5 craziest things students do during examinations:
1. smile at the teacher when the teacher walks in halfway to invigilate
2. ask for more paper and use it to draw a picture of the teacher
3. ask for paper and start recopying the whole essay because there was 45 minutes left
4. pick up the pencil box and put it to the ear like a handphone
5. use the unused paper to make paper balls and start playing the fool.

now let's examine the points above in detail.
Case Study: Ms Teo entering class 2A2.
Explanation and Elaboration:

1. smile at the teacher when the teacher walks into the class to invigilate halfway.
What happened here, was that i walked into 2A2. I am their geog teacher. The minute i stepped in, i saw at least 10 pupils smiling at me. oh wow. hello, this is your mid year exam paper, you still have the time to look up, smile and look down? fine. but this is considered very mild. let's look at point 2.

2. ask for more paper and use it to draw a picture of the teacher
One particular student, asked for pieces of paper, even when he had already finished and tied his script up using the string. out of curiousity, i lingered around his desk, trying to see what on earth he was up to. he covered that piece of paper effectively. and after i finished collecting the papers and was about to step out of the classroom, he ran up and said "cher, see i draw a picture of you leh." ah okay. i took a look at the picture and saw that there was absolutely no resemblance at all, but in order not to hurt him, i took the picture. it's lying on my desk now. shall remind him the next time i see him, not to do that during my geog paper. tsk.

3. ask for paper and start recopying the whole essay because there was 45 minutes left
This very hardworking boy, took 3 pieces of paper from me, and started recopying his essay and functional writing. why? all because he had 45 minutes left. i was like, "how the heck could he finish his compo and letter within 45 minutes?" it was absolutely insane. but then again, he could do whatever he liked i guess during his paper at his own time. he should be checking. if any of my sec ones did something like that, i would be the first to run after them with a chopper. heh.

4. pick up the pencil box and put it to the ear like a handphone
my geog rep, shannon, did exactly that and was grinning like an idiot, looking at me. i cocked my head as usual when i'm blur and tried to figure out what the heck was he trying to do when i decided to give up and let him play the clown. so as long as he dint make noise and distract the class, im fine with it. after all. i shouldnt be creating noise and distracting the rest of the students right? grin.

5. use the unused paper to make paper balls and start playing the fool.
The boys are guilty of this. they were throwing paper balls all around! what the heck. but then again. i gotta admit. i did this before as well.
cant quite remember if it was the last day of prelims or Alevels, the singaporeans seated from dewen onwards all the way to yanlian, we were fooling around with paper balls, but we were kicking it as soccer balls i think. did any of them fly into the air? i vaguely remember yanlian was aiming for xinxin but missed and hit jinyang instead, and jinyang joined in the game by using the paper ball to throw at someone else. come to think about it, i think i was worse than them. as in, our behaviour was noiser. yeah. oops. erm. so am i a crazy student as well? maybe i am. hahaha.

but invigilation is sooo boring! ah sigh. now i have 2 classes of free writing locked up in my drawer. and 5 classes of geog coming in next week.
somebody save me. whine.

spent nearly an hour reading through the message boards on american idol for john stevens. dint know he was bashed left right centre due to jennifer hudson's exit. he supposedly received 'death threats' from the racists goons. what the hell. the racist goons have no idea what the fuck they were saying. to blame jennifer's exit on john is plain illogical at all. how many blacks are there left? afar more plenty than the whites. so the next time if fantasia (i wish..) is booted out, are you going to blame it on diana since she is the only white left, and thereotically jasmine is an asian although she grew up in hawaii? is that the case? it is plain unfair. though john stevens may not be performing well, it's obvious he's not in the big league like latoya, i bet he is the only person who can carry off oldie jazz, big band music well enough, and nobody else can match him. the younger version of sinatra, the type of music i love. who gives a damn to the screaming that the so called divas like fantasia and jennifer are doing? the only diva i know is latoya. and the gentlemen, john and george, ladies and gentlemen.

a man of class and poise.
i'll miss him.
guaranteed for sure.

john stevens, the day you come up with an album, i will buy it for sure.
miss you.
you will pave your road to success, be the next sinatra, the next buble.

results announced.
john stevens voted off.
was rather upset about it.
after all i had been rooting for him.
he may not be the best singer on stage, nor the most striking one.
but he just gives people the pleasant feeling.
and his nice jazzy oldie sounding voice.

he sang for the last time onstage at American Idol.
Music of my heart.
felt his music never so strongly before, such that it touched my heart truly.
jasmine trias was crying openly. diana digarmo was tearing.
maybe because they are of the same age group, hence they had stronger feelings.
now the people i root for, down to george huff and latoya london.
this batch of AI finalists, are damn strong now.
who would be the next to go?
my prediction: jasmine trias or fantasia.
jasmine because she's very predictable.
fantasia because of her snobby asshole attitude.

i'd wish she go away. just like jennifer hudson.

just checked out American Idol Webby and realised that next week's would be BIG BAND MUSIC. and john stevens's favourite type of music is big band. i bet he would have shone in that particular category. why. why must he be voted off tonight, and miss the chance that he can shine for himself? i do agree with what simon cowell said. john stevens and latin music go together like choc ice cream and onion.

just ate dinner. a tad late aint it?
all beause i slept from 630pm to 845pm.
then my mum woke me up asking if i wanted to sleep all the way till tmr morning or wake up now. realising that there's american idol later.
yawn.

maybe i sleep at 1030 after that. i need to catch up on my sleep.
i hope sam is feeling better by now.

wah headache. supposed to be coming up with the sec 2 normal tech social studies mid year paper now but i ended up talking to jody from 1e4. so sweet the girl. we just made a bet, about her results. both ways, i qui, but i dont mind i guess.

why am i making bets with me students? alamak.
but i dont mind i guess. heh.
trying to teach her jap over msn now. nearly made her cry by saying something touching. oops. sorry dear.

i dont wanna come up wit another paper again. whine.
finally it's thursday. doing invigilation tmr. and after tmr i would have 2 classes of free writing to mark. that is only the appetiser. i have the main dish coming up on 060504, my 200 geog scripts. and my dessert, 40 normal tech social studies paper. walau. think i'll die from marking. but i think i'd rather sit down and mark now. very tired and having a bad headache. as usual. the headache is haunting me again.

had fun with my sec 2 classes today. 2A2, 2E3 and 2E1. especially 2E1, dint know they could be so mad and funny. hahahahahaha. and chun hao (1E2) was sooo cute and nice today. i accidentally left my bottle in their classroom early in the morning and he actually took it for me and returned it to me at 3 plus in the afternoon.. i mean, they could have just left it there on the table but chun hao actually brought it to the staff room (but then again, where else could he have brought it to?) heh.

ack. im having a terrible blocked nose now, with a terrible throat and i feel sick. whine. will dictate work for the classes to do tmr and ask them to shut the hell up before i send them all down for detention. heavy day tmr with 7 full periods. whine. oh sigh.

*clears throat* *erhem* *sniff sniff* *clears throat* *erhem* *sniff sniff* *clears throat* *erhem*

ah what the hell. i give up.
*surrenders*

note to relief teachers.
do not give out your number to your student.
nah kidding la. it's okay to give out, but when 5 msg you at the same time, you will have hell of a time replying the msges.
just like me.
dimmit.


i have a feeling one student is trying to pull a fast one on me. he msged me, saying that he was le hao, and he liked a girl called yi wen and told me to tell her but not the class. soon after, eng yeow msged me saying that this is eng yeow and not le hao and started 'chatting' with me. then on the other side, tiffany is telling me that eng yeow likes to lie and muahahahaha, eng yeow just got himself trapped!!! lousy one, you want to lie, be more consistent la, and i would have fallen for your losuy joke. grin.

gave 1E4 my email and handphone, and i have been badgered by them for the whole afternoon. sheesh. got that Eping, engyeow, plus chunhui shinyee and tiffany.. saw 5 requests to be friends on friendster by the dear pupils.. aiyoh. i shall use this extra chance to psycho them unknowingly to go and study for geog. ahahahahah. oops. but i enjoyed teaching their class today. very fun. hahaha. they got the motivation to study la. dunno why also, but that's good. scolded E1 today for making a hell lot of noise, and E2 when i passed by their class, for wrecking havoc while waiting for their chinese teacher. what the hell man. you dont have to chase each other round the class while waiting dont you?

sheesh.

