tuesday.

fuck the fucking idiots who bullied my sister. theoretically, they didnt really bully, but they hurt her deep deep. so fuck those farking girls who deserved to be whipped.

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when you hear two guys deep in conversation about relationships, and all you can hear in their relationship talking are mainly guys' names, something is not right. i had the fortune "misfortune" of overhearing their conversation, and my conclusion: homosexuals. i mean, who else can be so sensitive about being secure and having fears in their relationships. seriously, if anyone were to feel that way, its usually the girls. and and i didnt hear a single female name, AT ALL.

what a pity, they were good lookers. damnit. why does the goodlooking ones have to be homo? LoL.

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I've decided, my new love is scrapbook making. i absolutely lurve making scrapbooks. i've fallen in love with the scrapbook paper selling place at plaza sing, which me and joyce spent a long time at today, pondering over the types of papers and colour combination. and joyce let me sign up for the membership card! (: lovesloves to joyce hee.

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jy's gf is a rgs girl, and he said something very right about us RGS girls tonight. he said, "Rgs girls have got a very scary side to them. however, they also have a very sweet side to them. and oh, they are very independent ." for his last two statements he made about us rgs girls, i shall not show him my scary side. MUAHAHAHA. (: just imagine, two weeks in china with this dude as my co-leader, i think i'm gonna have hell of a funny time :)

S-L

as i was preparing my SL slides for tmr's meeting, i came across this sentence.
it was mentioned very often during my yep leader/faci training as well.

timothy stanton's principle of reprocity (1992):
I serve you in order that i may learn from you.
You accept my service in order that you may teach me.

dont you think you can apply service learning to volunteerism locally and internationally? albeit i am preparing this for my ISP, but locally in the context of LTB (smu lingo, sorry), could we not use it as well? i see plenty of reflection being done by my year Ones in their journals, and they have been doing service learning subconciously. all of them have said, they have learnt from the gmss kids, and this is service learning. :)

monday no-blues.

Ubin has been a great rejuvenation for me. the nature, the quiet-ness, the kampong feeling. it really feels different when you get back to mainland and immerse yourself in the hell of it all again. i guess, we all have this withdrawal symptoms when you come back from one particular place after an extreme change, or a long period of time. it was like that for me when i went china. i really didnt wanna come back, but i had to, ultimately. i couldnt have stayed there forever, could i? right now, the feeling is exactly the same, where i just wanna stay at ubin, converse in hokkien with the ah-mas and uncles there and indulge in the beautiful scenery in the mornings and evenings (which i caught abit while having discussion at the balcony). and the company was good too, getting to know more people, clicking nicely with the girls, especially diana (she reminds me abit of shuz)! :) and the trek up the small ubin hill, reminded me of how much i love trekking. ruoling, lets go walk from bukit timah to macritchie again before you fly! :| and i think i shocked some people by saying i would love to bungee jump off the quarry in ubin because jy and i were actually discussing the possibility of bungee-jumping off the quarry. i thought it was too short while jy thought it was high enough. and this ubin trip actually proved that girls cant cook while guys can, in this 21st century. i've already got a vague suspicion during ltb sessions where my fellow male TAs like ian and tim can cook, when ian made us brownies and cupcakes that was so yummilicious. but i thought they were the rare minority until this ubin trip, where ym yt ee yong and philip proved the girls wrong by being the main chefs for the entire training camp. us girls were just eye-powering the gas stove and main chefs while we tried to help out in some menial cutting and preparation of veg and ingredients. :( but then again, jy cant cook too, cuz he was eyepowering the cooking process too! hahahaha.

i think the nus students think that smu peeps are a weird bunch, all thanks to jy and his funny (cranky) ideas that strike him midway during discussions. him and philip being the evil duo who made ym kneel and roll over on the floor during one of the activities, it was just plain funny i think i could have died laughing. and and ee yang's "chemistry " only reminds me of the grilling session we had on friday night, where some of us discussed over beer and chips, what exactly chemistry was . how would you define chemistry? what is chemistry between a couple? you go think about it. im not gonna delve into it in this entry.
sometimes, i'd just wish that i was in nus and not in smu, because its just so plain easy to talk to the nus people instead of the general smu people. am glad for the shanghai isp people, because we are all atypical of the smu people. and this only reminds me of the close friends i have in sheares, people like ruoling [maybe i cant really count her since we've been close ever since jc!] and szeyi. I MISS SZEYIII! babes, if you're reading, did you call me last night?

in any case, i sorely felt the difference when i was talking to one particular smu girl from the nepal team while waiting with the yep girls to use the toilet. with the nus girls, you can just talk in a casual manner. but when i was talking to the smu girl, subconciously i changed my way of mannerism to that of a more professional one. i could feel it as i was conversing with her, even though we were merely talking about school stuff and each other's yep team. it just felt different. and i remember ee yang telling me that smu people are very different, they just stand out. like how me and jy seem to stand out amongst the many nus students during the training session, and no i dont mean stand out in terms of excelling. its the way we behave, the way we speak, the way we talk, its just damn different from the students from the other schools. which made me wonder, have i conformed to the smu culture, such that even though i dont feel it, others can see it in me?

