OVERWHELMED.

i suddenly feel very overwhelmed when the later part of the week comes in.
im still lost for taxp, because i have no idea which part of the chapters prof want us to read. and and i have very limited time for audit if i continue to dedicate thurs mornings to maple. >< and i dont wanna lag behind!
but i HEARTS my ipr mates, even though we barely know each other for 2 weeks. they are all so lovable. i think i've got a great team, and a fantastic crapster to talk kok with me. :)

so much work. so little time.

and i gian the samsung laser printer that is going for 99bucks at comex.
but comex is at friggin ulu expo.
like what i told my beloveds, if comex was at suntec, i'll be camping there this morning. :(

I WANT...

1. a pair of good high quality headphones - grado, sennheiser, shure, audiotechnica - anyone of it please.
im a darn sucker for headphones, and when i mean headphones i dont mean plug into the ear kind of headphones. im more of the big bulky headphones kinda girl, but since i cant bring that out on the streets before i get stared at like a weirdo, im opting for the in-your-ear kind. was looking at a pair of yummilicious sleek noise reduction sennheiser earphones that goes for 100 a pop. im gonna save up for it. ruoling, i dont think i want the neon green one le! teehee. alternatively, i've read about grado, may wanna check that out for home usage. and and the shure e3c has got good design, plus good reviews. im thinking of getting 2 pairs now, one in-your-ear for outside use, and one big fugly comfy ooozy black one for home usage.
yummy all, i want.

2. a 60gb - 80gb external hard disk.
given the amount of data and entertainment stuff i have, this is kinda self explanatory huh.
prices begin at $101 for hitachi and $128 for samsung, if im looking at the 80gb one. mmm.

3. k800i
wooot the latest sleek droolicious 3.2megapix phone camera from SE, my current love. i want i want! and i might just be able to get it for $200 on avg if i were to trade in my trusty k750i that is barely 1 year 1 month old. mmm i shall think.

4. books
been eyeing a couple of titles whenever i browse bookstores. i wanna read devil wears prada before i watch the movie with the girls. and was looking at the story of pi, the english version of the kite runner [i bought the chinese version in shanghai and havent gotten around to it], the latest book of patterson, any weiner books.. i just feel like spending on books.

5. computer games
i've been eyeing that 2 chinese games for eons i think they are gathering dust on the shelves. and i cant seem to find the chinese games shops at fulushou complex today. have they shifted? shall check with dq or wenyang again someday. and and yes i would wanna try dota, but im very certain if i do not want to end up with failing modules this semester [cuz im trying to work hard], then dota is NOT the way to go right now.

XXXXX

and im supposed to be saving.
on one hand, i keep thinking that if i were to foresake what im saving for, i can get all these at the snap of the fingers. but im not willing to foresake that ultimate aim of mine, so saving is the way to go.
if i wanna splurge on any of the above, it will have to come out of the limited funds i have right now, which means more saving. and im telling you, that pair of sennheiser earphones is top on the list. i have to get it before i start mugging seriously for exams.
and when i look back at it all, i find it amusing that this list could jolly well appear on a guy's to-buy list and it would seem perfectly fine and normal.

i am not a girl. o.O

ALMOST MID WEEK!

hooray its almost midweek!
and i should be getting down reading my ipr notes in prep for tmr's class.. while not being able to maple because being the very nice brother brandon is, he has offered to train sodiume for me. i trust my account into his hands and if anything goes missing im gonna come after you my xiao didi!! hahaha no la, im sure nothing will go missing except for pots hiaks. now he's threatening to ruin sodiume by making her flirt with ingame characters. oomps will be upset. :(

but this is good, since brandon is having his holidays and i've got to mug. he can play his head off while i mug my ass off. but aside from maple, its nice having a brother, someone whom i can bully muahahaha!
and did i mention, jolvin is my twinny! our maple chars look so similar, just that his metro hair is blue whilst mine is red. but im tempted to change hairstyle sia.

btw, there's a new page right at the top, named sampan diaries. its belovedly named by brandon, who gave my lvl 70 weapon - the redemption the nickname of sampan paddle and it kinda stuck after a few months since i did 3rd in end may/early june. i like the name sampan paddle even though i scold him for giving it such an ugly name. and i like to whack brandon with my sampan paddle :) so i named my maple diary as the sampan diaries, even though its not up yet. i need to go dig out old screenshots first. and i need to take peektures with my twinny!

maybe i'll pop in later using his account.
cant wait for tmr, its a trip to school, then ymca, then simlim! ruoling, gimme a call when you are somewhere near my school hor :)
and the siblings have made a pact to go bunking next monday! wooooooooot~
maybe i can coerce him to watch a movie with me hahaha =P

SUNDAY NIGHTS

sunday nights are always spent staring at pdf files, thinking of the class next day, and what to brief my freshies on. and i've got a survey that i havent quite started on. there are so many things to take note of for ltb, i get abit messy myself, which shouldnt be the case.

i should go get started on re-reading the pdf files. hey i've been reading them, its just that i need to refresh my memory. and i've got a lunch date with them as well. it was supposed to be a lunch date with elaine :( neh mind, there are still many mondays to go.

week 2 starts tmr, 14 more weeks to go!
we like to count down to the end of term you see. but it doesnt quite make a difference since i SHOULD have an internship coming up in december. >.<

cant wait for wed, where there's ipr class and simlim with ruoling!
cant wait for the forbidden city, me and xinxin went to buy tix today, and we caught up at the macs of the cc near my place. we're thinking [or rather she's thinking and want to drag me in] of running stan chart for leisure. time to get my ass off my chair/bed and start training for stan chart which is 4 months away. ruoling you wanna run? for fun for fun. you know me, i wonder if i can make it pass the 5km mark =X we spent almost $85 each for the forbidden tix, and im damn sure it will be worth it. venus wants to jio us for notre dame, but its super expensive [reminds me of another west side story] but im sure it will be darn good. but the cat 1 tix are like $198? *faints*

and im supposed to be saving money. i am, im trying! i swear i really am :)

and maple is irritating me. f* singtel/starhub/whichever isp is blocking the majority of the singtel players from having smooth gameplay. im like 1.5 levels away from lvl 80! which is a long way, but considering im not playing with 2x now, it doesnt seem as far as it is hiaks.
and rambly is on her way to 3rd. jiayou jiayou jiayous! :)

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED.

1. Do the following WITHOUT complaints.
2. Start your post with "I have been tagged!"

I have been tagged.

Favourites
Favourite colour: orange and purple!
Favourite food: cheese and eggs.
Favourite song: michael buble's any song
Favourite movie: the italian job
Favourite sport: does go karting count?
Favourite day of the week: any weekday morning
Favourite season: spring
Favourite ice-cream: sticky chewy chocolate

Currents
Current mood: relaxed
Current taste: toothpaste!
Current clothes: uni-y teeshirt + fbt shorts
Current deskstop: black bkgrd - i hate trains
Current time: 1154am
Current surroundings: my room
Current annoyances: my freshies are not listening to me
Current thoughts: i need 5 files for my messy notes

Firsts
First best friend: how the hell would i know? that was pri sch times.
First crush: mm someone from kindergarten :) and i forgot his name.
First movie: eher. HUH?
First lie: -.-
First music: the late eighties chinese music from capitol958

Lasts
Last cigarette: what happens if i have never even started?
Last alcoholic drink: vodka jelly with jason&angie at raffles city basement
Last car ride: taxi ride with yy home from orch!
Last crush: does wilber pan count? :)
Last movie: lake house
Last phone call: tim dar!
Last CD played: nathan hartono's let me sing

Have you ever
Have you ever dated your best friend: nopes.
Have you ever broken the law: does littering count?
Have you ever been arrested: oh hooray someone put me in jail QUICK!
Have you ever skinny-dipped: no figure how to do that? besides i think i'd be arrested.
Have you ever been on TV: yes.
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: no.

