whee. i am on a high, a high. wahaha.
i think im nuts.
the timetable for next sem is out! :)
and i am happy to say that most of my friends are in similar classes [i.e. group 9].
AND me yixin and elaine have the EXACT same timetable.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
k fine. im high. lalala.
steph jason and kelvin too. plus half of the villagers are in the same group for AS CT and BGS.
whee whee. i am high. hahaha.

last night was damn fun.
met up with yy and gab for dinner after having tuition. for once i felt great after giving tuition yesterday. dont ask me why, but i suspect daphne helped in me feeling good cos she understood whatever i taught her for the new sec 2 chapters. hee.
stayed at westmall popular for a long time, buying assessment books for my tuition kids and making the two of them wait. oops. met one of my dearest students in the sec two assessment section too. grin. had fun talking to her.
ate at swensens and shared the western grilled thingy with fishball, or else it would be too sinful for my liking. grin. yakked the entire dinner away but the main focus was on gab's new girl [does it sound weird? hahaha.] i was like a mother grilling him questions about the girl [more like me being kpo la. haha.] and when me and yy heard she was in the area doing the prudential sales thingy, we jumped at the chance to go "look see look see". wahaha.
and the minute we were at the plaza outside westmall facing the mrt, gab saw her and hid behind a pillar immediately. like helloooo? i was craning my neck trying to find out where the hell she went to. grin. then we decided to stand near to prudential people to wait for the mystery girl's appearance and we became sitting ducks for the prudential people who broke up after their meeting. urgh. 3 guys approached us and took each one of us. dint quite like the guy who was talking to me, he had so many bloody pickup lines using it on poor yy [or at least they were pickup lines to me. grin. but mingwei agreed that those were pickup lines too! wahaha. ] and he was abit weird. urgh. prefered talking to the one yy was talking to initially, mingwei. it was damn obvious the guy orginally talking to me was more interested in talking to yy. wahaha. but they were all nice easygoing people to talk to, especially since they all just grad from uni also. hehe.
the funniest part was when i heard yy saying something like "how about you give me your car and i drive home?" when one guy offered to send her home. grin. and of course, the mystery girl appeared! :) quite pretty, the bubbly sort, abit like the sha da jie kind. grin. haha and of course me and yy made our move there and then.
interesting night, which was quite fun.

just got back my comns assignment. wasnt that wonderful.
urgh.
AND. there's nothing for me to bid for the one extra module.
damnit.
urgh.

im back to earth liaoz. blearh.

was thinking about alot of stuff on the bus today to school while i was reading. reading a book by the way, not my econs or fa notes. mm but i seemingly have forgotten all about them right now.
the villagers are having their LTb proj in school today. will go down at 5pm to support their performance with the kids. :)

in school today for a full day of econs project. sians.
sians. firstly, its a saturday, and im spending my entire time in sch for econs. secondly, econs is not one of my favourite subject right now. the subject sucks, so does the prof. if you read anywhere saying that profs in smu are supposed to be nice amiable and approachable, dont be mistaken. what they mean is, they are easily reached by email, but they may not be nice and aproachable. emailed a particular prof to check about our group's presentation slot [since he dint list in down in connect] and what i got in return was a rebuke for not attending classes [like fuck, i attended all his fucking classes la.] and no confirmation in return. see, they are easily reachable, but not necessarily approachable. hmph. he's gonna get it when we do our review on profs i tell ya. never step on my toes, for i thirst revenge easily. muahaha. lemme self entertain myself. wahhaha. urgh. lets move on. no point dwelling on such irritating topics. urgh.

elaine i want real mahjong and baking sessions too! hahah. but neither can i bake well. hee. grin. but the real mahjong part is enticing. but i wonder if we'll really get down to doing such stuff. mm. you wanna bid for one more module next sem? lets ask yixin too.. whee. grin.

ooh. taufik was in the top 3 yesterday :) *smiles brightly*
and chrissy poo was out! whee. serves him right for edging maia out. lalala.
now if daphne can be kicked out, i'll love the top 4. yeaps.
and i want taufik to be singapore idol.
i quite admire the american idol people [thats provided if they came up with the idea themselves] for coming up with the whole notion of American Idol. it gave me a whole new insight to the meaning of music, and what type of music there are. of course, my favourite is still big band, but i quite like motown too. before american idol came along, i would never know what motown is. yeah. so i suppose american idol has became a catalyst in me becoming alot more interested and knowing more about music and music as a whole. hearing songs that i've never heard before, travelling through time back to the 30s and 40s where swing was the music, hearing frank sinatra and the rat pack trio, and becoming a fanatic fan of theirs. the whole new idea of music to me now is so different. so different from the type of music i used to hear on perfect 10. now im listening to class 95, and occasionally gold 90 fm.
grin. i sound old dont i.
maybe im just a tad older for my age. lalala.

i miss my friends.
i miss my jc life.
waaah. return me to 2002 first three months please.
sigh.

i always look back.
but i know i shouldnt be doing this.
haii.

yay my $1.50 wasnt wasted.
yiwei won and gone into the semi finals!!
wheee!

argh i feel real sleepy.
supposed to be working on the LTB final presentation now but the words are going all blury in front of my eyes and i really feel very sleepy. and i think im paying more attention to the radio [class 95] and my book occasionally. dont know why im feeling so sleepy huh.

