freaking tired. so freaking tired.
one more week to end of relief teaching. then i can really relax for the last 2 weeks before school starts. ah. finally.

its finally the weekend.
was so tired after yesterday i couldnt quite drag myself out of bed. my mum had to do the honours for me. oops.

yesterday. humm.
aside from controlling myself from looking and grabbing my handphone a zillion times, it was spent busily. even though i had a 4 period break in between.
went for an excursion with the sec 2T classes to the malay heritage centre cuz there was a lack of teachers, and i just filled in the role, and boy, i was damn tired after the whole thing la. on our way back, my ears were blasted by non stop chanting of bengish/gangster cheers and i had to cover my ears for fear of them blasting my ears deaf! the girls were damn amused. was quite famished at the end of the whole session, and the kids were nice enough to spare me some of their tidbits. aha. but the malay heritage centre was quite a letdown. and my students just had to sabo me in front of the entire crowd watching the cultural performance when the performers asked for volunteers from teachers to go and try blessing the malay newly weds. wahh :/
but it was a whole new experience all together bringing the kids out.
but i swear, i think i will try and avoid them all again. i was so freaking tired, i nearly nodded off during the cultural performance la! argh.

tmr! missing asoc trial camp and gg for tuition. taking a break at the same time. then going down for pizza delivery! haha. back at the old campus for one last time, then we're gonna stay over in sch and proceed down to the new campus on sunday morning.
and kailyn and i are gonna be qute crazy and go for the autograph session at IMM on sunday at 3pm for project superstar! heee.
she has been coming over on wed and thurs to watch the competitions and it would be nice if she still wanna come over for the next few weeks :) its always nice having someone to swoon at derrick on the tv screen with. hehehe. soo fun :) its simple nice quality time well spent, and i like it alot. albeit i was falling asleep during the results show last night, such that when she and my sister gasped at weichoong being kicked out, i had no inkling of what had happened. too tiredd. :/

i wanna watch the island. but joycet yy kailyn have watched it already.
but i wanna watch!! :/
howww...

i miss you.

sighhh.
cant be TA any more.
*upset*
not enough edollars. dammit.

sighhhhhhhhh.
and to think i thought things were finally going my way.
BAHHH.

bahh. i just lost my entire entry because my modem conked out on me.
i swear that that is because my parents are hogging the modem and using it 24/7 to play their neopets now that they won the jackpot.

but the gist of my entry was...
i made TA for LTB! :D
happy happy happy.
but worried and thinking at the same time.
all i wanna do now, is to share it with you..

yeaa i made it thru today.
5 straight periods. nearly went crazed during my 5th period. was rushing here and there getting the vcd and key.. vcd was a little gory but yea, rather interesting. damn amusing to stop at the climax and make the class go for recess heh. ;)

helped bring the sec1/2 librarians to west mall lib today and guessed what happened?
my ex student sabo-ed me! URGH.
how nice ah. i shall not name him, so that i will not shame him.
it was quite funny really, cuz he wanted to act cool and walk in the pouring rain, so i was watching over him like a hawk and giving him shelter under my umbrella as we made our way from school to bukit batok central walking as one big group. grin.
upon reaching the library, we were ushered into a room and one senior librarian gave us a talk on NLB's databases. and when the librarian asked questions, i kept sabo-ing him to answer cuz he was seated right next to me. and suddenly he was waving his hands enthusiastically in the air trying to get the librarian's attention and he changed the limelight to me by saying that i have a question to ask! grr. :/ put me in such a spot, but of course i handled it with tact and calm. i was short of strangling him on the spot i tell you. bahh. even ms chua was giggling beside me. hahaha.

interesting day. i met plenty of wet chickens and i was one of them as well.
curled up in bed and read my book for the entire evening after i reached home.
twas nice doing that. was supposed to set worksheets but i kinda bummed off. think my students will be happy to read this. muahaha.

at 10.24 am.

currently reading harry potter fan fic and re installing sims 2 as well. i uninstalled it the last time round due to lack of space in my lappie. but now with more time, and more space, im gonna play it again. :)
its good that i dont squeeze my tuition assignments all in one day. i get more rest. thankfully.
and i thank darling kailyn for listening to me last night. thanks dearie. *hugs*
hope everything turns out better for both of us :)