5 things you are wearing: specs. uni-y shirt. fbt shorts. underwear. earrings.
4 things you did today: mapled. mapled. read one page of notes. sent email.
3 things you can hear right now: music from my sis's room, my mum's nagging, my typing
1 thing you do when you are bored: maple

I now tag
ruoling!
yuan!
roo!
joycet!
alicia!

im sorry but im just bored. :)

TIRED

why dont someone start counting the number of blog posts titled "tired"?

cuz im really tired. like really tired .

today
class was good, prof was goood. like really fantastically good.
company was good.
vivace was good, albeit a li' suffocating. saw lots of people/friends/acquaintances.
attempted to be a freshie at the asoc booth, with gary trying to sign me on -.- dint work.
was supposed to stop by symphonia to pretend to be a freshie as commanded by huiling, but her friend reckoned i'd be recognised. >.<
mugging session [yes i have started. my foot la. was doing ipr readings photocopying.] with nicole darlings was good!
dinner with nicole darlings was even better! the yummilicious cheesy chicken&ham, compounded with the sinful yet delightful cakes, on top of the yakking session we had, was simply heavenly. and we happily kept her male friend waiting for 20 minutes. or was it half hour? i have no idea.


this entire week has been a refreshing one for me. i havent had a five day week for more than a year and somehow it feels so different from a 3 day week. yes i've been complaining to anyone who would listen to me about my outrageous timetable, but at the same time, i cant help but feel that a five day week makes school feels more like school.
and this timetable really tires me out. i start off the week mild, by having ltb sessions with my freshies and then a lukewarm ethics class with a prof who is so fatherly and jolly i just feel like hugging him because he commented that a student had once nicknamed him santa claus. then things start to pick up with a funky lesson midweek, training me to look out for ipr issues, and a brain consuming session with my all time favourite prof in taxp, and ending it with a big bang during the AA class where the prof is equally good and motherly! i must admit, my profs are good this sem, but it gets so brain consuming towards the end of the week, i hope i dont get burnt out by midterm. >.< i need to balance work and play.
*chants like a mantra* i need to balance work and play. i need to balance work and play. i need to balance work and play.

looking forward to forbidden city, i hope tanlixin has gone to buy tix today :) or was it yesterday? i've lost track of time.
looking forward to more mugging/chilling sessions with nicole darlings!
looking forward to learning bollywood dance in prep for art fest with yihua and huikeng! i suppose huikeng and i will die of laughing fits during rehearsals. we already had one yesterday, when we swore not to pangseh each other for the ics dance hahaha.
looking forward to the busy-ness of school term, yet dreading the stress toll that comes with it all.

dearest friends,

in order to keep teo nana sane and in working order, please date her more often so that she will not drown in the pile of work that will grow to a mountain by week 6. and this is an order, not a plead. hahahas. i want to crash nus to mug! i dont want to be a smu-gger. ;)

lotsa hugs&kisses
nanateoweina. (:

LOOK AT THIS!

it was a bright fun sunny day after IPR lesson*, which happened to be fantabulous!, that i just had a very late lunch/early dinner @ sess kopitiam. was walking back to accountancy block where i had left all my stuff in the locker, so i was going back to retrieve it. to my amusement i saw this banner right at the entrance of the SOA building, so i was checking out the people who happened to be in the picture. then i saw ron, and i was like AHA, together with thermin somemore. then i walked closer. and walked closer. and to my horror, it was the picture we took at SMUve last year where we moved from old campus to new campus and MY BIG FACE IS THERE! rawr! im like right next to yuan, who was in the red shirt.
pwhoah i was like )(*&%^#%$@)@)(*@.
this is the second time my picture has been used without my knowledge! at least this time round, i found it out myself, instead of having people to come tell me "oh look your picture was in sososososo magazine." -_-
and the best thing was, the security guard recognised me. as i walked closer to the gantry, he asked, "eh thats you in the picture right?" i was like er... yea. >.< and the security guard was super amused because he reckoned he had seen me walk past this gantry a couple of times ever since school started and it took me this long to realise that i was on the banner.

how fantastic. -.-

and and oh!
*IPR lesson was a blast, really! the prof was great and entertaining, super funkay, together with uber nice classmates whom i hit off with immediately as the lesson progressed. and i found myself a project group without too much of a hassle! things are loooking good i'd say :) 

PC-BUNK.

i want to whineeee.
oompa pangseh me. we were supposed to go pc-bunking but he pangseh me.
RAWRRRRRRRRR.

i want to pc bunk tmr before class at 5. WHINEEEEEEEEEE.
whineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

SECOND DAY

somehow school is starting to feel like home, for some weird reason or other. its comforting to walk around school with friends, and meet friends along the way, catch up for a few minutes along the corridors. it feels good to be meeting people by chance in the same building twice in two days, and yakking like we havent seen each other for a million years. it feels warming, when some of our teammates get teased for being so tight even after coming back from shanghai, and having me whine non stop to alvin, trying to convince him to get jacob to change the minds cafe outing to next tuesday, with rodney laughing by the side, and encouraging me on.

somehow i feel, this is what school should really be. the hustle and bustle of a warm friendly environment, with familar faces and friends all around. this is what i call, school.

its weird that this only dawn upon me after 2 whole years of education in the smu system. i remember vividly, i used to hate it alot, with a veageance. that was when i felt lonely in the environment, with people passing me by and strange faces along the corridors. but now after 2 years, familar faces in my fellow batch of accountancy mates will give an occasional smile along the way even though we barely know each other. we know each other with the mere reason of each other's existence and knowing that, it will be further entwined in the coming years, whether we like it or not. its comforting to have fellow friends who are no longer in the same classes as we were once in, yet emailing each other, jio-ing to go for XXX recruitment talk, or YXZ career fair together. at least now, i know that i wont have to face all these alone.

its reassuring to know, that you have been missed. bumped into xin today at SOA B1 while i was waiting for the lift to meet alvin, and yakked with her for a while, only to have her tell me that fellow friends were wondering why i dint take AFA or AMA classes with them. really, that small little action touched me alot. it only goes to show that im not some passing figure who once shared some fun times with them, and after that one class im gone *poof* and even though i was telling yuan that she has a bunch of super power guys in her AFA class, i also remember the times we had, rushing the ais report and presentation, how dorky and lame the guys became, and yet funny enough for me to treasure the memories. those are sweet memories you know.

