IL*SUNFLOWERS

~give me a sunflower bouquet to make my day~
wrapped in orange and purple wrapping papers
only makes my day even more :)

COMING BACK

my friends are all coming back coming back!
i cant wait!

ruoling and sy should be touching down this thurs? wed?
wheeee quick quick so that we can all FINALLY meet up TOGETHER. even if you might be busy with rag&dance and all.
then yuan is gonna leave us, go taiwan and back to singapore!
wheeee quick quick so that we can attempt to go ktv during the first few weeks of sch if possible!
missed you sooo much for these 4 months!

ben back liao hor? paiseh eh, cant make it for the dinner on 5th aug, cuz its my daddy's early bday dinner. meet up with you some other time la.
venus back liao also! but she doesnt read my blog. humph. dunno when we're gonna see her also. during the farewell for jinyang? or during class outing someday？

so many people are coming back, so exciting!

i wonder if friends felt this way when i was away in china. i think only ruoling would have been excited. me thinks. anybody missed me then? teehee. :)

VIDEOS.

A PERSON WHO IS NOT TRAINED IN HANDLING VIDEOS SHOULD NEVER BE ALLOWED TO HANDLE THEM!
ROAAAAR.

pardon me im just irritated. like f*cking irritated.
someone who is NOT trained in handling videocameras should BLOODY never allowed to film videos UNTIL they are trained in handling them.
gawd i've been staring at my isp raw video footage and im on the verge of puking. yes and i was fine and dandy in the afternoon where i explored the new basements of raffles city after lunching at bk after class. the shaky footage makes me feel as though i was watching ...... [now whats that movie called again? i know what you did last summer? rah i forgot.] in summary, you just feel naseous and puky after watching a near 40 minutes of the 2nd disc, trying to capture timings for clips because the video [one third of it] is too bloody big for ANY program to handle. both windows movie and adobe premiere cant handle the CUTTING of the video. RAH.

yes i do miss the china times. but what the hell was 30 minutes [or more than that i think] spent on filming us learning kungfu when in reality we only spent 1 hour learning it?!? its like i've watched one sixth of the footage i have and we havent moved past ONE friggin day. i cant imagine what the rest are gonna be like.
ohmygoodnessithinkicanreallyfaintanddie.
i swear i wont be able to finish this video in ONE month, like SE-RIOUS-LY.

this friggin nausea&headache is killing me.
its killing me slowly.


i'd rather be working on my class project than this right now!!!
but because im due to introduce our isp to the freshies on thursday, i HAVE to make an effort in TRYING to come up with the video. alvin, if you're reading, please dont kill me if i cant produce the video by thursday. if you insist, i think i'd have to kill you instead. hiakshiaks. on second thoughts, i dont think he will see this because he's at camp! muahahaha.

i think im going a tad mad from all this shite.
seriously i think i am. maybe i should go take a nap.


ps: i've changed my email add to orangepurpledots@yahoo.com . so this will be my msn cum official email, aside from the school one. if i havent added you, please add me! :)

RANDOM THOUGHT

you know what i want, suddenly.
a computer workstation like what 玉树 has in 恶作剧之吻.
a workstation where everything is within reach in a swivel of the chair.
a computer/laptop with topoftheworld sound system, a screen with projector.
a nice clean empty table to work on.
a big whiteboard to scribble notes and reminders on.


everything sleek and metalic.
oooh that would be so blooody heavenly.


geekspeak here.
ignore me. lols.

格斗天王 I

"我不恐惧爱情
 我恐惧的是爱太深
 以后带来的心碎......"


"他快乐我(你)快乐"


这一切,真的吗?
值得吗?
还蛮赞成第一段,
但第二段呢?
你,赞成吗?

ADDICTEDtoyou

rid me of my addiction please.
make it fast and painless.


while i attempt to watch you
and study at the same time.
admist all the national day songs being played
FRIGGIN DOWNSTAIRS!
rah.

