had an outing last night that made me appreciate my old friends even more. made me realise how much i miss my friends dearly. and i figured that i wont be able to find friends like these anywhere else.


had dinner with shuhan ling wanyu yahui and junhui. it was sorta a farewell dinner of sorts for junhui since she's flying off on sunday. it was nice, sitting at crystal jade talking to them about uni life [more like complaints] and then wandering around the shops buying neccessities, and then sitting down for family fondue at anderson's. time flew and was nicely spent. really. even when i've met junhui and wanyu recently, it was really nice talking to shu ling and yahui. reminded me fondly of the memories we spent in rgs 1/6, 2/6. miss those carefree times terribly. the times during netball carn [hey yahui, i still keep the photo of you me ling and junhui framed up in my room :) wonder if you'd remember]. the times in lit class sitting at jap like tables. the times in chinese class in 2/6 fighting for huang laoshi's attention. the times we had painting murals in lit class. boy i bet the class is gone after quan left. our wonderful beautiful murals. oh sighh. the rgs girls who were under brian quan should remember him and his funny antics for lit lessons. ballads and everything. hahaha. nice to sit down and talk to them. a time when i can finally be myself. truly. i count myself lucky to have such wonderful friends. pity that yunde couldnt join us. de, your absence was felt. sniff.


i look forward to badminton sessions. i look forward to gatherings like this. when i can be myself and behave in an unrestricted way. i can be who i want to be. somehow or other, i cant seem to be myself in smu. i feel weird. out of place. like i dont fit in. nobody with the same level of frequency. nobody whom i can really talk to. those whom i can talk to, are not with me. they dont even have remotely similar timetables as me [yea huiling yuan joycez im referring to you guys]. oh how i'd wish time can go back to rgs or hcjc. cos i miss all my friends dearly. yanlian misses me alot alot too! [haha lemme be ego for a while, but that was what she msged me yesterday :) ] girl i miss you tons too. and ruoling. xinxin. venus. sijia. eileen. elsa. even the guys [yea jinyang dewen and wilbur, though wilbur doesnt say much. i miss my exco too. fishball sya gab jiahui wanjun xinyi xinyi dephne pk [yea both. and joyce, dont puke. somehow i think i'd rather spend time with xinyi than some folks in smu here. ] i miss my juniors too. mei. 03s33 people. interact junior exco. people like pansy. wendy. chris henry [though his ego self i crap easily with him]. i miss crapping with people. of course i miss my sec sch class mates, 403/303/206/106. everybody.


i wanna be myself. but i have no room to be myself. hence pardon me if i request to meet up with you guys once in a month or more. thats cos i miss you guys plenty.
sometimes i'd wish i have a proper class to bond with 5 days in a week. somehow i might feel more at home. more comfortable. *shrugs*
im tired.
and i should get cracking on my brochure. no more procrastination.
and i dont want sunday to come. cos i dont want junhui to fly off to the other side of the earth. i'll miss her terribly.