feels kinda weird not to be having the exact same classes as xin, i miss her already! but tis okay, i'll see her on thurs for tax planning! and then i'll see yihua and huikeng and zhihui and siying :) the same bunch of friends who have accompanied me through most of my classes in smu from year 2 onwards. and i miss friends like elaine and gina and nicole!! the times we used to have.. its okay, we'll see each other in school and love those meetings even more, like how me and elaine plan to have lunch together every monday :)

i think, the feeling of being a senior is very different from being a freshie. we are no longer the blur and lunzhun freshies who bumble around the school aimless, trying to find their bearings in the school both literally and figuratively. we are the ones who stride confidently down the corridors, knowing where we are going and where we want to be headed ultimately. at least, we should be. there's this sassiness that you can find easily in seniors, that we have matured gracefully and are ready to let things go if there is a need to be. if it is to be, if it comes, so be it. if it is not meant to be, if it doesnt come, so be it as well.

its time when i see my fellow 1985 males as people who are less of age then the 1985 females. dont ask me why, its just a FEEL. dont even think of flaming me for it. its only a FEEL. somehow, i see them as .. xiao didis? hahaha. okay it sounds weird. i take them ALL back *crosses fingers*
okayokay. i shant say anymore, if not i might just really get flamed for thinking im "older" than the guys born in the year of 1985. but hello, nasir said via msn last night that he felt as though i was their BIG SISTER with this cheery grin and reassuring smile during LTB. >.< do i have a cheery grin and reassuring smile? o.O


LOLS.
time for me to get started on work.
tmr's THE class which i bidded alone for. wish me luck :)

SLEEPY.

barely 25 minutes into class and im sleepy ALREADY. like really sleepy.
im trying very hard not to fall asleep. like VERY HARD.
90% of the class are girls. 40% of the class are year 3 accountancy girls.
some are trying very hard to stay awake, others are busily typing at their lappies.
prof is droning on and on about privacy in sg.
and i swear i wll never have lunch before a noon class.
having the ALS* is very bad.

*ALS = after lunch syndrome.

i want to go and playyy. whine.
they wanna go minds cafe tonight but seriously, im very tired. >.<

FIRST DAY AGAIN!

first day of lessons - LTB/LTM

walked into class only to see a familar face - IAN! haha. he was in my comns class 2 years back and he can still remember me LOLS! and i thought i was low profile enough heh. and he was surprised at how i COULDNT recognise his name in the mailing list. how would i to know there is only ONE ian in school -.-
there was brekkie for us TAs due thanks to zhuang! hehe. :) nice nice dimsum. then we chose our groups. TADAH nasir was in my group and im like O.O my lucky hands picked the paper you see hahaha. this LTB class has quite a good mix of students. we had once french exchange student and prof kept speaking french, and talking about zidane to him. o.O so far, i quite like the look of my group :) shall do my job well and attempt to be not so absent minded!
oooh and i earned a free text for LTB hahaha. first class that i was given a text for free :)

going back to school was great. wandered about sch for a while and bumped into loads of friends before walking/running over to PS. went to locker at SOA to put my text and notebook in, saw rod along the way. that guy ah, came to sch when he dint have class -_- i'd be sleeping at home lor. and and saw laura dearie when i was walking along the underpass to SESS :) yakked with her for a while before moving on. :) i think i will go pay rach a visit at the VERTS bazaar tmr morning wheeee!

meeting up with friends today was greaaaat with a BIG CAPITAL G.
i like this kind of meet ups, where you sit talk and eat. and then you walk abit, change venue sit talk and eat somemore. muahahaha. its really fun you know, because you catch up with the person, and get to know the person better along the way.
so that was basically what happened today.
met ben for lunch, we sat at aijisen [my first time at aijisen believe it or not!] and yakked for ... a very long time. moved to orch, visited kino for a short while where i attempted to find my law books while he tried to spend his $10 kino voucher, and then moved to mos to sit and talk somemore! it felt really good talking to him, catching up with him, and talking about almost anything under the sun. havent talked like this for EONS mind you. haha.
then we prank call-ed yy. by right, he wanted to prank call MY MOTHER when i was returning a call home, but i wasnt gonna let him do that heh. NO WAY MAN. but i told my mummy about it and she laughed her head off, and said that she'd have played along. -_- so i suggested, why not prank call my friends? so we decided on jt, but she dint pick up! so we called yy and she saw through the plot hahahah!
so they came to find us, all 3 met, ben left and i had the 2 girls for company!
we sat and yakked, bought milkshakes from mos, drank and yakked. oh oh and we wrote a letter to junjun! please please please remind me to send the letter out, or it will be like jt's bday card, still left placed safe in the drawer hehe.
moved to pepper lunch for dinner [lunch for dinner. -.-], and yakked somemore. then we left for home! me and yy were feeling lazyyyy and we dint wanna take public transport home, so we cabbed home >< and we yakked somemore. :) i love yakking with friends :) just small simple things like that pleases me to no end.

and now i need to send an email reminder to nicole darlings about our high tea yakking session on friday afternoon :) we want to yakyakyakkaty yak! hahaha. and i shall bug tim dar to see if we wanna go pcbunking on thurs before my tax class at 5pm hehe. im soo naughty!
but aiyah, tis first week of school, can slack abit hor?

and i cant confirm if the shanghai team is going minds cafe tmr for ladies night? i wanna play boardgames! weeeee!
right now i shall go read my ethics, do some writing up before watching videos or playing maple. i bet brandon would rather me maple. but im like so stuck at lvl 78. brandon, i give you pw you train for me la. I REALLY GIVE UP. :(

first class!

first class has ended and it was super interesting!
especially when i have a fellow primary sch class mate in my LTB group.
hahahas i nearly peng-ed on the spot when i realised that the paper i chose had nasir in it ><

alrighty bat running low, time running out. gotta run to PS asap to meet ben for lunch.
toodles~
more updates tonight ba :)

and and i got a free text! hahaha.

UNDONE THINGS.

rahhs school starts tmr and i have EONS of stuff not done!
LIST OF THINGS TO DO:
1. read all the pdf docs joanne sent by tonight in prep for ltm tmr.
2. get a new notebook for my scribblings/notes/blahs
3. take down venues for classes [check]
4. visit vista for uploading of materials in week 1
5. buy all my texts
6. think of what to wear tmr [dang i need to be in something proper. its first TA session tmr! dont i sound bimbotic? hahas.]
7. clean up my school email [check]
8. note down all important dates in school calendar, if any
9. im thinking real hard. did i miss anything out?
10. MEET JOYCET&YY FOR DINNER!
11. MEET BEN FOR LUNCH!
*points 10&11 are added at 10pm, because i've received complaints that i forgot to add my appointments in, so tadah in case friends complain, here it is!

there are like so much materials to read for tmr and i havent thought of any ice breakers for my freshies tmr! this is scary *gasp* i can and i will manage. first, read the materials first! i wonder how menkhoff will conduct his LTB class hee. i hope its as interesting as his mpw class we had last year :) and i have to lay down ground rules with the group. mmm what can i say? rahs i shall go think.

boy im year 3. yes im year 3. 1.5 years more to graduating. this is very scary. mmm.
RAHHHHHHHHHHS.
has the start of school never be nerve wrecking to anyone? lols.