BLOGGED&DELETED

i blogged.
i deleted.

nono it wasnt a pms-ing entry.
wonder if jolvin caught the entry.

its just...
MY CHINESE WORDS DINT APPEAR PROPERLY.
more aptly put, my traditional words came out as squares and question marks. and irregular formatting is one of my pet peeves.

so there.
i blogged.
i deleted. :)

THE LAKE HOUSE

im not sure if there are any spoilers in my entry, but to play safe, if you havent caught the movie [im sure no one has, cuz we caught the earliest sneak preview today!!!!] please dont read the following. unless you dont intend to catch the movie, which i very much doubt so.

does that mean no one's gonna read this entry? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. sobs.



anyways.
the lake house is beautiful. foolstop.
the lake house is romantic. foolstop.
the leads of lake house are gorgeous. foolstop.

it aint no comedy, so dont go expecting to laugh and cry through the movie. go watch click for that. i think. planning&hoping to watch it with the gals when it comes out. and and i wanna watch too fast too furious too! but i wonder who's up for a speed action movie. we all figured we're actually kinda tired of the action blockbusters that have been coming out this summer and the lake house provides a refreshing change to it.

there are still some loopholes here and there, as me and joyce were pondering upon as we made our way home from jurong point this evening. JUST in fact, as im blogging as soon as i got home. but the overall effect is good, IF you dint watch il mare before that is. im sure some of us had, for i can still remember critics talking about this movie a few years ago, right when the korean drama/movie hit the older auntie generation. keanu reeves and sandra bullock are superbly pretty, with wow-some acting skills. its like, girls can drool over both the leads [girls DO girlwatch okay. im straight -.- ] during this movie. and i sorta admire how lonesome yet admirable bullock gets in this movie. its the kind of loneliness i want sometimes [SOMETIMES only]. serene peaceful and quiet. alone to a quiet lake house, together with a dog that seems to know what she's thinking about.

im in love..
with JACK the she-dog :)
i love the way she connects with both alex and kate. i think she can read minds. and i love the scene where kate was playing chess with jack! awwwwwwwwwwwwww so cute! such a cutie pie. (:


i give the lake house 4 stars. it aint perfect, but its gorgeous. the architect, the leads, the scenery, the lake house + jacks commands you to pay $9 for the ticket. :)

FINANCE

its amazing to see, how fast i switch off when the topic moves from law to finance.
its like *snap*


im surfing the msea forums and checking out stuff on hidden street.
i only want class to end. like NOW.

SCHOOL STARTS.

weeepeee school started today. this morning with abit of excitement for me.
cuaght rod along the escalators of LKCSB and chatted with him abit, with life nowadays and our upcoming post trip project. talked about a possible night cycling trip, and our term3b classes. and then i wandered the entire 3rd floor trying to look for my class, only to find it near rod's class. OR SO I THOUGHT.

so i waited from 820am to 830am. and then i thought the class was cancelled without me knowing [since i dint bother bidding for it never really crossed my mind about going for summer class until i told yh i was bored outta my wits at home and she suggested summer] so i was a tad upset and called home. i must have looked so bloody pathetic, sitting outside along the coridors when everyone had already entered the SRs and whatnots, going for their classes. even rod went in already! so one pathetic soul sat ouside and started up her lappie just to double confirm she did not note her class wrongly.

and then.
and then.
and then.
EHHHHHH.
ithoughtitwassupposedtobeCR3.1. whyisitCR3.2here?!?
ARGH RUNNNN!
ran helterskelter to cr 3.2 where tennish students were gathered near the front, listening attentively to the gregarious prof talking in front. it was 835am. i sneaked in >< and saw a beaming face smiling at me. ACKS ALVAN! ><
and then i looked at his crowd, all year 4 accountancy students. *gulps*
then prof tsaw went round the class, asking us our ranks [freshman, sophomore, junior, senior] and i found out that, out of the 15 people in class this morning, at least 8-9 were seniors in accountancy, doing the same dbl majors as i am.
RAHHHH. before the first lesson had ended, i was already stressed. from the number of seniors in the class. i wont be able to match up to them. eeeeeks. which means i gotta put in double the effort.