someone from nus/ntu please tell me. i dont think i can hear it from close ones like ruoling cause she has known me since EONS. i dont know, anyone will do? not that i dont wanna be a full fledged smu student, but there are just some things about smu that i simply cant stand and i dont wanna be associated with those ugh things. even the nus people have heard about those ugh things when we were talking about school. and for the record, i aint mentioning those ugh things. those close to me will know what i am talking about exactly.

after this ubin training camp, i've learnt alot, and it is not just the training i've learnt from this short 3d2n. its the interaction with the ubin residents, a reminder to myself how much i love nature and trekking, and how much i want to be in touch with myself, instead of losing myself in the shit pile of work that i face when im back in reality. i cant stand it when i lose it, you know. thursday was just a very good example where everything accumulates to a peak, and i simply just burst. of course, on the outside i look fine and dandy, abit tired maybe, but still surviving. inside, i really just wanna curl up and hide myself away in a corner, and be alone. i think this is just a self protection mechanism, before i truly break down and cannot work. i usually dont stress out, even though i might wanna be alone. being alone just allows me to recollect my thoughts and move on with a brand new refreshed outlook on things.
so i guess, as much as i kaobei about the training session that took up my entire weekend, leaving me with less time to do work, it was a much needed respite amongst the many things i had to deal with for the remaining few weeks before internship starts and we fly for shanghai.

ah wells reality beckons after ubin, i guess.

today was a real dandy day! i got a shock of my life when my dearest year Ones told me that they were gonna tong in school last night. dang i would have loved to be with them, watching them go high over the rehearsals for the presentation they had this morning and play hide&seek with the security guards in school. :( but tis okay, because today's presentation went REALLY (to the power of infinity) well and i am duly impressed. i love my LTB year Ones (yes nasir inclusive, even though he is my primary school classmate as well)! its like, a proud mother watching their kids perform damn well in whatever they were doing? i really felt that way today as i watched the presentation unfold. and very frankly, i was really damn impressed. and the kids from GMSS, they are soo lovable, such that even prof loved them. at least he did say he liked faisal alot alot. hahaha. it was cool getting the kids down to school, letting them have a part in the presentation and making them feel important. :) that is like the ultimate importance of csp, changing their lives and leaving an indelible mark. their presentation today, coupled with the yep training i had, only reminds me even more how much i love community service. and when jianbo was telling me over msn that i've been arrowed to do publicity for yec even though i missed the meeting on sunday (mr seah even gave me a call to check if i was coming down, and jianbo forgot to tell mr seah i was in ubin -.- ), it felt gooood. i want to contribute, in all areas possible and i am doing my best to contribute, given all the time constraints i have. i guess, the focus will be put on local comn serve and yec next year after i come back from shanghai yep, unless i can somehow conjure up two free weeks in april/may for cambodia07 at bblc, which is highly unlike, given modified term. :( sadded. neh mind, i'll target shanghai07 :)

and after being so proud of my year Ones, we all trooped down (aka the team, me and the 4 gmss kids) to plaza sing where i treated all of them to ljs. it dang well burnt a hole in my pocket, but i really think they deserved it.
I HEARTS SMU TIMELINE! see, TA so nice hehe. where got TA publicly announce her love for her year Ones? GRIN.

left faisal, kok wei and kelv as they went to marina square to play pool, i headed home for a new haircut (which i desperately needed one, given the length of my fringe) and for the first time, eyebrow shaping. waited for more than an hour where i attempted to do some work on the couch at the salon and i got my near haircut! its not too much of a change from the old one, but there was changes to it, like it is very very layered now and yea i feel so much lighter! ^^ maybe that is therapeutic too hehe. and i like the eyebrow shaping too!

and now i've got to decide what should i do: yep slides for tmr's meeting, or read ethics, or do AA report. yep slides seem much important because i have yet to digest the service-learning part which i missed on friday morning. damnit. but rightfully, i should be reading up for ethics for tmr's class. but AA report is due like next monday and i should send it to siying asap. damnit la i need someone to prioritise for me. :(
i shall go do work and stop blogging. teehee.

UBIN.

I AM BACK FROM UBIN!
if you guys were wondering the lack of updates, yea i've been mia-ing since friday because i was stuck on a small island offshore, having intensive yep leader/faci training and racking my brains off during discussion sessions.

but it was really good. at least jy and i felt that we really learnt alot alot during the training session itself and we intend to apply what we've learnt, though its gonna be a hell lot of stuff, but we'll try. :) met alot alot of nus peeps, cuz i think they have alot of yep teams moving out this dec, plus the kr&eusoff team going next april/may. met a load of fun people where we had grilling sessions over carlsberg&tiger the first night, and we bridged&asshole taiti-ed away the second night despite the long hours in training. and of course, we all slogged together over the discussion sessions and cracked our brains and hearts over GOALS/OBJECTIVES [there is a veh clear distinction you know? alrighty im just being nehneh about it.] and the safety measures and facilitation techniques!