time seems to fly so fast. tmr is thursday already. as much as i look forward to the weekends, i dont look forward to leaving my students so soon. i barely just warmed up to them. especially my sec two classes. next week is the 7th week. and then i would have only 4 more weeks with them. oh sigh.

am sniffing, and sneezing and coughing at the same time now. blearh. feeling sick. think im either down with cold or flu. whatever happened to the flu/cold jab i took at the beginning of this year? it aint working lor. i bet it's the staff room bug. ms toh was sniffling today too. oh sigh.

i cant wait for midyears to come now. sense my sarcasm today? i just realised i have to set sec 2 tech social studies exam which i thought was non examinable and i have to mark them as well. what the hell man. 5 classes of geog paper, 2 classes of el free writing and 1 class of social studies. oh wow how great. but i just found out my tech class is nice and cute today. gave them a free period today for them to work on their project and they came to tell me, eh cher, very boring la, can you teach instead? and honestly i was kinda shocked la. like they telling me they find free periods boring? goodness gracious me. heh. so i ended up playing hangman with half the class, entertain them mah, while the rest of them worked furiously on their projects. sometimes the ntech students put in more effort in projects rather than their school work. wait till i get the chance to show you guys their projects. simply outstanding. i was soo amazed. heh.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
hee. blogging from buttercup coffee at cine now with ruoling. ruoling, say something.

*waves* the cakes here are great!!!!!! hahahha.. i wanna come again. i wanna come again. i wanna come again. i wanna come again. i wanna come again. i wanna come again...nana's not stopping me so.. i wanna come again.. i wanna come again-

that was ruoling, not me. hee. but the ice cream here is great too!!! me wanna come again too. heh. and atmosphere is not bad too, and considering the prices here, it's pretty worth it. hee. lalalalalala.. the cake and ice cream made me go highhhhhhhhh. whoo whee. hahahaha.. what a great way to destress. =)

watched 50 first dates just now. damn funny. your typical sweet funny comedy la. as usual. but the funny parts were so funny that i laughed till my stomach ached la. especially the part where lucy chased after henry roth's friend with a metalic baseball bat. whee. so funny i nearly slid off my seat. oops. grin.

first time i went out of school so early. to such an extent shannon actually msged me and asked "ms teo you go home liaoz ah" goodness. what did he think i was, superwoman who lives in school everyday meh? xiao. oops. but he's a good geog rep la. heh.

i wanna watch movie again. any movie will do. hee.

yup. :)

going out for pcp meeting in about 45 mins.
ah no voice.
or rather, i can feel the pain in my throat and it is making it tough for me to swallow. whine. 2 more weeks to midyear. i simply cannot wait. =)

the movie was just a reminder to me how much i love the italian job.
i simply love it.
okay. i prolly have said that a thousand times ever since i watched the movie.
the cinematography of all the car and boat chases scenes, the fine detailed plan of the whole 'robbery'. the smartness of the 'real' napster, handsome rob and the left ear. and of course, the master mind charlie, with stella as the safe opener. and even with steve as the baddie. everything was damn good, right down to the very fine detail. what a kick ass show.
i want a mini cooper for my birthday. a real mini cooper car that i can drive around singapore. heck to me not having a licence so far as yet. i'll just use my daytona skills and fly around singapore. and then i can pick people up whenever we go out to have fun. i believe you guys would ride in my car aint i right? hee.
i sound as though im going on a high. this shows what 'the italian job' does to me.
but hey sijia, remember the minute we stepped out of the cinema after we watched the movie? i vaguely remember us saying we would have absolutely no regrets paying $8.50 to watch that show again. that was the day we went wheelock bk to eat as well, while venus was reading her book at lido right? we went right past her without realising that she was seated there alone reading harry potter.
havent watched movie for such a long time. the last movie i caught was 'the last samurai' i think. hey wait. or was it mystic river? i think it was mystic river.

anybody wanna catch '50 first dates' with me? *waves*
msg me yeah? should be free on the weekdays if the relief teachers dont mind and provided if you guys can spare the time i guess. i think i can spare the time. yeah. from tuesday onwards, with the exception on thursdays. yeah. hee. but must tell me in say 2-3 days advance la, so that i can plan my workload.. and hey kill bill 2 is M18! which means we can watch too! the gory bloodshed and all. er. but who would wanna enjoy the gory bloodshed with me?
grin.
i think i am on a high.
lalalalala.

finally found time to sit down and blog.
the weekend is passing by so quickly. ah shit.
havent finished coming up with the revision worksheets for the sec ones and marking their comprehensions. oh sigh.

but i had a nice day yesterday. =)
morning i had el orals with the sec fours. the last guy in my group was damn funny la. he spoke with an italian-malay-indian accent, and i tried soo terribly hard not to laugh, and finally when he finished and was helping me to keep the tables and chairs, he hastily told me that he was just trying to be funny and he hoped that the accent dint affect his orals. i think it helped him instead, cos his pronunciation was more obvious and accurate when he spoke with the accent. the teachers just peng-ed when i told them about the incident la. but he scored the highest ultimately. gave him 35/40 ultimately. which is considered not bad right? he did deserve it la.

then met tim for lunch. seriously speaking, he looked rather tired and stressed out.. we went to the library and took turns disappearing. i went to look for my books first before he disappeared to return and borrow his books. by the time he re-appeared again, i was halfway through crichton's prey. which is very exiciting. im finishing the book soon. hee. then we went to bk for lunch, and there i met 4 students. the minute they saw tim with me, they gave this conspicuous "orh" sound that suggested im going to get it in school. oh wow how great. me and my big mouth, i should not have suggested meeting at westmall but somewhere else instead. oh sigh. i'll just have to learn the technique of daniel and yuanshin, the "nod-and-smile-and-turn-away" action. apparently they're getting it because the students think they look very deng dui as a couple. and to be frankly honest, i think so too. oops. hahahaha..

and then i met sam in the late afternoon. went out, wanting to go clarke quay initially but somehow we ended up at plaza sing, wanting to watch 50 first dates but because there were soooooooooo many people queueing up to get the tix for kill bill 2, we gave up queueing up in the end and went to walk walk around la.. finally 'the italian job' VCD is out!!! hee. and he bought it for me. thankew so much. =) then walked around and ate dinner before going walk walk around the singapore river area.. had a nice time i guess.. left there late, so we ended up taking a cab back to jurong east mrt.. damn tired by the time i reached home so i conked out reading the book while leaving the lights on. oops. my mum had to switch them off for me. hee.

went for jap class again today. benefitted alot from the lesson. i like the teacher. so nice. lalala.

i should get down to work. but then again, i want to watch the italian job first. and tonight still got jia ge you qian ren. heck. i still have tmr. when i only have 3 periods in school. going down to smu to pay my deposit tmr. my parents are fetching me there. whee. save travelling fare save time. and i havent been ferried around by my parents for some time already.

whee. me going to watch italian job now. and enjoy the minicoopers, car chases and intricate detailed planning of the thieves. i simply love the show. =)

oh great. first i look like rachel lee. now somebody tells me i look like jamie yeo.


i think my students are all blind. with stamps in their eyes.

for those who dont know who rachel lee is, the girl in eye for a guy. im aghast.

my throat hurts now. from all the shouting i just did.
freaking bloody pissed with my sister now.
damn pissed with her.
who the hell is she to demand respect from me, and not show me any bloody respect?
i've lived with this for a hell long period of time and i have had enough.
to the hell with her.
if she can curse swear and rant using the fuck word, i can jolly well do the same to her.

her school is freaking near home and she reaches home daily at the time of 7pm in the evening. what the freak does she do in school? remedial so she claims. i bet she lingers around jec. dead sure. which bloody chem teacher can afford the time to give her class everyday after school every week? damn. aint it supposed to be obvious but why the hell is the family buying all her lies? fuck.



tired. tired for being thrown around by her and being ordered around by her. maybe im the stupid one, for listening to her and giving in to her everytime she kena scolded by my parents. maybe i just have a freaking soft heart.