4 more weeks to end of term. somehow i dont quite want end of term.
but neither do i like life now. life now is stressful and tiring. like really tiring with all the datelines coming up. i like ruoling's anology of a dateline. "You're dead the minute you cross the line." that was what one rg teacher told her. i wonder which rg teacher. grin. but then again, when hols start, i'd feel even more lonely. i'll be wandering around home, with nothing to do, nobody to go out with, and other friends will be busy with their own business. how sad can that get? i had a taste of that early this year and i dont want to go through the same lonely period again.oh sigh oh sigh.

im hooked onto class 95.
if you dont want to grin like an idiot to yourself, or burst out laughing for no reason in public transport in the morning, please avoid glenn, rod and the flying dutchman. they often have me in stiches, making me unable to fall asleep and grinning like an idiot in the mornings when i travel to school.
oooh and i love their music, especially dinner jazz in the evenings, when im in my room slacking reading a book and chilling out to dinner jazz at the same time just before i start work again in the night. how lovely. grin. ooh and i want westlife's new album!! heard their new song today and it sounded so jazzy. ahhh and i miss boyband music recently. hence their new album makes the perfect solution for me. according to jean danker, they modelled this album like the rat pack trio. frank sinatra, dean martin and sammy davis jr. ahhhhhh. can somebody get it for me for christmas? im broke. wahaha. faintly amused by myself.

time flies.
so much has happened ever since school started. i thought things got better for me after sem break. which is true. a part of it improved, but the other part of it deproved. the workload part deproved. however i find myself feeling more at ease around people, my true side is starting to show a little. just watch me when im with joyce, yuan, or even, my LTB mates. they've seen me gone all high, a little mad, and a little whiny. haha. which does sound like me. i whine occasionally to certain people, i have a natural tendency to go high, especially when i used to be with 33 people, and of course, dint you know im madd? grin. i like my comns class friends. people like elaine, yixin [these two i see them in almost every class, esp elaine, considering she has the same timetable as me :) extremely nice people, but they have their own cliques la.], elaine [junhui's pri sch friend ;) ], jasmine, fir, jason, kelvin, minsheng, eileen.. though most of us are aquaintances, maybe casual friends at most, i find it easier to joke and crap with them. yea. and it helps alot that i see alot of them in my other classes as well. surprisingly i find it easier to joke around with my og people too. weizhong and gary la, considering i dont see the rest at all except for yilinn during stats. well i suppose the friends part has gotten a little easier. or maybe because, i've gotten used to being alone. moving around alone. not giving a damn when there's nobody around. yea. so i become appreciative when there's a little more company around me. i dont know. it sure takes time to get used to all these. and since i dint come in with a clique, i dont see myself settling down in a clique. its hard to penetrate a clique when everybody's all settled down in their own familar circles ever since sec school and jc. considering most of them came from acjc. and i still dont like THEM. you know who la. urgh. such people still get on my nerves. yeacks. disgusting irritating people.
oh wells. im bitching on my blog.
i suppose i'll miss my groups when projects are officially over, and everybody settles down to study. i know i hate being alone. but i have to get used to it. GET USED TO IT. damnit. i will miss my LTB group. after warming to them and getting all crappy and lame together.will miss the people whom i got to know better after term recess. and i wonder, if all these will continue as we go into the second sem. when we may or may not be in the same class all together. will all these be left floating in the air and uncontinued if we happen not to be in the same class anymore. frankly speaking, i like my current group now. as in the group of people i have for my classes. but would it still be the same next sem? although i would gladly have people like yuan and joyce with me, so as not to feel so lonely. sigh oh sigh. am i thinking too much again?i dont think so, since all these have always been bugging me. so it doesnt make a difference. i just dint know how to put it all out in words on my blog, thats all.i wonder who are the smu people reading my blog. if you are from smu, identify yourself kk.i dont suppose im in the smu blog circle. but after linking myself to dom kelvin and elaine, i suppose i became part of it. in a small way. read for all you want, but dont condemn me when i say i hate smu. because i really do. in some ways. but in some other ways, it has gotten more bearable.and dont ask me why am i here then, since i hate smu. because i know i've made a wrong choice and i dont want to be reminded of it. thank you.

i need to make a trip to je library soon. im getting over stressed.je library is the place where i seek peace and solace. when im upset, when im stressed i go there.the silence of the place is enough to keep me relaxed. and take me away from this horrible reality and lose myself in the world of books.
i did something quite crazy today too.took 3 full hours of public transport. from one place to another. reading book. fa notes. listening to class 95. and really, after all that 3 hours, i alighted from the bus a different person. i felt light and happy. relaxed. destressed. wonderful. not tired anymore. i realised i could do alot on a bus. long trip journeys. i can read, study, listen to music, curl up and sleep. and lean on the window like how a girl would lean on her boyfriend's shoulder to sleep. oh wow im treating the bus like my boyfriend, for lending me its pane to lean on. well at least its better than nothing to lean on. hahaha. amusing huh. im fine dont worry.just dont know why, been thinking of the nice times we once had. especially when im travelling.bus trips make me think. alot. but i always think alot. hmm.