Harry Potter and the Enemy Within is damn funny! its a fanfic written by one of Rowling's fans and i must say, it is beautifully written! been reading it ever since 10 in the morning.. hehe. :) so funny :) hahaha.
i cant stop reading harry potter and the enemy within : its superbly fantastic! wahahhas.

at 8.25 pm.

just reached home and finished dinner aft meeting kailyn at je lib in the evening.. had tuition before that and it was one rare day which i totally enjoyed myself during both tuition sessions. see how stressed i can get over the tuitions? 3 in a day is killer. never am i going to do it again. :/
had a nice time meeting kailyn and poring over diabetic books for her dad. then we went grocery-a-shopping at ntuc and tried in vain to look for the organic shop around my house area. blur me, misheard my sis and went to the wrong place. arghh.
sorry kailyn! hee.
we shall try again some other time. cant wait for tues to come.

a little apprehensive about tmr.
i vaguely remember i have 5 straight periods. greatt.
i dont know how im gonna make it till the end of the day. :/ sighh.



i realised i've been spending my past 3 mondays with you.
war of the worlds, making your invites, and your birthday.
nothing mentioned about tmr, and i dont dare to ask as well.
and since there was no reply today..
the only thing i can do is to wait.
but my gut feeling tells me, my room awaits me tmr afternoon.

original plans of a nice night at sentosa listening to jazz was not fulfilled.
instead, my bed, laptop, music and book dated me.
instead of spending time together
it ended up in frustration and disappointment.


sigh.
feeling terrible.
feeling disappointed.
feeling ... ...

to think i was looking forward to tonight.


and look.
it aint raining anymore.
wonder if it is raining at sentosa tonight.
wonder if junhui and wanyu made it down in the end.
they would have wasted their efforts trying to look for us.

gosh i am so tired i have no idea where to begin.

first of all. school.
by right today was my last day. goodness i was so looking forward to it. im seriously very very tired, and would wanna rest till school starts proper. have time to slack and bum, and go out with friends at the same time. the amount of time now, is only enough for working and going out. i cant find time to slack and chill. i dont wanna be rushing from places to places.
people always say that they can sleep late and wake up late.
well look at me, i wake up at 6am every morning, go to work and sleep at nearly midnight everyday. cuz im either out, or preparing worksheets.
yea yea relief teaching may be considered good money, but its high time to stop.
then i got a call yesterday from one of my fellow colleagues. she heard that it was gonna be my last week this week, and she needed someone to relief sec 1 maths for 2 weeks. i wanted to reject. after talking to her, after hearing what she had to say, i couldnt bear to say NO. i mean, i understand the problems of full time teachers, and i dont want to add to their problems by saying no.
so.
yea i agreed to continue for 2 more weeks.
i will tell myself its only 2 more weeks = 10 more days. yesh i will do just that.
well at least this time round, jason teo will be teaching along with me as well. i managed to get him a relief teaching post taking the challenging classes in school. ha. ms teo offered it to me initially and i was like "no way man". HAHA. george's classes? nuh-uh.
but thankfully the 3 main classes i know the kids already. THANKFULLY.
and they are quite a cute bunch. really. two classes already know i will be taking them maths from next week onwards.
shall shock the other class the next time i walk in next week. which is in 2 days time. ARGH.

its okay. this means more income. sniff sniff.
i long for the day when i can get to wake up late at 9am, nua in bed and get up in time for brunch. then bum around at home read my papers/books and get ready to go out and meet friends for movies/outings/dinners. then come home at an earthly time and go online to chat with friends or catch a movie on my laptop, before falling sweet asleep on my bed at some time after midnight.
i suppose, its partially my fault that im one weak person who cant seem to say no to people. and partially my fault for stacking tuition assignments one after another on weekends.

and now, i dont even know what to do with one of my tuition assignments.
i want to give up the jurong point assignment up, but i cant find a replacement. looks like i need to make one last trip down this sunday. which means i gotta wake up early on sunday instead of slacking in! to think the night before im going sentosa with him. but that is one thing i am not going to sacrifice.
does anybody want a tuition assignment?
sniff sniff.

