friend sent this thru email.. he said he got it frm a blog which got it frm an email...
(psst, jinyang: i hate to tell you this but if entrance to acsi was based on this, you would only pass the *cannot make it for chinese* part, you are too nice for the rest.. =P)
cheered me up slightly tho. it's pretty interesting...

Dear [name of a boy],

It has come to my attention that you have been selected as a potential student of ACS(I). We are indeed pleased to welcome you to our big family. However, there are a few improvements that have to be made for you to be qualified to be one of us.

Firstly, your physical appearance needs alteration. According to our school's tradition, our attire includes:
1. spiked hair
2. pants worn on the hips
3. almost completely hidden socks
4. shirts not tucked in properly etc.

Furthermore, you must have bushy eyebrows and tan skin to be eligible. Thus, we would appeal that you make this changes ASAP.

Secondly, other than outward appearance, what goes on inside is crucial as well. We adhere struictly to our 3 acts: Act Cool, Act Attitude and Act Poser, stressing on poser-ism as the basis of our image.

Act cool: All ACSI students are required to be adept in pretending to be cool in the way bimbos will fall for the trick, even though it is obviously not the proper definition of "cool". We do not want our students to be
cool but to ACT cool. This will include mannerisms like acting nonchalant and pompous that will create the false impression that ACSI guys are indeed very desirable and good looking.

Act attitude: Due to the fact that bimbos absolutely love attitudal guys, we emphasise strongly on retending to have attitude in our boys. You will hence have to act like a very bad person when you are in fact an
insecure and deprived person.

Act poser: As this is the trademark of our school, it will require no further explanation.

To adhere to our school's motto "The best is yet to be", we require you to stop getting good results in school especially in the area of literature, as this opposes our motto. You will hence need to go out more with bimbos, have fun, screw around and be less concerned with your studies.

Your Chinese grades need to be extremely poor and you will have to hate it a lot. In other words, you must forget all your roots and be a perfect banana. You are also required to be rich to avoid being ostracised and looked down upon in our school. More emphasis will also be put on sports to create the false impression that ACSI guys are all rounders.

We look forward to your joining our huge ACS family and we certainly do believe you have the potential, judging by your bimbo attracting qualities prevalent in all our students. We believe that with more posing, despising Chinese and acting, you can definitely be an outstanding representation of ACSI.

Yours sincerely,
Ong Teck Chin
Principal
Anglo Chinese School (Independent)

i really had to get that out of my system. just had to pour it out somewhere. couldnt talk to my fellow friends because everybody is caught up with their own memories. dint wanna bug them down and make them feel more terrible.

wont be able to get anything done this week end i guess. all i see is justina's face.

wonder which idiot leaked the news to the press. all exact details were reported in the news and the crappy papers.

sigh.

it should have been expected i guess.

shock. numb. sad.

i've never seen many deaths in my life of 18 years so far and this one was a shock to me. nobody expected it, nobody knows why.

you were so smiley, bubbly everytime, everyday.

everybody loved you and there would be people who are willing to carry your pain for you. you just didnt have to resort to -that-. exclassmate in sec sch. 403 somemore. ex fellow spsl in the same exco board too. and you was forever the optimistic one, encouraging everyone on when we thought the events were not going to be able to make it. in class you were the kai xin guo, bringing laughter and injecting joy into our daily lifes.

got to know you since sec 1. when you were my primary sch good friend's good friend. just like that. we werent in the same house, nor the same CCA, and obviously not the same class. but we knew each other. not acquaintance but FRIEND. there's a big difference. you were the crazy girl who went nuts over bernissa. you were the typical tarbet girl that everybody loved.

end of sec 2, we became fellow psl mates. were in charge of different classes but somehow we became closer. maybe due to the fact that we became classmates in sec3. your sec ones loved you. one even had a crush on you. cant remember her name and i wont be able to confirm it with anybody else. except for you. remember our hesitation in submitting the spsl form in late sec 3 together with yy? and our worrying that we wont be able to become spsls together until the day whereby we were sposed to meet the snrs at the foyer before morning assembly?
after that it was wonderful memories all the day. the interviews that we conducted for the psls, where qihui was busy typing away and you were shooting most of the questions. mrs chia brought food into the career guidance centre for us hungry souls and after that you decided we should all have pizzas to pamper ourselves and the bill totalled up to a scary figure.

after we got our jnrs, remember the busy preparations for psl camp? urban hike when we all made fools of ourselves at orchard road and attracted stares from passers by, the night walk where we had fun scaring all the sec2s? and the lights out where the spsls spent "sleeping time" yakking away on the stage and the psls had a hard time sleeping cos of that.

orientation 01. psl convention. still remember, one sji psf (our batch) commented you looked cute and wanted to ask you out. was it nic foo or someone else? cant remember but i do know that nic foo was trying hard to convince you to go out for dinner when all you wanted to do was to slack and rest in the psl room. or psl carnival? our very own carnival in rgs, our result after slogging out as a board for nearly 4 months. you and the ticketing com, printing and cutting the tickets. and the hell of a time when nearly 25-30 people stayed in the psl room frantically flipping the yellow pages and racking our brains, calling for sponsors.