i want mok to come back from aussie soon. i should talk to him, meet him for a meal or movie when he comes back from his training in aussie. after my exams. kor always have solutions for me. and encouragement to keep me going. whine. i miss his smses. heh. had fun msging wenhui yesterday too. after he reappeared from the depths of his medicine books. with a new phone considering he insists that somebody stole his hp when he so obviously lost it la. heh. we were talking about relationships in total, like how many times the couple should see each other etc. he's glued tight to char la volunteerily, hence i have nothing to say. but given our current schedule, i dont even have the time to date [not like anybody would wanna date me. ], not even maintain a relationship. and if i start on a new r/s now, i would owe him a meal. an expensive one. after all he said to console me that night. hence. if i ever get attached, he would be the last person to find out. wahahaha. but ultimately, i appreciate his smses all the time. and was vaguely touched, when he said he could recognise my number when i forgot to identify myself when i msged him to give him my number again for his phonebook. grin. but on second thoughts, if he had vaguely remembered, would he need to ask me for it? grin. wonder if he still reads this blog. his blog is DEAD. eh if you're reading this, have you given up on blogging le? haha.

i want to find the original me back in jc. the carefree unrestricted confident girl that i once was. i seemed to have lost all that. i dont know. am i still like that? i wonder what do the smu people see me as?concious? quiet? not confident? submissive? i dont know. i lost what i used to be. but i can tell you, i am not like that. but somehow, i dont know how to show the real me here.there's something blocking. something that i cant quite put my finger to. just something.oh wells.

looking forward to mamma mia on 06nov2004. i simply cannot wait. a night of fun and music :) ahhh. but i have tuitions the next two sundays. because i have a full day meeting for econs on this coming saturday, and mamma mia next saturday. grin. mamma mia, here we go again. :) and i'll see gab and fishball! :) but hey, yy, if gab is free this sat evening, i dont mind having dinner. my econs meeting is supposed to end at 6pm, and i'll be in sch. shall we meet? whee. i have plenty of work to do, but i decided to blog a super long entry today.

btw, does anybody know where to buy the manual for the twin heroes 3? xinxin HELP! im stuck and i think i need patches to patch the game cos i cannot move. im not stuck as "dont know what to do" but stuck as in literally stuck. I CANNOT MOVE!!! ahhh. i want to see what happened to jiang xiao xia, and jiang yun. the offsprings of the original twin heroes. i want to finish the game!!! if you dont read chinese wuxia, skip this please. lalala.

i realise, this blog shows the true me. behind the virtual reality. but i sound like my true self here.maybe thats why i used to blog so much when i had the time after uni started. maybe im in the mood to blog today. whee. maybe cos im feeling better after comns presentation. everybody's positive comments had a great impact on me. it sorta reminded me, maybe my true self is just lying there, waiting to resurface again. soon. i dont know. and im glad jason1 recognised that i had leadership qualities. that comment meant alot to me. cos i thought all that flew out of the window when i started uni life on such a low notch. everybody knows why. if not, return to the mid aug entries and you'll understand. kk i better stop, if not i'll be in contention with mei on who blogs more online everyday. she blogs in bits and pieces, i blog in long chunks. i think she got the blogging gene from me. or is it the other way round? but we aint blood related! grin. kk fine im crapping. miss ya roo. *hugs*

time for me to blog a nice long blog. i think.
im tired.
anything new from me?
yea im tired.
im still tired.
tired from yesterday's comns presentation.
oh wells.
i did appear in the end. and it wasnt too bad. some people said it was good. i thought i could have done better. but somehow. i feel that i've lost the confidence i once had for presentation. *shrugs* remember my jc poverty presentation in j1? i love that presentation to bits. i felt as though i was on the top of the world, trying to grab attention and get people from the class to interact with me. mr lim was amused, i could tell. grin.
where was that confidence i seem to once have?
i think something has gone wrong somewhere. i just dont know where.
im no longer as outspoken as before.
im no longer as comfortable with everybody as before.
what happened?

and im infinitely sleepy. and tired. dont ask me why.
must be because of the comns presentation. imagine cheonging one presentation and speech from 7pm to 2am. i realised that my presentation was wayy off at 6 plus in the evening. damnit. and from 2am to 3am, i was trying to rehearse. my sis said she could hear me through the door. and throughout the entire night, i heard cheering going round my entire neighbourhood. it was the man u arse match. grin. ooh. man utd won 2-0 by the way. by now it should be old news le.
oh wells.

my entries are getting from bad to worse. its getting more depressing. and shorter.
and usually i am not in the mood to blog.
ahhh what the heck.
i'll blog when im in a better mood.

i have alot to say. but dont know how to start.
lemme collect and organise my thoughts.
then i'll put in what i want to say.




im tired.

havent been blogging for a long time. at least a nice proper entry.
so much have happened and no time to blog.
so tired. tired tired tired.
has there ever been a time when i dont feel like doing a presentation? never.
never ever in my entire life until this week.

maybe i shant turn up tmr.
im not prepared.
and im not prepared to screw up in front of the entire class.
mark it as "tired mc".