yes money is rolling in slowly, but i am really tired. bushed. mentally tired.
was so tired today at yy's place for joycet's bday celebrations.
but.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCET! :D you're officially 20! past the 4.30pm time as well :)
had a great time there eating and playing mahjong.. just that i was totally shacked by the 4th round of mahjong. so tired.
whinewhinewhinewhinewhine.
i brought my camera, but forgot to put in the batteries which i was charging the night before. bahh. never mind, i shall bring it for tmr. :)

i need to find time to go down to the new smu to get my new smu card.
i need to find time to rest.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
someone just kill me.

there are plenty of things to get used to in life.
environment, friends, family, everything.
even hair styles.

accompanied junhui to cut her hair and for me to trim my fringe today, and she wasnt quite used to her hair being so short. felt quite guilty cuz she seemed as though she dint really liked the hairstyle. :/
then we were just talking about getting used to our hairstyles.
remember me during rg days and hcjc days when i dint have a fringe at all? cant imagine now huh.. then last year one fine day when i was feeling a little crazy, i decided to go cut a fringe at the hair salon near my place. the only place where i trust my hair to be touched by the way. and i wanted a fringe that went with my character. so i roughly told the lady what i wanted.
apparently there was miscommunication and i turned out with a fringe that looked like china dolls. boy did i fly into a temper! imagine the thick straight fringe she gave me. i nearly fainted on the spot. then she tried to rescue the situation by layering it and trying to make it thinner. it turned out slightly better, but still, not much.
i was in such a bad temper for the next 2 days.
and then as time passed, i grew used to the hairstyle. and then, i grew to like it. and then, i grew to love it.
now i wonder, what was i thinking when i went through 6 years of education without a fringe?!?
i must have looked quite like a freak then. gulps.

anyways. same goes for everything else.
i grew used to the smu environment.
i grew used to not having sam around after the break up last year, and the post break up period was made so much better with the care and concern given by my close friends from sec and jc, and my dearest ltb group as well. still remember the sunflower they gave me to cheer me up. i wonder who found out that i love sunflowers. hahaha.
i grew used to my smu class, and grew to love them even more.
i grew used to being alone sometimes, and search for the peace and serenity i was looking for as an individual.
then, i met you.
then i grew used to not contacting you for a few days.
for that seemed normal to you.

but i do realise for a fact that, thankfully im not the only girl who wants to have constant contact every day with the guy.
every girl seeks stability and wants to be contacted and talked to everyday.
in the past i'd feel weird if you dint contact me for one day. i thought, you dint think of me that day.
all girls think that way. which girl doesnt want attention?
but of course, we cant be expecting so much from the guy as well. understand his style and give and take.
and i guess, things will always turn out for the better.
afterall, if the guy chooses to ignore the girl, the girl has the right to say that he has not contacted her for XX days.
wahahas.
at least i do that. grin.

so yea, we get used to a whole lot of different things.
environment, friends, family, clothes, style, relationships.
trains your patience and your character. it does well to it, really.




wendy my daughter thinks that its a bad thing growing taller. from 175.5 to 178cm.
hahahaha. so amusing.
grin.

yesterday was fun fun and more fun! :D
hehehe. sch flew past in a whirlwind and then twas time for fantastic 4!
sijia came along last minute and 5 of us shared 2 small tubs of ben&jerrys courtesy from me. muahaha. it was nice to see them all again, tim wendy eugene and SIJIA! grin.
timtoh drove. but too bad i dint join them for dinner after the movie. wendy was half forced to have dinner with tim and eugene. poor girl. hee.

me and sijia had a nice walk down orch towards taka where i was supposed to meet aileen to get my stuffs. and it was really (to the power of infinity) nice to walk down orch with her and have the long missed girlie talks. :/ reminded me of the fortnightly orchard trips during jc.. managed to convince her to join us for class dinner albeit it was supposed to be a 02s36 class dinner.