but i like prof tsaw. she was a lawyer once in the US and she tells us all sorts of stories about her cases, the history which makes law alive and fun! for once, i think law is fun. i opted for a law major because i always had the impression that law was fun even though bizlaw and colaw dint prove that right for me. somehow i think she will make my impression of law come through. despite her teaching a very dry sounding topic - law for the generational wealth planning. who thinks this is boring, raise your hand yo.
hahahahas.

but so far so good. mmm plenty of eye candies in the class as well hohoho.
one thing im thankful for, she's gna allocate the groupings, so i dont have to worry about going around the class begging like an idiot to be let into project groups just because i am going for this class alone. on second thoughts, maybe alvan might be nice enough to take care of me, afterall he was once my ogl. HAHAHA. he is a nice senior :) was always helping me when i was in year 1. but somehow, contact lessened after i learnt to stand on my two feet. :)


but seriously?
it felt good to be back in school.
now i feel as though i live life with a purpose.

cant wait for wednesday though. the lakehouse with joyce and dawnie! wheeee~

paintings.

unfinished oil paint

unfinished oil paint - il*theskies

watercolours.

watercolours of scenery @ clarke quay

forestlights.



lets play a game of GUESS WHO.
who did all these?
nice or no nice. mm.

IM EVIL.

im evil.

i wake up at 545pm in the evening to tell my mum im gna leave house in 45 mins time @ 630pm for tuition when she hasnt even cooked dinner. so she hastily starts cooking rice ><

im evil.
i reached home @ 10am this morning and conked out ever since till 545pm just now. butbutbutbutbut im tired. and when i reached home, i barely said 3 sentences to my sister before i disappeared into the depths of my room, not to be awakened.

im evil.
i caused rl&friends not to have enough sleep for their openhouse this afternoon because we were mahjong-ing our night through.

im evil.
i was thinking to myself that i should find a day to test my alcoholic limits when i was drinking corona last night. dimmit so naughty. ><

im evil.
thats cuz i think johnny depp is no longer as hawt as he was in pirates1 as compared to dead mans chest. and orlando blooom too, his elfish look make him look more man.

fine the last point doesnt really count.
but im evil!
see i told you long ago im evil!!!



ps: didja know that the word "evil " looks really weird after you type and see it too often? try it! =P

FRIENDS

its pictures like these that make me love the company i've had for the past 6-7 years.
we're too big, but we're still ever the childish and lovable ones (:
i love you girls darlings :) dinner last night was fantastic *hugs to sotsot&popop*

DREAM

I had a dream.
i dreamt that 迷路兵 won superband. which is good!
the scene of them cheering on the weirdly shaped stage is vividly inked in my mind.


I had a dream.
迷路兵 won superband.


mmm. and i wonder if it will become real.
maybe i would dream of the next sg idol then.
damn gayle was kicked out. basket.


nevermind.
its back to my videos.
i suddenly dont feel like mapling anymore. yawns.

TIRED.

i think its time to start school shall we?
the day by day routine of waking up late, nua-ing in bed and doing nothing but watching tv, videos and playing maple is actually getting abit on my nerves. seriously yea its getting abit on my nerves.

currently blogging while watching sg idol.
sg idol this year is not fantastic fantastic, but i guess the quality is not THAT bad lar. the bad ones are kicked out already and my sister is here trying to pretend that im teaching her maths so that she can join me in watching sg idol. yawns.

cant wait to stay over @ sheares hall with ruoling tmr, maple with rambly and hopefully eat cheese prata at fong seng, with a huge dollop of milo in my milo dinosaur. dar said we are to call him no matter what time we maple and he will wake up just to maple with us wooohooo~

sg idol results are coming out. soon.
i shall pay more attention to the tv instead of my lappie. :)