[kelvin, if you're reading, shhh. heh.]

the skies are dark, the breeze is strong.
soft jazz playing gently in the background.
all i wanna do is to lie in bed and read a book.


reality bite:
my laptop stares at me with unfinished projects.
comns, econs, LTB, FA.
will somebody do my projects for me?
and let a poor girl rest since her mid terms?

Reality Bites Even Harder.
No. cos everybody is the same as you.
wake up dudette.


sigh.
too many things.
too little time.

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oh wow. yesterday was such a emotional rollercoaster day. damn tired at the end of the day.
had financial accounting quiz in the afternoon. mummy and daddy were very nice to me :) sent me to school, and stayed in school while waiting for me to finish my quiz so that they could cart my books home. thankew :) *hugs*
the quiz was horrible horrendous irritatingly disgusting. yeacks. it seemed more like an end of year paper than a normal quiz. for one, there was open ended and he dint clue us in on the possibility of having open ended questions. and imagine, coming up with a bank reconcialiation statement, recording and adjusting journals, income statement and classified balance sheet [what the hell?] in less than 50 minutes considering we had to leave some time for the 15 mcq in front. fuck. i am so dead. i am gonna flunk this bloody quiz that makes up 7% of my final grade. shitifed. dead. fuck.

anyway. when i was on my way out, caught up with jess and yanlong. since they were going to town, i tagged along. grin. they are very nice people, joyce is damn lucky. oh and i found out that we share similar music interests too when we were chilling out at hmv listening to newage/jazz and talking about it at the same time. how coincidental!! but i think i offended yanlong sometime when we were walking along the tunnels of orch by commenting that i had never seen a guy who talked so much. oops. he promptly shut up after that and it made things a little awkward. oops. shooting words outta my mouth w/o thinking. but i thought he was the type who would be able to take such jabbings. [in any case if you are reading, which i doubt it, sorry. really sorry. ]mm. me and jess were on an eating spree. ate the crystal jade chicken wing first, and then was eating the triple decker cheesecake at wheelock coffeebean where we decided that joycez was in another dimension from us since she said she was at coffeebean but we couldnt see her. heh. me and jess left soonafter cos i was late in meeting fishball and gab le, and jess had to leave early too. left joycez and yanlong to eat dinner by themselves. :) grin.


us threesome went to the jap shop at citilink in search of the 'meredith' gab was looking for [think current bachelorette]. oh but we dint manage to see her. darn. i was curious as to how his 'meredith' looked like. heh. then went to eat dinner. ooh dinner was at a classy restaurant called olio [with very 'classy' prices too i must say]. but the atmosphere and food and environment was very nice. very relaxing and soothing, with nice music played [cept for the bollywood song nearing the end of our meal] and the decor is very nice and different. nice place to sit eat and talk. we ordered two pints of beer [iforgothowtospellthename, just refer to the pictures below] and gab took one and one half pint while me and yy barely finished one quart of a pint. grin. but i must say, the beer tasted alot nicer than the red wine, and the more you drink, the more tasty the beer is. i wanted to drink a little more after finishing mine [cos i poured some over to gab] but i decided not to, just in case. wahaha. but the food is good. and the choc banana smoothie is damn nice. rich of choc and banana taste, thick and smooth as well. ahhh nice food. nice atmosphere. wonderful company. what more could i be asking for?


then we went off to the sky garden to relax and wind down, and to execute our final plans. that was to have a mini celebration for gab using sparklers, cakes and nice letters. grin. see all our efforts gab? grin. busy snapping pictures anyhow before gab freaked us out by commenting on a vague spherical thing he caught on my digicam on shooting the suntec building. he insisted it was a orb and proceeded to tell us all about them. yy was more freaked than i am. grin. mm shall do a research on orbs and inform those reading my blog. but be prepared, do not read my research in the middle of the night and freak yourself out. heh. and so ended our nice day yesterday. it was nice sitting/sleeping/lying down at sky garden, talking and watching the night pass by. and im glad for the second chance on getting to know gab better. alot more in fact.happy belated birthday, dude :)[and i do not look better when im tired. not like what you wrote in your blog!! urgh please. hahahaha.]

birthday boy with his food at olio :) 

our pints of beer. :) one big two small :) 

gab's makeshift birthday cake. aint it nice? :) 

yy with sparklers :) 

me with sparklers :) 

orb present? vague circular thing at the middle right side of the picture. 

picture taken 10 minutes later. orb left? 

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You're excited about life and in touch with yourself and nature. Tell me, do I have this straight?