finally home. finally. whee. dint have meeting today cos there was this envisioning exercise that me daniel yuanshin and wanting dint have to go for. yeah. so we ate lunch and yakked with our 1E4 students. that tiffany, got so much things to say.. even told us who she liked from a certain sec 4 class. aiyoh. me yuan shin daniel nearly laughed till we penged while angela looked very amused. quite coincidental, as we realise that i teach E4 geog, daniel teaches them science, and yuanshin teaches them english. but we dint have the heart to tell the girls that we prolly wont be around in term 3. *sad* well. she teared a little upon the mention of kailyn. dear i think the girls still miss you. and we had a fun time teasing chia yin about le hao when she tried frantically to explain herself, about why le hao keeps turning behind to talk to her. seriously that boy ah, it seems as though the screen is behind him and not in front of him. hahaha.

anyway. had a relatively easy week this time. surprisingly the week seemed to have flown past, in the twinkling of an eye. surprisingly fast. i mean, today is already friday and next week will be the sixth week. meaning, i will be leaving the school in about one month plus time? ohs well. guess i'll miss being a teacher. honestly seriously i quite like being a teacher.

mrs tham was just commenting, she keeps forgetting that im only a relief teacher, cos she was asking me to go for the envisioning exercise when i quipped saying that im only a relief teacher so i dont have to go. somehow i think i put in too much of my time and effort into this teaching position such that alot of teachers keep forgetting im not a permanent teacher. same situation with ms chong today. i was asking her about the results management folder today when she was like 'eh you should have no problem mah. dint ms lee give you your password for the result management?" and i was like "you mean relief teachers have?" and she was like "huh oh yeah you're a relief teacher.." i wonder if that is a good thing or a bad thing. i dont behave like a relief teacher, quote unquote what daniel said. hm. okay. *ponders*

the weekend is here again and i havent touched my jap homework. what a lousy student i am. my jap teacher is prolly going to kill me. argh help. i should get down to doing my jap homework and not piss my jap teacher off. hee.

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actually im honoured that my students think i'm pretty but i still dont think i am. but at the same time, im kinda freaked about the 4T boys. they keep appearing out of nowhere and go "eh cher.." it just seems. freaky. i mean, i talk to them like friends but that doesnt mean i have to see you at every corner of the school right? and cmon, i barely relieved you guys twice. twice. and the last time i reliefed you was like, two weeks ago? that doesnt suggest that we "hen you yuan". thank goodness im not giving the 4T boys orals tmr. they prolly start yakking away about hair styling in other countries and start asking weird questions and straying away from the original orals topic. *shiver*

trying to come up with natural vegetation revision cum interactive worksheets for my sec one students. the whole theme that logan was supposed to touch on in term one but apparently he dint have the time. and neither did i cos i had so much other things to cover. ohs well. i hope my sec ones are reading on their own first. was marking their self test this afternoon and to my dismay, i think they dont quite understand even with logan's notes. not that it was much helpful personally i think so yeah.. coming up with my handwritten notes and i hope they'll like the interactive part. =) yeah and E2 and E1 said i have nice handwriting *happy smile* because i flashed answers for them to mark their revision wat. and they said i have nice handwriting. so happy. lalalala. i know you guys are going to harp on me having a computer font handwriting. for once i dont mind. i like this compliment. hee. hahaha. whee. okay im starting to sound as if im on a high. oops. grin.

blogger running abit slow today. ahhhhh...
never mind.

imagine this.
sounds of machines whirring and stacks of paper being shifted around. a girl bent over a table, filling in the purple forms, surrounded by stacks of pink and white paper. another lady bustles around from machine to machine, trying to resolve problems that happen. the sounds of the duplo machines fill the room and and freezing cold aircon made the girl wish that she brought her cardigan down.

question: where is the girl?








answer: me in the printing room of hillgrove secondary school.
and im glad to announce that yes, my papers are all printed and kept in a safe corner in the school, which i will not mention lest any student happen to stumble upon my blog. somehow news has leaked out saying that i'm setting the 2E paper. boy oh boy they are damn smart la. aiyoh. dint deny or admit. isnt that always the case? grin. finally, i get to take a well deserved break today, so im pampering myself by allowing myself to have a nice long blog entry and play neopets and watch tv and eat ice cream. which seems like what i have been doing for the past week while working on the final draft of the paper. hee. never mind.

i wanna watch 50 first dates!! sounds funny. hahaha. while i blog away i await friendster to load. havent looked at it for ages, until my student was bugging me to add him to my list of friends. supposedly i have to give him a testimonial. ohs well. i'll do that when friendster decides to load for me. grin.

had a run in with one of my student's parent today. apparently he had been using me and caleb's names to cover for himself on thursdays, claiming that he got geog remedial on thursdays when in actual fact he doesnt. so happened that both of us were in school staying back to do work and he was caught red handed by his mother. oh grin. one of the irritating ones in one of my 2E classes. heh.

sheesh. i keep wondering if my students have stumbled upon my blog sometimes. i mean, which teacher would go round telling students who is setting what paper? unless they read this and they find out for themselves. oh what the heck. they will only get to see the questions on that day itself. which is only 2 weeks away and they havent started revising. now i understand how teachers feel when students tell them they havent started revision at this point in time. come to think about it, back then in rgs, i only started revision one week before. was still fooling around during the second last week i think. yeah. grin. haha.

i vaguely remember i have something else to blog about as well. but somehow i just forgot about it. hm. i simply cannot remember. what huh?
think. think think think.
thinks very hard.
ah sigh.
i still cannot remember.

accepted the SMU offer, and still waiting for NUS to get to me. somehow i dont harbour high hopes, and it's better for me not to, considering my grades and things like that. i just hope that i can at least make it to the interview round and give law another shot. yeah. wishing wishing wishing. hoping hard that it will come through. i wish.

somehow i think there's something wrong with my internet connection today. hm. maybe friendster is not at fault. but shannon said he couldnt give me a testimonial as well. ohs well. maybe i should try reconnecting.

i find myself crapping away.

ever felt the feeling of complete satisfaction? i finally tasted it. when mrs wong said today. "go home and clear up your paper, and you can print tmr." when she said print, it meant mass printing for the entire sec 2 express. finally. my goodness. been slogging day and night for this day of printing to come. finally. ah. the sweet taste of success. i mean, hey im not trained in setting geog papers and i nearly died halfway through la. so for everything to be approved and done, im like "phew". mission accomplished. grin.

so tired. yawn. fell asleep on the bus home today just now.

still got orals this coming saturday. with the sec 4 express. found out that im taking the 4E3 boys. goodness. the boys can seriously put me to sleep. girls are usually more entertaining and better at orals, aint i right? hee. a feminist at work here. lalalalala.

had a pleasant surprise yesterday when i opened the letterbox yesterday. saw a letter of offer for accountancy at NTU, when i thought hopes were dashed when i wasnt invited for the tea session at wherever what hotel that joyce zhuang got. not that i want to go NTU, but it was just a mild disppointment initially. so okay. so far i have heard from NTU and SMU. Where the hell did NUS disappear to?!?! ohs well. i'll just bid my time and wait. and wait. and wait. and if they offer me arts and social science, i'd just run for SMU. yeah. to be practically honest, everybody out there is hungry and greedy. everybody would wait for replies from everywhere before they make a final decision. and to be honest i dont know where my heart lies, accountancy or law. it's a tough decision to make. and frankly speaking, i havent made up my mind yet. partially because i dont think i can make it into law. but now that i have two offers at hand, i dont mind going to try out for the law interview and essay. just go and try, nothing to lose, no harm done right. right.

whee. doing editing for my geog paper now. not that fun a thing, but considering the fact that it's raining and i actually enjoy what i'm doing now, the feeling is pretty good. yepyep. hee.

i'm tired.
the headache still lingers.
i feel tired.
when i only had 3 periods today.
and 2 relief periods with 1T1. the class that was controllable until ruzaimi came in. together with that irritating david. and xavier. the three with ankle socks. and the three who wont stop talking until i threatened to hold the entire class back 30minutes after they shut their trap. worked perfectly fine. but i had to hold them until 2pm. school ended at 130. now i feel as though i have a sore throat. ouch.

got back the second draft today. corrections to be done to the paper. gotta see mrs wong tmr during my free periods to do up 2 more long structured questions. xian. two more batches of comprehension tests coming in tmr. oh sigh. more things to mark. and mid year exams are in 2 weeks time. and sports day is next monday, meaning i'll have to do make up class with 2E5. oh what the hell man.

im soooo tired.
havent gotten down to preparing revision worksheets. for geog.
finished mine for english. more or less i guess. i refuse to set anything more to mark. going through everythingin class. whether they like it or not.

