finally back.

im finally back. whee. finally. back from camp i mean. retreat was fun fun and more fun. =) but i have an aching butt and tired muscles le. never walked soo much so far in my entire life. 4 full hours of walking. walao. damn tired sia. when i reached home after homecoming yesterday [thankfully i dint crash ruoling's room at sheares, or else i think i would have conked out on her bed]. the word conked was in bold, cos it was the six-letter word at the first station for our amazing race behind the underwater world. before i get started on camp, i better reorganise my thoughts, feeling a little hazy woozy now. hee. this must be the results of over sleeping yesterday from 6pm to 9am this morning. yes 16 whole hours i know. my knees hurt now. ow.

met @ harbourfront at about 815am. which was pure torture cos it meant i had to wake up damn early [again]. been waking up damn early for about 2 weeks le and it's damn tiring. yeah. saw my group 5 people there and started talking to them. one girl dint turn up for the whole thing so there was only 5 of us in group 5. bok [qiuli], jj [jiajin], jamie, me and weiming [whom i got to know in CIP already]. and our buddy group was group 6, but i only got to know faye and jialong really well cos they stayed over and the rest dint. their group was even smaller, cos there were only nicole and queen who left early, aside from faye and jialong. our two groups are quite close, and the people are damn nice la. i love my group. grin. then we had morning games [which turned out to be not that dirty after all..] and group 5 found out our forte was actually eating watermelons. grin. cos there was a station eating watermelon [w/o hands and two people must be behind a line] and we won it hands down. of course, with us eating crunchy watermelons. hee. yeah, the rest of the stations were quite fun la. of course we got wet and sandy but not dirty. the games were clean. wahaha. and the forfeits were very clean too. yeaps. unlike the NTU ones. yeah. i hate it when they make people do such dirty idiotic things on purpose. yeah. then we had amzing race which caused our fatigue. very badly. it was fun la, until we got very tired and xian after counting the number of benches at the musical fountain cos it was a forfeit for not guessing the correct suit of the card. if anybody needs the number, it's 854. we got 1389 the first time. acks. then yeah, we walked and walked and walked. and walked and walked. we were so slack we thought we were last la. but surprisingly when we reached our last station, the station master told us we were 8th. for a moment we thought they were kidding us, but we were really 8th. cool sia. wahahaha. yuan's group ran and ran. and they came in 5th. so what a feat for us. wahaha. anyway, we pitched a tent [the first time for me hor!!] and we dint sleep in there. yeah, we dint cos it was too bloody hot in there. we had damn good food for the bbq la, the curry was damn nice and the facils were cooking for us. hee. and we had sotong and stingray for bbq too! yum. im hungry [again]. hahaha. and the dean and profs came down for the bbq too. yeaps. speaking of which, my facil has the voice of daniel one [and he had no idea who daniel ong was cos he listens to class 95. erm okay.]. then we took the monorail for one whole round from palawan back to palawan. haha. we have a fetish for the transport on sentosa, we realised. must be cos we are slackers who refuse to walk or run around the island, hence the constant looking out for transport to bring us about sentosa during our amazing race. then there was the kungfu championships which jialong won but i was away from the crowd cos i was on the phone talking to him mah. haha. hee. then we went to the left twin tower to talk and realised it was a windy nice place to sleep w/o insects too hence the decision to stay there for the entire night. lost 3 threes in the pack of cards jialong brought while playing heart attack and soon after that more groups came along to join us at the twin towers cos it was cooling to sleep mah. but trouble stewed after that. a group of indians came along and set up a party of sorts along the bridge that bridged the two towers. their music was bloody loud it woke those who were sleeping. damn pissed la. and we so wanted to throw things down [but of course we dint. one moment faye wanted to throw her sleeping bag at them but decided they aint worth her nice cushy sleeping bag. haha.] the guys went down to talk to them and one of the indian guys was a ranger and claimed they did that every weekend. erm okay. like i believe that but he did show them his credentials so i cant say anything la. so we talked abit more and huiling came to join us in talking and our conversation topics were so diverse. it ranged from movies, to kerry vs bush, to school life, then to music. and finally when we couldnt stand the music [aka a skipping shake your bonbon track] we went back to mainland to eat cup noodles and played bridge at the mainland. and we could actually still hear the bloody indians shouting and their irritating music. walau i felt like smashing their player la. sheesh. then i talked to jialong and huiling after faye and jamie went back to sleep and huiling started questioning me about him. haha. guess jialong felt a little awkward so he went back to the tower to sleep too. and i fell asleep at around 6am in the morning at the table with huiling looking after me. *mummy* haha. poor girl, sick throughout the entire camp. and meanwhile throughout the entire night, alot of people just zao-ed. as in left camp and dint come back. by the next morning, there was prolly about 60 freshies left. damn sad la. it's damn irresponsible to just leave like that when the comn had planned games for us the next morning. i.e. the captain papaya game. though we dint get to play that cos of the heavy downpour, still the actions of them leaving aint nice lor. like yeah. just plain not nice to me. oh wells. then we spent some time playing heart attack at the back of the monorail station where we were trying to escape from the rain and when jeremy said we could leave, we [i.e.group 5 and 6] just grabbed our bags, climbed over the brown 'fences' and chiong-ed into the monorail, 3 of them managed to get into the monorail safely, while i had one leg and my bag in the monorail, the small door closed on me, leaving my leg hanging outside and it 'kiaped' my thigh. ow. so i just swung my leg in when the monorail was moving already. faye had a tougher time. the door closed when she was right outside, so she threw her bag in, and climbed in over the small door. when the monorail was moving off. exciting sia. haha. yeah and the camp ended like that.

i made my way back to hwachong for homecoming immed after my camp and yeah i was lugging a heavy bag around. glad i went back cos i saw friends, roo and tim. yeaps. havent seen tim for ages and we played bridge too! whee. thanks to wendy who sold me her carnival tee [it's bright orange so its like damn nice la.] and yeah, talked to ms ng and rudy lee and took pictures with them [i bet i look damn haggard cos i was sooo tired] too. yeaps. saw plenty of familar faces. spent alot of money and yeah, all in all had fun la i suppose. wanted to go down to sheares hall after that to see ruoling's room but couldnt tahan the tiredness so went home instead. and had a nice chat with xinxin along the way.

still feeling tired. yawn.

whee.

whee. my speakers are finally working. finally. all thanks to him cos he popped by just now to fix the sound card in for me. now im trying to listen to dom's song online. heard the first part of it in musicmatch just now but a little jumpy, so trying to listen to it now in media player. argh. i give up, apparently win media player cant even connect. but the jerky parts are enough to tell me the tune is very nice. =) jiayou k? *grin*
 
have yet to pack my bag for camp tmr. and surprisingly they say they end at 12noon on saturday. that is like super early la. thought they would have ended at around 5pm around evening time. oh wells. interesting. wahaha. i hope it would be fun. heard from one of the fellow comn serve people we are playing captains ball with rotten papayas. erm okay. oh wells. meeting at harbourfront at 815am tmr. wonder how on earth am i gonna crawl out of bed tmr. whine. well i did promise i'll try not to be late. will leave house by 715am tmr. yawn. dont blame me if i fall asleep while playing. wahaha. oops.
 
damn tired today also. woke up damn early to go to school for the big day cos today we had the kids coming down to smu to play. and it was really damn fun la. wahaha.
 
-runs off to pack the bag cos mummy insists so. hum.-
 
i finally realise i hate packing. or at least packing for myself. oh whine. packed for 45 minutes straight. running about looking for things i gotta bring tmr. refuse to bring my sleeping bag, hence the decision to rent an inflatable float. will get the guys to inflate for me. if there are that many guys to begin with in the first place. cos there are only one guy per group, except for one group which has 2 guys. erm okay. dots.
 
anyway, was talking about comn serve today. basically it was damn fun la. just pure fun. wahaha. the kids were pretty much quite sticky but i guess the facilitators enjoy their stickiness as much. hee. yeah. dint eat much cos had to make sure the kids were eating continuosly and not stopping halfway, but im glad that the entire thing was fun. and somehow in a way, it sorta bonded us freshies too. yeah.
i can hardly keep my eyes wide open now. but i dont wanna sleep. i still wanna enjoy my creative surround sound system speakers and sound card. wah my long term sound problem has been solved by him, in terms of purchase and setting up. hee. i need somebody like that to impress me, in terms of comp stuff. wahaha. im amused by myself. lalala.
i seem to be just rambling and rambling on. not making much sense here, but as usual, thats me for you. hee.

xian.