Virtues: You appreciate humor like none other. Puns might even spark laughter in you (TEHY R FUNNI). You seek adventure and connection with your surroundings. You seek friends who will not only share laughs with you but actually form a deep bond of trust and empathy beneath the surface. You look for adventure and courage in people, and variation is necessary to keep you under control. You see yourself as multi-faceted, so you need people who can see you in your many lights. You're constantly trying to figure yourself out while analyzing the people around you. Silly, silly people.

Aspirations: You can't decide what you want to be yet, but you know you want it to be adventures and interesting, with constant changes. You don't know what love will do for you yet, but it's competing with adventure for a place in your heart. An internal conflict has begun: can you be a successful worker, lover, and parent all at once?

Quirks: Noise of any sort is irritating when you're in the mood. Smacking gum, loud chewing, humming- it's about as pleasing as bodily noises. You dislike emaciated people because of jealousy and just plain disgust. You're a procrastinator but a hard worker, too.

Factors: You need constant attention and support. You're high-maintnence, but a great, reliable friend.
Nature needs you and you need nature; it's helped thus far, so keep in touch with the outside world.

Future: Who knows! You absolutely need constant change, so vacationing is surely in the cards. Will you settle down or not? Love will find you eventually, as it does to everyone. Will you choose the sweet home life or the rewarding busy-bee life?

mm. quite accurate aint it? grin.

thankew macs. thankew xinxin [for her company though she's sleeping on the table now..]. thankew her laptop. wahahaha.

i should be mugging. erm okay.
oohh yiwei is nominated as school beauty for smu!! everybody VOTE FOR YIWEI! cos she's nice sweet and chio!! [and also cos she's my buddy group's faci. grin.] do accountancy proud!! :D go yiwei! [alamak, im influenced by alvan. blame it on his email.. hahaha.]

cant wait for the announcement of results tonight for spore idol.
jerry ong, go home before half of singapore pelts you with rotten eggs. grin.

I LOVE TAUFIK AND MAIA!!
[point taken? taken. :)]

taufik reminds me of george huff. ahhhhhhhh.
soooo swelt cool charming.
i love his smile.


*melts* oh sigh.

ever since young, i always wanted to work in the media industry, as somebody behing the scenes.whoever went through the dreams of wanting to become an artiste? i did, honestly. but as i grew older, i knew i cant since i neither have the looks nor the voice nor the acting skills. and the real world caught up with me. i woke up with an abrupt startle.

still. my dreams of working in the media industry never died.
i wanted to be a DJ, a journalist, a news broadcaster. and i still want to be. the dream had never left me all along.remember how i was so hung up about being a chinese journalist when i was in sec sch? now, i just wanna be a journalist. a news broadcaster. a radio DJ. i want to share with people my passion for music, what i think and what i feel. has anybody been listening to class 95 recently? the trailers of the DJs talking about their own experience, they struck me deeply. i was listening to it when i was on my way home just now. or. i want to be involved in events. world wide events. local events. and i want the eyes of the entire nation on me. or reading my articles. knowing how i feel. what i observe and what i choose to tell my audience through my eyes. as a news broadcaster or journalist. i want to be in the shoes of the channel news asia morning broadcasters, bringing the latest news to the morning crowd, when they are on the public transport, or tuning into channel news asia as they sip their morning coffee and read their papers. i want a job like that, something exciting, something up to date, something unpredictable.

i had my small taste of being a writer when i was in sec school. when i used to write to friday weekly and let them show my articles. about how i felt about the world and the surroundings. about what i loved. and they never failed to print my articles on the newspaper, though small it maybe. i had a special name for myself. it was "xin ling" in friday weekly. there was this once, they showed my article about UFM 1003 in the paper. about what i loved about them and how good they were, in a way it was a way to pay credit to them. for being my fave radio station at that time. when i was listening in to the top 20 countdown on sunday morning on UFM 1003, one of the radio DJs, danny yeo, read my article out. i was soo excited that i glued myself to the radio, listening to his comments and boy, i was so pleased with myself. seriously. tried to dial into the station to tell them that i was the one who wrote in, but i couldnt get through. but really, the euphoria was fantastic. wonderful. i was on such a high for the entire day after that. wow.
i miss writing.

we can never predict the news any time. neither can we predict what kind of music the singers are going to come up with. neither can we predict when singapore is going to produce another local talent like stefanie sun. we never know. people may argue, we never know what might happen in the business world too. nobody could predict the dotcom failure. nobody could predict the eruption of news over the enron crash. they affect the people's lives too. BUT. i just have a preference over the media than the business.

instead i chose the well trod path and im on my way to becoming an accountant. something that i had never thought about all along until jc. never. it never crossed my mind, being an accountant. i dint even know what an accountant did for a living in the past. not until when i was in jc. but then i only knew they dealt with figures. but reality is painting another picture for me now.
somehow i have this feeling that i am not cut out for the business world.
somehow i feel that this is not what i really want.but. dont blame me for choosing this path.because i know i dont. i know that most people would actually take a safe route out of the studying world before stepping out into the real world. and my future plans are not cast in a die yet.