alrights i shant say too much.
but i really enjoyed the homestay and company :) there was a team of smu peeps there for team bonding, the nepal team, but i didnt really see any familar faces hehe. and we had a talk with jac, someone from osl who happened to be an ex colleague of jenny's! :)

alright i better get started on my journal, or else joanne will be after my head tmr. :(

fcuking tired.

today just spells the start of the day when i really just wanna crawl into one corner, curl up and cry. it wasnt even supposed to turn out this way. today is supposed to be the day when im supposed to get a good rest before fighting the battle tomorrow.

today was supposed to be the day.

and right now, i dont even feel like moving out of the house despite having a meeting at noon, another at 3 and class at 5. if not for tomorrow, i'd think i'd stay home and rest . and game. i desperately need to relax.

for once.

for once i am able to sit down at a corner, plug into my music and stare at the blinking cursor without feeling pressed for time. except for the fact that i know this will not last long as i have pressing issues at hand not touched, like my ltm journal and AA presentation slides to prepare for.

this weekend is so screwed because of the nyc training session at ubin, its gonna like take up the whole of friday saturday and sunday? dang it. i have less than 48 hours to complete important work. and i cant do my ethics because i didnt bring my ethics out with me today. so i cant read, which means i cant email the group about my stand. which means more late nights tonight. *argh* and we have meeting for AA tmr. argh dang it.

so much work and im still blogging here.
well. i guess, this is once in a blue moon when i feel totally at peace with myself, despite the shit schedule i have. shrugs.

and i absolutely adore someone's version of chasing cars by snow patrol, and nopes im not referring to jon leong's version hahahaa. :)
and and.. i wanted to say something but i forgot. ooooh i have a dang long email which i havent got time to reply. argh!
and and...

deathnote was cool. like totally cool. but i didnt stay after the credits to see what happened in deathnote 2! dang it brandon only told me last night after i watched deathnote. nevermind i shall try to catch it again. i wanna watch it again! hahahahas. and i am so gonna hunt down the 12 manga books teehee. :)

fatigue.

fatigue can indeed cause one, to lose concentration in class.
i had a night full of dreams.
now i feel like sleeping.

i should be sleeping.

given my hectic days, especially today, i should really sleep in order to have an early headstart tmr before advanced audit make up class (read: tmr is supposed to be a public holiday.) but somehow, i felt that today is a worthwhile day to blog about. (:

what happened today?
1. ltm class. something happened, that results in a rather awkward situation amongst the 6 of us. not gonna elaborate more, but i just felt that, we got a further insight to our prof, a better understanding i would say. :)
2. i met elaine along SOB corridors and it felt real good just talking to her! we yakked all the way down to kopitiam and it felt like a long lost friend catch up session while walking to dabao makan back to meeting hahaha. and i hearts xin! sorry babes for getting your bday confused. we'll make it up during next monday's lunch i swear!
3. advanced audit meeting today was a riot with keng and yh :) during the later part of the meeting, the topics somehow werent revolving around audit any more. instead it comprised of words like GUYS. hahahahahaha.
4. me thinks the school doctor's thermometer is screwy. twice i went there, twice they told me i was feverish. this time round, he measured a 38 deg out of me. and my plan in there wasnt even to see the doctor! i just wanted my medical form choped and signed for free, so i used my cough (which is a valid reason) as a ruse to see him. so we had to go through all the necessary procedures and when he took my temp, he was like, so im gonna give you an mc and im like wth!?? seriously i feel fine, except for the phelgm and cough. but my mum is convinced im not well, so i have to finish the set of antibiotics the doc gave me. rahs.
5. my mummy and daddy are super cute! they personally delivered my contract to pwc today, and they went to check out eateries around the place for my lunches in future, and they even timed the walk from raffles place mrt to pwc because they dont want me to take the bus in the morning. they are convinced of the hellish morning jams on the expressway. i love my mummy and daddy! (:
6. me and keng had dinner together, and it was a goood one! had mos for dinner which left me bloated (a new for me because i used to think mos had a small portion >< ) and we yakked about everything under the sun! you know, its friends like this having casual meals together that will really make your day? yh pangseh us (if you are reading!! you better join us for meals when you are not carrying your lappie!!) because she wanted her daddy to drive her home. SOBS.
7. jy drove both of us down to ACM (which is sadly, no longer next to smu -.- ) for our leader facil training workshop! coooool! today was the first day, and out of 12 participants, there were 7 nus students. so many hahahhaa. but the workshop was good, taught us how to reflect and facilitate. and i think these are things that are useful for ltm IF the workshop had been earlier. but nonetheless, me and jy had a much clearer idea of what our roles are specifically and what we could do with the team as leader and facil :) lovesloves to jy who dropped me off at the busstop opp SOA! if not i was thinking of walking from ACM back to cityhall. lets hope he drives tmr teehee.

mmmmm. very brief stuff about today that made today an enjoyable day!
tmr is a new day with class in the morning, meeting with the team (me and jy are going to try and implement what we have learnt today!), deathnote with rl in the afternoon and then training session in the evening again! wooots busy busy day even though it is a public holiday. but im catching a movie tmr, not sure if its evil to dump jy just like that hahaha. it feels real good to be busy sometimes, you know :) better than having too much time on my hands and not know what to do hehehe.
anything else i wanna add? nah dont think so. better sign off before my mum comes in to nag a second time. (she has already nagged once.)

lovesloves, nana to all :)

headphones

SHURE E4C
this i GIAN. like really really GIAN.
but i think it costs around 300-400SGD given that its 200+USDSENNHEISER CX 300
this more practical.
quality almost as good, USD79 max i've seen.
which means not more than SGD150 hor?
i think i can afford, provided i start saving.


me and my headphone-madness.
i think im really going mad.