CONFIRMATION.

that meant so much to me this evening.
thank you for the trust and your gut feeling in me.

its much appreciated.
meanwhile, im gonna be doing 5mods!

yippppeeee!



p/s: dont you guys reading think that brandon is totally lame and kok and whatsoever? LOLs. this entry is dedicated to you bro :) grats on becoming a hermit [as in you know what i mean ahahaha.] ! :)

MAPLE DAY

i was bored. today was a stay home day. so i mapled.
from morning 9plus since i woke up, till my parents&i went out for brunch. the usual coffeeshop was under renovations [sobs there goes my charguay X( ] so we had to settle for another one. came back and chiong-ed maple again. leveled sodiume. in the process of chionging @ coolies, 3 brown sonatas, 2 cromis and 1 10% scroll for bottomwear def fell into xiaoliang's bag :) happy girl :) told dar about it and he whined his way thru lols.

then was bored. like REALLY BORED. so went to play sneakyg. whom i havent touched for eons.
and guess what, i leveled her TWICE. maybe i should level her again tonight. she's @ 66% i think.
was supposed to touch elf but i was tired. it was full mapling from the minute i woke up till about evening time, minusing time off for brunch and papers and abit of tv.



and im supposed to be semi retired.
in any case, 1 more level to pumping 6 straight points into buster. wooot i cant wait.
4 more levels to maxing dragon buster. wooot i cant wait.
and then.. i can start roaring people's asses. for example, oompa's ass, ideathbladei's ass and scaared's ass.
those people who make my chat box look like fm chnl1 chat. LOLS.



im just plain bored cant you tell? yawns.

SCHOOL.

so many things have been clogging up my mind.
summer class. boss. school. projects [even when school hasnt started]. events.

looks like this summer is one hell of a nice summer.
it feels much better than the last one when i slogged my ass off. this is the summer where i worked, had fun overseas, truly enjoyed a well deserved break and took part [yes a hell lot more] in school activties, enjoying the company of fellow school mates.

i feel as though, this is what university life should be truly like.
i guess you would only enjoy life when you meet alot more like minded people, and i guess that is only happening to me now.

matriculation today in school was a total hoot, having fun, talking to freshies, talking to familar faces [i found a couple of jps people! or rather, one recognised me and i recognised nasir lols], talking to friends and acquaintances..
yea it feels good. hell yes it feels good.


things seem to go alot more smoothly when you never expect them to be.

RANDOM THOUGHTS

many many random thoughts. or events. whatever.

worldcup@dawn's place
woot super fun! 10 of us were down, crowded in dawn's place playing mahjong, ktv-ing [courtesy of jy's cds and dawn's ktv system in her living room], playing cards, eating macs and having the occasional drink. baileys is super super [to the power of infinity] nice! dawn yinpin jy and i went out to west coast macs right before the start of the match to get macs for everyone, and since both yp and jy drove, we took their cars! the way there and back was like a race from the start to the finishing line. the silence and emptiness of the roads saw a manual toyota vios [jy's] and bmw [yp] racing down the long road at speeds of nearly 120. super shiok! every turn was fast and exciting, im like woooot holy shiok! and jy's manual car skills are like O.O pwhoah! lol. to think i thought jacob's driving was bad enough, i saw better [or worse?] ones this early morning!
the start of the match saw 10 people huddled in front of the tv, with the majority of the group supporting italy [hurray italy won!], 2 people supporting france and 1 lone ranger supporting the ref [LOL]. the first half was exciting, but the 2nd half was boring to the pits where italy seemed to have stopped attacking. even the guys were half tempted to switch sides and cheer france on. and i was dozing on and off, alvin was snoring like a pig and dawn was curled up sleeping. at least i dint miss zidane's wonderful " header" which got him sent off during golden time hehe. and i watched the penalties!
left her place at 6am to catch the morning bus back to come home and sleep the morning away. zzzzz.
but twas really fun!