**editted at 10pm. note points 10&11 :)

THE END OF IT. AND THE BEGINNING OF IT.

its finally over.
and come monday, its the start of everything once again.
i often wonder, how i've made it past 2 long summer holidays and end up coming out so harried and tired from the summer holidays. last year, i was teaching right up till the second last week of holidays, and then i had one week of break and it was school again. this year i had summer class right up till the very end, and then 1.5 days worth of break before all hell breaks loose. ARGH.

neh mind. its okay.
i've enjoyed myself thoroughly during this long summer hols.
because i've done what i've wanted to do and set out to do.
i've taught back at hillgrove, i went overseas and had a hell of a time there, i came back and taught again, i've slacked for 3 weeks, and then i kickstarted my brain 4 weeks earlier by going for summer class.
and now, school starts all over again and we can once again start the countdown to end of term, which then spells start of internship for me, i hope and i guess. and then mod term starts, and its another 15 weeks.

interesting school email i received. strategy is going to be made available during mod term!
which then will leave me with GE art, 2 T&E courses, and 1 law mod.
by right given this combination, i can go overseas for an exchange because i think all these can be done overseas. but to do an exchange during last semester before i graduate is not really advisable. and where can i go? where do i want to go? HUMMM.
i shall ponder about it and ask around. no doubt i know what yh will say, try hk with her!! hahaha.
yuan, you still considering china? or maybe i might ask nic, im sure she'll be fine with china hiaks.
aiyah see how la. we'll see we'll see. :)

alrighty im tired.
and its high time for me to go enjoy myself with my videos and maple and whatnots. woooots!

BUSY

you know arh, i would love to foresee my coming sem as a carefree one like in the past.

but i cant. with a 5 day week, i simply cant.

and being a ta, i even more so cant.

 

it can only be described with one word.

BUSY.

 

and all these amidst mugging. fantastic!

all i hope is, i wont regret the busy-ness of everything.

and i will fulfil all my meeting ups. i swear.

SOCIABLE&FRIENDLY ≠ close&deep?

today was post trip project day!
the bunch of us brought a group of elderly to kusu island and sentosa for a walkabout and it was plenty fun! saw people whom i havent seen for ages, like nicole laura, and the usual gang who went for dance just last sunday as well! the elderly were energetic and fun, they even walked faster than we could hahas! upon reaching kusu island, the elderly went to the temple to 拜拜, and nic mich and me did likewise :) prayed for family&friends. then we took the rocky boatride back where i talked all the way to this elderly and her dad! boy she was 70 and her dad was 90+, and they were still healthy and springy!

reminds me of her.

was back at sentosa for lunch, where i was seated with rod ada and yp, having the most enlightening conversation ever for this current period of time. it felt real good. then me and rod followed up on our conversation and he got me thinking. his impression of me was being very sociable and friendly to everyone in the team, and when i told him how i really feel towards everything that has happened, he seemed utterly shocked because it seemed to differ so much from the impression he had.
and it was real good to have such in depth conversation with rod, suddenly i just felt so much closer to him than most people in the team. it was just a sudden feeling, at that point in time, like i could talk to him about anything everything under the sun. and it really felt good, seriously.

i guess im the typical geminian you see, dual sided with a side so bubbly and friendly that you'd think im seriously friendly to every single being on this entire earth. yet there's another private quiet side to me that not many people seem to be able to detect. and i dont think many people know about this as well. not that it makes a difference if im announcing to the entire world here, because you may still not get to see it ultimately. because im usually away from people when i enter that side of mine. i distance when there's a need and you wont see it in me.

do i really give people the impression that im sociable and friendly?
and really, does being sociable and friendly equates to building close and deep relationships and friendships with that person? i guess, after our conversation, it dawned upon us that the answer is a negative one.

on the surface, you can be real friendly and have tons of fun with a bunch of people, but when it boils down to the crux, who are the ones whom you'd approach to talk things out, and make you think in a clearer light? on the surface fun is much sought after, but deep down inside, what are you really looking for? what really lies beneath that bubbly facade of mine, and what do i really want?
people think i want fun and enjoyment, entertainment to the max. but do i? i dont think so. too much fun for me is an overkill, even though im supposed to be at my prime of 21. too much of superficial talk about fun fun and more fun is overkill for me. in fact, too much superficial talk for me is already an overkill for me.

i guess what im looking for is peace, serenity and stability. small doses of fun is welcomed of course, but not constantly and all the time. dont people need time to chill out? that is what chilling out is for ya, sitting down with a drink in hand, taking in the sights and sounds around you, having a good serious/lighthearted catching up or conversation. that is what i really want. fun, i'd rather have it in a different way. you know, not the typical clubbing [in fact i've never been a clubbing person and will never want to be], outwardly spelt FUN kind. i seek a different kind of fun, fun that is just shared between you and me, memories that will be of significance to me. like, having a picnic in a quiet corner and watching fireworks would be considered a different kind of fun to me, instead of going for the annual countdown where you squeeze and shout with people crowded around you.
i guess, nowadays i seek to be away from crowds and people. i prefer to deal with people one on one, or one on twos, like the same consensus me and nicole came to while she waited with me for the bus today. i've mentioned right, she's one friend whom i can count on to talk about anything under the sun, be it serious or light hearted and im glad for that.

this is supposed to be a sign for growing old. or jadedness. whatever.
all i know is, i've always been like this ever since young, ever since i could think proper and for myself. i knew that at times i would seek to be alone and have time alone, just to chill listen to my songs and browse the libaries, have a meal outside alone while reading a book.. window shop to my own pace and not feel lonely. and i've never been a fan of crowds, which ends up having me shun the crowds and countdowns. i'd rather be with one or two friends, away from the crowds, and chatting till the silence is like a comfortable pause between the two of us, instead of a stagnant one.
i still remember mayday last year, when ruoling&i went to catch budak in action at the mayday concert@ the esplanade. after they finished singing, we left the crowds and went to my favourite spot in singapore, the esplanade bridge. we sat there, yakked till the cows came home and watched fireworks from that very favourite spot of mine. these are the times which i extremely treasure, times where i consider it meaningful and fun and serene.

whats the point of having fun when its not meaningful? will it have a deep impression in your memories and leave an imprint such that you will remember it for life?

thats why i think, i mature too fast for my age. i skipped the entire chunk of meaningless fun and went straight to adulthood without passing the majority age of 21. i cant stand the mentality of my fellow year mates sometimes, but i dont show it. why spoil their fun by being a potential wetblanket?

im not saying meaningless fun is no good. its good when you enjoy it, but i dont, you see. i have meaningless fun when i go k songs with friends, but that doesnt bring back memories do it? the only k session that brings back fond memories is the last night we spent in shanghai, going totally high mad and wild during the k session. was it meaningful? yes it was because it was our last night together and we were treasuring the time together spent on the last night. was it serene? not particularly but i guess some people will find k-ing songs not an extremely fun activity. but it was fun to me at least.

i think i think too much for my age. i analyse too much. i have dual personality.
i think im too old and jaded even though im only 21.
i think i think therefore i am.
do i? am i?

