just read yuan's blog and i hafta admit, i do agree with some of her points there. for me, i would think it's pure politeness to inform the person if you're reading her/his blog. i mean, that is what the tagboard or shoutbox is for, to tell the author that blah blah blah came by here before, and give some form of response or reply to show that he/she exists. i mean, a blog is for us bloggers to inform and vent feelings. at the same time, readers who leave responses or even a simple 'hi' would tell us bloggers that there are people reading and giving responses to say, cheer us on or entertain us, or encourage us on when we feel upset. readers get to see our feelings, may it be true or simply a facade. but then again. who on earth would wanna waste time by putting a facade online? it's quite plainless for people to blog for the sake of going with the trend. am pretty sure the fad for blogging is over, except for some faithful ol' ones like yours sincerely.

anyway. i agree. blogs are almost like a two way thing. since friends are reading our blogs for the sake of updating themselves and knowing our emotions and feelings, why cant they let us know about how they are currently doing, and feeling. like ruoling did put it before, she appreciates those who still blog, to show that we're still breathing surviving and alive in this world. i mean, most of us are separated now, with the girls working and the guys in NS. we hardly see each other and keep in touch with each other. so it would be nice to read each other's blogs, and be updated and not stay out of the loop. it does hurt, if one discovers a close friend's blog, and the friend did not bother to inform. or rather. would rather not let us know. it would hurt. really hurt. guess i understand how yuan feels. yeah. or maybe im just too sensitive.
i mean, look at it this way. im already feeling quite lost cos im barely in touch with anybody now. people like eileen, sijia, yanlian, venus. the class girls. was only talking to ruoling and xinxin just recently. the rest, no news at all. for all i know, you guys might have disappeared off the face of the earth. but then again, maybe im just being the passive one. i admit, i havent been bothering to sms or call. why? cos im dead sick and tired of being taken for granted, or face with silence on my hp when i send out smses. for all i know, who would reply to me? i guess loneliness is the right word to describe my current feeling right now. oh wells. not extreme loneliness but i just feel. out. of. touch.
oh sigh.

oh wells. maybe that is just working life for me. maybe it would be working life for me in future too. i have already alienated myself by going to a place where nobody else seems interested to be heading towards. yet i already knew that at the back of my mind. somehow maybe i am just not ready to accept that fact. somehow. i'd wish uni life wont start so soon. uni life is going to be a whole new chapter in life. one fresh page, where everything starts anew. as clean as a sheet of blank paper. especially for me, when nobody i know is going SMU accountancy. why does people not like SMU? fine. i know everybody has their own personal reasons that i should not question, because it's their personal choice, like how i love to emphasise on mine. then again. oh sigh. somehow i wish life could just stop now. and not move. even if im lonely. haii. what the hell.

should be marking now, but lemme vent my frustrations for a while more. before my dad takes over the comp to play his neopets. not tired of marking yet. maybe because i would like to know how my sec twos are performing for their midyear exams. and by the look of it, my 2E5 is performing quite well, considering the fact that they are the last express class in the whole sec two level. oh sigh.

being young has its own set of problems, but nobody said growing older who cause these problems to disappear. like i was lunching with yuanshin daniel and wanting today, they were all complaining about their own problems. problems of the twenty somethings. hmm. does that mean, being a child would be problem free and headache free? i would like that very much thank you.

oh wells. if anybody out there in the class still exist, can we meet someday for dinner or something? just dont tell me to go to bishan on a wednesday evening at 7 when i live in the extreme jurong west and need to wake up by 6 the next morning. i just dont wanna spend 2 hours travelling time when i can use that to rest or mark, even when i know that that is one of the rare chances that i would get to meet you guys. how about friday evening or something? better than a weekday evening right?
meanwhile, if you guys still exist, take care folks.
although i know you guys may not be reading this, i still miss you guys terribly. yeah.