*ahem*

my throat is full of phelgm i cant not clear my throat on a minute by minute basis. and yes i am still craving for kfc damnit.

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i've started playing maple just a teeny weeny bit more recently! for two days in a row i've seen the "You have played Maplestory for one hour." and brandon and i took a walk to bains yesterday when i couldnt find a coolie map dang it. and i leveled to 81 *finally* after nearly more than one month of inactivity. twas quite funny when dar told me to come visit him more often after i lvled on friday night (rightfully saturday wee morning) because he thinks i wont play as much after i've leveled dang it. :| to a certain extent, yea i dont think i can play as much for the upcoming week because its finally the training session week! coupled with ubin trip and AA presentation at the end of the week.
busy busy bumble bee. *yawns*

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i loves loves my brown veil! the colour is so strong and impactful, i absolutely adore it! and there's supposed to be performance on 22nd dec but i wont be in town :( and just maybe, just maybe, there are talks of performing in chingay. wooot sweet it sounds damn fun! cant wait cant wait!

i love twirling and turning with my brown veil, making it flyyy in the air. it looks so preeeety! :)

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alrights enough random yakking. i should get going for my spa session just a while later. wheee spa and massage! and the sky is looking kinda dark. i hope it doesnt rain ><

CNET

this is going nowhere.
i spent the entire night at cnet, reading tech gadget reviews.
but i dont have monies to spend on them.


can someone up there make me an instant millionaire?
kays fine. off to read the specs of canon's new cameras so that i can help ruoling decide.
i am so gonna drown in my own saliva after i finish salivating at all the droolicious gadgets that i cant afford. :(

tired.

after one week of class, coupled with ft, thats IT.
im dead beat. blardy dead beat at that. 6 hours of lessons was no joke. but ft was not too bad. but i have fine dining during the week of internship! nooooo dont do this to me, when i thought everything was fine and dandy. aiyah im sure we'll work something out. afterall yh will not be in town as well ahahaha. maybe we can have fine dining together! haha. :) or maybe i dont have to go down and eat but he will test me on how i hold the fine cutlery and stuff. we'll see. :)

ruolingggggg i wanna watch deathnote. i really really wanna watch deathnote. but no time no time! pon class. i dont have class to pon for next week! arghs. all are essential classes. sigh. and next tuesday, which is supposed to be a holiday, is packed instead with a make up Advanced audit class in the morning followed by a possible isp meeting in the afternoon. argh. i wanna watch deathnoteeee. whine.

dont mind me but im in a whiny mood.
i should get started on my AA summary, or at least down to some work. but i feel like finishing princess hours before i start on ANY work. teehee. and for once, my weekend is free from anything! i can nua at home for once! no tuition, nothing!
i better not start on full house. maybe i'll start watching the chinese version of princess hours. and after watching princess hours in korean, i have this sudden urge to learn korean. in fact, me and my sister have been speaking korean to each other (only when we have to say "yes").and im influencing everyone to watch princess hours. its really dang funny! i lovee the show.
edit**: my daddy lurves the show to bits! he faithfully sits himself in front of the tv everyday at 7pm, switching to channel U. so cute!! *ahh*


alright i better go do some work. no i better bathe first.
ah whatever. i better stop spamming my own blog.

RANDOM-NESS.

from the looks of things, my dear bro seems to be staking out pc bunk every day. as of what i know, he was there on monday and tuesday. and i caught him there today! er well. i was there because my bus was waaaaaaaay too early for class and i decided to go bunk to roam about abit before walking over to see. didnt think of going INTO pcbunk itself because it looked a little too.. empty [rah fine i didnt wanna be the oldest walking being around] but i took a double look when i saw a familar person [and so i thought] standing behind the poor dude who was frantically taking on zakum.

so i walked in. and TADAH mr brandon was there for the third time in 4 days together with his lady friend. and i must say, melswee looks quite pretty (minus her mouth piercing. it looks kinda weird) hahaha. serious! and we had a totally funny time niao-ing each other, chatting about anything and maple and everything and maple.
brandon, stop staking out pcbunk for goodness sake! and how was death note? i wanna watch death note!

tmr is ft day! and i wonder what to expect for ft. hums.
im craving for kfc actually, but given my throat i cant eat deep fried food. for once i am actively keeping myself healthy because i am going to be damn harried for the entire next week. and i damn well dont wanna bring a sore throat and a sick body to pulau ubin next weekend. rahs.
*thinks of 6 whole hours of lessons tmr and faints*

Getting to know MYSELF better?

from here! (with courtesy from szeyi :) )

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
somewhat true i guess. i think. what do you think?