met aileen and oliver for my stuffs that flew in from the states!
hee online shopping mah and it was delivered to her place.
one of my earrings i got from asos :)


aint it chio? wahahas.
then we moved down to far east.. me and sijia did a little shopping and she bought a nice skirt on the spur! hahah.. and we waited for them to come along..
plenty of people came down! best 02s36 outing we had ever.
people who came down: me eileen sijia elsa yanlian xinxin venus zq becca yijian jinyang wilbur. plus lilian whom we looked for at koollook after dinner cuz she was working there.. only missing ruoling and shuyuan and dewen and cindy and boss! k now that seems like alot. but most of us were there! now i wonder why dint eileen call csy along. hehehe. the ones in bold have been missing for a long time. :/

but it was nice to see everyone. the camaraderie was still there.. and a damn funny story happened after me becca and xinxin left them to head for home FIRST. bet we ended up home later than all of them. see right, becca and xinxin were behaving like immature childish little children, stepping on each other's slippers. guess what happened.


that is xinxin's slippers.

so she hobbled all over far east and scotts with us in tow in search of a new pair of cheap slippers. and in the mean time, whichever pair of slippers she had her eyes on, there was no available size for her. it got so bad, whenever she asked for her size 7, we waited abatedly. and giggled like secondary sch children when it was announced that size 7 was not available. seriously it was damn funny! but she got it in the end, after we made her stand outside the shop and we pick and ask for the slippers for her. had a major laugh over it. becca went nearly hysterical i think. see we dont need alcohol to get high. just a pair of slippers will do.

cant wait to go ntu next week with becca to visit xinxin and venus in search of good food!
ntu people starting sch next week. BAHHH.

i love 02s36. :) always and forever.

one particular favourite picture of mine.

in any case, i just realised to my horror that i am exceeding bandwidth on all the different accounts that i am using to support my pictures, backgrounds and song! argh. this is quite bad. to such an extent that some pictures are not coming out nice and well. oh wells.
damnit.
bahhh.

had to drag myself outta bed today. soo comfy, i felt soo nuaa. :/ but i still woke up in the end. hehe. too bad for my students. aww.
went for school, with a little apprehension for the afternoon's programme.

but it turned out everything went better than what i expected. grin.
gave him the first two parts of his birthday present.
birthday mee sua and a handmade card.
it was freaking amusing when i told the lady to add two eggs to the mee sua. she raised an eyebrow and asked, "�������߰����� haha so funny.
and then when i turned around to check out what he was doing, i saw him sneaking a peek at the handmade card which was kiapped in my book! grrr. itchy hands lor. and he had no idea what i was doing when i went around the stalls buying food [it was only two stalls lor.].
he shall get the last two parts of his pressie on sat. hee.
it was nice sitting at coffeebean and share his headphone piece listening to jazz from his ipod mini and my baby zen. jazz lovers mah. :)
then his friend joined us and helped us take pictures. :) shant upload it. yet.
two of them damn funny, but by then i was really quite tired and started stoning off. blearh.
his friend reminded me of eileen new! but i dint mention it to him. hahaha.
[sidenote: i see eileen new tmr! :D and plenty of other jc friends :) ]
dint ask directly, but somehow indirectly. and thankfully, û����顣���á�

i cant wait for saturday. :D
now. i just need to work on two presents. his and joycie's.
lalalala.

i swear, i will not have any more 10-6pm tuition anymore.
im dead tired.
in fact, i think im gonna give up my jurong point one. sunday morning.
kailyn! interested in taking over? very near your place. grin. :)

i am so tired.
but i havent made some stuff yet.
and its kinda like due tmr.
though i can drag and give it on sat..
see how first.

i wonder if i can really do it.
i wonder.
the truth will be out tmr.

5 whole hours of talking.
twas really nice meeting jason teo for dinner :)
at least you got past your MCP attitude and let me treat you to a farewell dinner! hahaha.
but really, enjoyed catching up with you. :)
best wishes over in US yea? grin.

it goes to show, if you really make the effort to keep in touch with people and catch up with them, they would go the same amount of distance for you. at least those who are nice enough to.
thanks dude!

woke up at the ghastly hour of 530am. even earlier than the time i usually wake up for school.
today i had a mission. to be amongst the first 50 people at jurong east popular.