this is the fifth week. five more weeks to end of term 2.
five more weeks to the end of my relief teaching career.
what will i do in june? hm. one thing. it's my birthday! reminder to everybody reading. hee. prolly start studying. either econs. or law. if i can get into NUS law. if not, im heading straight for SMU accountancy. still happy that i got an offer from them. hee.
what else will i do? slack around i suppose. enjoy the last few days of true freedom before getting back into the routine of studying again.

somehow i feel as though i've grown up alot more after i started teaching. felt as though i was really working, instead of slacking downstairs at the office. with it comes the stress and the extra time i take to prepare for my lessons. which is not that bad a thing sometimes, considering the fact that i have so much free time if i dont prepare my work. yeah. but i dont have enough resources at hand, and the school's resources, to be frankly honest, is quite pathetic. seen alot more things, and realised that all this while, in the past 6 years, i've been living in a small world. a small world that doesnt show us the true side of people, and singapore. the people left behind, the people whom we usually fear when we see them along the streets, and the experiences that we come in touch with. very often, if we dont see this side of people and singapore, we would always think that life is a bed of roses, and doing badly for exams would be getting a 70 out of 100. when this result is actually considered very good to these students.

there are students, working and studying at the same time.
there are students, who had lost hope for studies.
there are students, who need help but dont know where to look for.
there are students, who have family problems and bring them into the school.
there are students, with parents who dont give a damn shit about their own children.

these are people, whom the elitists will turn their backs against.
who dont think that they exist. because they had never appeared in their world before.

but here, is also the place. where i see true loyalty. and gutso (though sometimes in the wrong way). this is where, i see true feelings and not facades that i saw so often back then. this is where, true humans exist with warm hearts.

maybe it's time for most of us, to take a step out into the real world. and see for yourself. and realise how lucky. sooo lucky we actually are.

talked to tim over the phone just now. felt good to hear his voice again.
as usual, we were crapping and catching up with each other.
somehow i felt as though my life was put back to normal when i talked to him on the phone again. it seemed as though life was back to jc, when everything was normal and fine. he sounded tired too. and a tad stressed as well. why is everybody feeling so tired and resigned nowadays? me included. sigh.

honestly, it's less stressful being a student. at least for me that is. i mean, im fully responsible for 320 students' results now, and i dont know if they'll perform during midyear. provided they understand what im teaching them now la. ah sigh. but if they dont tell me i cant do anything right?

dint do any work for today. simply no mood to do with the headache throbbing at the back of my head. old problem la. been around ever since when i was in J1 i think. usually surfaces due to stress and lack of sleep. i might sleep early today. i just might i think. how early. say 10? is 10 considered early? hm maybe. but i have only 3 periods tmr. and what am i going to do with 2E5 tmr? lesson 22 and lesson 19/ land reclamation part 2 case study and restoring wetlands. very good. and the one period i have with 1E1? go through the revision exercise 1 i did with them? have i marked finish their functional writing? i have a feeling not leh. maybe i might mark them before i sleep. i shall try not to fall asleep on my bed. i will aim not to.

yawn. sleepy. conk.
nite.

crawled to bed at 3 just now. just couldnt take it.. was playing neopets and falling asleep at the same time. oops. slept from 3 to 5. and the headache subsided abit. which then became fairly bearable.

very bad headache.
maybe because i slept at 4am last night and woke up at 9 this morning? oops.
was talking on the phone la. lost alot of water last night.
everything seems to be solved. more or less. i hope.
losing water results in huge eyebags the next morning and a huge headache.
yawn.
cannot sleep or nap cos got work to do.
answers to compre test 5. answers to revision worksheets. whine.
tireeddddd.
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weina san wa sam san ga suki desuka?
hai, totemo suki desu.
sam san wa weina san ga suki desuka?
hee.

maybe ultimately. im just too sensitive.
i hate myself for that sometimes.
but i cant seem to change myself.
ever since young.
and i will not be changing myself for anybody in the near future.

finally. things were more or less looking up tonight. it wasnt entirely. but one email changed my entire mood for the past half an hour. yay!

basic simple reason. i got the letter of offer from SMU accountancy!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
okay i know that was long. but still. i was waiting anxiously for their reply. and somehow i had this nagging feeling that if i dint hear from them today, my chances would be gone. as in literally gone. because they said i would hear from them within one week. and i had my interview on monday. and to be frankly honest, i was kinda demoralised after my interview because i saw four rgs girls on that day of the interview when i stepped into the office. and horror of horror, my interview was slated to be the last of the day. so when i finally stepped into the interview room, it was already 5pm. when i was there since 315. oh wow. and i dint feel that good after the interview. so i thought i blew my only chance. but they offered me a place! yay! finally. one thing right for the night.

things that got me pissed off today. im not going to go into the details. but.
1. most people by now should know that i hate people "duaing" me. so yeah. dont try to pull that off me.
2. i hate people who break promises. absolutely detest. yeah.
3. the bloody teacher who criticised my student for not performing well. she does not have the right to criticise MY students when she doesnt even know what the hell she was doing this morning. it's not our fault if you couldnt give us the bloody information on time, allowing me more time to train my students. my students are already bloodly upset enough and there you go, saying 'hey you boy. spoilt the whole thing by reading from the paper.' you know how much it hurts? it hurt me as well. who cares if the goddamn school wins? i dont quite care. my students are more important than the face of the fucking school. you hurt my boy and indirectly hurt me as well. bitch la you. no point thanking me for training the students. it was the students who performed. thank the students, not me. they could have chose to back out last minute, for not having enough time to prepare. like the other school. but they chose to do their very best. where's your training as a teacher? to be a wet blanket and gloat and scold when people have already done their best and the competition is over? for goodness sake, it's only a BLOODY GROUP STORY TELLING COMPETITION!

next.

if you dont have time for a simple phone call. i really dont know. just a simple request. to help me get my steam off for today. and i cant even find anybody to talk to. if you are someone special, but not there most of the time. i dont see the point. i dont feel the so called 'care and concern' that both parties are to show to each other. communicating via sms is not the way to do things. keep telling me to take care. nothing. it means nothing to me. everybody says take care. through smses. what the hell. sometimes it seems quite stressful. and tired. and lonely. people just pointedly assumes that when anybody has somebody special, all the time will be spent with that person. utter crap. seriously utter crap. i still have plenty of time on my hands now. marking papers and looking after my students. and my social life is a total failure. sigh.

im just plain thankful that i did still get to eat dinner with fishball and gab at tiong bahru plaza just now. chilling out at bk, talking and catching up, going back on memories of jc and interact. had such a great time.
had a great time at com serve just now. the kids simply make me forget all my bottled up anger and frustrations. how i wish to lead a simple life. like the kids. so naive and innocent. nothing to complicate matters. except that their family background might be different. but it simply touches your heart, to hear a kid say "jie, i wish you be my neighbour, so that i can go to your house and you can come to my house and we can play with each other everyday". just a simple sentence like that, is so much better than a cold sms 'take care'.
treated my three little uns to bk in the afternoon as well. hid my anger at the teacher from them pretty well. and looking at them eating with satisfaction and delight simply melted my heart.

maybe that's why i crave for human company. it's more real. and sincere cos you actually get to see the person's facial expressions and actions. actions speak louder than words. always. and somewhere in that company, there will be often something, that will touch the heart. and make things all much clearer.

if i offend anybody up there. who cares. im damn bloody pissed now.
and if you know me. im always like that when im heated up. at the extreme end.
things can only cool by tmr.
what the hell.

the weekend is finally here. finally.
four weeks of teaching have passed and i quite like it so far. so far.
but teaching will stop in 2 weeks time. cos mid year is just around the corner. discovered today that mrs wong hasnt taken a look at the second draft yet cos she has absolutely no time and the printing schedule has been pushed back entirely so. yeah. dont know what will happen also so can only rely on caleb for information. er okay.

me yuan shin wanting daniel finally went out for lunch today. we realised we seldom lunched together after daniel went to take over mrs kelly ong's place. maybe because schedules clashed and yeah. so friday is the only day whereby we can actually step out of the school and enjoy a nice lunch together before rushing back for staff meeting. we reached back in school on the dot at 2.30 today. oops. but thankfully mrs yeow wasnt there. grin.