today i finally realise. those who blogs and updates their blogs are those with too much spare time on their hands and have nothing better to do. like me, who consistently updates everyday, come online and find that nobody is bloody hell online cos they are all busy with school or whatever rag/orientation and dont give a damn about blogging anymore. which is true. and this stupid fact took a bloody long time to hit me. i feel like an idiot. fine im not feeling too happy now. in fact, xian like nobody's business. im not saying that i dint go out today, but somehow the whole thing just took a down turn and yea, i wasnt too happy at the end of it all. fucking bitch. what the hell. i dont give a bloody damn. so xian so xian. got comn serve tmr, but somehow i dont look forward to it now. got camp on friday and saturday, but i dont look forward to it now. feel like ponning them all. ahhhhh. foul mood aint i? dont care dont give a damn. i feel like locking myself up at home and keep away from the outside world. make myself feel even more horrible and isolated. since nobody is free anyway. what the bloody hell. fine go do your own business and dont give a damn about me. go ahead. im just so plain xian. so plain tired. sleepy. maybe i should go sleep. ah sigh.
im not supposed to throw tantrums. in fact i dont have the right to. according to my mum. but i dont care. i dont give a damn. like what i said, it's one part of me that will never change. i dont care if im bloody over sensitive or whatsoever. i just dont feel -fine-. happy? need i tell you every single thing about how i feel when you dont even bother to tell me your stuff and cannot even keep simple promises?
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
i hate people who cannot keep promises. under extreme circumstances, forgivable. but never make them if you know you cannot fulfil them. never or i'll bite. like now.
got a new phone. but surprisingly dont feel so high or happy about it. that one has a message counter. good. i'll know how much i msg a month. i feel like an intense mobile phone user now considering i have free incoming now. oh wells. xian. bored.

SMU and NUS.

no worries. im not gonna condemn or praise SMU or NUS in this entry.
im just proud to announce i finally figured out the most important thing between NUS and SMU for me. that would be, transportation to the most important venues to me in NUS. that is, if i wanna pop in unannounced.
 
SMU to NUS med:
151 frm smu to yusof ishak house, cross opp yusof ishak house take A2, drop outside SOC 1 [which is directly opp LT28/29 of med fac]
 
SMU to sheares hall (ruoling!! yoohoo!):
151 frm smu to yusof ishak house, take A1 from same busstop, get off at BIZ2 (along business link) and start walking.
 
SMU to NUS engin:
151 frm smu to central lib, start walking back. or. 151 to yusof ishak house, cross road and start walking forward.
 
im posting this here so that in case i ever get lost in NUS while trying to find you guys, i'll just access my blog from my laptop and i'll know how to move. heyy correct me if im wrong k? but i only accept corrections from ruoling. yea. yy will get me lost [or moving in circles for the next 2 hours, i dont trust eileen's directions sense and him, let's say he's too pampered to know how to take public transport. ]

fun. =)

had comn serve today at child@street 11. aiyoh my goodness, they are like damn hyper la. my kid was dragging me all over the place, climbing up the small playhouse and jumping from there. then dragging me back in to get stuff for her to do her work, only to abandon her work the minute we went out again and she scurried towards the play slide. erm. okay. she was supposed to sit down to make her piggy bank and as usual, we made a mess out of it. simply because i suck at handicrafts and she simply couldnt sit down for a while to finish up her piggy bank. but i must admit, it does look better than the ones whom the boys made. hem. as usual of course. then off she went playing and running about, of course with me hot after her heels. expected aint it? hee. after that we had lunch with the kids and it was funny sitting on a small chair at a small table eating from plastic trays, spoons and forks. yeah. i felt as if i was back like a little kid once again. got to know some of my comn serve mates better, especially lili. think she's ultimately a nice girl at heart. we seem to get along not too badly.. and yeaps, found out that ting ying and zhimin wanna join rotaract too. tingying said she wanted to join rotaract cos she was in interact *hi-5* but dint get around asking zhimin why he wanted to. not thatt close to him to ask him la. yeah. and everybody was checking out each's other orientation group number but nobody seem to be in the same group. hum. and ting ying was saying that our og would be our classmates for the first term.. whine. is that true dominic? i hope i'll get wonderful og mates. nicee people please. and responsible ones as well. *pray hard* cant wait for tmr to be out with him. cant wait for thurs for comn serve at smu. cant wait for retreat on fri and sat. cant wait for concert at marina promenade on sunday [p/s: dominic, im going alone lei.. would i be very extra?]. then final theory test on next monday, debrief on next wed [wonder if this is still on considering group A hasnt went down to child@street 11] and academic briefing on next thurs. hum. im quite free next week i think. i wanna see the fireworks display but nobody can pei wo go see. we were supposed to watch it this sunday, but something cropped up for him. so i dont suppose i watch it alone right? hum. there's always the next two weekends but i wonder if he can go with me. [not everybody will understand what i mean here. to those two who understand, please just keep quiet. thanks. and thanks for hearing me out. made me felt tons better. *hugs*] been scanning through mobile plans, and it's kinda giving me a headache. im not looking for one myself [cos im perfectly satisfied with my iOne plus with free incoming and 500 sms] but looking for it for a friend. he kinda needs it urgently you see, so thought i should do him a favour by helping him. yeah. everything seems so incompatible. whine. oh wells. there's bound to be something nice and suitable for him. i'll go check with him. and since he only wants the line, im soo tempted to ask him if i can get a phone. doesnt matter how old the phone is, i just want a nicee nokia phone. even a 6610 or 6100 will do. i'm kinda tired of samsung's slow msging speed, but i quite like my X430 and somebody just found me my nice plastic cover, so of course i wont bear to trade it away mah. hee. i just want a nice nokia phone. hee. yeah.

i.robots. i person?

watched irobots at plaza sing just now. the price of the cheesy hotdogs have finally dropped to oe buck per piece. finally. thankfully.
irobots is a thought intriguing movie. what happens when the machines rule the world, what happens when robots over power man. what happens when we're over reliant on machines and robots. i've examined this issue during my j1 promos general paper essay and the marker was pretty much amused with my ideas. of course, garnering a high grade in the process leaving me shellshocked [cos i had never achieved that sorta gp grades before]. really. is there ever the possibility of us being controlled by robots, being manipulated by robots. what happens when that happens. a robot revolution? this was the scenario shown in the movie. how about in real life? imagine PM goh chok tong passing over his reign of singapore to a robot. cold heartless one who is made of metals and alloys for his body and his brain. not that robots cannot be simulated to feel. like sunny, in irobots. he's cute. much cuter than will smith and his hot body. [though i must admit, will smith does have a hot body]. he feels, alot more than many humans living on this earth now i must say. he feels, he loves, he cares. unlike some bitches i've come to know since yesterday. in that case, i'd rather choose a simulated loving robot than a cold heartless bitch, no matter if it was made of metal and the latter is a full 'warmblooded' human being. i have drifted off topic i realised. but of course, i just had to include that in. will machines ever overtake the world? will machines ever make us less human like, less caring? fraid so. in modern life now, we have machines surrounding us. with everybody's busy lifestyle, the lack of time for human interaction, this has already reduced us to limited internet communication, via MSN, ICQ and even blogs to update people and to chat with people. reliant on the internet for the daily 'human communication'. whatever happened to the human contact, the human thought, the human connection.
oh wells. i seem as though im rambling. i think i am. the more i type the more i make no sense.
but one question that was bothering me, with the presence of robots, will humans evolve to resemble robots and be devoid of the human touch? would we become i persons then, when we submit to others' ideas and opinions, manipulations and controls? would we lose our own personal character and just be mere shadows of what people [or robots] want us to be?