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. aha! this sentence is absolutely true! This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. no lei i aint flooded with proposals yet *winks*

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship. hahaha not experienced enough to figure this out aint i? ^^

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. i dont even know how to flirt or behave seductively, so very funny ahahaha. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? oh gawd i dont do this! and i so DO NOT have admirers hanging off my arms. my arms cant feel the weight at all!

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. er currently right now, i think i am more interested in finishing princess hours. ><

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. i do? i thought i have been pretty focused on what i wanted to be. just that being an auditor/accountant wasnt in the plans at all. AT ALL> 

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. er that depends on what i ultimately end up to be right?

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you. absolutely accurate! i am learning to be independent, so wait for news one day that i've finally learnt to watch movies alone :)

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. absolutely. people think im aunt agony to them. come come got free advice here! =X

not as accurate for me as compared to szeyi, but i love doing such boliao stuff when im bored :)
dang and i was supposed to study. i barely got past 2 pages for advanced audit, and here am i, spamming my own blog with boliao stuff. :(

drowsiness.

remember the brown liquid that we are all quite familar with when we are sick with cough? ah yes that brown cough syrup. it causes drowsiness, dont we all remember? yea. and i thought i was quite immune to that drowsiness effect caused by the cough syrup due to too much of it when young. so this time round when the doktor gave me the same brown medicine, i thought i'd just take it and nothing would happen i.e. cough wouldnt improve and i wouldnt feel sleepy.

and guess what. my cough hasnt improved. and i feel sleepy.
i took the medicine once last night, i slept at 10plus. and that is not normal for an smu undergrad in week 9. sleeping at 10pm at night is tantamount to suicide, just think of all the readings not done and work not completed. yea baby i didnt finish reading up for ipr because i slept at 10 and woke up at 10. and after i had brunch + medication ( i didnt realise the brown liquid was the cause of my drowsiness), when i was on the bus, i felt really not well AND sleepy. and i was so tempted to make full use of the MC the doktor gave me for today, and sit in the bus and sleeep. i slept on the bus, woke up at plaza sing and decided to go for class after all. and now i know that stupid liquid is causing the drowsiness, i aint drinking it until tonight, just before i go to bed. which is prolly midnight i hope. because i really need to study.

:(

NEED to.

i NEED to study.
it is a NEED. not a should, nor would, but a NEED.
but i'm not!

yay im so screwed.
i NEED to plan stuff too.

studies should come on top of the planning.
i NEED to study.
dang.

sick CAT.

okay so im no longer a frog because my voice has come back after massive dosages of strepsils. it says on the package one strepsil every THREE hours. i didnt read, and i didnt know. so i took one strepsil every ONE hour. maybe that explains the speedy recover my voice went through.
nana teo so smart hor? me thinks so too, cause my throat is feeling veh good. lols.
but her act smart-ness just took a beating, because she ran into yixin who nagged her into promising that she will only take strepsils once every three hours.
*mumbles**but the packaging says i can take a maximum of 12 strepsils every 24 hours wor* >.<

neh mind. to top that all off, when i went to see the doktor...
the doktor measured my temp and told me im running a fever, i jumped. yea i really literally JUMPED.
sigh. so i am running a fever again. why do i always not realise that i AM running a fever? i still cannot forget the time when i was back in hc. i felt tired, like really very tired and i still went down for comn serve because i was slated to have comn serve. then when i went home my mummy made me see the doktor. turns out i was running a high fever of 39.2deg. fantastic hor? and i still dragged my tired body down to bhs to do my comn serve. walaus you should have heard/seen how my mummy nagged my head off. i swear after her nagging, my ears were the ones aching and not my body.

i took my medicine after having an early dinner just now, and i think some will make me feel sleepy.
is that why im feeling sleeeeepy now? dang. i still have a meeting later!

and guess what was the doktor's parting words.
"please drink 3 litres of water every day until you are well hor."
wahhh. why 3? why not 4, 5 or even 6?
how do i measure 3 litres of water? SOBS.

stupid stupid haze.

stupid stupid haze, to the power of infinity.
i hate you stupid haze.
why cant you just go homeeeeee.
*roars at the stupid haze who refuses to leave and looks more like PSI200*

you like to make my throat very dry hor.
and then when my throat is dry, you like to make it pain hor.
boo to you, stupid haze.

and no this is not any prose nor poetry.
am in no mood for that. im plain ranting.

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spent my afternoon doing loads and loads of admin work, like my TA stuff yadah yadah, checking and clearing my emails yadah yadah, keeping my lappie nice and neat yadah yadah. i should get down to work tonight. oh but i need to make slides for tmr night's evening.

no time we have no time! the team has so much to do, me and jy have so much to do too!
and to top everything, jy & i are going away next weekend to ubin! *rahs*
and my advanced audit presentation/report is due next friday! *rahs*
that means im going to ubin later to meet them! *rahs*
that means i have to take the boat alone over? *sobs*
jy is so gonna come out to the jetty to bring me in. hahahaha.

i should get down to work, but its almost dinner time!
maybe i should just finish up the remains of isp before starting on work AFTER dinner.
and im having nice dinner on wed! (off point)

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im so glad that everything is nicely done and smooth, going fine and dandy. im looking forward to the arrival of IT :) i hearts valer (i know you're reading kays!) for sorting out the scheduling for me, by mentioning her birthday hahaha :) i promise i will not forget when it is grin. now my full 12 weeks before modified term is fully packed to the brim. and jy had to burst out laughing when he heard the schedule. humph.
im sure i can manage, and wont die from it :)

good ol' days

i suddenly miss the good old days back there in shanghai.
will this time round be the same, as fun and meaningful?