plenty of papers to mark so little time. but nevertheless i will still take time out to play.
tmr's the day for my cute uns for their story telling competition. going to school tmr for no pay to soothe their nerves and i promised them pizza hut if they can make it into the top three and macs, if they can garner at least a merit award. the two boys were delighted of course, and they started choosing what they want at pizza hut. what utmost confidence. there are still 9 other schools my dears. hahaha. but obviously i couldnt tell them that and scare them out of their wits. just want them to go and enjoy the attention, the spotlight and the story telling. i can tell that nazirul and lemuel love fooling around by roleplaying. to think they are 'soon to be' counsellors. aiyoh. and syahirah is the serious but giggly one. one giggle from her can send all three into nonstop laughter. grin.

punished chi hou today. for scaring my chun hao. grin. chu hao is damn adorable. so cute. and he was freaked out by chi hou cos that monkey was trying to catch him after recess, resulting in chun hao not daring to go into the class and waited for me to act as his cover. smart boy but chi hou still chased after him. obviously i had to put a stop to it and seriously roared at chi hou. the class fell silent. until justin chirped in, "wah chun hao you damn smart la, use ms teo as dang jian pai" and the whole class burst out laughing. pulled chi hou out of his seat and made him stand at the doorway for the whole two periods. while chun hao happily sat in his seat unharmed. am i showing favouritism? i sure hope not. i mean, i did say before 1E2 would be my favourite class, with the absence of that long dangly monkey. oops. aiyah who cares.

mrs wong. wherefore art thou my geog paper? printing day is next monday and you havent returned me my second draft!! i need to attach the cover page!!

im sure not looking forward to being stuck with caleb chua in the small printing room for two whole days just printing our mid year exams. sheesh. i hope irene will be in there with us. then i'll at least be able to catch up with her and ask her about molly. yeah. yeeucks. dont really know why, but i just feel uncomfortable around caleb. maybe because of his size? oops. kailyn dont laugh. i know you hate the 'carebear'. grin.

was stuck in school all the way until 6 today. luckily i finished marked E2's functional, and geog test paper. mantle is spelt as 'mantel'. another name for the crust is 'earth's plates'. wonder if they had been listening in class. of course that was the minority la. hee. had napfa testing today for the sec 4s. for once i was testing, the tester. not the testee. haha. was doing sit and reach with yuan shin, she took the girls i took the guys. when 4A2 came over, they were like 'hi ms teo!' all because of one sentence i said when i reliefed them on tuesday when ms teo, the EL HOD, wasnt here. i merely said 'ms teo is not here today, but ms teo here.' i was merely introducing myself and the class girls giggled. or rather, a bunch of girls giggling wasnt that mild a term. and when the 4T1 boys came over, guo long was like 'cher, when are you going to relief us again ah?' i dint know they like me reliefing their class when i merely took them for 2 relief periods. first time guolong and sean were bugging me about how much would they need to pay to go france learn hairstyling. then they asked about the 'cold cold' countries. until one girl shouted, 'oei stop buayaing the cher la..' then i was like. er. okay. dot. second time i went in, sean was like 'cher you again ah? fun leh!' and they came over to talk again. luke was asking about his 2E1 girls, as usual. but he wasnt in school today. i can see luke wants to do well, and try to make it far in his studies, cos he was telling me all about poly life. but i really dont know if he can truly make it that far. what i told him then was that, work hard in ITE, and then make it into poly. and stay clear of bad influences. and he mildly replied. God will be there to guide him. i hope, he will make his dream come true. plus trying to jio celeste from 2E1. haha. was threatening him that day, not to let me catch him with celeste or pearl somewhere at westmall, lot one, jec, jurong point or orchard. then he blushed ten times redder. walau damn funny sia. grin.

midyear is coming and i seem to be more concerned with my EL classes than my geog classes. is that something good or bad? hm. busy typing out the compre test 6 for them next week. sending it for printing tmr. and giving it out next tuesday. yawn. but life now seems to be so much under control. at least i know what i'll be doing next week. and things are more or less planned and ready to be used. i just need to churn out worksheets. and more notes to guide them for their midyears.

teaching seems to be so part of my life now. am i really cut out for teaching?
i really dont know. so far i seem to be able to handle the tough classes. so far. classes like 2T1, 4T1, 2A1, 3T2. and supposedly 3T2 is the worst. but then again i have this 'brother' zixiang who will help me control his class. and he's also the idiot whose first sms to me went 'me vincent here. what's your name?' and i replied 'who the hell are you and how did you get my number?' and he cheekily replied 'me yong sheng's brother.' and i was like 'chey you zixiang ah?' and when he met me in school he was like 'my el name is vincent. call me vincent.' and i told him, 'you'll always be zixiang to me.' really ah, that fella. hee.

sometimes i love the kids, sometimes i hate them.
but so far, i think i love them more than i hate them.
no reason to hate them so far la.

mark mark mark mark. wrong wrong wrong wrong. right right right right.
ABBBCACDDA.
mark mark mark mark. right wrong right wrong. wrong right right wrong.

igneous sedimentary metamorphic.
point point point point. 4. point. half. point point 2. point point point point point half. 5.5. good.

core mantle crust.
3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3.

description.
core. hot. uncontinuous. plates. 6-70km thick.
point point point. 3. point half. 1.5. point. 1.
what the heck are you trying to tell me? zero.

folding faulting.
zero zero zero zero.
out of the blue. ONE. TWO!!
then. zero zero zero zero.

i feel like a marking machine. help. can somebody invent a marking machine for me please?
this week is my geography class test week. just finished marking E4's geog test in school just now. concentration time. pia-ed the whole class in 2 hours. nearly died there. plus i marked 2T1's social studies test. MCQ. not too tough. just that i memoried the answers by the time i reached the fifth script. plus i marked finish E2's comprehensions. gotta return it to them by tmr. fail fail fail fail. what the hell. they seriously need help in their summaries. alot of them are hovering at the edge, 17, 18, 19. with a few who barely made it past the 20 mark. and the highest was a 27.

still have 2 classes of functional writing tests which i better start tonight. and 2e5's geog test. 1E2's geog test so far. and today is wednesday. 2E1, 2E3 and 2A2 have not taken their test yet. soo great.
now i finally understand what mrs wong meant by plenty of marking. and when she told me that, she dint take into consideration my EL classes. so well.

gotta live with it.
cant wait for the midyears.
sense my sarcasm? 200 scripts of sec 2 express geography each woth 100 marks.
the class test that i set for my geog classes was a mere 25 mark test paper.
6 X 25 X 40 = 6000 marks.
5 X 200 X 100 = 100 0000 marks.

wonder how is xinxin surviving at css? was talking to huimui online again yesterday and she mentioned her pri sch best friend who's currently studying at CSS now, and having xinxin as her relief teacher for science. grin. talking about a small small world.

realised i havent blogged for three whole days. THREE. WHOLE. DAYS. something that prolly wont have happened in the past aint it? but put it this way la. i was busy on saturday, marking on sunday and upset yesterday and sunday night. no mood to blog lor. wanted to blog yesterday night but he called, so was talking to him over his friend's phone. to evade the phone history.

saturday evening was a special night. but sunday night, simply dragged us back to reality. doubly hurt and upset, but i knew things werent within his control, to put it this way. he cant help it if his mum felt that way. all i can commend, is that his mum has powerful sensitivity. now i'd wish, that everything dint happen. all the way from the very beginning. i dont wanna be embroiled in his family affair ultimately, and i know his mum's reasons are perfectly logical and made sense, from a mother's point of view. but i guess there comes a point in time where parents should know when to let go. and im glad my parents know when to do that. they started letting go, bit by bit ever since i stepped into jc. and till now, im pretty satisfied with the amount of freedom i have. so far.

i really dont know what to do, and what to say. logically speaking, we shouldnt even start. but speaking from the heart, ...... it has reached a point whereby i realise i do like him for himself. sometimes i really just dont know. would it be better for me to just fade away in his life, and just go, or to stay on, and see what happens? i believe, most people would tell me to just go. maybe i should, analysing it from a logical point of view. but both sides will be hurt. think he would be hurt more than i would be.
maybe maybe maybe.
i really dont know.

talked to him over lunch yesterday and i cried. in school. tears just couldnt stop flowing. it wasnt bawling, but just silent bleeding of the heart. it's better to face the problem now, head on. and to let wounds heal by itself slowly. im still thinking, but i know a decision has to be made as soon as possible. no point dragging. it wont do both sides any good.
and somehow after this whole issue, there seems to be something missing. something amiss. something not right. i just cannot put my finger on what's missing, what's absent. but somehow, somewhere, one particular piece of the puzzle just doesnt fit. it just doesnt. i dont know if it was the question he asked this morning, but i really dont know. dont know if that's the missing piece, and even if it is, i dont know the answer.