.

cried.
couldnt help myself.
it's over.
all over.
 
im so tired.
with a bloody throbbing headache.

tired.

sorry. sorry if i seemed a little off today during class outing. simply just very very tired.  i mean, been out since this morning, caught in the rain and yea, just felt a little off. yeah. up since 630am and yeah, it has been a long day already so there you go.
 
woke up at 630am by my human alarm clock and yea, im getting a little used to my human alarm clock. dont pamper me soo much, just in case i become too dependent on this human alarm clock. but i fell back asleep after we hung up, resulting in me only waking up at 8. erm. i know that wasnt the point but i couldnt help going back to lie on my bed and hence only waking up at 8. and the weather was soo bloody nice to sleep in. of course after that there was a madd rush to get myself dressed and hurried to school cos i wanted to drop by booklink to get my text and it was bloody hell raining.. *groan* in the end i got a lift from yuan's dad while i waited at the nj busstop. no way was i gonna walk up that slope right up to smu campus. whine. what will happen next time when i start school? *prays hard that the weather likes me* yeaps. had fun at the meeting while we crapped and made plans for the new changes to the 29th. i still go for comn serve on the 27th but joyce and yuan aint. oh sigh. will miss their presence. im like not that wonderfully close to the games comn people but nonetheless not a social outcast so im pretty much alright la i suppose. went down to cine with joyce and yuan for lunch and we had a fun time walking around deciding on the icecream we wanted to eat. hee. trust yuan to end up eating her $1 icecream. wahaha. then they went off leaving me at the lib reading when he called. hee. so coincidental. so talked to him all the way until 5 plus when i started to make my way down to orch control station to meet the rest. as usual, people were late. i mean ruoling and zhangqing were on time but the rest were more or less late. by that time i was pretty much dead tired le la. then everybody drooped in in bits and pieces.
honestly i felt a little awkward around them. maybe its the nus thing. like everybody was going nus and they had common topics whereas i simply seemed like an outsider. they were catching up on plenty of things that was happening within school whereas i just listened. about camps (which i havent been to any) and yeah funny things which happened to them during the camps. i felt as though i had to come up with something in order to join in the conversation and it just simply felt. weird. wrong. negative feelings in conclusion. it dint quite help that i was feeling tired already. but still. it was only after we separated and me and xinxin were alone getting her flowers, did i feel that i finally got some normal proper conversation happening. the whole atmosphere at crystal jade just dint seem right to me. and yeah. oh wells. maybe everybody has moved on and i havent. wait for my camps to come and fun to begin (i hope.). sometimes i'd wish i went NUS instead, irregardless of whatever course im doing so that i can be with my friends, but i know and i made a promise to myself that i will not follow my friends to wherever they go to. it's gonna be my future and my own life, i cant simply make decisions based on them and them alone if it's gonna cost my career. as in, i know i cant imagine myself doing engin so yeah, why torture myself?
 
oh wells. sigh.

title?

whenever i put that title, it means i have no idea how to give a title to this particular blog entry. yeah. today feels like two different days all together. the morning and the evening but im damn sure i enjoyed myself entirely. been looking forward to this day for a long time partially because of tonight's event. yeaps. grin.
 
seems like nobody seems to be updating their blogs anymore. hum. been trying to blog read but nobody updates them. hum. oh what the heck anyway.
 
this morning went to school as usual. and had plenty fun in school cos today was racial harmony celebrations in school so the teachers were all dressed up la. including me. so what if i was a relief, i can dress up to entertain myself muah. hee. i wore an SIA costume (courtesy from my sis who wore it on wed to school for her racial harmony celebrations) and i had plenty of students going 'hey got SIA girl!'. erps. that was so not the point la. then plenty of colleagues were like 'can i have coffee/tea/coke/cocktail/poker cards?' hm. interesting. muahahaha. but yea. did have fun dressing up and today was a rather slack day so pretty much nice and fun for me. A1 students (or rather, namely jerrald) was like 'welcome on board the singapore airlines. we are flying in 5 minutes time so please put on your seatbelts.' i had to remind him i dint have a pilot on board. hm. grin. yea. and junhao msged me saying i looked chioer in home clothes. fine. sheesh. that was so not the point again but anyway. wahaha.
 
went out in the evening for his church bbq and i must admit, i really enjoyed myself. initially i thought i would be a little extra but he brought his cousin along (from china) and i had a fun time talking to her. her name is yu chen and she's like such a sweet pretty girl. i like it when she smiles, it's totally sweet and enchanting. really. very nice person to talk to. i had to talk to her in chinese for the entire night and i think my chinese is getting very rusty. hm. die. anyway. my chinese standards is still loads better than his. so there. *winks* roo gave me a bear hug when i reached steph's house. i love her bear hugs. simpl y love em. they make me feel loved. really. thankew mei, for making me feel soo much at home at the bbq. *muacks* of course, my darling played a bigg part in keeping me and yu chun company, as well as being our waiter for the night since the food were almost all cooked by the time we reached there. and for making sure we girls dint feel left out during the entire night. so sweet of him. muahaha. *muacks* dint get pushed into the pool thankfully, but i cant be pushed in at all, no matter what. not that i cant swim but it's that time of the month. (why am i announcing this to the whole world? sssh.) but yea, twas nice to just hang around like that, interact with his friends and cousins, and yeah basically just chill out at the bbq. but twas a 20 min walk in =(. thanks linette (did i spell her name correctly?) for giving us a lift out to the hwa chong busstop. and the three of us took the 157 bus. with my sister on it. and her friend. sheesh. like it was damn bloody coincidental la. walau. and she was laughing non stop all the way and kept turning around. *embarrassed* i aint doing anything wat. aiyoh. and she had to demand a ndp goodie bag from him. acks. aiyoh.
 
truly enjoyed today and i hope i'll enjoy tmr as well.. during the class gathering. havent seen them in ages. really ages. in fact, it feels like a year already. sighh. i feel old. and i have like almost 3 hours to bum around before i meet them at 530 at orchard. damn. i'll stake out the orch library. or borders. but i think the library would be a better choice.
 
 
something which a friend sent me. that describes the both of us. mine seems pretty much quite acccurate but his doesnt seem to. dear, does it match your character? it doesnt look like to me..
 
GEMINI MAN
 
A man in this Zodiac has a thin long and proportional face. He has a  high forehead and very cleaver. He looks like he can not stand or sit still, a very fast person. His nose is just right in size, thin lips, talk fast and very talkative. He can think faster than he talks, but once he start talking, he will talk non stop as if god has gifted him with that special talk machine mouth. He likes to cut his hair short and he is very athletic. He is a tall, slim and every movement of his is "Fast" or nearly call "Hyperactive". He has a long fingers and always tapping on table or moving his finger as if he is trying to grab something. He is the type who will write or scribble on paper, he never stay still. His hair always well comb or neat. He will spent a long time to comb his hair. He will keep his manicure and pedicure clean. He is a well dress and clean guy, so if you like cleanliness, you will love him. He will keep all his cloth in big closet, and never throw away even shirts  he never wear any more, but yet he still keep buying new cloths and make sure he is in style. He knows how to dress well even with a low budget. He get bored easily with his favorite cloths , cologne. He is very picky, so soap and his cologne even have to be in the same trend or same scent. If you date this kind of guy, you might think you are dating 2 guys, you will have to guess his feeling and emotion. Is he doing thing because it is a duty, or is it because he wants to? He change his mind as fast as he change a new pairs of shoes. He can pick up a book and roughly read through and understand it's contents, so if you see a Gemini man who reads the whole book, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac. He hate to set fix schedule, and dislike a boring same routine job. He could hardly be on time, and can only keep time if it is complete important and necessary. He does not come late because he forgets, but because he always find other attractions along the way. He likes to act opposite to what  he wants to do. He is a very good speaker and make a very good politician. He can easily persuade other people and well presented himself in public, a real charmer. If he is a writer, he will write the best seller. He always search for truth and constantly study himself. He never satisfy about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more. He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate satisfaction. Woman in love normally wants to feel secure and stable, but if you fall in love with this guy be prepare to be alone. He will come to see you when he feels like it. He won't even know how he spent his days everyday, so adjust yourself if you love him. Dating him is like dating 2 guys, so today he can tell you how much he loves you, but tomorrow he might call you to cancel your date. When he upsets, he could tell you he hate your dress, even it is the same dress he used to tell you make you look very sexy. Do not ask him why he is that's way for he won't have any explanations too. When he is back to normal mood, he will take you out again and forget what just happened. You can not expect him to be the same person now, and forever. His changes will depend on you, for better or for worst. If you like to take risk and dare for challenges, you will get along with him fine. He keeps his emotional secretly as if hiding it, so you will not be able to see if he crazy in love with you, or does not give a damn at all, but be calm and patient. He will never leave you if he thinks you are a puzzle, then he will spent times solving this puzzle.
 