MUGMUGMUG.

i think im in for bad news [or shall i say, music] tonight.
i was supposed to be in school late for post trip meeting because our outing is tmr with the elderly. so me and my tired brain/body was in one of the gsrs in sess, with the brain going on strike, and the body attempting to stop functioning. then rach called, asking me if i'd rather head home rest and study since my exam is on saturday. im like hoooray, i love joyce for being such a concerned friend! cuz i was just telling her in the morning im really dead beat and not sure if i could tahan till the night for the meeting. she told me to give rach a call and see what she said, but i thought that since i was already in school i might as well stayed. turned out, she talked to rach about it and rach gave me permission to go home to mug!

or so i thought i could mug.
as im done bathing, seated in front of my lappie ready to start another session of mugging, music from downstairs blast upwards.
from the getais!! *faints*
i think i have to plugin to my headphones tonight.
or maybe i should sleep first, and then crawl out from my bed after 11pm. on second thoughts, i dont think i can make it out of that bed. im really tired.. YAWNS.

sigh. i cant wait for exam to be over. but then again, once THE exam is over, i've got to prepare myself for the proper start of school, and the slavery for 15 weeks. and then internship, and then slavery for another 15 weeks. gawd by the time im actually done and proper, it'll be mid june.

and i owe so many people meetups!
meetup with ben, i know im so sorry! and you couldnt pop down and disappear today because i got to go home early >< neh mind we'll plan a day i promise!
meetup with brandon, i owe him a movie. di ah, i think by the time im actually free, tokyo drift will be long gone from the screens le.
meetup with szeyi, i havent see that babe ever since she went japan/aussie! and i wanna thank her in person for ugh!
meetup with jt&yy, but im seeing them this coming monday for dinner! jt, whenever you free hor, just call me! i can be your impromtu, and i wanna go tandem biking tooooo! *whines* in fact, i just wanna go cycle. but nooooo time.
meetup with tanlixin! darling i havent seen you for ages le!!! what durian buffet, how come you jio ruoling but not me? *whines*
meetup with eileenneweileen! i want mahjong session but i got examssss. find another day?
meetup with ruoling! hahaha this one neh enough one =) the more often i get to see my fave friend, the happier i am! yaya is still on chalet with meee!

im dragging my words so much, im turning into a whiner. speaking of whiner, i havent seen venus lee too!
ARGH. summer class did screw up my timetable in the end.
speaking of timetables, I HAVE A BLOODY SUCKY TIMETABLE THIS SEMESTER! rawr. its a 5 day week. budding engineers like ben who are supposed to have shiong timetables have a 3 day week, but me being in a biz school get a 5 day week! no fair! he gets long weekends [hello 4 day not called weekend liao lar] and i dont. *pouts*


fine i am whining.
shall stop whining nonsense.
im sleepy. and when im sleepy, i whine.
gdnite~

CLEANING UP!

i've been hardworking. like really hardworking!
hardworking at tuning up my baby lappie. ><
been installing some software to futher fine tune my lappie, and downloading registry cleaners because i've seen some well reccomended ones in digital life yesterday. got soo pekcek just now when my internet was konky and didnt want to let me download, what more instal. zzzz.
i just hope i dont delete away important materials. been scanning for unused and unwanted registry files and documents at the same time whilst i make the first and hopefully final draft of the redone PLAN. urgh.

ohoh did i mention, my new monstarboy is called ugh? ruoling named it yesterday when we were at pizzahut. LOLs!
szeyi, if you're reading, i wanna go shopping with you one day!

just met up with yuan today, and caught up with her! it was sorta an impromtu thing, cuz i was in school for class and she was at cit, so we decided to meet, have lunch and catch up! she wants to marry an american!!! [see i told you i'll broadcast it for you =P ] it felt real good catching up with her, since she has been away for godknowshowlong. teehee.
and we discussed plenty of things, amongst which some i felt was extremely relevant to me.

shall share them someday.
meanwhile im tired and i feel like bathing.
i think i shall go bathe. and then.. sleep. ><

RANDOM-NESS.

weeeeeeee~
oompa made sodiume angry t'day. he promised her to go omega with her. but when oompa's owner called sodiume's owner this afternoon, he made her angry because he went to omega without her. sodiume is upset. and because sodiume is upset, oompa is sad. in a fit of sadness, he announced his quitting, which resulted in NOOOs from duckie and orbiquacks from brandon. sodiume reckons she will be scolded if she plays later.
then nana meets tim&ruoling&lifang for dinner!
tim announces he uninstalled maplestory from his comp. nana squirms in her seat, and then meekly whines [can i actually meekly whine? i think it was more of commanded] tim to reinstall maple back in his comp. ruoling reckons its harmful both ways, with or without maple. so tim decides he will reinstal maplestory. both nana and ruoling are happy!
and ruoling is not 100% retired weeeeee~
and szeyi gave nana a new blue toy to replace monstar the dirty blue piece of shyt. :)
and ruoling gave nana a nodding table display toy! soo cuteee!
and and and..

nana is talking about herself from the third person point of view. how weird of her. o.O

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i think i was just being a little mad.
and i've just discovered that there are only 3 classes taking exam on saturday. -_-
and guess what, we're the last class to be having our exam on saturday AFTERNOON. will pan is gonna be at westmall at 5pm! *pouts like a little girl* no fair.
sigh. i was hoping for a morning exam, then at least i have the afternoon off to play. so that i can have tuition at night, and one full day of activities on sunday! now it looks like i only have free time on sunday night when i'll prolly reach home at nearly 9pm after dance @ esplanade at 630pm in the evening. sighhh.
wonder who is going down for dance this sunday. last sunday's dance was fun fun and super fun! i mean 9 of us went, that was me rach jy alvin jas camy dawny yinpin shiwei. ada and joyce couldnt make it last minute. now this time round there should only be about 6 of us i think. not very sure also. swing/lindy was fun! we only learnt the basics but it was better than nothing. i mean, they demonstrated the fancy stuff and broke it down into such simple steps it was really amazing! and i had fun bullying alvin because he had no idea where his hands should go! see right, we're supposed to grab our lady partners and turn them in by holding their backs. but he just swung his arm around and it looked so flappily funny. hahaha.
now this coming sunday's dance class gonna be flamenco, and i think we have ONE extra tix still for flamenco cuz joyce cant make it again. ANYONE INTERESTED PLEASE SMS ME. thank you. :) swing actually reminded me of the chacha lessons we had back in rgs. and because there was a severe lack of guys, a couple of us had to lead and we just volunteered ourselves! leading is fun, but i guess we should be learning from the girl's pt of view because in actual life, you prolly wont see 2 girls on the formal dance floor with one girl leading o.O
so last sunday was 3.5hours full of dance, and i suppose this coming sunday will be the same. time to get achy legs again, provided if flamenco is as tiring as swing. and no we didnt throw anyone around during swing dancing. LOLs.