im back to the "i dont know" stage. where i started out from.
sam, if whatever i wrote up there hurt you, im sorry. but i did forewarn you not to read the posting.
maybe it was better that i blogged today instead of yesterday. if i blogged yesterday, my words would have been alot sharper. and the consequences might have been worse. i dont know.






saw the group story telling students from 1E2 yesterday after the phone call, to prepare them for the groups story telling competition. they lifted my spirits immensely. the way kayjun was pronouncing his words with a similar british accent, and the wacky facial expressions that dittaya was making as kerbau hittam, and justin who kept saying 'lao shi wo ZHEN DE ji bu de' when he knew specifically that i was his EL teacher, was soo cute. as usual, dittaya and justin. but i was surprised by kayjun's performance, he can speak english perfectly well! but im choosing 1E1 to represent hillgrove at the cluster level, because lemuel nazirul and syahirah can enunciate their words much better. although 1E2 would have put up a more entertaining performance.
sometimes i just simply love my sec ones. a bunch of lovable, cute and entertaining lot. even though they can be noisy at times. even though 1E2 chi hou can get on my nerves everytime he's in class. 1E2 would be perfect without that monkey. oops.

vented my frustrations on 2A1 this morning. cos they were making simply too much noise. simply too much. and the rudeness of the students there, are simply deserving for detention. told 2 boys 1 girl to stand up for talking while i was lecturing the class for noisiness, they simply refused. after two threatens to their form teacher, it dint help. only after i say the 'magic word' "if the three of them are not standing up, the whole class will get to miss their recess." tataz, the class glared icily at them and the two boys stood up. meijia simply shook her fists and remain seated, until i used the word 'mdm salbiah'. seems like the only person she's scared of is the discipline mistress. what the hell la. i dont teach your class so i dont quite give a damn. i just dont want your freaking class noise to disrupt others in other classes who just might want to learn. sheesh.

and eileen, if you're reading this, i would just like to point out. i dint know i had different dress sense from you guys. i dint know myself that i dont shop for clothes, or shoes.
put it this way la. maybe we aint keeping in touch, that's why you guys simply forgot all about me. thanks la.
but i do apologise for walking off with ruoling just like that. cos i thought you knew, we were going to get xinxin's present. AND we thought you guys were FOLLOWING us. until we reached the escalator and saw absolutely nobody in sight behind us.

i guess things like that happen after we leave school. no longer keeping in touch. and maybe by the time uni life begins, all of us might have forgotten the existence of one another by then.seriously. to think i thought my jc pals would be my life long friends. now it all seem like a big joke. maybe junhui was right. that secondary school friends are the friends for life. maybe two years is really too short to get to know a person well enough. as usual. me thinks too much. which is not surprising actually. if you dont know that trait of me by now, i guess you dont really know me at all.

wow. such a wonderful night. soooo high. madness. crazy. but fun i guess.

somehow today's class gathering dint feel like a class gathering to me. everybody seemed so separated, we sat at two separate tables when we were at lao di fang. somehow the lao di fang dint feel like lao di fang anymore, maybe cos they shifted? yeah i guess so.

maybe things dint start off well. i dint know eileen sijia elsa venus met up first. i guess me and ruoling wont have known they chose to meet up if we dint meet them while we were shopping for xinxin's pressie. maybe they had their own reasons for not asking us along. maybe they dint think we would go shopping with them, but hello since when did my taste in shopping differed from theirs? like please la. to be frankly honest, i was a tad pissed la. but obviously i dint let it show. why make a mountain out of a molehill? if they think i dont suit them, fine, so be it. im glad to have close friends in xinxin and ruoling, such that even if we dont meet up often to shop or eat, we still remain close. dunno la. maybe they dont mean it in any way, but that was my take la.

so me and ruoling went off in search for xinxin's pressie and it was a fun trip, to be just shopping ard with ruoling for gadgets, the things that we and xinxin would like to do together. got some of them to share also la. cos so expensive. but if i had brought more money out today, i wont mind spending more on dear xinxin, cos she IS worth it. tan lixin, if you're reading this, im repeating this for the final time, you ARE worth it. grin.

then me and ruoling went to kino to buy pens to write the cards to xinxin. and i bought a red pen. so that i can use it to mark as well. hee. and then we went to lao di fang to meet the rest. people who turned up: ruoling me xinxin zhangqing venus eileen elsa yanlian sijia vivian yuan dewen wilbur jinyang. it was a successful outing cos the people were there, but we dint talk much. did keep up with vivian wilbur and zhangqing but the rest were sitting at the other table la. and when jinyang came, he walked past us, as though we were invisible. oh how great. BUT. i had a great time bullying xinxin, as usual and talking to zhangqing. zhangqing is seriously such a great friend.. maybe i can meet her for dinner or sth since she's staying at clementi now. grin.

after that we wanted cheesecake. or at least me ruoling zhangqing and xinxin wanted cheesecake. so we ended up at spinelli, but xinxin disappeared with venus. and the rest went to heerens to shop. leaving me zhangqing ruoling sijia and yanlian, eating cheesecake by the counter just chilling out la. and sam msged saying he was feeling abit down so i called him la. and when we were chatting on the phone, i saw huiru and boy oh boy, what a bigg hug. grin. so coincidental. went back in to finish up my cheesecake after that and most of them had to go, leaving only venus zq me ruoling sijia yanlian xinxin. and we walked to cine in hopes of catching a movie but to no avail. and venus spent most of her time in the clothes shop while we were just browsing around.

the night really started when me ruoling sijia left cine to go peace centre in search for ruoling's cheap guitar. but the shop was closed. and since the three of us were dead tired and full, we just sat down there at the 1st floor and chatted. which was a very nice feeling. and we chatted. and we were whining about wanting to play mahjong or bridge and they were trying to get me to get sam to come down to be our final kaki to make up four people. right. all the way from his house down to peace centre just to entertain three girls right before him booking in? obviously not la.

so in the end, we made our way to the rochore bean where we sat down and ate yummy tau huey. sooo soft and nice. and cheap. grin. i know that store is famous for the tau huey la. me and ruoling came to the conclusion that they used a different kind of syrup, something along the lines of cane syrup if i dont remember wrongly. yeah. and when we were on our way to eat tau huey, we spotted a NTUC just round the corner so we were actually saying we should go grocery shopping. and we did just that, after we finished the tau huey. pushed a trolley around which was almost practically empty, except for sijia's two packets of fruit tree fruit juice, her two packets of tangyuan, ruoling's ferre roche and her yoghurt, plus mine yoghurt. yeah. we still had the stomach for yoghurt. grin.

and after that, we decided to walk in the direction of sim lim to return to bugis mrt station to go home. along the way, we passed by a building and ruoling said her sis was crazy about the korean supermarket in the building. so we went grocery shopping again, at the korean supermarket. grin. she was busy getting what her sis wanted and me and sijia were just browsing. and after we stepped out i was looking for the toilet la, so we stepped into burger king in the same building and there was where ruoling noticed the new mozzerella burger. but. we dint do anything just yet.

off we headed in the direction of simlim, and just when we were approaching OG, near the hawker centre, we smelt butter prawns. we were soooooooo tempted to stop and find out where the smell was coming from. but then again. we could have stopped at the hawker centre and ate the butter prawns (if the smell was coming from there) and me and ruoling would have gone for oyster omelette as well. hee. but we controlled and we walked towards the mrt. towards bugis street.

we went past bugis street rather uneventfully. we dint stop at every clothes shop and analyse the clothes. but we were distracted at a junction and we wondered if we should go in and have a look. but we had a wacky idea as well, and that was to stop at the burger king right at the end of bugis street and share a mozzerella burger. yes, three girls share one burger. yeah. and we did just that. trooped all the way to that particular bk and went in. i went to order the burger, and told the lady at the counter 'cut into three pieces' she gave me a weird look before passing on the orders. when we opened the wrapper, to our diamay, it was cut into 1/2, 1/3, and 1/6. how interesting. so sijia went to get a plastic knife and we cut the 1/2 into quarters. and each of us took one quarter and finished it. and then ruoling and sijia were trying to cut the final piece into three slices while i was talking to yanlian on the phone. during the course of stay at burger king, ruoling and i called yanlian asking the exact same sentence 'yanlian, are you drinking hot tea now?' and we forgot to get sijia to call as well. make it funny mah. hahaha..