GEMINI WOMAN
 
A good looking woman with brains, a very interesting person. She has a fast movement and she could not sit still or stand still long. She is able to do many things at the same time and do it fast. If you date her, you will feel like dating many women at the same time. You can not tie her down with the word "Love" because she cares about love but is it not a major factor of her life. You have to be able to adjust yourself to get along with her many different characters. She is a dreamer and has many dreams. She eager to learn something new all the time. Even she is the 2 in 1 mixed character type, she is quite lucky in love. You have to put all your efforts to win her affection. Even when  she likes you and wonder about your wit, she will also see and inspect your bad side at the same time, because it is in her nature. She able to keep all kinds of mixed emotions without annoying you or letting you know at all. She can cheer you up by acting like a free little bird. Her conversation will not bored you. She able to talk to you in any subjects. She can make you feel like you are the luckiest man alive. She can make you feel like she needs all your care, but once she needs to stand alone, she can stand alone firmly an comfortably. She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything. She can join all your activities with the same energy that you have. She is a quick wit person and learn new things very fast. She can see your projects and she can give you good advice. If she thinks you are not sure that you want her  for yourself, she will act like your best friend only, a cool woman. She can easily make a guy fall in love with her. Her multiple changes and many moods is a "Charm" for many men. She can be laughing for 2 minutes and later suddenly quiet. She wants to find only 1 true love and she wants  to meet her dream guy. She expects a lot and nearly too much. She is constantly waiting for her knight shinning armor even she is with a steady boy friend. She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you. If  you break up with her, she will forget you quite fast, because change is in her nature. The Gemini woman breaks more heart than woman in other Zodiac.Because she is a dreamer and always waiting for her knight shinning armor ,so her love life can be complex or a mess. She hates to write a long letter, so if you write her a letter and expect a prompt reply, forget it. Because she has a multiple personality and multiple ideas, so she hates to put them down in written proof. Because she knows what she belief today can be different tomorrow. She could communication with more than 1 languages , a real gifted linguistic. If she wants to tell you any bad comments, she won't say it straight away, but she will talk to you about many other things and accidentally come to that subject without offending you. Normally she will not lie. She will work hard and once a while take a long rest. She can get bored and tired with her own surrounding more than at work. She never feel content with her present work, money, or reputations, she will drive to have  more. Don't ask her what is her ultimate contentment for she will not have an answer. Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always be beside you. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally.
(i must admit, it does sound alot like me. not just some, but everything. almost i think. what do you guys think? except for the hating to write a long letter part, cos i simply love writing letters, like how i love blogging. blogging seems to be like writing letters to myself so that i can look back in time later, and realise how i made it through certain parts of my life. and through writing online letters to myself, i share with you my opinions and ideas on certain issues either directly or in between the lines.)

my fave alarm clock.

he called to give me a morning call this morning. to wake me up for school. hmm. nice phone call when i was still drowsy and groggy. so funny so sweet. hee.
that's my favourite alarm clock. =)

going out very soon. watching evening movie with junhui. finally im watching mean girls. finally. hee. very tired today in school.. came home from school, conked out on my bed and read for about 1 hour before really falling asleep. a li' touched from what happened in school today, cos christopher did a drawing for me, using my nickname, and the names of E2, forming a pretty image on the drawing paper and i intend to paste it somewhere in my room, where i'll be reminded of them, everytime. it's hard not to be super attached to them considering i saw them 9 periods a day. that would make about 4-5 hours a week? that's alot. considering i only saw my geog classes 2 periods a day. you make the calculations and comparisons. in a way i feel like a segregate form teacher to them, but of course i cant simply make such claims since i only taught them for one term. but i feel attached to them, truly. i could see the amusement in the teachers when they see how E2 besige me during recess, whining and arguing their way through on how i should go take over geog eng and cme lessons with them today so that i can have 6 periods with them today. erm. that was of course impossible, considering i had lessons with A1 at the same time. but really, kids, im flattered. at the same time, my hands are tied. so junhao from E1, please dont msg me to tell me i suck cos i aint reliefing your class for eng. i cannot just walk into class and teach you guys all over again cos you already have permanent teachers teaching your classes eng and geog. just take this week and the one day tmr as a nice surprise that you'll see me around in school. and of course, i wont mind attending to you guys during recess since im always free. yea, look for me, but dont block and cordon my way to class and try to kidnap me into your class, E2s. the girls promptly blocked my way and the boys were trying to cart me off to their class. what a joke man, seriously, what a joke. but i really really thank you guys, for making me feel so special. =)

eh. title?

hm. after reading what i wrote yesterday in the earlier part of the entry, i do admit i was a little too blown up.
hence i apologise. to whoever whatever. yeah.
read: my mummy made me do this.
 
HARLOW MUMMY! (she's starting to read my blog you see. so my blog has to be 'cleansed'. "D)
 
he came out today to meet me at sun plaza. gave me a single stem rose bouquet that looked beautiful but was hidden in a white plastic bag. hem. plastic bag?!? but of course, thankew dear. *muacks* he even bought prawns and squids for my parents to eat. my mum is impressed. talked and settled some issues we had between us. it was nice to see him today, even when it was for a mere 2 hours odd cos he had to go back in after that. hee. a little upset that i cant crash sentosa tmr since they are leaving at 4pm (?!? who leaves sentosa that early?) but i will be watching mean girls with junhui tmr mah. hee.
 
had a nicee day in school today though i must admit i was a little distracted. gave up trying to teach CME. since they all wont listen and i'll only be there until next monday, i've decided to give free periods for all CME classes except for my sec ones. i've planned a little groupwork for them. jody, shush kay? teaching PG to 4T2 tmr. sheesh. kailyn will be laughing her head off. aiyoh. cornered by the E2 students today during their recess and couldnt shoo them off for recess. aiyoh. but loved every minute of talking to them. the girls and the 3 cheeky boys. but i dint see dittaya today. heard from justin he was sent for detention for being rude to the geog teacher. and the geog teacher dint even realise it. hm. dittaya was never rude to me. and i agree with what an acad malay boy told me today when he was talking to me during his free period. he said, 'students always want to be regarded with respect and dignity. if the teachers see them as equals and respect them, they would return the same attitude to the teachers. of course, if the students break school rules, they deserve to be punish because they wont be acting as responsible students. but at the same time, teachers should not be abusing their authority by screaming at the students for every minor thing they do wrong, or even mistrust the students.' this came from him and i truly agree. i see my sec ones as equals, fellow friends. i treat them like how i would treat my friends, and i came to realise shortly after teaching for 2 weeks that the best way to curb their cheeky attitude would be to return the same cheekyness and lameness to them. and they come to appreciate that and that's our way of interaction, me teasing the students and they teasing me back. maybe that's why im better received as compared to the older teachers. maybe as young adults or mature teenagers, we think this way because we're still young. we still have very much an open mind. i mean, to people like xinxin ruoling and eileen, i wonder if you guys behave like this too. i believe xinxin does (her being her mean suaning character *grin*), but im not too sure about eileen and ruoling. maybe they do too. we were all once students, and dint we too, crave for respect from our teachers too? dint we wanna see our teachers as fellow friends if possible, especially the younger ones? this was how ms debbie teo and ms jasmine ng treated us, and we respected them for that. we did, dint we? so now as teachers (or rather relief teachers) should we not be doing the same too? we cant claim the difference between neighbourhood schools and better schools, because everybody are students ultimately. we cannot look down on the neighbourhood students, because during my stint in hillgrove, i came to realise that neighbourhood kids are ultimately more emotionally mature and considerate than elite school kids. really. they are very nice kids with a very strong sense of morality (erm excluding smoking stealing for extreme cases) and a very strong sense of loyalty. which i admire. truly.
you know something? i salute these kids.

rollercoaster ride.

wahhh i hate the medcamp organisers. i really do. fuck them all.
i sound damn bitchy do i? dont care. hmph.
yeah like what ruoling mentioned, it's hard to face the cold hard fucking facts all over again so i refuse (to the limit) to repeat the entire story and so. i hate you, you and you. everybody. idiots. assholes.
bitchified aint it? hmph.
 
was in such a wonderful mood today, teaching back in school and having lots of fun, you just had to screw it up for me. my entire week. well. screw you. whoever thinks im incapable of vulgarities, that's where you are wrong wrong wrong. pardon me. i rarely blow up at people with such extremity. but i just cant help it this time round.
 
cooled down lots le. with tons of help from my mum. who tried to cool me down with literally a cup of fresh cold milk. lame.  but i love you mummy. *muacks* i appreciate your 'jin yu liang yan' but i just wasnt in the mood to listen.  tired. tired from all the bawling i did. tired from all the tantrums i threw. tired from all the 'i dont wanna listen' i said to everybody. just so tired. so bloody tired. i just felt as though you dint really quite care. at all. but of course, as usual, im a stubborn girl. a damn insistent stubborn one i must admit, and that's the biggest fault i can find with myself so far. unless anybody would like to point out to me my worse fault? thankew jun for calling me just now. she helped to deflect my mood incidentally even when she doesnt know it. finally watching mean girls on wednesday. at west mall with her. whee. grin. missed going out with her. this one is gonna be a one-on-one date. grin. just cross my fingers and pray hard i dont run into any of my students on wednesday night. hm.
 