 

me loves my sister (:

my sister is so sweet, she just literally locked me in my room and prepared a nice afternoon snack for me. she even forbade me from stepping out of my room!
on second thoughts, maybe she didnt want me to burn down the kitchen while joining her in making the afternoon snack teehee.

or just maybe.
she is feeling good after our yummilicious sumptious meal at thai express bistro and max brenners cafe yesterday. i treated her you see :)
but the choc fondue at max brenners' was to die for. you should have seen her expression when she saw the 3 way choc dip and the dishes of bread, fruits and marshmellows. she looked as if she went to heaven muahahaha.

if we continue to eat like this, we'll turn into fat pigs in no time. *winks*

stupid haze.

three cheers for the haze.
the haze has left yours sincerely croaking like a frog and becoming extremely irritable.
of all things, i fall sick one day right before school starts.

i hate having a very dry throat, which then results in a dry cough. there seems to be phelgm, but somehow it doesnt seem to exist sometimes. having a dry throat can be a very painful affair you know. sigh its like wtf really.
on top of that, i have plenty of stuff not done, and all i feel like doing now, is to sleep.

tired.

lols im dead tired, after all the running we did today.

i lurve my year Ones. :) good job with the amazing race and rapport building and everything else. smu TimeLine rocks!! :)

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MR BENSON HUANG, ARE WE STILL GOING TMR?

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caught the departed this evening with ruoling and its damn goooooood.
go catch it!

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im tired. i shall go sleep. and msn with xin and brandon for a while.
more updates tmr/thedayaftertmr yadah yadah.
and then school starts and ft starts. RAHH.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTT!

omgomgomomgomg.

remember i said yesterday's interview didnt go fantastically well?
remember i said i couldnt answer some questions given?
i wasnt expecting much, given the hassle with my own timing.

but guess what man.
in less than 24 hours after my interview (tues 340pm) till this morning (wed 1047am)..
they have decided my fate.

AND I GOT MY INTERNSHIP AFTER ALL!!

im so friggin happy i was bouncing around the house, called ruoling to bug her and tell her, and told yihua immediately on msn, and told oomps as well!!! albeit its not corp tax, as what most people want, but i like all kinds of tax, so im starting off with personal tax! :)

so you are looking at a soon-to-be PwC Tax (IAS) intern. yipppeeee!
this means i can bid with yihua for actg cores next mod term!


this is the best result that could have happened, and i didnt dare think about it for more than once!
really, i am a very very very (to the power of infinity) happy girl. and i am going to watch the departed with rl&gang at vivo on friday! wheeee. and im meeting jt&yy at vivocity tmr also! i love the rooftop at vivo!!!


loves to my parents, who brought me to kwan im tong yesterday before the interview and labouriously sent me to pwc for the interview even though i knew my dad doesnt like to drive to CBD and town. he was calling everyone he knew, asking for directions from waterloo street to cross street. in the end, he got me there in 5 minutes, making me 1 hour early for my interview.
loves to yihua who had to listen to me panic on monday, and tues morning, while giving encouraging words at the same time.
loves to joyce and rachel who had the utmost confidence in me when i told them the news about my interview on the day of ticktick. i love my roomies!
loves to siying who told me what happened during her interviews and kept me going!
loves to jy who really helped me to try to snare an interview with PwC using his connections. dude, we're so gonna enjoy shanghai once again man!
loves to ruoling&tim, who respectively replied/called when i was bored while waiting for my interview.

:)

term break!

i hereby declare this is the best term break ever in my school life, because i havent lifted my notes nor books ever since saturday and i dont quite seeing myself lifting it in the near future (aka next 2 days). lols. not good aint it, but i love the feeling of sleeping in and only waking up at 9 (by my mum's dictionary, that is considered late) and nua-ing around the house, without my mother giving me gripes about me not doing work (actually this shldnt be the case because she gripes about me not doing work everytime.