who would choose to pursue their own dreams now at university level? who would. who knows exactly what they want to do it life, and be sure they would follow it throughout the entire life before retiring to enjoy life? there may be some, but the majority? i dont think so. plenty of people keep telling me that a mass comns degree will get you nowhere. and i am inclined to agree. unless you excel in your arena at university level, or have a certain degree of looks [read joanna peh] and catch the eye of the broadcasting firms as an artiste. i thought i would be safer doing a professional degree first, before i really head out and pursue my passion. but then again, who knows by the time i graduate from school, i might want to work and earn a certain amount of income before i really pursue my interest again. i dont know. nobody can predict the future.
though sometimes i do wish that im doing something of interest to me now.
cos financial accounting is boring. dry like hell. hahaha.
and i still wanna have a go at being in the media industry. maybe i might go for the radio academy when i have the money [a one week course is $500, i checked it out. i dont mind shelling out the time since the courses are held at night, but i dont have the money! blearh.] maybe i might end up being a journalist in the money section for the straits times in future? who knows. heh. im just trying to look on the bright side of life. the sunny bright HOT side of life. grin.


dont worry, im just reflecting upon my choices.
choices that have been decided and done, but just thinking about them.
thinking of my choices is not a sin, neither is regretting my choices.
however, instead of channelling my regret into something negative, why not use it in the positive sense?i sound philosophical, dont i? i dont know. suddenly im thinking profound for tonight. :)

today was a nice dayy. sprung a little surprise on the nus people this afternoon. and effectively dragged ruoling out [or rather you came out on your own accord :) ] of her lecture. oops. hee.

had only FA this morning and i survived the entire lesson without msning. not that msn was down [in fact i think its up and running again :) ] but i was a very nice person and lent my lappie to yuan [hey you still owe me a treat! :) ] for her comns in class assignment. we went out for lunch today, considering we both had no more classes and we dint wanna eat in school. wahaha. went down the entire list of possible eateries along bukit timah road and when she said she wanted to eat sushi, we ended up deciding to go genki at NUS. grin. called eileen when we were on our way out of school and she sounded so excited! :) so happy. took 151 down and we talked about smu in general..reached NUS and the first person whom i saw wasnt a nus student but smu student.. cos i saw sandy with her boyfriend and another friend! :) heh. how ironic. and she thought we wanted to eat at the yusof ishak canteen. grin. made eileen come down to genki with us. sijia joined us after a short while too!! at first only me and yuan were eating, but we somehow managed to tempt the other two into eating $8.50 worth of sushi and dessert between them. grin. yuan and i stuffed ourselves silly with jap food.. heh. we were talking about the differences between smu and nus people while we ate. and the genki icecream was sooo nice [even though i only stole one small mouthful from sijia since the icecream was damn ex].. hahaha..

sat at the yusof ishak house canteen and chitchatted while me and yuan ate icecream [60cents cheapo icecream per cone :) ] and ruoling came down too [by effectively skipping her physics lecture for about half an hour :) oops. ] talked and crapped. of course, with the monstar talk. *cookie* its a lingo that only the 33 girls would understand.. :) monstar says "i love ruoling and xinxin" and runs away from venus and eileen. :) and waits for sijia to pat his head. with one cracked eye. monstar is a dirty blue small cookie monster softtoy, given to me by mok kor. he is effectively pampered by ruoling xinxin sijia, bullied by venus and eileen. i swing both ways, depending on who i am with. i either play the evil owner, or protector from venus ;) and we went through the usual of trying to steal each other's stuff though today i was the targetted person. eileen new took my X430 and ruoling almost ran away with my lappie! hahaha. the sweet funny memorable things we used to do back in jc still stays with us. :) and to top it all off, yanlian msged me at the same time too! :) what a jc gathering today :)


some shoutouts to the class people:
ruoling: *cookiecookie* *nana's bullying me.. can i move into your hall? i promise not to FINISH your cookies.."
xinxin: ORANGE PINK RED ORANGE PINK RED ORANGE PINK RED ORANGE PINK RED [i hope the sole mention of such words will irritate you like hell ;) ]
venus: heyy girl heard your samsung phone kena virus ah, go fix it! and suan xinxin for me, gang up with ramnik kk? [xinxin, show this msg to venus kk? i dont think that girl reads my blog. hehehe.]
eileen: oei, now no more chiobu, you better gimme someone to suan you about! :)
sijia: SHOPPING TRIP AFTER EXAMS!!! I WANT TO GO ON OUR ORCHARD TRIPS!! [remember jc? grin. johnny english and taka food :) ]
yanlian: heyy sweet girl, come smu to look for me!! we can compare FA notes! grin.
elsa: hey girl. havent heard from you for soooo long le.. wherefore art thou?
jinyang wilbur dewen: enjoy NS while you can. grin.