remember our psl song, voices that care? there are voices around that really care for you... we sang that for investiture. not once but twice, sec 3 and sec 4. do you remember all these?

classwise, remember how you lead us into performing for mrs abraham when she was retiring in sec 3? choosing the song "remember me this way", and u wanting to harmonise the song for the class.. u singing the bridge alone because of your special wonderful voice reaching so high that no one else in the class could except for katerina. sec 4 farewell. we took a photo together. just the 2 of us. i've been staring at that photo since friday.

though we dint get together much after parting for jc, but you constantly remained in my heart. when i thought of the people elsewhere, i thought of you. when i thought of psb, i remembered you. remember class gathering during christmas last year? you were busily trying to get us to admit that we were all attached and yet we werent and you gave us the disbeliving look. how about the softball match this year? it was the last time i saw you. saw the rj contingent but wasnt sure if you were there. saw toh and asked her to get you out if you were in the mass of bright orange. you came hopping out and i was extremely delighted to see you. from you facial expression, im sure you did too. you called out for denise and liana but they just smiled and dint make any plans to come out. only you did. remember how we sat at the steps and talked for so long? how you wanted and tried very hard to drag me right into the rj contingent to cheer the raffles cheer? in the end i only stood at the edge and cheered my heart out for -raffles-.

news came on fri when i walked out of gp class and was going for break. joyce tan caught both me and jun. she told me. the news dint sink in initially until i saw fishball's teary eyes, wanyu's and yuting's red rimmed eyes. grace called fishball when they were having swimming lessons and fishball wasnt swimming. dint even go for break after that. just sat down and thought about all the happy memories we once shared. started crying. dint understand why you chose to do it and i probably will never. couldnt pay attn in maths class after that. ran out of class, hid in the toilet and i broke down completely. zq came out to check on me i told her and she couldnt believe it too. nobody could, really. ms ng was kind and understanding enough. sat with the 403 people during physics lecture. none of us could pay attn. everybody was immersed in their own thoughts. everybody loved you so much. i love you too.

went to st teresa's last evening to see you once last time. your smiley face in the photo caused me and fishball to break down again. walked passed your coffin and saw you for the last time. that's not the you i know. you live in my memories, not there. did you see all of us there, all the 403 people? saw many rgs yearmates there, all there to see you one last time. did you see ms lim, ms ng and mrs tan? they were there too. your rj class was there too. they were visibly tramatised, esp two guys. they miss you dear. we miss you too. mrs chia going down with the spsls today for your last service before your leave for mt vernon. im not going. one last time was enough. i'll really break down and cry again if i go today.

i hope you can hear this, even if you cannot read this.
i told you this many times before but i'll tell you again.
i love you.
i'll always remember you for the way you are, remember you this way.
dont forget, there are really voices that care in this world.
everybody loves you.

justina, rest in peace. may you be happier wherever you are now.

looks like yuan and i take turns making each other cry. my eyes were wet when i just read her latest entry. darn. she still remembers how we used to meet at the last carriage of the mrt at clementi whenever we go town to shop or class outing. i do too. and i miss those times when we make fools of ourselves by being super noisy all thanks to her noisy laughter. glad i went to nj funfair to meet up with her, even claimed her for that near 2 hours i spent at the nj funfair. told her she was "kidnapped" for the rest of the day. *sheesh* if only i could claim her for the whole 2 jc years. haha. im making her sound like an item that i can keep.. sorry yuan. lurve ya *hugs* by the way, u make me sound so sweet in your blog.. dont forget, im sposed to be sodium, which is salty, not sweet "P

nj funfair was fun.. maybe bcos i met up with my first three months friends, yijian and yuan. and yijian just had to bring his gf, michelle, otherwise known to the 36 gurls + jinyang as mixue.. honestly i was so curious.. haha, maybe bcos we've heard of her for such a long time and the canoe girls had seen her before (except eileen), thus leaving only me and eileen who havent seen her before.. now eileen's the only one left.. haha. but seriously mixue is quite sweet looking, yijian is lucky to get such a sweet/smart girl.. *grinz* we were just walking into nj when we had to meet one of my prisch ex classmate and i hate to say this but he has grown. alot. i saw him at kap the other day but i was still amazed at how much he had grown. (oh no, abit mean here.. haha) he used to be so short and scrawny.. yuan u better not tell him anything.. im still surprised at how u know him.. haha.. dint eat my lunch yet so i bought food frm him.. quite ex but it's a funfair afterall, kinda expected lah.. as we walked i saw more familar faces and stopped to talk to alot of people, such that yijian was rather amused and he started teasing me abt how "popular" i was.. hey cant help it if i see people i know right? "P shiyin wanted me to go buy her class's spagehetti.. luckily i escaped.. *phew* haha, actually the nj funfair was flooded with hcjc people.. met alot of sch mates there too.. ooh and i met my 7c seniors too, people like yimei, wanjie, shihui, wan hua.. kinda surprising to see them there.. whee... come to think abt it it seemed more like a "meet the old friends" session instead.. haha.. thoroughly enjoyed myself there.. bcos of the company i guess.. =)

This was what i read from yuan's blog this morning...

