. corrections to be done to the paper. gotta see mrs wong tmr during my free periods to do up 2 more long structured questions. xian. two more batches of comprehension tests coming in tmr. oh sigh. more things to mark. and mid year exams are in 2 weeks time. and sports day is next monday, meaning i'll have to do make up class with 2E5. oh what the hell man.

im soooo tired.
havent gotten down to preparing revision worksheets. for geog.
finished mine for english. more or less i guess. i refuse to set anything more to mark. going through everythingin class. whether they like it or not.

this is the fifth week. five more weeks to end of term 2.
five more weeks to the end of my relief teaching career.
what will i do in june? hm. one thing. it's my birthday! reminder to everybody reading. hee. prolly start studying. either econs. or law. if i can get into NUS law. if not, im heading straight for SMU accountancy. still happy that i got an offer from them. hee.
what else will i do? slack around i suppose. enjoy the last few days of true freedom before getting back into the routine of studying again.

somehow i feel as though i've grown up alot more after i started teaching. felt as though i was really working, instead of slacking downstairs at the office. with it comes the stress and the extra time i take to prepare for my lessons. which is not that bad a thing sometimes, considering the fact that i have so much free time if i dont prepare my work. yeah. but i dont have enough resources at hand, and the school's resources, to be frankly honest, is quite pathetic. seen alot more things, and realised that all this while, in the past 6 years, i've been living in a small world. a small world that doesnt show us the true side of people, and singapore. the people left behind, the people whom we usually fear when we see them along the streets, and the experiences that we come in touch with. very often, if we dont see this side of people and singapore, we would always think that life is a bed of roses, and doing badly for exams would be getting a 70 out of 100. when this result is actually considered very good to these students.

there are students, working and studying at the same time.
there are students, who had lost hope for studies.
there are students, who need help but dont know where to look for.
there are students, who have family problems and bring them into the school.
there are students, with parents who dont give a damn shit about their own children.

these are people, whom the elitists will turn their backs against.
who dont think that they exist. because they had never appeared in their world before.

but here, is also the place. where i see true loyalty. and gutso (though sometimes in the wrong way). this is where, i see true feelings and not facades that i saw so often back then. this is where, true humans exist with warm hearts.

maybe it's time for most of us, to take a step out into the real world. and see for yourself. and realise how lucky. sooo lucky we actually are.