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its time to do report again. and if i cant finish it, screw it i'll do it in class tmr.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
and sodiume is finally lvl 78, after nearly a month of seclusion. ;)

EXCEL

if im not careful, i might just find myself addicted to doing excel.
churning out tables and tables of numbers, and for once, i know what's going on.
hell im coming up with my own figures!

i just spent the entire night working on my re-report figures.
and guess what, im feelin' gooood.
and sleepy.
and tired.
didja know, my eye rings are horrendously bad now?
fine i shall go sleep it all away. weeeeee~

TIRED&UPSET.

boy kill me.
all that mad rush for what, a miserly grade that didnt even made the passing mark. and now, it will all have to be redone ALLOVER again. everything ALL for nought. what better than screwing the report, followed by the presentation because everything was redone according to snide remarks and careless disdain thrown upon us.
seriously you know, i think all of us would have wrangled her. but we cant.
and seriously, adrian looked totally the cute lost boy who had been grounded and locked up in his room without sweets and tv for the next 1 year . LOLS! well, admitting the fact that we were all depressed [oh yes we were and still are!], he was the only one who made it darn obvious by pouting through out our last meeting, and repeating "im depressed." for umpteen times. -_- the mood only lightened up when he showed us his peektures from bkk and i must say, he is a narcisist!! MUAHAHA. i mean, so many pictures of himself, and with him asking us what colours match with what colours of his pants, i hence deduce he is a metro as well. -_- i mean, we were actually discussing what COLOURS to wear for formal presentation, and his choices were GREEN&ORANGE. ehh they dont exactly match ya? *faints*

oh yes and my dear teammates prove a total convincing case the difference between guys and girls.
as we were discussing shares held by our potential clients, of which these shares belong to a family business. and we were talking whether anot to sell the shares or not, to free up the value worth in the shares in order to invest in something else. so this was what happened.
adrian: i think we should sell the shares because we need the AUM [investible assets] to invest and grow the wealth.
karen: but i think we shouldnt sell because the shares are from the family business. who on earth would sell shares from a family business?!?
adrian: i would, if i can invest these potential money and make more money.
karen: but the clients may have sentimental attachment to the shares because they come from the family!
adrian: *turns to ME* so what do you think?
weina: ehhh im more inclined to side with karen.
adrian : aiyoh why you girls think got sentimental value? can invest in more money, wont that be better?
karen: but we cant just ask the clients to sell without consulting them about the sentimentality of it all!!!

if you still dont understand the above, its understandable.
afterall, not many people do understand the lingo i use in school. shares, equities, market rates yadah yadah yadah.
the entire point here IS, guys are proved to be unfeeling as compared to the girls.
QED.

TIRED.

been really tired recently, busy going everywhere doing anything everything. the hustle and bustle feels great as i havent been out and moving about for quite a while, but ultimately you still feel the tiredness and all.

offtopic: mama&papa were just questioning me weirdly about cafe cartel.
papa asked, "if we go in and order just ONE plate of pork ribs, can the other people get bread?" i was like, "er why not?" and then he asked THE question. "that means arh, if 5 of us go in and order one pork ribs, everyone can eat bread also hor?" me, o.O

anyways.
it all began with national day, meeting up with the girls for lunch, and then the hurried rushing for the project report. thankew so much for alvin and ben keeping me sane and entertained, at the same time giving the much required encouragement to keep going on, before i died and fell asleep in front of my lappie. :) and alvin has got teeshirt&vouchers to pass me. i want quick gimme! hahaha. im a sucker for sch teeshirts la. or at least, specially designed ones that you cant buy outside, because they can show how unique the designs are.
and then thurs there was class in the morning, hurriedly rushed home from school for tuition that started a mere half an hour after i got home. basically after tuition i was sooo shacked i just fell alseep right before we set off for mediacorp for the results show of singapore idol! hahaha. i havent took an afternoon nap for a super long time, and i wonder why. maybe cuz im not in the habit of taking afternoon naps.

then twas down to mediacorp! as seen from the pictures, me and my sister enjoyed ourselves thoroughly! now the main reason why i said it brought back loads of memories was because i used to come this place real often when i was young. that was when i was in this acting class when i was younger, and we were often called back for children programmes shooting, poetry& singing competitions.
nah i dint take part in singing, but i took part in the poetry one. it was called 好说好笑好口才 and i won merit prize! the trophy is still sitted nicely in my living room now :) and it was real fun, trooping down with my fellow acting friends, running about like wild animals in the studios and trying to settle down when the producers commanded us to do so. and then during the semis, i remembered, i was actually sucking on a sweet before my turn and i forgot to bite it down before i start reciting the poetry. so what happened was, i went on stage, started talking and stopped twice during my recital JUST to swallow the juices from my sweet. WAHHHH my teacher nearly wanted to kill me and my mum was soo nervous for me! and guess what, they thought i paused because i was panicking. -_- 妈，我在含糖果啦！but i still got through in the end, so that wasnt an issue there hahas.
and and i filmed with向云,黄文勇 like a million years ago when i was 8 for this ntuc christmas special. i was the second of 3 kids there and at that time i lost my two front teeth so the directors lovved to call me bohgeh. -.- and it was sooo fun! i got to bring home one big teddy that was rightfully mine during the filming hahaha.
the last time i took to acting when i was in pri5, the last show being 署条汉堡青春豆. that was a drama serial with the main focus on orphans and i was one of them! filming was soo uber fun, getting to know new friends, changing behind filmsy film sets and us girls running over to the guys side to disturb them and then the guys would run out only in their underwear and us girls shrieking our heads off. -.- and then after that, i stopped acting classes, which meant a stop to all possible further contracts with the then tcs. me mama wanted me to concentrate on psle mah. so that was what we did.
but those days were really good, going for acting classes and having fun. doing shows for community centres nearby, and heading down to mcs for film shoots or competitions. i still remember the mcs canteen fondly! wanted to go to the canteen after so many years, but the mcs receptionists told us we cant go there. sighh. and i've lost all contact with those who used to be in the acting class with me. and my fellow acting friends. if only there was msn when i was in primary school. but one thing i can be sure of, none of us are back in the acting line at least. i only remember keeping in touch with one guy but we lost touch during sec sch. he was in ri though, that i can remember haha.
that day, back as one of the audience, was just so ...... the feeling was indescribable la.
if only time can go back to when it was..

then there was yesterday!
went back to school for project meeting for presentation on coming monday and poor poor adrian, he was suffering from stomach flu and he looked sooo bad yesterday, trying to endure throughout the meeting so that he could see the sch doc after that. he must have ate something wrong in bkk hahaha. then i nua-ed in the gsr until 6ish before i went to cityhall to meet my colleagues&greatgrandsnr angela and jasonteo. i had tons of fun catching up with them on staffroom gossips and grilling jasonteo on *ahemahem*, and of course the most important thing, giving jasonteo a farewell dinner. goodluck to you dude! and i swear&promise, i'll call JUST to make you fly into a rage LOLs! since you cant fly back anyways hiakshiaks. waited with angie for 502 for a near 45 minutes before we gave up and went back to take the mrt. the crowds at cityhall yesterday was horrigible. when i went down to the station control, i immediately went back to the basement to seek refuge because there was absolutely no way i wanted to face that horrigible crowd. it felt suffocating to be in THAT crowd.
and after i got home, was chatting with edmund about his fresh&hot Olevel chinese fantastic results! heh really happy for him. he's just one of the rare sec2s [when i first started] that i still talk to occasionally, because he no longer sees me as his teacher, but as a friend and confidante. which is good :) you know, there are very few students who exhibit that maturity level and are able to talk on msn with me free and easily. people like edmund, alicia. i like talking to them haha :)

alright. im tired again.
i feel like sleeping. but i have tuition later.
and and i feel like changing phone. after since when i realised i can actually get the k800i for less than $150.
i am extremely tempted. someone kill me! if i continue to spend like this, i may just have to stay in singapore next summer. RAHS. RUOLING SAVE ME!!!

peektures of sgidol!

studio!

sister!

jonathan leong!!

ze infamous singapore idol screen.

sister & TWOhill!