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hohoho yesterday was a good good day!
there was interview in the afternoon and cookout at night. i didnt cook lest i burnt down joyce's kitchen, but i ate! hahahaha. the interview went rather okay i must say. it wasnt a fantastic one cuz i couldnt answer some of her questions but she did admit she was just trying her luck so.. i guess its alright then. then she asked me, do i get stressed easily and if so, how do i deal with stress. and then i thought, and i thought. and then i realised that i have a self instinct not to stress myself. as in, i keep myself sane all the time by not doing work all the time. you know, some people may look at the pile of work and say, gawd i have so much work to do i better get started and then they work their heads off and get themselves all stressed.
you know how i deal with work? i close my eyes and not see them aha! not literally i mean, figuratively you know. its like, i'll look at the pile of work and decide, im tired i want to sleep and i dont quite give a damn about the work. i'll settle it tmr. either that or i'd think, the videos are very enticing, i think i shall watch videos instead. i guess that is how i keep myself not stressed. the only period of time when i was stressed was during jc i think. and it wasnt even for Alevels, it was for the small little block tests that kept showing me what a lousy maths student i am. ><

anyways. cookout last night was goooooood. the expected turnout didnt turnout. but there was still 7 of us ultimately and it felt warm nice and cosy in joyce's place, eating their wonderful masterpieces and chilling out and eating at the same time. then we watched tv together, and we even watched the 10pm chinese news! hahaha. then the guys took turns to try the osim chair which is so wonderfully shiok (supposedly, cuz i didnt try) and yea we all went home after that. brought alvin and rod to their respective busstops (cuz im a nice host you see. im a host of the westie!) while jy sent rach and derrick home :)
it feels good to see them again, even though i've been seeing jy and alvin quite abit because of our planning. and today i see them again together with nicole hunnie and beloved joyce roomie! hahaha.


life is all a bed of roses now. i wonder when will it get stinky.
and and and tmr im seeing my darling timeline, plus my favourite TAs and prof for lunch, and jt&yy after that. babes, remind me to bring junjun's letter for you guys! :)

meanwhile, loves to everyone reading!
and alicia, i keep missing you on msn! like im on and you're off and vice versa. =X

thinking. just thinking.

its abit late for an entry.
but i've been just thinking, about THE day tmr.
why did i choose XYZ, and why not the rest.
i have my own reasons if i had thought properly, but i didnt. i panicked and went around asking friends and acquaintances alike. until tonight, when i was lying in my bed and thinking about tmr.
that is when it really dawned me, why i chose XYZ instead of the rest.

i need to note them down lest i forget.


and i've been playing since the start of term break!
sat was interviews/maf. sunday was family dinner. today was ktv/interviews/meeting/dinner@vivo.
and tmr there is the cookout. and there is dinner cum mtg on wednesday. and then thurs and fri are ltb event days, coupled with lunching with prof on thurs!

busy busy term break. but for once, term break is not loaded with projects.
and im glad for company for the upcoming training course. i may not show the glad-ness openly, but im seriously glad, really. at least there will be someone to entertain me in the event it turns boring >< i thank jy for entertaining me first!


alright enough of thinking.
i need to save energy for tmr. and more late night ktv-ing!
i need to save my voiceeeee.

MAF06

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tadah rambly is a dragon knight as officially from last night!

im too tired from yesterday's activities and events to blog about it.
so i shall let peektures speak a million words later.

but really, yesterday was one of the best days i've ever had in 2006, and i love my jc girls. especially those who were down at hc with me yesterday.
special loves to eileen new since she READS but doesnt tag :)
and i love bashing up kon wheee!

*shhhhh*

im in the sch library now and it actually feels good using the pc, doing some ipr research before i leave school in a short while's time to go for tuition, and grabbing dinner at clementi macs. and oh, i lurve the school pcs. so fast, no pop-ups, no laggg. fantastically fun teehee.

maybe its high time i dont bring my lappie to class, but come earlier to use the sch comp to print notes. yawns. i cant wait for tmr though, tuition in the morning, interviews back in school in the afternoon and hc maf at night! yipppeeee! and and and we're going island creamery right rights? im like such a suaku, i havent been there before you know? and my sister was laughing at me cuz of that. diaos.

the pwc presentation just now was a tad boring, especially at the end, but i guess it was quite a good way to end off 7 tiring weeks and give ourselves a good break before the onslaught of classes come along. like dang i cant imagine going for ft classes. RAHS.

in fact, its 430pm already. i think i should make a move if i want to get to tuition on time. for once. and i think kr is gonna kill me because i forgot to bring the tfkc vcd final espisode. she is so gonna kill me >< somebody save me :(

week 8 a-coming.

week 8 signals the start of a seeming rest.
the end of week 7 just shouts, "breakweek is round the corner!!" but as we all know, work is nicely hidden under the cover of a seeming break. with projects and work and events due, what break week is this exactly. and i've been through 4 breaks, with a coming fifth one.
and im really tired. even though i havent been bogged down by the onslaught of midterms that everyone is caught up with, i am still feeling tired. tired from work and school.

i just want a break, pronto.

but i cant, i guess. with the pile of working constantly stacking up against one another, it is sending another signal reminding me, that any stop i take, will hamper the process of clearing up that ever growing pile. rahhhs. i shall pretend that .... i cant see that shitpile of work. *closes my eyes*

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brandon is making me feel guilty for bullying him as my brudder. but i like being the evil sister. but i dont bully my real life sister. i think she'd bully me instead. and now she's out enjoying life after her promos. i envy her sia. but then again, i think she envies me more than i envy her. ><

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the wheels have started to move. one smooth round is completed. onward to the next round.
and somehow, i can sense a little smoke along the way [and no i aint talking about the haze thats looming around nowadays].

ticktick had a very small Boom.