alarm woke me up at 530am, in actual fact it started ringing from 5am. i need half hour reaction time. hehe.
then scurried about the house, packed my bag the night before and dashed out of the house by 555am.
reached jurong east popular at 610am. saw one long ranger queueing in front of jurong east popular and decided to go get a pao for my brekkie first. ate the pao by the side of je pop and read my straits times. meanwhile a boy came and went away, prolly like me, to find a place to settle down. then a guy ard my age came along, and took up the position behind the first lone ranger. not wanting to lose out, i took the place after him [how childish can i get. hee.]. alot of adults and working people saw 3 of us milling around the entrance of je pop and came over to have a look at what was happening. and slowly the queue grew. and grew. and grew.

at 7.01am.
doors opened!
lone ranger was the first person to step in. the guy followed her. alas for them, the manager only said that the books were at the counter, lucky for me! so i was the first at the counter. :D and because i preordered, i took a longer time than the lone ranger cuz all she had to do was pay and go. :/ but nvm. i was the second person at popular to get the book.

what book am i referring to?
DUH. harry potter and the half blood prince. :D
twas raining when i left popular so out came my umbrella.
i can get wet, but not my bag or my book. i love the paper bag that came with the book!

kk. time to read.
spare you guys of my ranting of harry potter.
i've waited so long so long for this day to come. :D

is the stepping down of the NKF CEO and board the "best news for Singaporeans?"
maybe to you sir, when your hatred to them is utmost deep since they sued you.

personally i dont agree.
you cannot possibly ignore today's straits times headlines. if you do [or has never heard of the NKF ruckus these people are creating], you're simply living in a world of their own.
read the newspapers. watch the news.

what has the NKF CEO, TT Durai and his board brought to NKF ever since they came into place?
lots of donations, lots of publicity. NKF will not be known as the "richest centre with dozens of donation shows" without them.
what is their main purpose in doing so?
all these are being done for the patients. the overheads. the running of Singapore's largest and only kidney foundation centre.
would NKF be where they are if not for TT Durai and his board?
that is for you to ponder, i am not about to start an argument with anyone.

has everybody failed to recognise the things they have done for the patients and NKW amidst the mess that the newspapers are reporting everyday?

everyone seems to have the wrong idea of VWOs being run by pure volunteers who seem to be able to live and survive in Singapore. when people hear that one works at VWOs, people think, oh you must be a volunteer, not receiving income yea?
how wrong can that notion be.

is $600,000 too much for the CEO of NKF?
read the alphabets. C for cat, E for elephant and O for orang utan.
CHIEF EXECUTIVE OFFICER.
not some lowly cleaner stationed at the toilet everyday from 8am-6pm.
not some manager who makes sure that everything in the office runs well.
not some stage director who ensures that the donation shows draw in as much donations as possible.
but we are talking about the CEO of a charity organisation.
lets change the scenario slightly.
what if TT Durai was the CEO of Creative [pardon me Mr Sim. :) ]?
then, would $600,000 be peanuts or too much? think about it.
how much do you want TT Durai to be earning annually as the CEO of NKF?
the monthly pay of a secretary at $1500?
the sum of significance of $1000 a month when him and his board comes up with ideas for donations and running of NKF?
dont you count that an insult to such bright brains and creative souls?
i do admit, however, that his bonus is way too much. 3-4 months sound better to me.
BUT. his monthly salary of 25k is considered appropriate to me.
dont agree, challenge me.

the only fault i find with the entire issue here, is TT Durai, trying to cover his ass.
wanting to sue ST for "exposing" him. all ST did was to state the facts, not their opinions mind you. glad that he withdrew the case.
honesty and a certain degree of transparency is all we want.
what is the use of withdrawing your donations for NKF?
ultimately, TT Durai is not going to suffer. the kidney failure patients, and now, the cancer patients are the ones who are going to suffer.
are Singaporeans that immature and childish to stop donating because of one silly mistake made by one person? are we not thinking for ourselves?
"oh since he is not donating, i shall not as well.." "bad publicity, no point donating to NKF patients.."
rightfully their reserves can provide up to 30 years, according to press reports. then what happens after that? we leave the kidney failure patients to flounder on their own and NKF declared bankrupt? is that what immature Singaporeans will do?