supposed to be typing out the compo test for my acad classes now but as usual, im more interested in blogging than that you see. obviously. ruoling, the reason why my blog has sooo much unread stuff to you, cos i blog like how much a day and you've been super busy? grin. anyway, havent seen you for more than a month le, missed you lots lei... and xinxin too, you back from sports camp le right? when you free to meet for a meal? you can come look for me in school. grin. i mean, hillgrove, not hwachong since you managed to figure your way to come visit me on chinese new year eve this year. grin. and kailyn!! im teaching parental guidance to (of all classes..) 4T2!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. help. well. i will go in and say, free period for you guys and try not to play with the guitar yong sheng. yea. anyway it's for only one period that's all. cos PG is on wednesday. so i only see them once. yeah.
 
was on my way to school today and whilst walking to school from the busstop. i realised the last time i walked the same path down on the very last day of school, i thought to myself thinking that that was gonna be my last time walking down that path back to school and surprisingly it turned out not to be. glad i was given the chance to come back and teach, be it only for one week and one day. yeah. better than nothing. and i realised i missed the school. the people the students the caretakers (like auntie benghuat auntie chan auntie may) and of course the staff room. somehow i just like the staff room alot. and i found myself explaining why i was back again. in fact some teachers thought originally that i was a grad or something. sheesh do i look overly mature? die. students today were acting quite cute. especially those from E4. when i was teaching in A2, chiayin and tiffany walked past and returned immediately cos i think they saw me, and they were staring through the window. eh hee. and the E2 malay boys chorused 'miss teo' into the classroom when i was still teaching in A2. erm. think A2 was a little irritated by them. i prefer A2 to A1 frankly. and dont ask me about my CME classes. i am so barely going to see them for maximum 2 periods a week? which is like once only so there you go. yeaps. cant wait to walk into E4 for CME. hee. and see the look of surprise. or will they be surprised? hem i wonder.
 
i realise this blog of mine is getting a little cold. lack of emotions i guess. plain treating it a way to update friends about my blog and i suppose this is not the way to upkeep a blog. very often, i feel like pouring my emotions in here but very often i stop myself. cos i wonder who on earth would be reading. and what would they think. how ironic. to think i dint used to care what other people thought and often ranted and bitched in my blog. now i am restricted by whoever is reading my blog. considering whether to move this blog. to somewhere not so inconspicuos. somewhere alienated. somewhere where i truly can be myself. i guess this entry is truly me. unlike the past previous ones for the past month. those robotic ones which seemingly looked mild and innocent. i dont know. if i move, i'll inform. i will. but not to the world wide web. find me, if you wish, but be warned that i might just offend you. unknowingly.
 
 
 

sometimes i understand. sometimes i just plain dont understand. how you would rather spend your time. you said we've been through all these before. i know. but somehow i cant help myself when im being stubborn. and irritated. and pissed. and everything. hence raking up the past. but that is just me. i told you i dont foresee myself changing in the near future. so you either accept or reject the entire package. ultimately it's your choice. to be or not to be. that's the question. do tell me your decision. before everything starts.

i like it.

i like it when i hear his voice over the phone. talking about anything everything under the sun. talking about nothing sometimes. his reassuring voice telling me not to think so much (which i do very often), and him telling me what's happening to him nowadays. though it may be little like this, but i appreciate it alot alot. really missed him for the past 4 days and i'm glad he's finally back.

camps

im in group 75 for smu orientation pow wow camp. hm. that made me wonder how mant groups are there gonna be and how big are the groups. hm. joycez msged me yesterday that she was in group 25. and me 75?!? okay.. havent asked yuan which group she was in. speaking of which, for retreat@sentosa, i have 5 girls (including myself) and 1 guy in my group. and that one guy is already in my comn serve. no wonder i found his name familar. and my facilitator is a guy. 5 girls and 2 guys. hm. okay. this is very obvious that the ratio of girls to guys are like 3:1 or 4:1?!? scary. i feel as though im back in a girls school. sheesh. that was what joycez and yuan thought so too. wahaha. tis interesting. and finally our batch of photos are up in the intranet. though i must say, the photos were very badly taken. yeah. hee. obviously i dont look good in it, but since when did i ever look good. sheesh. anyway, waiting for lunch to come about soon. then maybe start figuring out how easy should my worksheets be for the students in the coming week so that i can send them off for printing on monday. cant i just give them free periods for CME? i hope praba doesnt give PG classes. i cant imagine me teaching pg. after teasing kailyn about her PG classes incessantly in the early part of this year. hum. oops.

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people, try it! instead of relying on microsoft internet explorer when
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Something i did just do entertain myself. hm.
i think i must be damn bored.

wondering...

tired. a little groggy and drowsy after going out with my parents but i suppose this is the after lunch syndrome. yawn. feeling a little sleepy now. whine.
 
my previous post screwed up on me so to the hell with it. though blogger is trying their best to upgrade and keep everything nice and user friendly, i'd rather it go back to the old times when i could see my posts and blog at the same time. doesnt matter if i cant change the bloody font or whatsoever, cos i can do that in html mah. sheesh. and now i cant do html in the same window unless i go edit html. dont link. whine whine whine. in a little whiny mood now. feel like sleeping. been thinking alot just now.
 
sometimes i wonder if dreams would come true. not the dreams that we harbour when we grow up. but dreams that we experience during the nights. there's a chinese saying that 'whatever you think of in the day, you would dream about it at night.' (i.e. ri you suo si, ye you suo meng. read. hanyu pinyin.) seriously, i had such a dreamful night last night it set me thinking, if they would come true. occasionally in life we might meet situations where we find the place or situation familar, it's almost as though we've dreamed about it before. would that be the dream coming true? i wonder. do we make it happen, or does fate make it happen. alot in life can be controlled with our two hands, us chaning the path we take, and what we are going to do. but at the same time, does fate play a part in things? is there really somebody up there, controlling what might happen to us today, tomorrow, the day after, next month and all the way till the end of our life?
or am i just plain thinking too much?
i really dont know. it just feels so strange. so weird to be pondering over such things. so minute so little.
or is it not small after all.
 
not that im feeling cranky or whatsoever. in fact i still feel sleepy. and tired. sheesh im like a pig. so much like a pig now. hum.

gym+imm+library

gonna spend my saturday and sunday at home, in preparation for me going back to work on monday again. keep my voice at tiptop condition. helppp. think i need honeyed water to maintain my voice. havent been talking loudly since end of may and i what's with the new laypout for blogger? it reminds me of blogdrive with all the word functions. looks a little weird i must say. hum. wondering who left a certain phrase for me on a certain place right now. im smiling away. i should not assume so anon please identify yourself. grin. but. im still smiling. hee. =)
 
had a GREAT time with kailyn. as usual. grin. really happy that she chose to come with me to go gym, plus the library, over going out with her orientation group. hee. thankew darling *muacks* grin. we did the usual yea, gymed for about 1 hour odd, and talked and gossiped at the same time (as usual.. hee.) and while we were bathing we were talking as well, and my mum had to call me to ask about some shirts that she was getting from OG at bugis. kailyn laughed in the background. sheesh. grin. then we were lazy pigs (or rather, i was the lazy one who managed to convince her to take a taxi "P) hence resulting in us cabbing to IMM for lunch.. went to BK for lunch when i finally got the chance to try my order of mushroom swiss meal with extra cheese and more mushrooms. hee. so nice. wahaha. and initially we wanted to eat anderson ice cream but as we walked and yakked away, we honestly forgot about our anderson ice cream until she saw somebody eating icecream outside JEC. hum. our high class icecream (quote unquote what she said). grin. then went to the library and enjoyed myself by looking for books books and more books. grin. as usual i carried way too many i could borrow. and so did she. we both had a turnover rate of 120%. i.e. she chose 4 out of 10 books while i chose 8 out of 20 books. erm i dint know i had 20. i just took whichever that caught my eye and left it on the chair while i went on more rounds to get more books. though im glad that i went on the last round cos i finally found my medical/biological thriller books and two by douglas preston whose writing is similar to that of crichton and one genetic book. though i wasnt a bio student in jc, i still maintain that bio is the most interesting subject out of the sciences and please dont get me started on how i ended up in double maths double science (physics and chem). refer to earlier entries please thank you. grin. yea. so i left with 8 books of my liking with kailyn and we went to eat sundaes at macs after that.. just sitting there talking and chilling out. very typical stuff we do, but it's the company that matters to me. hee. once again, thank you girl. =) *BEAMS*

think i need plenty of loud voices to keep my voice by the end of the week. i dont wanna end up croaking like a frog. wont sound too good aint i? hee. i need the 'chuan bei bi pa gao' sweets/syrup and honeyed water. oh sighh. not that i aint looking forward to going back, in fact i am looking forward to going back, so jody, see you then =) and of course, i wonder if i'll end up teaching my previous classes CME. i wonder. hm. i'll go in and talk to them. just like the last week of school the last time round. lalala.
 