me and my sister got lucky. we took peektures wayyy before the mc [nono not gurmit nor daniel] said we couldnt take peektures in the studio hahahaha.
all in all, it was real fun watching live at the studios. brought back lots of memories. really, lots of memories. and i felt as though i was watching sports day in a theatre with all the cheering and screaming wahahas. saw 2 ex students there, ved and amirah! gawd felt so oldd. but thankies to mummy and daddy for sending and fetching us to and fro :)

NATIONAL DAY

what a fantastic national day. [sense my sarcasm].
im alone in the house! [sense my sarcasm].
i could have been out with ben catching fireworks tonight!
i could have been out at my family gathering tonight!
BUT.
im alone in the house, staring at the flickering cursor in microsoft word, thinking how to add inflation into the first paragraph of MrA's part as he is making merry fun in thailand whilst i edit our report which is due ... *drumsroll* TOMORROW! and guess what, this is only the second edit. aka we just meshed our parts this morning and im editting for flow and grammar and stuff. and MsK's part is not exactly done.

nice huh.
my sister is at some class chalet and she caught fireworks yesterday when i was at TUITION.
my parents are at ZE FAMILY GATHERING which i was supposed to go after i flew ben's kite for a picnic& fireworks.

my only consolation?
this afternoon's lunch with the smu girls was fantastic! seriously, no sarcasm here.
the usual 4 of us went to the town sakura international buffet and pigged out entirely on everything you can find there. and we had fun with xin's friend's nephews who were so droolisiously cute!! oh btw they are aged 1 and 4 respectively. we aint pedos you know. went back to school for them to leave some stuff in the lockers as they were all going to meet other friends for either fireworks or romantic dinners. *feels deflated*

nevermind.
i shall attempt to rip and put the report together again.
and then satisfy myself with my drama serials.
what a happy life i have. RAH.
i shall wait for ruoling&lifang&szeyi to be done and finished with RAG on saturday then we can meet up again next week! i want my new monstar! tis time to ditch the old ugly dirty one eye-d monstar. but but but that was a pressie from kor. i think he'd faint if he saw the condition of monstar now. he'd prolly think i treat monstar like dirt and stomp on him all the time [which is a half truth anyways].

and darh-ling joyce, call me if you're feeling lonely! i'll be here for you, i promise [thats provided if im not in class hehe.]
meanwhile, love to all friends reading out there, and enjoy your national day holidays!
especially my students who have an extra holiday tmr. RAHS.

shoutout to alicia!
hey girl, if your class is printing the class tee with the faces, can make one for me as well? im honoured to be in your class tee! teehee. i *hearts* 2e2'06 :)

偶像剧

真的是不争气,原本说今天早上要搞定专题作业.结果呢,还是受不了偶像剧的诱惑,跑去看了整整五集的"爱情魔法师".我简直是欠奏该打的.不过话说回来,爱情魔法师还真的蛮好看的.剧情紧凑,故事新鲜,又不欠偶像剧该有的俊男美女,看了还真过瘾! 明道好帅好帅喔!受不了了啦呵呵.

这次假期,看了整整快有五部偶像剧了.
看了...
恶作剧之吻
恶魔在身边
终极一班
格斗天王
爱情魔法师

他们都各有自己的优缺点.终极一班讲我最欣赏的义气,格斗天王充满着义气与鼓励人心的伦理.恶作剧与恶魔就比较像一般的爱情偶像剧,但又不失温馨家庭的伦理.这五部,我看我最喜欢格斗天王了,仅花了两天半就把它给看完了.那剧情简直是...我实在无法描绘.过去一向对5566 都没什么太好的印象,知道歌唱得还好,舞也跳得还好,演戏嘛..很久以前的我也不大喜欢mvp情人,前在却又为他们的格斗天王着迷.
唉.

也不知下一部该看些什么.根据我本人的网上调查 ,发现王子变青蛙与斗鱼都有不错的回响.试着去找咯!

your passing.

people come and go.
people mourn.
and one day, it will be our turn.
juniors mourn, seniors ponder.
to you, whom all of us cherish as a school mate.
be strong.


even though i dont know who you are
but to be one of us
you are definitely a somebody
im so so sorry

MAPLE DREAM. -_-"

I had a dream.
I dreamt that the map of hhg1 changed.
I dreamt that i was at the top, killing slimes.
I dreamt that someone ks-ed me, and took away the fairfrozen that dropped from the slime.
I dreamt that i was super frustrated, because i was a mere noob at lvl 1X.
I dreamt that the next thing i knew, another fairfrozen dropped in my face, from another slime.
I dreamt that THIS fairfrozen was for me!


O would thy dream come true?
O dream, O.
i must be kidding myself LOLs.

what a dreamy night.

PIZZA HUT

now this is what i call good customer service.
tday's dinner was supposed to be a pizzahut dinner delivered to our home steps, in celebration for papa's bday which is tmr [but considering he always run away to my aunt's place on sunday evening, we decided to celebrate it tonight instead.].
so i called the pizzahut hotline at 530pm, only to be told that there was overwhelming response in our area and thus delivery is postponed till further notice. i panicked a little [as usual] because papa really wants to try the cheesy bites thingy. so i asked them to clarify if its for sure that we cant place any orders for the next 1-2 hours. but the poor customer relations officer at the call centre dint exactly speak good english and we could barely understand each other. hence she put me through to her supervisor who readily clarified every single detail.
when it was to my knowledge that the puny little pizza hut outlet at je swimming complex couldnt handle our order, i proposed if she could transfer our order to jurong east entertainment since that outlet is much larger, even though its like only a few streets further away. she agreed to check it out for me instead of rejecting my proposal outright and offered to call me back in 5mins. to my amazement [i wasnt expecting a quick response mind you] she called back within 2 minutes and said that my proposal was taken up and delivery by the jec branch will be done in an hours time!

kudos to the supervisor! now this is what i call quality service.
fujifinepix and ezyvideo, LEARN.


off topic: now my sister has sneaked downstairs to "buy foolscap", on the pretence that both me and her have run out of foolscap and she urgently needs to do her tuts, when what she's doing is running to the prima deli just right outside at the market to get either a durian or mango cake since that's my papa's favourite. :)
gosh this is sooo bloody exciting!
and and and!
did i mention, im going to watch sg idol spectaculars 5 results show with my sister this coming thursday! im thinking of dragging her to go eat dinner @ coro before we reach the reception at 615. hiaks. i wonder if she's tired of the food there since she is an nj-cian. muahahahaha.

will attempt to coerce my papa to put a shirt on to take peektures later.
meanwhile, im gonna guard the door so that my sister can sneak back in. wheeee.
to top things off, superband finals tonight! lets see if my dream will come true, gogogogo milubing!