i dare not say i am not one immature Singaporean. bad thoughts did flit across my mind when this ruckus surfaced in the papers and on the news. but when you really sit down and think for a moment, do you think we can find such capable people and put NKF back at where it was just 3 weeks ago, without a tainted surface, and at the same time ensure the transparency that the govt and public want.

nothing is perfect in this world. absolutely nothing.

today. one class tested my patience to my limits. till now im still wondering what the fuck they did at the back. who cares. bahh. contradictory, dont care dont bother.

was supposed to meet junhui and she was supposed to come to my place. but somehow.
she wasnt feeling well so her trip to my place dint materialise.
but it was alright i guess cuz i spent some quality time with myself.

i realise im the type of person who needs time to myself. time when i spend in my room, reading, going online to surf the net. and today was the perfect day to do it after a tiring yesterday. feeling somewhat burnt out, tired and stressed [maybe a little?].
need some time to be alone, and rejuvenate myself.
though it did feel weird not seeing you today. after seeing you for 2 consecutive days. hee.

but today was good. stayed back in sch for a while and sorted out my table and papers. my notes and papers were all over the place in different places and i had a hard time finding the class lists to record the marks. then headed to jurong east library, my haven where i seek peace. and book searching went real smoothly today. :) managed to find books which seem rather interesting and i found the newest book by john j nance! whee! was so pleased with myself. :)

then i settled down at kfc for a bite and continued reading robert ludlum's "the bourne ultimatum". his language is damn power, and the storyline is damn exciting.. couldnt put the book down ever since i started on it. movie coming soon i think, definitely gonna catch it. caught the bourne identity with yy last year [or was it j2?] and it was damn good too! wahh the car chase scenes.. *drools* so cant wait for the sequel to come out. think supremacy is coming out first. hehe.

did some grocery shopping and went home. :) sat in front of the tv and laughed till my sides ached while watching tv. then it was newspapers and iweekly non stop till dinner time. and it was prawns galore! yumm. mummy says prawns very cheap on weekdays now. hehe.

what a nice relaxing day.
i like.
and i miss you.

tired. stoned.
but.

i love having you right next to me, or opposite me.
and i love being right next to you, or opposite you.
wherever it may be, doesnt matter.
so as long as you're there with me :)

even when im stoned. hee.

i am highly suspicious of my sister coming into my room and asking me a maths question. something tells me she just planted one of those rainy insects in my room. argh. i hate flying creatures. get away from meee.
my room is freaking warm now, because i refuse to let those flying insects into my room after the rain, hence the window is closed. bahh.

today.
today was quite a tumultous day. :/
spent 3 hours alone after sch travelling and waiting.
finally saw him, and i threw a tantrum. well. i waited for 3 whole hours. no one has ever made me wait that long before. if it wasnt him [or ruoling or xinxin or joycez or wanyu or junjun or joycet or yy or kailyn], i would have gone home. hahaha. so he ranks up there with my closest friends. and i travelled from bukit batok to raffles place and back to clementi and finally home.
but im glad i got to see him ultimately. AND i already announced to the entire world that i do have a tummy, irregardless of what everybody says that im skinny, which is so not the truth. i just know how to hide my tummy well. so there. hahaha.
whee i get to see him again tmr. :) i hope. heh. *muacks*
one thing i admire, i dont understand how you can deal with me throwing a tantrum with such a cool and collected manner. hahaha.

WHEEE RUOLING IS BACK RUOLING IS BACK! me miss ruoling toooo. grin.
me very nua to go for dance lessons. hahaha.
but but but. we should. hahaha. shouldnt waste money. grin.

tmr is the day. HISTORY TEST.
moment of truth. to see if those kids have been paying attention in class. if not, i'll see them after school. muahahaa. students reading, you better mug hard. there are consequences to your various actions. grin.

junhui is coming my house on wednesday! yay yay yay yay yay!
and there's kbox on thursday!
i am so happy :)

jazz under the stars,

seated comfortably on the grass mat crosslegged and watching the people go by..
the sun sets further in front at the horizon and
skies turn dark as the music plays along..
the smooth play of the sax, and
candle tea lights by the sea..
ooh wow i love the ambience there at the deck
today at siloso beach.
aside from the many caucasian kids running about,
making lots of noise, the pizza was nice and crispy, with a thin crust [which i
like :) ] and the environment made the atmosphere almost perfect. ignoring the
fact that there were quite alot of people..