will start watching my vcds tmr. think i will watch final destination 2. yeaps. =)

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shopping "D

did shopping shopping and more shopping! more like my dad was wandering along the streets of orchard checking out his beloved food while my mum and i were stuck at the new OG at orchard point trying on clothes clothes and more clothes.. ooh and i bought a new bag again. yea i know. cant help it la. it's a slingbag again. big brown slingbag for that matter. tried hard not to look at skirts and my mum helped me in dragging me away. except for buying the black skirt for convocation from bodynits at 50% discount. tralalala. grin. had a fun fun time. and yea, huimin and gang called me to persuade me to go down for hillgrove sports day. hm. should i? i wonder. advice people.. i'll see them in school next week anyway..

huff puff huff puff.

phew. hectic morning.
woken by up a phone call whom i thought might be from him, but instead it was from hillgrove, asking me to go relief teach for about one week one day from 170704 to 260704 (since i couldnt make it on the 270704 due to comn serve) and i raced through the days hurriedly in my brain, checking if i had any important things that had to be done and thankfully there werent any, so of course i jumped at the chance. definitely beats staying at home doing nothing when the rest of the world are all at camps aint it. so yea. but sophia returned a call, saying i've been deregistered and had to reregister all over again, so there i was, half eating my breakfast and flying all over the MOE website trying to reregister myself, and to my horror, they told me that i am still registered. like what the heck. gave up and called the MOE staff placement to get them to help me settle my problem. in the midst of everything, venus msged me to help her find out about the rings for Lord of the Rings (must be for some camp game thingy) and i was clicking through the MOE website and LOTR webpages at the same time. confused blur me. frantically trying to settle two things at the same time.. but of course, got it all done pit and pat, and im going back to relieve teach! wheee... but the problem is, im going to take over praba's place for about 6 days and she's teaching the NA students english.. expect my voice to go haywire for the next 6 days *ack* the sec ones.. sheesh. but on a brighter note, i get to see my students again! whee. wahahaha. so as long as i have something to occupy myself during next week, im thankful enough. plus more money. fine i know that should not be the point but i am running a little low on funds. this timely appointment will alleviate my situation a leetle bit. grin. and i get to teach again. okay.. now the problem would be to get me up and awake at 6 every morning, considering the fact that i've been waking up at 9-10am every morning. maybe i should start waking up early. yawn. grin.

comn serve..

had a relatively fun time today at comn serve, meeting up with the games group people.. not everybody turned up but most of us did la i suppose. thought i would feel kinda awkward since yuan and joycez not going, but turned out it wasnt too bad after all.. yeah, met a couple of people whom we got to know from the last meeting, like clara and shupin, and thankfully, lili was right next to me. honestly i was soo thankful for her presence even when i aint close to her. yea. so the usual stuff went on, like introduction round the circle (which took a damn bloody long time since everybody had to talk for about one-two minutes?) and then the discussion started.. typical thinking-up-of-games discussion and i was glad they further split the group into 2 smaller groups to facilitate discussion. and i opened my mouth pretty much i must admit, and everybody contributed to ideas, like everybody talked and yea, we enjoyed ourselves.
and after the discussion, we went to recce the botanic gardens that was right outside food haven (our 'foodcourt/canteen') and boy, i dint know that was botanic gardens. sheesh. cos it's wayyy at the back of botanic gardens? there's a bukit timah core, central core and tanglin core. i must have went to the tanglin core all the time but i think i prefer the bukit timah core which is right outside smu.. so beautiful, the scenery by the lake.. damn nice i must say.. and i believe a path leads right to the busstop along the main road which i can go home from. musy go explore some day cos i dont wanna climb the 'hill' all the way in and out of school.. what a long distance. grin. but it was like damn nice la. sighh. what pretty environment. and there were couples there as well we noticed. grin. and families. no wonder food haven has two prices, one for us students and one for the public who frequents the bukit timah core of botanic gardens and pops in for drinks and meals. grin. but if friends alike come smu to visit me, i'll help you guys buy food. so this is a big hint for you guys to come visit me. grin. though i think the food at NUS and NTU are cheaper. by abit i think. hum. never mind. i'll be there so come visit me. i pretty much spelt everything out dint i? grin.

feeling mellowed out now.
dont know why.

All-4-One -- I can love you like that

they read you cinderella
you hoped it would come true
that one day your prince charming would come rescue you
you like romantic movies
and you never will forget
the way it felt when romeo kissed juliette
and all this time that you've been waiting
you don't have to wait no more

i can love you like that
i would make you my world
move heaven and earth if you were my girl
i would give you my heart
be all that you need
show you you're everything that's precious to me
if you give me a chance, i can love you like that

i never make a promise
i don't intend to keep
so when i say forever
forever's what i mean
i'm no casanova
but i swear this much is true,
i'll be holding nothing back
when it comes to you
you dream of love that's everlasting
well baby open up your eyes...

if you want tenderness
i've got tenderness
and i see through to the heart of you
if you want a man
who will understand
you don't have to look very far

i can love you, girl i can (i can love you love you)
oh baby oh...
i can love you like that
i would make you my world
move heaven and earth if you were my girl
i would give you my heart
be all that you need
show you you're everything that's precious to me
i can love you like that
i can make you my world
move heaven and earth if you were my girl
i would give you my heart
my heart my heart my world
show you you're everything (you're everything to me)
love you like that
i can make you my world
move heaven and earth if you were my girl
i would give you my heart
my heart my heart my world
show you you're everything

had the fun of visiting BBDC and i got my pdl and final theory test date. took quite a while cos there was a long queue in front of me and joyce. yeaps. and then we waited in the waiting area, them for their lessons and me for the shuttle bus to bring me to bukit gombak. cant wait for driving lessons to start.

but now, i gotta start with final theory.
yawn.

leaving the house in 20 minutes time. yea. to return donation cards and go down to BBDC to register for my PDL and final theory test. whee. having lunch outside. i love going out, be it for nothing or something. whee.

went on a triple-date-lunch and twas a little awkward. yea. maybe because we dint join them for spidey when they watched it in the morning? but we'd watched it already le ma. hm. dont know leh. maybe cos jeremy and wenyu were once hwa chong people, hence more things to talk about, and more shou? hm. dont know la, but we did make a quick exit after that. sorry yea, joyce and fishball. but anyway, im seeing them again tmr to return donation cards to bukit ho swee and then lunch at tiong bahru. and they go off for driving lessons while i head home i suppose. yea. which reminds me. i passed my basic theory! whee. so i can start private driving lessons soon. haha.
whee. he surprised me with a sunflower today. only to admit after that that he forgot to bring the cable to transfer files from the comp to the laptop. i knew it. wahaha. and now im supposed to accompany him to his church gathering next friday so that he doesnt have to pay. whine. should let him go alone so that he would have to pay the $4. grin. but roo will be there too! =) cya then roo! grin. after lunch we went to buttercups for desert. whee. felt like eating dessert so just popped in there for a while and caught a glimpse of wenyu and fishball heading towards the neoprint shop i think. grin. shared blueberry cheesecake and mint choc gelato icecream. yum. hee. then after that walked about abit and i originally wanted to walk all the way to merlion park to enjoy the scenery but the weather dint quite agree with me and we had to stop at parkmall where we went into this 'jacky's bear shop' and the bears were like damn nice cos they were all one-of-a-kind. yea. so nicee. swwoon. price very pretty as well. wahaha. then popped into dome for a drink and to wait out the rain. after that went over to plaza sing (yes i know, AGAIN). cos he had to get stuff for his mum from spotlight mah, so we went in search for his stuff. visited music jucntion (again.) and i was trying to look for final destination 2 when i realised he seemed to have disappeared. in the sense, i couldnt see him in the shop (he was actually bent down looking for vcds) and i actually stepped out of the shop trying to catch a glimpse of where he went to. dumb. i should have just called him but he suddenly appeared holding matrix reloaded and final destination 2 (yes i was looking for that) and told me that those were 2 for $20. what a worthy buy. grin. and he did all the looking. whee. so i bought it la. seem to be on a vcd spree. i have the italian job, harry potter and the chamber of secrets, matrix, matrix reloaded, the extraordinary league of gentlemen, and final destination 2. of course, not including love actually in my comp and catch me if you can which he downloaded and passed it to me. hee. haii. i need something to keep me occupied from 140704 to 220704 when people are at camps and overseas mah. sigh. i mean, xinxin and venus are at sports camp, ruoling is going phillipines, he's going hongkong and med camp, fishball going med camp, kailyn prolly going medcamp too. yea. i need things to do from next monday to thursday. argh help. sheesh. boring old me. yawn. tortured him today. but i suppose that was to make me feel balanced. i cant help it la. really. sorry.