the crazy things we did tonight. reminded me of the rum and raisin night. the night when we stayed back in school just to play bridge and eat rum and raisin chocolate. the same threesome. me sijia ruoling. plus tim. tried to make him recall the rum and raisin night. the night when we finished our fmaths block test 2, second part of the paper. the night when we all decided to go drunkenly high, due to the rum in the chocolate? hee. i doubt it la. more like emotions were running high and the four of us enjoyed ourselves thoroughly that day.

like what sijia says, a classic jc memory.

and tonight will come a close second to becoming a classic memory of mine.
the day we wandered from orch to bugis. walked most of the way, except from taking the bus 65 from robinsons to peace centre. aside from that, we walked. all the way.
what a wonderful way to end the day.

ooh and check out the class webby for pictures.
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sitting around waiting to prepare to go and meet the class. or rather 02S36. grin. will see the long lost faces. hahaha. though i did see yuan just recently la. finally, the class is meeting up after such a long time.

i know i should be marking my stuff now. but. but. but. (imitation of zhuzhu frm my tech class "P )i wanna play neopets now. hahaha. cant imagine their faces if i tell my students that your 'cher' is still playing neopets. grin.

found out some interesting stuff yesterday about myself. which seems rather unbelievable. dunno whether if it's true or not. but still. it made me realise that mok is true after all. after all my self denial and arguments with mok, turns out that he's right. i still think it's downright unbelievable la. as in. aiyah. i cant say it outright here also. but i dont think i have that charm or whatsoever la. nor the looks. yeah. and the people invovled. just find this whole notion totally weird. well. why the hell is mok always soooo accurate? grr. him. as usual.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
okay fine. i'm very hyped up. just had my very first PCP meeting just now at henderson cc. PCP = post camp project. gee, the atmosphere was just wonderful and i guess it's damn nice to be around volunteers because... it was just a great feeling la. everybody motivating each other on and you know, the little things like that, and trying our best to do a little bit more for society and making people happy. yeah. i like that feeling.

am gonna be the secretary/treasurer of the committee. was already taking minutes just now during the meeting. yeah. still feeling very hyped up now.. hee. so happy. lalalala.
maybe because of the long weekend as well. yeah. yups. grin.
but long weekend means marking weekend as well. lugged home functional writing papers home to mark. and was marking punctuation on the mrt just now. yeah. how tough can a teacher's life get? yawn.

nothing much happened today. everything went fine in school.
and talking to huimui currently. a student from 1E1. yeah.

tireddd.
as usual.

scolded 1E2 twice today. they were such a disappointment. was so freeaking disappointed with them. dint listen in class for geog. dint study for their informal letter writing functional test. gave them plenty of time before hand and they give me twenty odd variations of how an informal letter looks like. soo disappointed. when will they learn? i love the kids, but sometimes, they just dont perform. i dont expect that from their class. seriously dont. maybe it dint help that i was marking their comprehensions during their tests. what a disaster. plenty of zeroes all around the papers.

class it's not funny. only syafiq is learning and the rest of you are just playing the fools. your midyear exams are coming, and i want you to do your best. please try. even if you dont know, at least you try and not not study. i really dont want to compare you with 1E1. and 1E4 for that matter. it's not funny when you ask questions that are out of the syllabus and insist that i answer them just to drag time. i can joke around with you, but learn how to control yourselves. dont be like chi hou. please. learn from dittaya. one who performs and still acts like a monkey in class. that i dont mind. but if i know you're capable but you dont deliver, and insists on playing the fool. be my guest.

mr ling made 1E5 copy the informal letter writing format. i zapped and gave each and one of you a copy. maybe i should just make you guys copy. to shut your traps and force you to copy. but i know that does not work on your class. because your class is not that sort. i know. after 2 weeks of school, honestly your class is my favourite class. english and geog lessons with you. i can remember most of your names. and i honestly want you guys to do well, even if it means saving your class from your maths teacher and giving you extra classes to help you in your english. just. dont. disappoint. me. please dont. your class disappointed me once today. will what i say stay with you until midyear where you'll shine for me to see? or will my words leave your ears once i step out of your classrooms?

tiredd.

it was tough trying to ignore you yesterday. yet you treated it like a joke initially. took you some time to realise. so hurting. so tough. i was pissed. and disappointed at the same time. what was i to say to you? given my stubborn and irritating nature, i'd just ignore you. ignore. ignore. ignore. cancelled his calls. ignored his smses. ignored your icq msges.

you msged this morning while i was waiting for the bus. finally i replied. maybe because my anger subsided. and maybe you thought i kicked up a fuss for nothing. so it seemed. but then again. i feel justified. i dont know.
made up this morning and all became fine and well. so it seems.
i know both parties were hurt this time round.
but if that is what you can say, sorry i cant take it.
then when am i to know if it's true, and when it is just plain tongue in cheek.
i'm sorry. for hurting you like that. but. you hurt me first.

fine fine. im just plain stubborn.
i know i always am.
ever since the day i was born.
just hope something like that doesnt happen again.





distractions.
if i was a student again, nothing of such sort would happen in the first place. because i would never allow such things to happen. never.
it's a different story all together now.
sighhh.

he's back in camp now. coincidentally the same camp and unit as mok. hope they dont kill each other, if they dont 'click'. and if they 'click', may mok not dish out all my juicy secrets. oh how great. sense my sarcasm? im more worried that they kill each other instead, and squash me in the centre. aiyoh.
feels weird that he's back in camp now. quite weird.

i dont wanna set comprehensions for remedial.
i dont wanna set geography tests for my 2E, 2NA, and my 1E.
i dont wanna think of anything fun to do for english classes.
i dont wanna do lesson plans for vulcanism, weathering, erosion, natural vegetation.
i dont wanna do lesson plans for land reclamation and case study of singapore. plus modes of transport.
i dont wanna do comprehension test for week 5.
i dont wanna redo my geography midyear exam paper.
i dont wanna think of anything.
i dont wanna do anything.

i just wanna cry.
can i be a student again?
can i not grow up?
away from all the distractions, problems and workload i have to face now.
i promise, i swear that i'll be guai and work hard if i were to be a student again.
bring me back to the past and let me change the present.
i dont wanna live in the present world.

i really wanna cry. really.
so tired.
and alone.

this is seriously so amusing. so so amusing.
for the very first time my handphone battery went flat on me early in the morning today, there were actually people who tried contacting me. tim. who asked me if i'm free. mok. for his regular updates. my cousin. who asked me if i'm free. jeremy. who asked me if i wanted to meet up. sam. who asked me where we bought roo's pressie. and of course, my mummy, who wanted to ask me when i was going to reach home. plenty of smses. but what they dint realise was that i couldnt or rather dint get in touch with them at all cos i had no idea they tried contacting me. grin. oops. apologies everybody. heh. came back from orals to realise that my handphone was on super low bat and after i came back from breakfast with wanting, it was totally flat.

but on the other hand. i thoroughly enjoyed myself today. alone. all by myself. remember doing one particular email survey about myself, and i remember vividly writing down: "1. Describe the best feeling you've ever had: when im alone" maybe i'm just plain weird or something, but ever since secondary school, i really treasure the times when im alone. just going around, alone to the library, or to shopping malls just walking around, listening to music and yeah. which was what i did today. did some outrageous things la. or rather, rephrase, things that i have not done for a very long time.

left school at around 11. was debating to go westmall, jurong point or woodlands library. decided to let the bus decide for me. if 945 came along, westmall it is. if 176 came along, i would hop on to 187 and rock my way to woodlands. if 985 came along, i would rock my way to LOT 1. in the end, 945 came. but not before i met my E2 students. christopher and gang who came back to school just to play basketball. okay. grin. they looked a little hesistant before approaching me, but maybe that was because i had my headphones on. as usual.