i love you all. forever and ever. *BIG HUGS*

rumour has it that msn is down in smu because of a nasty virus spreading around through msn as happy.exe. now all of us are suffering as we can see each other online but we cannot talk to anybody on msn. me and elaine has already reverted back to icq. good ol' icq.
but on the other hand, we think that this is a good way to make the students listen, because most of the time when our laptops are on, we are usually msning. which is true to a certain extent. hem. for all we know, this may be a plot to make us listen. *coughs coughs* grin.
good thing we dont have stats tmr, or else the prof wont see anybody in class, because we all msn in her class. grin. listening occasionally, but msning most of the time. mm interesting. grin.

never let me loose with a credit card in my hand at ikea.
i WILL sweep EVERYTHING into my bag and head towards the counter to pay. and burst the credit card at the maximum limit.
hahaha.

from the sound of what im saying, its kinda obvious i just came back from ikea. with a brand new corkboard and other little things. hehehe. i always lug something home whenever i visit ikea. how typical of me. somebody should be there to stop me from buying and eyeing things. oooh i want this $195 chair which is damn comfy and nice to curl up in to study and read my books. hehe. somebody stop me!!

it was kinda like a mini exco lunch today, cos jiahui was there too :) had a hard time finding seats cos it was a sunday and ikea was crawling with babies, toddlers, families, couples, and of course, US! :) us meaning me fishball gab and jiahui :) we showed the singapore kiasuism spirit by splitting up to get table of four for us. grin. ooh i love swedish meatballs. they are so so so so so so nice [point taken? :) ]. and their chicken wings too. and their choc mousse. help im growing fat. heh. refused blatantly to step on the weighing scales when gab was prompting me to step on. NO WAY. cos i know i've gained weight. hehehe. now i shall start losing weight. but how do i start? hem. i need to go down to 50kg. die. such a long way ahead. helllppp. heheh.
twas nice talking to jiahui, considering how little i talk to her nowwadays :) and we were talking about who we havent heard from for a long long time. ooh next slated exco outing: 18/19 dec. the weekend before christmas. i hope everybody can make it, cept for lxinyi since she's already overseas. reminder to email the exco :)

had a nicee time today :)
just spending quality time with my nice close friends :)
i love you guys :) cos you guys make my day :)

a last minute planned BBQ turned out damn well i must say. grin. so much for us the kc [i.e. kanchiong] spiders. hehe. nickname we gave ourselves during one of the games prof kong had for us in class. grin. i really enjoyed myself yesterday. i wonder, what about the rest. mm. and i wonder out of the whole LTB group, who reads my blog. eh people, tag me lei. grin. thanks jason, for having to put up with my temper when i realised the change of plans on wed night. mm wells. thats me la, being a tad too impatient and pessimistic sometimes. i agree, i can be overly optimistic, but extremely pessimistic at times. mm oh wells.

we had too MUCH food yesterday. honestly. seriously.
who on earth would have CRABS for BBQ? we did. hehehe. i wonder who ate the crabs in the end. i know i dint. grin. i ate the prawns though. but i think $12 per person was alright for the BBQ, considering the vast amount of food we had. hotdogs, taiwanese sausages, prawns, pork chops, crabs, chicken wings, stingray, sweet potatoes and corn [which we dint quite touch i think], steak [courtesy from jason1, our fantastic TA ;) and it was damn good, considering the last minute marination. grin.].
burp. i was damn full la. first time for a BBQ. wahaha.
played bridge, watched singapore idol together.. cooked together, ate together. the weather was fine, what more could we ask for? grin. oh MARTIN, i accidentally deleted the photo where you were pretending to drink the fountain water.. so sorry! :( ooh and we bbq-ed marshmellows too! yummy yumyum. hahaha.
last night was a simple night, but fun. :)which made me come to realise i love my LTB mates, for being such lax slack pals. y'all know, instead of the competitive conflicting groups others might have, i've come to treasure and love the peacefulness we have. heh.
SMILE. :) it is definitely a very different group i've encountered so far.
very different. cos we're DIFFERENT. lame. lalalala.


went out with ramnik and huiling just now, did a bit of shopping and celebrated huiling's birthday for her. :) she's one soul whom im really thankful for helping me stay sane and alive in smu. whee. *big hugs* bought her a nice little bracelet for her, hope she likes it. stay happy and cheerful always girl :) pizza taglio has wonderful pizza, went there twice in a week le. oops.
i should start going on a diet.
i love my hc mates as well, people like nik and huilinh [consider her a hc mate even though she was here only for 3 months :) ] yuan is considered a hc mate too! :) grin. and xinxin, me and ramnik were talking about getting you bright PINK RED ORANGE stuff throughout our shopping trip. bet you would have looveed them right? grin. missing you too. :) *hugs* if only you were here today..

us three at pizza taglio :D 

sleepy huiling + me :) 

ramnik and huiling :) 

my fave photo: smu Xmen :) 

kaili steph sandy ros me :) 

guys: jason1 jason2 martin billy 

smu xmen + billy's friends. a little shaky tho. 