going back to school on wed for comn serve and after that hopefully going out with junhui to watch mean girls or super sized me. i wanna watch i.robots. the one with will smith. seems very very interesting but it's only coming out on 290704. will watch it in the first week of august. yea. cos im not free on 29-310704. did i mention im going to miss homecoming? quite sad actually but i dont suppose we can tell the accounting people to let us off early to go for homecoming since retreat@sentosa is only a 2D1N camp. yea and we'll be at sentosa. unless we take a cab back or something. say me janice and wanyong. provided they wanna go back for homecoming. yeah. yahui is going accounting too! one more familar face. whee. grin. there are more and more familar faces at smu i realise. happy girl. it's nice to see familar faces instead of walking around blindly in a sea of strangers. gonna feel a tad weird when i go for comn serve on wed since it only involved the games comn and yuan and joycez aint in the games comn with me. maybe i should have joined them in the F&B comn. but. i wanna have fun. like organising the games. or be attached to the kids. to have the personal touch with them. yeah. oh sighhh. hope i make more friends in the games comn so that i wont feel so awkward. yea. or out of place. hum.

hm. dont know what to do with days starting this thursday to the next. totally free. kailyn did say i could msg her to go gym one day. do you wanna do anything else? grin. who else is free to go out? i think i can bore myself to death if i stay at home. i'll go nuts. find one day to go one-on-one date with shuhan too. then save one day to go out with mummy to orchard point OG. she wanna go and look see since it just opened recently. then what else? crash med camp and visit familar faces? i practically know like maybe 30% of the people there cos they are mostly rgs girls. and a couple of hwachong people i suppose. oh wells. will see how i can crash. hopefully they do something outside NUS and i'll just pop down and have fun. crash kailyn's group if she's going. or fisball's group. but fishball did mention to me that very little people signed up for it. well can go and say hi to weiliang too. wahaha. fishball mentioned there were gonna be weird games, one of which involves some rabbit thingy. wonder what it maybe all about. hm.

junhui is flying off soon. shirleen is flying on 310804. yuting flew yesterday. so far those are the few people i know flying off. hm. feels a little surreal, like everything passed so quickly. within that short span of half an hour. taking photos. talked to her for a while. no i dint cry, but maybe that was because i wasnt particularly close to her. but when junhui flies. oh wells. i will cry. i know. been great friends with junhui since sec one. sighh.. why are people flying. yea i know. they are part and parcel of life. but sighhh.

leaving house soon. yea again i know. wahaha. going for triple dating. aka me yy and joycet. together with sam, mr ho and jeremy. in fact the 4 of them are already there watching spidey. then me and sam meeting them later for lunch i suppose. wonder what they wanna eat for lunch.

feeling a little tired now. considering i reached home at about 11 last night. and slept at 1 cos i was reading. heh. cant kick the habit of reading before sleeping so yea, there you go. think i got major panda eyes le. yawn.

somehow everybody misses rgs. of course, i mean girls from rgs.
went around blog reading and found that alot of rgs girls miss rgs. be it for the environment, culture, people, friends. it seems so much like an integrated part of life. and od course, i miss rgs too. been saying that over the past 2 years odd, ever since i left rgs and stepped into jc life. missed the culture and independence they gave us espcially, during my life in hwachong. somehow it was something taken away from me when i stepped into hwachong. somehow. rgs seems one of its kind. the type of environment i enjoyed myself totally. oh wells. time flew past and will never return. all im left holding on to are memories and pictures, of what we did in the past and so achingly miss.

another of the rgs 106/206/303/403 girls leaving tonight. yuting going aussie to study.
oh wells. sending her off. hopefully can still remain in touch. though dint really stay close when we stepped into jc. sighh. meeting up with fishball joycet wanyu and junhui tonight too. discharging my cammie bat now so that i can recharge it and bring it along to take pictures later.
another one of us, off to another country.
and then it would be junhui's turn in september. oh sigh.

should i go for salsa class? janice wants to go.. and it does sounds fun.. and the rates are pretty affordable as well. yeah. hm. how? oh wells. will ponder over it until janice comes back from thailand on tuesday. tis on a saturday. hmm. will need to miss two lessons though, cos of comn serve and accounting camp..
oh and yeah, i finally received my exemption letter. they exempted me from 3courses under general education and calculus! so it means i need to only take one course under general education - arts. will prolly go for geog i suppose. my favourite. lalala.

whee. so many things happened today.
let's start from the beginning. hee.
went with yuan to the comn serve briefing today and we met joycez on our way at the busstop. sheesh. please remind me never to put the two of them together. never. they seem to click pretty well. grin. but. their horrendously loud laughter and their pure madness for JJ Lin junjie is enough to drive me madd. wahaha. but of course i love their company la.. the more the merrier =) such a nice feeling to be able to crap and suan them about lin junjie =) and now the two of them are gonna be in the fan club. well i will maintain my stand and refuse to be psychoed by them. you hear me, joyce and yuan? grin. well, tis a pity that joyce is going business and not accounting.. the three of us would have tons of fun together everyday.. eh joyce, switch to accountancy la.. (if possible "P )
then the comn serve briefing today was pretty fun.. as in the lame games that they played and yeah, mainly twas to give us details about the whole programme. whee i cant wait for it to start. kids from 4-6 years old. ahhh. cutsie pies. grin. fine i know that aint the point but kids at that age are soo irresistable. whee. signed up with the games subcomn whereas joyce and yuan went for the F&B (the brainless one, so they put it). hum. got extra meeting next wed 140704, to discuss more games to play during the tour around botanic gardens.. im fine with any kind of games, i just hope history wont repeat itself when i have the boys catching the turtles/terapins from the lake and flipping them on their covers and let them dry. like when we went out with the wsg. grin. still miss those days. oh wells.
reached home around 6 plus in time for dinner. which consisted of only soup fishballs and veggies. hungry. the soupish kind of veggies with fishballs dumped in them. that was my dinner. hum. hungry. sheesh. and me and my mum went down for the racial harmony block party after that. it was more like a chat session for my mum when she saw old friends and started talking to them while i stood idly by the side, passing time stoning. then saw fangxi and rain cos they were here with xiaoyuan and two other hwachong chinese dance girls to perform chinese dance so chatted with them briefly. yeah, and i slunk back to stoning again. was amusing to see my dad's RC friends strolling up to talk to my mum la, and see how they have aged over the years. yeah. but at the same time i realise that im growing old as well. oh wells.
going out tmr to the airport in the evening for dinner and then send yuting off. she's going aussie to study. people going aussie to study all flying off around this period. her flight is at 10 and we're meeting at 7 at changi mrt.. wonder what we'll eat there. hum.
im hungry. hungry little pig.
grin.

looks like the comn serve people made my decision for me. im forgoing the leadership camp. yeaps.

woke up in the morning to find my love actually downloaded nice and done. now all i have to do would be to find some way or another to transfer it to my laptop cos my sound system in my computer is dying on me. yeah. sighh.

very very torn now. i want both child@street 11 and the leadership camp. only 59 people signed up for the leadeship camp. i counted, according to the email. the only other name i find familar was Janice's name. but if i go for the leadership camp, i wont be able to make it on the final briefing date for comn serve and they are looking for people who can make it on the four compulsory dates, cos they are oversuscribed. but i really really want the comn serve. ah damn. will go down for the briefing tmr afternoon and see what they say. i so want both. want it soo much. ah how. damn. speaking of which, i think i would be missing homecoming carnival on 310704 cos accounting camp ends on that day, and since it's only a 2day1night camp, i think they'll prolly end in the late afternoon, when all activities are over and done with. ah sigh. how? somebody advise me on what to do.
note: i really want both activities, and dont tell me to drop the comn serve cos i never will. i want this project too much. really so much. haii.

nobody at home right now so im blasting perfect 10 on radio and seated at my comp blogging. gonna be a boring boring day alright.. and sorry roo, that i cant make it down cos my mummy wants me to accompany her to the CPF building later in the evening =( good luck to you yeah, even when i know you wont see this in time. yeaps.
yawn. barely woke up at 10am and im already yawning. gotta kick the bad habit of waking up so late. but at the same time i need to kick the habit of sleeping at 1am odd every day. i leave the internet at around 12midnight odd, and return to my room where i take a book and start reading. by the time i bear to tear myself away from the book, it would be 1 plus 2 already. so it aint that i dont wanna to sleep early but my book doesnt allow me to. makes sense? i think it does. my book is controlling me. grin. when i grow up and start earning money, when i have a house to myself, i want a roomful of books. my personal library. yeah. i want that. i want to have a mini library in my house. i will dedicate a room to BOOKS and nothing else. whee.