went to westmall and wasnt satisfied with the library. at least i couldnt find my "feng shen bang" there, no matter how i searched the shelves. so i made up my mind, by going to woodlands regional library. yeah. so took the mrt and found myself waiting outside the library atv 11.55 for the library to open. opened at 12 and i went up to the usual floor to scout for my feng shen bang again. couldnt find it. so wanted to borrow san guo yan yi, but i was pretty sure i couldnt finish it, given the load i have now. but i spent a whole one hour just looking for the book, cos it's quite hard to find a chinese classic in the shelves of chinese books especially when i had no idea who the author was and i dint want to ask my dad cos i wanted to give him a surprise by getting him the book first. but still couldnt find the book and off i went to the adult fiction section and started looking around. realised that somehow im getting just a little tired of thrillers. or maybe because i havent found any new authors to my liking yet. so borrowed only two books in the end, timeline and another book set in the holocaust. looked interesting so i borrowed. by then it was already 2.30pm and i havent ate my lunch. wanted to dabao fast food but i wasnt sure of my mode of transport home then. was debating between 187 (which meant a super long ride home) and the mrt. guess what i went with in the end? the bus. 187. grin. yeah i know im a nutcase. and. i ate old chang kee for lunch. madness aint i? my lunch was just a curry puff from old chang kee. obviously i cant bring fastfood up the bus and start munching on it like nobody's business mah so i just bought a curry puff and home i went.

but i havent taken a nice long busride for a long time. used to take it when i went home from rgs for four whole years, but ever since, the longest busride was just a mere 40min from hwachong back home. missed the times when i had enough time to take a nice nap and wake up, just in time to get off. with my headphones on and listening to music. yeah. so i decided to just take the 187 and rock my way home. and i did. take a nice long nap chilling out to music and yeah. woke up just in time to find myself in jurong. what a nice long trip. yeah so im curreently wide awake now. and the bus journey wasnt that long. it was a mere one hour trip. from woodlands to jurong west. not bad sia? grin.

it was nice being uncontactable for that whole 4-5 hours. so peaceful. so relaxing. so. me. hee.

eileen, i'd rather have the school not involve me in their meetings. went for staff contact yesterday thinking that it was just the weekly half an hour discipline staff contact when it was the 3 hour long staff contact and i was meeting sam at 4.30 at plaza sing la. in the end changed venue all the way to jurong point la. and i only met him at 6plus i think? oops. so sorry la. heh. but i had a nice evening last night la. hee. i dont bear to eat the choc you gave last night leh. so nice. but so ex at the same time. $18 per 100g is really madness lor. but i gave my sis a piece. and she was like "why aint it white choc?" grin.

had orals this morning and surprise surprise, it was so much better than 3express my goodness. even eunice had a great time. sheesh. the normal acad students are more forthcoming and frank with their views and we saw some light through their opinions in their conversation. had sean neo for my batch, the one who quit school for half a year last year and only came back just recently. he said that his family was in a horrendous mess and that's the plain reason why he started hanging out with his friends ever since he was in primary three. oh btw the question was: what are some of the times you liked spending with your family? and he said outright he had none. felt a tinge of sympathy for him when we finished orals with him. other girls said that they would want to have their parents not quarrel day in day out over small minor things, allowing them to have some peace and quiet at home. one actually told us "shopping malls are alot more quiet than my house." see how bad the situation can get? there's simply nobody at home to help them, and when they start giving up on themselves, really. they turn for the worst. saw zixiang this morning, he gave me another lame joke and i told him to "jiayou" for his orals. he's in 3T2 and he's one who never fails to give me a smile AND a lame joke whenever i see him. asked him about his orals after that he was like "zhe yang lor..." and he brushed it aside and gave me another lame joke again. seriously that joker ah.

daniel is going to take over mrs kelly ong on monday. which means giving up his 1E5 and PE classes and wanting will be taking over him. which means i wont get to work with him for EL. the original threesome gang of me yunshin and him separated. he's quite upset over it la and during the staff contact meeting he was complaining about a headache. stress la. mrs ong going on maternity leave and now he has to resettle himself all over again teaching physics. well at least they dint post him OUT of the school, which was the rumours we heard before. i'll miss him if he was posted out la.

i still got papers to set, comprehensions to mark and homework to do. havent gotten down to doing my jap homework. die..

scolded my tech class today. not for the naughty ones. they are the ones listening. but the hardworking ones. for doing MATHS in my SOCIAL STUDIES class today. yesh i know social studies is not an examinable subject but that does NOT give you the right to do maths in my social studies. gave them a quiz on the previous chapter and surprise surprise, the naughty noisy not so smart students did much better than those "guai" better behaved ones. why? because they listened. and then i lectured 2E3 today. because the boys were making weird sounds throughout the class. the girls were irritated la. and i think they were happy when i started to lecture the boys because i could see some of them smiling. heh. think they wanted to listen la. hahaha. feel like talking to ms ng about yong yu cos he kept disturbing the girl behind her, and the girl was definitely feeling very awkward and out of place. yeah maybe i should cos this is not the first day (eh actually the second time since this is the second week..) i've seen him doing that. yeah.

teachers are all very tired already. heard one in the staff room saying today "i'm already looking forward to good friday, and this is only the second week." no surprises i guess. after working for almost two weeks, i'm starting to tire too. yun shin and i live to look forward to the weekend while daniel seems to have boundless energy. good. he can go set the papers and worksheets then. he seems so enthu about the mock midyear that we're going to give. thankfully he's setting. grin. abit unfair la, but when he saw my table today, he was like "$65 a day is definitely not worth it la." he thinks that the combination is too heavy, plus the number of classes and the midyear paper. according to him, he wont have taken it. but i like what im doing now la so im fine with it.. cant help it if i like to be kept occupied like that right? just that it does get abit tiring.. esp when the work keeps coming in and i dont find the time to sit down to mark the worksheets.. it's the geo worksheets that i cant seem to clear. and i have to set 3 geo tests for the my classes by next week. plus i havent finished marking the compres yet and the functional writing is going to come in next week so here goes man. but i still seek a balance between work, com serve and my social life. grin. at least i try to.

realised it's interesting to send people quizes about themselves, or myself. like i just sent out one just yesterday and got several replies. think i've gotten replies from ruoling, sam, huiru and wenhui. ruoling's one was the most accurate of all.
according to ruoling,
my middle name is "i like to read"
fav thing to do outdoors: play BRIDGE!!! eh ruoling and people, when are we having a bridge/mahjong session soon ah?
nickname for me: cookie. i'm the colour of a well baked cookie (not burnt), i'm a pretty tough cookie, and i'm as sweet as one either. (to be honest, i never thought of that. grin.)
am i loud or quiet: "Wah. tough one... you can be real quiet on your moody days or your angry days... but generally you're friendly and thus would talk to people"
am i smart or stupid: "95% smart, 5% stupid. stupid when it comes to stubborness on certain things which i can no longer remember" (yeah i agree im stupid when i start being stubborn. hee. so paiseh.)
what's the worst things of me: my mood swings.. (so sorry ruoling.. )
A feature that you like about me as a person: Your frankness.

yeah.. things that are extremely accurate and i agree. grin.
and next i saw roo's one.. and sam's and wenhui. oei wenhui, my hair colour is still copper brown. still the same one as prom, unlike somebody who dyed it "white" for the fun of it and ended up like an albino. "P and stop emphasing that i am black. yesh i know i AM chaodar. grin. at least you dint use the word bitumen on me again.
and amusingly everybody thinks my fave activity outdoors is comn service, and i am athletic. maybe it should be like what ruoling put it to be, i am but i choose not to be. hahaha. still waiting for replies from other people. and eileen dear, while you send me a blank one for me to fill in, please fill in for me as well la. hee.

so happy that the class blog is active once more. maybe because the guys are back and have more interesting things to add to aside from work work and work. as usual dewen was being his lame self. but to be real honest, i do miss his lame jokes. just check out our class blog la. 02s33 grin. the usual lame us. i miss the class. plenty. havent seen them ever since the open houses. i sure hope i get to see them on the 8th after my meeting at NCSS. whee. i got invited to be in the committee for post camp project which consists of approx 7-8 camp members =) feeling so honoured. wonder how many of the blue group people were invited. last checked with daphne she wasnt, and that was before soon tien called me to tell me not to check with the rest cos they dont want tongues to wag. yeah. but i cant keep the news to myself any longer. so excited. grin. one little step more to contributing that much to society. to be a part of NCSS. really feel so honoured. whee. but then again, i wonder how long the meeting will take. i do wanna meet up with the 36 people cos i havent seen them for such a long time. except for yuan la, when i met her for lunch last friday. grin.