Saturday, July 12, 2003
eileen called me just now..we talked for about an hour on the phone... sigh talking to her reminded me of all the times during first 3 mths... i suddenly feel so sad cuz i really miss the times. they were really one of the happiest times of my life... although it wasn't something that was forever. everybody which made up of it... the people in 36 and especially the people in our senior class. fungnien weiliang bai bingren...emily vanessa so many of them. i miss having them as my seniors and the angel mortal game was really one of the best part. i often wonder if life would have been much better if i'd stayed.. i always thought that it would, but i guess i would never get an answer for that. even da jie, i miss the times we'd that time... even though he's not the same anymore... and i miss the times i'd with kor then too... suddenly feel like calling him and talking to him... i know that life has to move on and we should all look forward... but beautiful memories once had are not easily to be forgotten... i always feel like crying whenever i think of my life during first 3 mths... it's like one and a half years already but i still feel sad about it. i guess the times and the people will always remain in a special place in my heart. i always feel that my friends in nj would never ever understand how i feel about leaving hc... it was really one of the happiest times i've had in my life... i guess it's because they just never had the chance to experience what i'd experienced. people always tend to treasure what they have lost more... isn't it always like that in life? although i do like my friends here, but all i can say is that i would never feel as happy here as when i was there...

# posted by YuAn� : 9:15 PM

then, i msged her saying "hey dear, i just read your blog and i just wanted to tell you i miss you loads too and you'll forever have a special place in my heary."

and she cried. "scolded" me for making her cry everytime we touch on the topic of first three months, and to think me and eileen cried so hard when she had to switch to nj after first three months. sigh. i miss her crazy laughter and her and haojie being ysqq (36 lingo). i miss the first three months period. 02S36 was simply the best class i've ever had in my student life. so bonded so united. miss yijian's lameless, qianwen's (aka the chiobu) wat, lenith's constant nonstop smsing, lilian the mei nu, cindy and her ysqq, becca and her wanton mee.. our orientation times when we spent our nights at out "lao di fang" (2nd floor outside audi e blk) eating macs and practising class dance, did our cny banner painting at "lao di fang" too.. cookie baking at chiobu's house when he made us walk frm sch to namly cres ( tt idiot..), costume making at lilian's place, our twice a week excursion to orch and be unglam sitting down at taka sq, junk food eating sessions during fm lec, yijian and his "key please goblin harry potter joke" with mdm yeo, the uncountable times when we played with tkh using a laser point and confusing him, the time we watched xiao hai bu ben and came up with the class lingo like tpang and ank.. with yijian the joker going lin bei lin bei.. and class chalet when me eileen lenith and yijian sat at the vending machine to play cards cos there was no light elsewhere and people were asleep in the room.. the list goes on and on.. there's too much to be put in here.. and i havent included the no of scandals we have given each other.. like eileen and chiobu/jordan, yijian/ms mok, yuan/haojie etc.. sigh. i miss the times too. nothing can be compared to what i've experienced in the first three months of hc life. 02S36 was simply perfect. the senior class was perfect too. 01S7C. i aint close to 01S33 except for mok and tim and tt's not counted. i agree with yuan. that was really one of my happiest times out of my 18 years. sigh. if only 02S36 still exists...

last paper tmr. of all things, fmaths. something that i refused to touch during the holidays due to the tremendous load of work required for chem and physics and now im suffering under topics like stats and mechanices. try understanding geometric/negative binomial/exponential distribution. or maybe, vertical circular motion and simple harmonic motion. simply cant imagine the rest of the mechanics topics. something about rigid bodies. argh. or maybe try linear equations. sometimes, just by staring at complex numbers make me wonder why i ever chose fmaths. to think i used to tell people back in sec sch that the last topic that i'll ever take is fmaths. blearh. still remember, when venus saw me at the 36 queue during orientation, she went, "nana, you taking fmaths?!?" ex-403 classmates exclaim, " i thought you would sure take triple science". it's not that my bio was that good, or my amaths was that lousy. in fact, i think i got a1 for bio by fluke. and emaths/amaths were my best subjects. but somehow or rather i just cant grasp the hang of fmaths, or even maths to be exact. think im going to fail my maths c blk test. all of things, maths c. when im a double maths student. people must be wondering i suppose. just couldnt do the mechanics questions. handed up two thin pieces of foolscap paper for section b by the end of the test. ms debbie teo is going to kill me. end of story. =( giving me another chance to reconsider my choice after first three months, i'd switch to s7 for sure. no doubts about that. maybe i might not struggling as bad as im right now. sigh.