ticktickBoom! dint live up to the expectations of us who had watched rent as a musical or movie. plus the sound system at victoria theatre was so jialat, you could hear everyone complaining when we came out of VT after the show. and it was a 3 man cast, so it felt a little thin.. plus with the lousy sound system, we couldnt quite catch the jokes at the earlier part. and the spotlight shining was lousy. they kept losing the actors midway.
aiyah, in short the lousy sound system screwed everything.
and it wasnt full house, so us girls scrambled down for better seats after the doors closed hahaha.
but seriously, im kinda glad we took the cheapest category instead. save money for other musicals! wanted to jio the girls for dimsum dollies but i had second thoughts when i realised that dimsum is gonna be held at VT. can VT upgrade their sound system, it was really horrible.. RAHS.

while watching the musical halfway, i wished that we were back in esplanade, with this musical staged in the esplanade theatre so that we can have wonderful sound system to make up for the lacklustre performance. and i didnt quite like the female lead's voice. and the tracks werent fantastic.

am i ranting? i think i am.

but you know what made up for the entire evening?
the girls. :)
got to walk around suntec with my roomies, sit down grab small little bites and talk, and then met ada for dinner together with the girls at kenny rogers, stuffing ourselves full with the sides.. walking from suntec to VT, and from VT to cityhall, passing by the nokia starlight cinema along the way and wanting to come down tonight, be cheapos and sit outside the fenced up area to catch the breakup under the stars.
the company last night was really good, like super gooood. :) i *hearts the girls!!
if only rachel doesnt have to migrate. :(
and i cant wait for the cookout on coming tuesday, for once its in the west yipppeeee!
and and and i wanna blade! or at least, learn how to blade :)

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was a tad irritated with nyc until this morning when someone clarified everything for me. i hereby declare that the person i was corresponding with, doesnt know what she was saying when she told me the details. RAH. so now it has been postponed. *yawns*
received a call yesterday, and i hope everything turns out smooth, and well. *twirls*

days like this...

it is during days like this when i really wanna go back to jc days..
it is during days like this when i thank whoever is up there for giving me these blessed people..
it is during days like this when i am thankful that we didnt ultimately end up in the same school..

it is during days like this when i love you guys a leetle bit more than than the tons of love i usually give you guys.

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me and ruoling are satisfied. we didnt keep to the agreement of eating zichar only after her midterms. we had it today. eeps. and we dragged xinxin along tooo.
me and ruoling studied today! szeyi scolded me the minute she heard me over the phone, just minutes after i hit nus. i wished her luck for her mid term to make up for being naughty! it was real good seeing her in hall :) ruoling tried her hand at sodiume today! and koped maps as and when she could. teehee.
i saw benson today! and he made me guard his bag, only to leave it there unattended when we left for ruoling's lecture. ruoling left her prints all over my notes, but its habitual of us to do that. i left my prints all over her notes too! it makes me feel warm when i see that. i draw BIG SPARKYS on oompa's notes wheeee. and and we nearly killed xinxin when the zichar stall she wanted to bring us to, wasnt open. we walked a hell lot today, from jurong east blk 200+ to jurong east blk 300+, then we were so bloated we walked from the zichar stall to jurong east central, only to bum around jec and to my horror there was no more lan shop for me to go have a lookie.


i hereby deduce, my future boyfriend has to be kiddish enough to wanna go play arcade games with me. i have this sudden urge to play arcade games. like spend ONE whole day there, just non stop gaming. i want to game!

and oh, i spent enough time in maple last night to see this message, "You have been playing Maplestory for 3 hours. we suggest you take a rest/break." for once, i was in there for more than 3 hours. but the first hour was spent nagging at jolvin who simply refused to go study for his Olevels. HUMPH.

nana @ nus

im a very naughty girl today. hehehe.

and thankew oompa for surrendering his lappie to me upon finding us at the central library.
shoutouts to everyone @ nus.


wahahahaha. im such a traitor but i like :)

a morning update!

just a quickie.
me and ruoling are gian-ing for zichar.
and we are gian-ing for the gooooood fooooood at gluttons.
and and we wanna go winter wear shopping! ><




and and i should be getting ready for school.
and i wanna eat zichar!!!

childhood memories...

how long have you not held a lantern and went around the neighbourhood prancing around with your neighbours, and attempting to outshine each other with your own ruddily made lanterns? how long have you not visited your nearby community centre/residens' committee in their lantern festival celebrations?

its the time for mid-autumn festival and its a festival for all to celebrate, so head down to the nearest celebration area and have a hell of a good time there! soak in the crowds, the atmosphere of freebies giving, off-key tunes sang by the kids and senior citizens alike, and the scenes of children scrambling after the lantern procession and attempting to burn their paper lanterns.

all thanks to the people, i had a great time tonight. xinxin, i missed your presence!

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i grew up in a family where service is utmost. my father gave most of his extra time in his younger days to the nearby resident's committee, serving the community at large. and here am i, at the peak of my youth.
and i am going to follow in his footsteps, and aim to serve the community at large, be it overseas or local.
it felt a tad weird though, when i see familar faces i saw when i was a kid, working along together with me hand in hand, making the entire event a total success. lols.