another shuai shuai shuai de wilber pan wei bo..
he looks especially cute when he smiles, dont you think so?

decided to change the outlook of my blog. black is a nice colour, aside from the fact that how someone emphasizes on the fact that im BLACK, you know who you are, dont try to hide... haha.. but ultimately black is a cool colour..

realised i havent been updating my blog for such a long time. there's only 11 more days to Alevels anyway.. due freedom in only a few weeks, days.. slowly counting down.. woohoo... haha..

*sheesh* been getting double vision for the past few days, went to the optician just on tues afternoon, after deciding to leave school early. coudn't even focus properly on my maths paper 1... imagine, taking 1 hr to finish the first part of maths c paper one, just because i couldnt really see what i was trying to do.. quite freaked out but dint tell the rest what was going on cos i scared later freak them out also.. *sheesh* optician said i dint let my eyes rest properly, cos study for too long a period.. now i gotta look out of my window after mugging for 1+ hours. *blearh* then what i do during long papers? stare at the hall after finishing 7 questions of maths? *haii*

watched wan quan yu le yesterday after yuan msged me got will pan coming on, and he did... ahhh.. so shuai and cute... he looks especially cute when he smiles, his grin ah... *swoon* haha....

read finished "the pianist" yesterday. was sooo touched. cried a little at the end of the book when they said that the colonel who saved the jewish pianist died in a concentration camp for german POWs.. will get the vcd of "the pianist" after Alevels to watch. i bet it's gonna be a great and touching movie. sigh.

looking forward to so much things to do after Alevels. my jue dai shuang jiao 3, going in search of "ma la xian shi" which has will pan and shanwei. learning to drive. daytona. going sentosa for chalet. shopping for prom. the class website. searching for jobs for 2004. catching up with friends and long lost friends. ahhhhhh....

i simply cannot wait.

hey guys,this is what i mean by real cute and talented. heh.
i gotta admit im infatuated over this cute talented guy called wilber pan. damn goodlooks, damn good voice... *swoon* he's even better than edison chen i guess.. *oops* teehee.. i see his face everyday cos i pasted his poster in my room... luckily i study in the kitchen at home, or else his face would definitely be a biggie distraction...ahhh.. he's damn cute in his mtv "wo de mai ke feng.." hey tim, dont need to help me dl his album liaoz,i went to buy it and it's on repeat mode ever since saturday...

countdown: 33 more days to go. hm. ruoling jus commented this was quite exact huh ...haii.

spent 2 whole hours in search for a certain yellow worked solutions book yesterday.. travelled from orchard to bukit panjang, realised i bought the wrong book, went to bukit panjang plaza, it was out of stock there, called lot 1 popular, they told me they had some left, but it turned out to be the worked solutions to chem mcq. only causeway point had stock, so i travelled all the way to woodlands. havent been to these places since i stepped out of rg, and i visited them all in 2 hours yesterday. how eventful. sigh.

realised that the class is no longer like before. not like last year when all 9 girls could get along very well. now it's split 4-4. and i personally think it's quite obvious. maybe im over reacting or just too observant. *shrugs* it sure doesnt feel the same any more i guess. especially with eileen. dont really talk to her that much nowadays. in fact, almost none i think. and we used to be rather close, once in a long long time ago. hm. dunno if she'll read this but i just wanna tell her that i still see her as the same old friend i have and will remember.. maybe i dont have the guts or the courage to tell her face to face but the feeling is damn awkward now. dunno lah. can see she's very close to the YES gang, and almost.. (almost) not talking to us anymore. wonder if it is because of that particular incident. i know a number of the class people read my blog but i wont shun away from what i wanna post here. all i wanna state is, you read at your own risk. if you take offence, thta's your problem.

that's just me. straight forward, to the point.

countdown: 34 days left to Alevels. dunno how many more days to freedom. *sigh*

took a second read at what i posted yesterday.. realised, i dint focus on the second part of the song "you were meant to be, the way you are exactly.."

im meant to be the way i am, and not someone else. although there are many times whereby i wish i could be smarter, slightly fairer, but i guess im pretty much satisfied with the way im right now, wherever i may be, or whatever im doing.. maybe im considered to be rather lucky, with a group of close friends in class.. (you guys know who you are, i dont hafta name right? *grin*) and not meet any anti-rg people in the class.. i've heard of rather serious anti-rg cases in other classes and other jcs... so.. well... and honestly speaking, after 2 whole years, maybe i dont regret taking fmaths afterall.. if i dint take fmaths, i would not have met my wonderful classmates, the most unique and special class 02S36 (moi fave class always) and how at ease i feel in hwa chong now. hm. thinking about alot of stuff now.. especially when after the Alevels, everybody is going on their own different paths and it's quite unlikely that our paths might cross again.. hopefully.. but it would be good to remember everybody the way they are currently..

"remember me this way.."

reminds me of justina. the class song for teachers day in sec 3. i still miss her, and her memories still stay..

what an eventful year this year is.

i dont regret making any choices now along my path in life i spose, and one of the greatest choices i make was to go rg. i definitely enjoyed my life in there, met tons of wonderful people and i dont mind spending my entire life back in rg. the freedom that the students get, the jovial relationships between our teachers and the students.. the freedom we get in the comp lab.. the nice wonderful imacs.... guess i'd miss my times in rg more than the times in hwa chong i think. dont ask me why. it's just a feeling... think most students would miss their sec sch most even after thru years of education in primary school and sec, then junior colleges...

maybe im thinking too much for the present. *sigh*

"dont you ever wish
you were someone else
you were meant to be
the way you are exactly.."

description of what im trying to say:
sometimes i really wish
i can be someone else
someone who's smarter, brainier..

read further into the above msg:
i m disappointed with my prelim grades.

haiii. what to do? im pretty sure i did the best i cld... whatever happened to me? since pri sch till now.. it's kinda sad to see my grades taking a huge plunge off the deep end. haii. maybe im expecting too much. should i even expect 3As for Alevels? seems rather tough..

countdown: 35 more days left to Alevels.
how time flies. how little time i have left. sigh....

hm. the class blog is finally up all thanks to ruoling.. *applause*
haha... kay, whoever seniors, juniors, classmates, yrmates who are reading this can go visit the HCJC 02S33 class blog.. the link can be found at "the outside world" which is beneath the tagboard.. whee.

hm. got back papers today and i cant say im pleased with them. haii. im just glad that im only down for mechanics remedial. blame it on the fact that i chose to give up mech in the end and dint study for it. which explains the miserable single digit i got upon 43. no wonder im down for mech. heh. haii.