i wanna be there with you..

went to jazz by the beach with yy
joycet grace lynn yeo shirlynn and tracy.. almost a column outing. everyone was
there except for junhui. hahaha.
it was nice catching up with them and me
joycet and yy had tons of fun playing with mr sony. grin. and we played in the
rasa sentosa hotel toilet as well! which explains the wet patch on joycet's top. grin.
took loads of pictures, it was picture frenzy, but too lazy to upload
pictures, so they will come later.. realised today i had a humongous appetite.
but then again, dont care. hahaha.
walked back to mainland cuz there were
too many people waiting for the buses, and had a nice time talking to yy :)

though today, i did feel a little awkward.
look at it this way. 4 medicine students, 2 studying overseas. one in us havard, the other at uk.
all the brainy people.
what happened to me. same class from sec sch,
different outcomes.
sometimes i really wonder, what exactly happened to me.
did i become too playful, or did i just simply lost my direction to study.

oh wells. shrugs.
pictures below courtesy of joycet. :)
will upload my own soon. grin. check out yy's picture! fann wong lookalike!

did i mention i love hulton archives? i love their black and white pictures, playing with the light, and showing the olden pictures in a different light. i simply love it. so much so much.

i am still in such a greyish mood.

today was a greyish day. greyish skies with nice wind blowing.

greyish clouds. breezy weather.

my definition of a greyish day. but i spent my day in a nice way.

had lunch ultimately with junhui wanyu and joycez, went to mayim for lunch and had a sumptous and cheap one :) then we popped into G2000 and went into a trying formal frenzy! especially me and joycez when we knew we needed them and they were going rather cheap.

2 days of shopping has rendered me nearly $90 less in my pockets and 3 new tops to my name. one pearl white mango top, and 2 pieces of formal shirts. but thankfully money just came in today. or else i will be seriously broke. shopped till my legs died yesterday with kailyn, and i think she went home a happy lady with her purchases. moi U2 ladies three quarts. dint get it cuz it was $69. bahh. maybe when i feel richer la.

wednesday evening was steamboat with de junhui joycez and wanyu. twas fun!

before that popped into raffles city shopping centre to look for his cards, and police greeted me. scary. everywhere i turned, i saw police and foreign media. wow. and there was a huge group of people waiting all around raffles city shopping centre! hehehe. so happening, the announcement of the olympic bid city. if only i wasnt rushing for time, i would have settled down and waited too.

finally a break from teaching. a short weekend, but nonetheless welcomed.

im tired already. and im already feeling sleepy.

bahhh. he's gone to kl for the weekend. :/

cant wait to see him on monday :)

jun wanyu and me, kbox on thursday! and i cant wait for junhui to come by my house and we watch superstar together.

my beloved he weijian is out! wahhh. *whine*

im sure he will get his ass back into the semi finals via the wildcard round. :)

he's good yea? hahaha.

i love it when junhui is back! everything seems to go back to sec sch. time is sweetly spent. it was really really (to the power of infinity) nice to spend time with you roaming about westmall. twas so fun :) whee i love you! *muacks*

so tired. so so tired.
so drained from work. so drained from classes.
dont know why, but today after class, i just felt seh all of a sudden.
no mood to work, no mood to do anything.
i just feel tired. so so drained.

was stoning and listening to my baby at the busstop.
saw a few ex students of mine but dint really acknowledge them.
and i dint even realise they were talking to me until they tried to get my attention.
goodness me, so paiseh.
then i gave them a whole load of garbra which i dont even know what i was talking about.
they looked faintly amused though.
one girl commented that i was very pretty, i dint understand what she was saying initially.
then i saw a reflection of myself in the noticeboard at the busstop. i looked like such a mess! messy hair, tired eyes, who me pretty? warped sense yea. no one of my generation and age has commented that im pretty before.
sigh.