what shall i do in the afternoon later? watch catch me if you can on my laptop i suppose. and take a nap after that. that always happens when i stay at home for the whole day. yeah. oh sigh. never mind.

spidey 2 is good. so so good. exciting and wonderful. really good. =)
bought the matrix today at $9.90. yeaps. downloading love actually now. how bad can i get? tsk tsk.
i love the cheese hotdogs at PS GV. i've mentioned this umpteen times before dint i?
whee. grin.

heading out of the house soon to go watch spidey with him. finally im watching spidey. whee. think i'll prolly enjoy it. lalala.
i seem to be stocking up on vcds. bought 'the extraordinary league of gentlemen' yesterday and he burnt the dvd version of 'catch me if you can' for me. whee. thanks =) and i think im gonna seek out music junction again and see what else i can get from there. vcds are getting cheaper. i might just end up buying the last samurai since that movie was simply wonderful. and it has chinese subtitles so it means that my mum can watch it as well. but then again i was thinking of buying 'the matrix' cos it's only going for $9.90. hee.
cant help it.
im always on the look out for cheap buys. cheap and worthwhile buys.
whee. i cant wait to watch catch me if you can again.
that movie had me in stitches when we watched it on the day of junior-treat-senior last year.
sighh. memorable days. such that i can still remembering watching catch me with the junior girls and my classmates. haii.

spent the entire morning away on my laptop trying to create cds (the politically correct term "P ) for roo and dom. cant bear to lend my budakumentary so i might as well burn the cds for them. yeaps. so they can listen to it again and again and again. such a nice wonderful cd. whee. love the tracks in there. been wanting to go down to blue moo to listen to them live on the last friday of each month but so far i havent got the time. hum. and for the month of july, i realised that i have accounting camp on the last friday. whine. never mind, i'll wait till august and see if my schedule allows me. roo, i'll pass you yours on friday and i need your TIME!! muahaha. me bugging roo for her competition time so that i can go down to support her. whee. and dom, i really dont know how to pass you yours.. but if you both really want to borrow the original cd, i can try to part with it for a while. sniff. hee.
im like virtually stuck to my laptop.
but i like it.
whee.

anyway, leaving house soon.
meeting sam for lunch and then spending the afternoon at borders. reading books. think i'll go find connelly's the poet. so that i can get started on the newest 'the narrows'. they are linked you see. whee.
i wanna eat ice cream.
but i shouldnt. if i still wanna go on my diet.
speaking of which, i havent been exercising.
kailyn!! anytime free next week to go gym? =)

let me try typing on my new lappy. hum. this is actually very fun to type. feels kinda weird actually, to be typing on my new lappy. of course i used my thumbdrive already, transferring files from my comp to my lappy. im using my mp3 player as well, in helping me to transfer my music files cos i think there's something wrong with my cdwriter. hum. the feeling of typing on my lappy feels very weird. cos it's flat down mah so i hafta sit up straight to type at a comfortable speed. yesh i know i hunch. but what the heck. anyway. had a funn time today. whee.

prolly guessing what had happened today i suppose. well, went down to smu with yuan today for the orientation briefing and had fun today. amazingly the lectures or talks they provided for us was like damn interesting la, especially the "10 lessons learnt from the university of hard knocks". Mr Peter Lim from KPMG had us laughing nonstop and kept my hunger pangs away. grin. well, he said we could have him for dinner but he dint look tasty enough. muahahaha. but it was nice really. yeah. and ooh, huiling is going smu accountancy too! whee. so happy. one more person going to smu accountancy. lalala. wasnt especially close to her when she was in hc first three months but somehow we could click. so yeah. there you go. we ended up yakking all the way while we went on the guided tour around office of career services and hopefully i dint make yuan left out. felt a tad guilty but huiling was complaining about her broken slipper. hum. hee. oh wells. at least there's more guai people going there now. hee. and we can go meet ramnik together since we are good friends. hee. grin. and we had fun playing the coaster exchange game.. everybody thought there were only 5 colours until the emcee told us there was 6, just that red and orange look very similar. well, me and yuan sure dint find anything different.. surprised to see an email from one guy whom i exchanged the puzzle coaster with. cos i thought usually nobody would follow up on this sorta thing.. everybody just wanted to get the 6 respective colours and we sorta gave up with the exchange of 'namecards' after a while. how thoughtful of the guy. but. he's going business.. wahaha. surprisingly i saw more guys during the orientation briefing today. unlike that day when i went for matriculation. and i must admit, the guys are all of a particular standard. but i bet most of them going for business cos usually very little guys go accountancy. in fact, according to very reliable figures (cos i have seen them myself), barely 100 guys enrolled in accountancy in smu for the past 4 years. so i guess that is on average, approx 25 per batch? ooh. i feel as though im back in a girls school again. and i felt like that when i was in hwa chong. hum. oh wells. looking forward to the start of school when i can occupy myself. grin.

must admit, havent been feeling too happy these few days but i more or less got everything sorted out so im fine now i guess. yeaps. thanks to those who msged and tagged on my tag board. i see some people do care, contrary to what i thought. yeaps. thanks joyce for msging me today. it really made my day but i couldnt reply you cos i was in the auditorium. dint dare to reply, for fear of being pointed out as rudeness. but still, i appreciated the msg lots. muacks, to joyce specially. and of course, to sam, thanks for listening to me last night, and sorry for making you sleep so late. sheepish look. hee. but i felt real good after that, so ultimately you did help lots. thanks dear.

whee. i feel like just typing and typing nonstop. afterall im blogging on my laptop in my notebook, which after that i would transfer this over to my PC and upload it into my blog, cos im too lazy to bring the modem into the room and lazy to set up the whole modem thing in my laptop. save the space for my music files and documents in future. hee. im treating this lappy as pure entertainment right now, for blogging in my room, listening to music (my mp3s) and playing games. which reminds me, i gotta get down to downloading my return of the king into the lappy. since i have the graphics card now. whee. yawn. this feels so fun. my mum just commented im very busy today cos i've been walking in and out of the room to transfer my mp3s. hum. if only my ct writer dint die on me. still trying to get used to the keyboard but i suppose im surviving fine. whee. havent been typing a long entry for a long time, though i know today's entry may seem a little crappy since im just typing for the sake of trying out my lappy. ooh yeah, this is my new nickname for my new notebook. i call it 'lappy'. hee. sam commented it sounded like a dog's name, but i like it just fine. wonder where did i come up with this name. ruoling, did you make any references to the laptops as 'lappies'? hm. it really does sound very familar. whee.

yawn. i suddenly feel tired. must be all the hype and excitement over my laptop. yawn.
maybe i should sleep early tonight. maybe i should. yawn.

how time flies.
can anybody sense my sarcasm? im bored. like BORED.
yawn.
one whole day at home, doing nothing.
sighh. cleared two books today. started on my third one liaoz.
sophie kinsella's shopaholic series damn nice and humourous. gonna get her next book "shopaholic ties the knot". i wonder if it's out in bookstores liaoz. it's due out during fall 2004. which is soon aint it? hum. yawn.
going down for orientation tmr with yuan. talks talks and more talks. the only good thing for tmr is that i'll be collecting my laptop. whee. yay. finally. and then i'll pass wednesday like how i passed today. what the hell. xian. bored. xian.

havent been in a particularly good mood since last night.
sighh. for rather obvious reasons to me. yeah. sighh. yawn.

B.O.R.E.D

went to take a nap this morning before waking up to watch soccer and i only woke up in time to catch the second half. oops. oh wells. thankfully not a single goal had been scored yet. but seriously, most of the action was at the greeks' half. think ricardo had a damn slack time on the other side, aside from the occasional basll that slipped over to the portugese' side. the greeks had plenty of luck i guess.. and the portugese started shooting wildly after the 70th minute. twas amusing to see the audience stands, the greeks and the portugese. their emotions were lead on by the footballing going on on the pitch. the greeks got more high and excited and the portugese slunk into their seats further down as time moved towards the end of match. they seemed to be emotionally tied to the game. and at the end of the 95th minute, winners and losers were declared. there were people crying, both in vain and for joy. i suppose twas emotionally tiring for both the players and audience. oh wells.

gonna be damn bored for this whole week.
going with yuan tmr instead of wed for the smu orientation.
cannot be bothered that they allocated me wednesday instead.
wonder when can i collect my laptop to amuse myself.
im starting to suffer terribly from loneliness.
the craving for company.
the craving for contact.
i cant really help it when nobody can go out with me aint it.
i feel so. moody. upset. tired. of everything.
aiyah dont know la.
irritated.