BOSS
argh. out of 3 bids i got only 1. yay i got taxp! but i paid a hell 35edollars more than the lowest bidder. like wtf seriously.
and im doubting my choice of wanting to bid for lawforgene when BOSS1A starts because it doesnt seem popular and im fraid the class may be cancelled in the end. >.< the worst thing that could happen was for me to miss my AA bid. what the hell la. missed by 2edollars. urgh. damn irritated lor. BAHHH. now its time to relook at courses, modules and timetable. im damn irritated.

phonebill@china
my phonebill for the month of june [aka china time] has arrived.
guess the magical number. >.<
SGD$258.97
sigh. too much calling home, calling friends and and too much of everything.
only consolation, my parents are gonna foot half the bill, and me the other.
now im 130bucks poorer. there goes half my pay for last last week's teaching. :(

hence im not in a particularly fantastic mood now.
its like.. aiyah whatever la.

and i feel like moving again.
i feel ... exposed.
i'll update when im settled down elsewhere.
BAHHHH.

FIREWORKS

fireworks are fun, sparkly and nice.
you enjoy them as the moment lasts, and forget it when the fireworks fade away. many come at one shot, and they light up your entire sky. you take them all in, be happy for that moment, and everything dies down after that.

i hope what we all share now, arent simply fireworks.
history has gone to show that, all trips may just end up like that.
but i sincerely hope not. i enjoy everyone's company and would want to extend it more. and more. for the remaining 1.5 years i have left in school..
what we enjoyed a few years ago, has died down. the occasional one sparkles, one remains [i love the one remaining firework that we've kept going for a whole 5 years!] . some have long faded away, with remmants of idontknowwhat. it may be nice to meet all of the fireworks once again, but its very hard to gather all together..

i missed them for ktv tonight!
aiyah too late lar. sobs. never mind. i saw you guys on monday for mahjong, thurs for meeting.. and soon to come sunday/monday for world cup finals. wont die if i dont see you guys tonight lol.
besides i've had enough fun for today, pc-bunking with ruoling and having szeyi popping over, then moving onto jinyang's place for mahjonging and bridge-ing with ruoling jinyang and yanlian. albeit i dint meet the entire class, i still had loads of fun catching up with jinyang and yanlian. i wanna watch movie with ruoling and szeyi and lifang and go hogs breath cafe soon! :D but they are all so busy with rag dance. boohoo. maybe i'll crash and stayover one day. then we maple whole night hiaks.

i think i should stay at home more, cuz im spending quite abit.

fireworks are nice. but they dont stay long.
i like fireworks, but i prefer candles. :)

school starts. almost.

its the time of the year, when you can smell school in the air.
going back for meetings, and seeing people along the corridors.
you smile and yak with close ones, you acknowledge the acquaintances.
you hesitate before nodding your heads at not familar ones.
you walk past strangers.

今天看到你
有点措手不及
不知该如何面对你
先是微笑
再是交谈
结果
在微笑中道别

你还记得我
我还记得你
但当时的默契
不知跑到哪里

别人叫你
与我给你的称呼
截然不同

我们到底站在哪里……

my speakers. AH.

going at the rate how im watching videos on my lappie, i may just..
1. spoil my darling orange creative speakers
2. overload my lappie with drama serials
3. ignore sodiume forever
4. i dont know what else i may end up doing.


someone tear me away from my videos!
quick!
date me to go out, go pc-bunking, movie watching, out to the library reading, shopping, feasting, anything! quick quick quick!

zzzzzz.

i just came home from sakura buffet with my parents at the clementi woods park outlet and im feeling very very sleeepy. zzzz....