mass marshmellow bbq-ing session :) 

jason sandy ros kaili [while watching spore idol] :) 

a little erratic blogging nowadays. hem.
tireddd. but happy. :)
will blog about BBQ tmr. and outing with nik and huiling tmr. after i get home in the evening.
goodness i think i've been playing a little too much.
whee.

well, its the hols. i cant help it.
grin.

im online. on msn. on away mode. looking at the people online. i realise i cant be bothered to chat on msn. sheesh. sian.

i finally got my old layout back. and this time round i wont lose the pictures. cos i saved them to my own server. wahaha. grin.
enjoy the pictures i just put up :) pictures of the dinner, and admire my very chio female cousins, plus alrighty-looking guy cousins. wahahaha. ooops. i hope none of them are reading this, but if you guys are, tag me kk? :) *hugs to all my cousins*

somebody googled me this morning. or last night. what the fuck.
oh wells. why would people wanna google me?

me yiling and my grandma :) with yiling's dad at the corner :) 

me my grandma yiling and cheryl 

The guy cousins 

took from the side of the car when i was on my way to my maternal grandmother's birthday dinner.  

nice? *nods* 

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be like me, a movie pirate and you will no longer have worries when and whom to watch a movie with. afterall movie pirates are sad and lonely souls like me who dont have the time nor the company to watch with. how sad. we are usually unattached souls in a lonely environment.
oh wells. there's one good thing about movie pirates though, we save plenty of money.
wahahaha. im madd. ignore me please.



dint manage to go for og chalet due to some family matters, hence im staying at home. but alas. what a nice weather to be at sentosa today. a freaking hot weather. sense my sarcasm? heh. gary was whining this morning that i left him all alone to go down to sentosa alone in the car. but at least he was driving. grin. and managed to get dawn to tompang his car too. whee. me and siying were fetched around in school from biz block to raffles due to our change in meeting rooms (i know, zhe yang ye shuang. grin.) and back to food haven where we had lunch. meeting today was a fun affair, with us fooling around sometimes and doing serious work at times. grin. will be spending one whole day at home tmr. with my books and my newly bought frank sinatra 60 songs cd.



i want jazz on cinema I and II!! i love the songs in there. i think im going a little high on jazz. but still i cant help myself. was staring at the series of SOHO cds yesterday which ranged from late night jazz to new orleans jazz to natkingcole trio to dean martin and frank sinatra. if i had the money i would have bought the entire collection home. wahhaha. oh im so in love with the songs from the thirties and forties. heh heh. im so OLDD.


been hell of a busy week for me since saturday. such that i dint have time to check my mail, not even to blog, which explains my absence from blogging and msn over the weekend. so joycez, paiseh i wasnt online to talk to you. but dint you say you were gonna cold turkey yourself until monday after your stats test? grin. hope your stats was alright today. grin.



had badminton session on saturday morning, since i arrived late [in fact very late] i dint play much of badminton this weekend. but it was nice going to the library together, and trying to find out the name of the book which me and fishball read in sec 2 for ERIL. seemed like going down memory lane then. hee awww how sweet. grin.had tuition in the afternoon with the kids and time passed easily this time round. maybe cos i was prepared for the lessons i suppose. yea. and went for my maternal grandmother's birthday dinner celebration on sat night. had a wonderful chat with my cousin, such a wonderful chat. im glad that she's my cousin, we had so much to talk about. thanks eileen [as in, eileen my cousin, the S79 one. grin.]. talked about school life, bitched about the people and everything else. heh.

sunday morning was a rushed affair of celebrating my paternal grandmother's birthday. whoa two restaurant meals is damn fattening and sinful. hahaha.met kailyn in the late afternoon and we went shopping together. i realise i can only shop with her, cos we know each other so well, each other's tastes and budget wise. so it feels really nice and comfortable shopping with her. grin. ended up getting myself a giodanos three quarts [nicee material] which was $43 and i still wonder if i kiv-ed the mango three quarts. ooh i think there was a sale at zara yesterday, looking by the crowds. hehe. ate at pizza taglio's and i must say the prices are reasonable and the food was good :) whee. had a nice long talk with her over dinner and on the bus, telling her about my feelings about life nowadays. jaded and all. tired. which is exactly what im feeling now. oh wells.





there are some thoughts i have in my mind now that i would like to tell the smu people, about myself. but its pretty confusing now so i'll sort out my thoughts first before i put them out. my true honest opinions. and jason2, thanks for your sms this morning. they always somehow come at the right time :)

i have a thing for shadowmist's layouts. they are just so nice. and plenty of space for me to pour out my crap/sorrrows/happiness/whatever. yea. this white one puts me at peace even though i prefer the old green one. i wanna be me. but i like this too.
whineee. i miss the old layout.



anyway a shoutout to the biz people.
good luck for FA mid terms tmr! :) esp you, joyce. mug hard for FA and stats and you'll be free on monday :) *hugs*

the layout has been changed because i lost the picture. dint upload onto my own server. damnit.

i liked that layout. alot.


damn.