so tired so tired.
i wanna sleep but there's no time to sleep. :/

mmm.
today was alright. wasnt as scary as what i thought it could be, yet it wasnt fantastically smooth sailing. not much interaction, with the occasional awkward silences which was quite expected.

explored spotlight with much details that i've never done before.
watched war of the worlds with him, his mum and his sis and i ate ben&jerry's ice cream in the midst of the gore and screaming by cruise's daughter in the movie, courtesy from him. ben&jerry's lei! hahaha. tues is waffles day, and ben&jerry day, cuz its buy one get one free for ben&jerry at GV PS. grin.

then we separated, and he accompanied me to mango where i wanted to exchange the black top i bought during the sale, but i couldnt cuz i remembered it was past 10 days. in fact, today was the 11th day. bahhh. mummy said she would have a way of her own to resolve the issue of me not fitting into the top. if not, i shall give it to yy! hahaha. she's the only one who can fit into that top now i think. grin.
then we went snacks buying, first for my sis, then for himself. hee.
then took 174 down to bukit timah shopping centre where he was going to work. me just went along for the ride.. past by plenty of memorable places. places that i wont be seeing unless i specially take the bus along the way.

coronation plaza, serene centre, hwachong junior college [for the fact that i refuse to call it HCI], sixth avenue.. remembered the wonderful jc times, and the time i passed by the same stretch at 1am in the morning on 174 as well, and both hcjc and njc looked eerie to me, and i frantically msged alvin to talk to him to allay my fears of travelling in the middle of the bus. and the times we went to coro to eat and talk cok, and to do grocery shopping in preparations for exams.
sighh those were the days man and i miss it so much so much. since then 2 years odd have passed and i still look back fondly.. OOH and the time when boss made us walk all the way to his house when we could have taken 156. he made us climb the stupid hill up to his place at namly cresent. hahaha. those were the first three months days..

i miss hwachong for the people, and the times spent..
i miss rgs for the place and environment that made me who i am..
i miss hwachong and rgs..

anyways back to him. :)
twas nice seeing him today, and i had my first meet-the-parent session.
thought i was distinctively freaking out in the morning, despite him asking me to chill like how many dozen times.
but i still dont have the guts. bahh.

OH YAY.
i finally finalised my timetable.
soo i have a 3 day week!
mon tues and wed.
mon: corp reporting 315 - 645
tues: MPW 830 - 1145, A&A 315 - 645
wed: AIS 830- 1145, comp law 315 - 645.
he promised to teach me comp law! :D
his timetable is totally opposite from mine.
thurs fri and sat. nvm. im sure we can make time out. :)

finally, i can stop worrying about school.
such a nice resolving day today. :)
hope he enjoys his work now, tonight.

goodness.
tmr is meet-the-parent session.
ahhhhhhh.
scary.
let me come out of it unscathed. :/

me favourite place.

see that bridge right in front of the esplanade?

also known as the esplanade bridge.

its my all time favourite night spot all time.

right between the esplanade and the merlion park, facing the mouth of the river opening to the straits of singpore, out to the open sea.

not too far from the outdoor concert at the esplanade, listening to the music coming softly from there..

enjoying the cool breeze coming from the sea..

watching families and couples walk past me, wanting to be a part of them..

people watching the tourists frantically taking pictures of the fantastic scenery right before them, of the esplanade and the merlion park..

i simply love sitting them and soaking in the sights and sounds..

my favourite night spot in singapore.. :)

spent time with junjun joycet joycez yy in the afternoon playing mahjong, had dinner with kailyn at fish&co at suntec after that. specially wore the long pink flowy skirt that she so wanted to see me in, topped in a white zara spag top.. i loved my dressing yesterday.. :) coupled with a pair of chandlier earrings and junhui bought a surprisingly matching necklace at bedazzled when we were at westmall.. guess i was shining yesterday huh. enjoying the new found freedom after working for 4 days. :) mahjong was fun, and so was outing with kailyn.. utterly nice to sit next to her on the esplanade bridge and just talk.. such a romantic place. :) aside from the thronges of people walking past.. hahaha. enjoyed myself yesterday. :)

and today is a day for me to nua at home, finish typing my sister's history notes.. and hopefully catch one or two movies on my lappie.

feeling sleepy already.