RGS VIDEO II

courtesy from jt!
how she managed to rip the video is one good question.
though it vaguely looks as if she recorded with mr sony =P

enjoy~

GAMING BUDDIES

whilst i await the patching of flyff to be done, i shall blog!
flyff is actually a game that is somewhat similar to maple, as so i've read, but its a 3d game. it looks not too bad. shall go and see how long i'd last in that game. considering the watermargin online lasted barely 1 day before i went back to maple with a veangance. its gonna take a hell long time for flyff to patch cuz right now im only at version 1.3 and the most updated version is V6. rahs. neh mind i shall slowly let it patch.

was thinking of trying for kongkong close beta, but sad to say i dint receive any invitation in my mailbox. nonetheless they are still gonna continue sending out invitations until 7aug so lets just wait and see shall we.

i speak as though maple is out of my life, pronto.
and i guess, it sorta is. i mean, i dont even bother to go in everyday. there's no longer motivation to level, no fellow kakis to disturb except for brandon and jolvin who check this place regularly enough such that i dont see the need to go in to chat with them. plus one particular event just makes me wonder, if your buddies in game will truly be your buddies.
look at this scenario.
A，B and C are good friends. B and C know each other in real life. A is a msian. A and B are particularly close in game, and they go around together because A is a lvl11X priest and B is a lvl 11X dk [maplers should know what im talking about]. C helps A trains his lvl11X priest when A is busy, and in turn A helps C play. then one day, A's lvl 11X priest account got hacked. [for non gamers, please dont come tell me aiyah its only a freaking game, whats the big deal. i'll slap you, really. so just shut the trap and swallow your words if they are about to come out. ] A suspects C is the culprit, 90%. however, A doesnt want to confront C because he thinks there's no point.
question: if you were B, what would you do? B knows C in real life, and total close chummys with A. what would you do?
its very disheartening for A because its a bloody level 11X priest. god knows how much time he has invested in his account, efforts and all. the amount of millions of mesos his gear was worth. and how much real cash it would worth if he were to sell his account. and now, everything goes down the drain. if i were him, i would be simply too shocked and dumbfounded for words. and he cant do anything, simply because two of them belong to different countries. no point accusing him in maple and msn, because C would just deny his way through.
dang i feel so much pain for A.

yes this is a real life situation and A is one of my favourite boys in maple. i felt so bloody upset for him when i first heard the news. he wasnt in game, so i quitted game to come msn and check if he was alright. i guess he was already resigned to the fact by the time i got to him. :( he's upset, and so am i.
so he's gonna take a break.
whats left of the old gang, no one. what's left of the 6, became 3 and then now, zero. because i longer believe in real gaming buddies from this incident. which is precisely why i dont wanna let brandon try my account. bro, you see my point? im sorry =X but if my lvl7X DK gets hacked, i'd think i'd quit maple for good. this is nothing compared to my fave boy's account.
sigh. to put it simply, i feel soo dui for him. ><
but you know, i'll always be here for you, no matter what little help i can offer. and i offered brandon's help too! ><




offtopic: i satisfied my secret recipe cravings today by buying home 2 slices of cake. i shared them with mummy, and she kept saying we were eating gold. which is rather true, considering its sgd4.50 a slice. she wouldnt spend the money in the world for it, but i could tell she was happy eating it because she has heard about this cake shop from one of my aunts who kept raving about the cakes in secret recipe. i mean cmon, she even knows that the choc banana cake is one of the best cakes there! to think i thought mummy wouldnt know. ><
and and i did impulsive shopping today!
cakes: $9
2 books [impulse]: $26
4 pairs of earrings [one for my sister which im sure she'd love. pink buttons leii.]: $10
total damage done: $45

die lar. im supposed to be saving. i need to save!!!! for what im not saying. teehee.

RGS VIDEO

just took out our graduating vcd to take a look, after all the fond memories of doing the class video.
but alas i watched 401, 402, 403 (!!!), 404 and then windows told me the codec was missing from 405 onwards!
hahaha but at least i got to watch my own class video and ruoling's (402)!!

awww man the sweet memories. and i dint have any shaky scenes! albeit not all the shots were taken by me, but somehow everyone knew the unwritten rule of keeping the videocam steady when filming!
and and honestly, i looked HORRENDOUS then ><
and frankly, i cant remember who chose the first song for our class video because i cant recognise the song!
and and we paid tribute to all our teachers! i wonder if they are still teaching at rgs. i really wonder.
and yy still looks the same! in fact some of us still look the same. but i hope not me >< [yet i really wonder since nasir said i dint change much since primary school when i met him at matric -.- ]
and and i remember the time when i took control of the videocam and went around bio lab filming everyone cuz not everyone had the filmtime in the class video. ah that was cuz the videocam was hogged by the right side of the class, hence the left side dint get much exposure. i mean, HEY i was on the left side. so was yy jt and jun :) jt was my first lab rat at filming the class video because she was RIGHT next to me wooooot!

i guess even though 403 wasnt the most fantastic class i've had in my entire education system [wherefore art thou my 02s36? =X] we still shared a certain amount of memories together.
together as the most chao mug class which if you'd ask us a particular bio term, we SUPPOSEDLY can tell you which page you can find the term on.
together as the class who made mr loke cry. and most of us DID apologise after that. i mean, look, whats the big deal between FINE and EXCELLENT for handing up homework on time. and and does it really matter if he dint teach us how to integrate tan (sec?) x and it came out in the test? should he have been blasted for it? neh mind.
together as the class whose class outing never realised. come to think of it, was there any class outings in the first place? =X
aw man, fine. together as one of the top best 9 sub class [effectively 10 subjects if you count Olevels chinese] in our level.
our honours all seem to be mug-related.
but there i've found the most wonderful friends i can ever have. joycet, yy & junjun. i miss you guys LOADS. especially huangjunhui even though she doesnt frequent our blogs much. we all miss you loads and are waiting for you to come bacck!!

i wonder if places still remain back in rgs.
everytime i take 502 on my way home, and pass by rgs, i would crane my neck to see the happenings on the courts. trainings, mass dances, people playing ball, strolling along the walkways..
if you havent watched your rgs grad video, take it out and watch it again.

rgs girls, shall we visit rgs once again?
ruoling? roo? joycet&yy?


and im still amazed at the fate between me and ruoling, that we barely spoke much to each other except when i returned her the neball treasury file @ 403 back door/402 front door. and then we landed in the same class in jc, became fast and close friends ever till now.

如果这不算缘分, 那这算什么?
大小姐, 你回来了吗? 想死你了!

VIDEOS II

I shall attempt to tackle that one [or should i say THREE] bloody video which is prolly 10GB big.
AGAIN. this time round, on my home personal computer where there is supposed to be larger ram and bigger harddisk space.

wish me luck, lest i fall into a slumber waiting for my torturously slow home pc to function.
did i mention, I LOVE ROD! he passed me his adobe premiere!! :D
thanks dude!!



i really hope i dont fall sick from doing this. urgh. yucks.
i miss the rgs apple macs where space and ram werent a problem. sobs.
we only had problems trying to find the firewire. ><
right yy? teehee. or was it shiying who did class video with me? mmm.
i vaguely remembered it was yy.
and i'd really wish i can magically cut the video into smaller bits.
who on earth in their right mind would SAVE the entire video into ONE BIG FILE!!
even if i'd loaded it from the camcorder, it'd be in smaller files. RAH.
i wanna kill the person who saved it from the camcorder. BAH.




edit: i gave up. adobe premiere refuses to instal due to some 16bit windows problem [any geek out there please explain to this noob geek here?] and the files are still too huge to be cut.
i hate admitting defeat but i have no choice. sobs. called alvin for damage control. shall do without the video tmr for information session with the freshies and he will take over to see what he can do!! muahaha.
but the taste of defeat doesnt taste nice. especially when i have to seek help from a guy. i dont like that taste, its bitter. ><