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

i dont feel like mapling much anymore. its just a sudden feeeling. i feel sians inside maple, and i'd rather be reading, msning or watching my videos. or playing other comp games.
maybe its just a phrase. maybe cuz dar not playing much also, due to his involvement in orientation camps. maybe cuz rambly and hopeless not playing much also, since one has rag dance and the other is going overseas soon. maybe cuz old friends are there but not there anymore. feels heart-achy but oh what the hell.
i want to get dota and start playing with ada, jacob and brandon. whine.
i want to get my new chinese game.

maybe i'll go back to maple, someday. just maybe.

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

mahjong-ed for 6-7 straight hours at jas's place at pasir ris yesterday! we had so much fun, me rach jacob jas camy and her brothers! lol and jacob was whining for mahjong not to end, and even suggested an impromptu stayover to mahjong whole night away. hello i never bring overnight clothes lor -.- but twas really fun, ordering pizza so that we could mahjong more, instead of going out to pasir ris central for dinner.
and it felt real good getting to know them better, and seeing the other side of the girls. i think, everyone of us are nice people, but some people just cannot be taken in huge doses. small little ones, once in a while, are nice :)
and we never touched bridge at all. dang!
and camy tried to bluff rach into thinking that the absolute raspberry vodka was plain water! lol.
lets have more more more!

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

im sleeepy. i shall go read and sleep.
did i mention i only woke up at 11am this morning?
feeels damn good to wake up so late!
hehehe.

excited. happy. high. whatever.

im so excited i cant sleep.
im so thankful i cant sleep.
im so amazed i cant sleep.
im so ....... i cant sleep.

i mean, i dint expect it to happen but it did it did!
it only goes to show, the more you dont expect it to happen, it will!
but does that mean i give up hope the minute i think it wont happen?
and not even carry a single tiny flame of light within me?
hummmm.

am i talking in riddles? i think i am.

well, the story is...
i was preassigned ethics class on thurs evening. but i wanted to bid for taxplanning class on thurs evening. and given that i was preassigned, i had to find someone to swap classes with, so that i can bid with my friends for taxplanning! so i panicked on saturday evening, spamming everyone possible, and asking anyone i see on msn.
but the problem is, i hate asking favours from people, be it close friends or strangers. i'd rather do it myself than to ask favours. yea. so it was nagging at the back of my head, and by the time i gave serious thought about it, i decided not to give too much a damn to it. at the most, i'd save tax planning for modified term next semester.
so i left my msn nick name as what it was, and planned a whole new timetable that did not include tax planning at all. hell, i even sent it out to my friends as we were comparing timetables.
then then then then then.
i was watching bride@18 on my lappie.
the clock struck midnight. i had just finished the disc in my comp. so i came out of theatre mode to check if anyone msn-ed me. to my amazement, raymond did. o.O my initial thought was, why did he msn me when we never talked to each other on msn. so i clicked the shining orange bar and i saw the magical words.
"hi! i wanna swap!"
nana fainted. *faints* [kidding. -.-]
i was like. YES YES YES YES YES!
and his class was G5, yh's class.
i was like. OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!
"yes please."

it's like. i got what i wanted! *faints again*
to think i was telling sy this morning, its near impossible trying to find the limited number of people taking ethics to swap to another class. that was one of the main reasons why i gave up hope on thinking that i could swap my ethics class.
but i did it, all thanks to the help of raymond and the huge list of contacts i have on msn. :)

im a happy girl.
a damn happy one at that.
at least now i have a shot at bidding for sum's taxp class with the rest. everyone is gunning for it, i know. but at least i have a chance to bid for it and try and see if i get sum's class. if i dont get it, then its simply fated that i've gotta do it during modified term. but now i have the chance woohooo!
im a one hellava happy girl now. teehee.

oh yea, superman returns is boring to the pits. this is the first movie ever, that made my butt ache. other movies were longer, but at least they kept me on the edge of my seat. superman returns is just Boring.
wheeeeeeeeee~~~