why are everybody happily in love when im sadly outta love?
[kay fine. joycez has her love troubles too.]
oh sigh.



spent the past two days at home, chilling out, reading, mugging abit. and yea thats about it. might pop down to the lib later. i dont know. shrugs. downloaded the entire will pan's cd. will wait for more freebies to come along before i go buy it and swoon at his cute looks. hehe.
nothing much to blog actually. pretty crappy today. reckon i wont have time to blog in the next two days too.
cant wait for tmr when there's badminton. time to give my lazy bones an exercise.
cant wait for sunday when i finally meet kailyn :)
cant wait for monday when i have OG chalet.
cant wait for thurs [steph is it gonna be thursday?] for LTB bbq. jason1 is gonna treat us to steak! :) for our wonderful performance for a leader i've known. whee.
cant wait for friday when it's huiling's birthday and we're going down to ntu to ramnik's room to crash [again yea i know :)]
cant wait for saturday when there's comn serve.

erm. where's the time im gonna spend studying for stats and FA?
erm oops. heh.

heh blogging on martin's laptop now while he sleeps in the gsr and the rest are watching a cinderella story on my laptop. wahaha. we're in a dark cold gsr now. cooling nice. wahhaha.

anyway today's presentation was a roaring success! everybody was laughing like mad at our skit, with martin's crossdressing as Rosa Parks. whee. i was laughing to such an extent that i could not narrate properly. wahaha. apparently there was quite abit of crossdressing today. sparkx did the same thing too, having kelvin dressing up as colin goh's wife. cos their chosen leader was colin goh. grin. yeah but i think we did a great job for our presentation. awaiting jason tay's pictures and video. and lemme find out how i can stream video online so that i can show you guys the skit we put up. wahahha.

my break starts unofficially today! cos i have no school tmr and i think i will skip stats on friday since we are cancelling the meeting on friday. heh. so no point in coming to school and stoning in school for nothing right? grin. i should get started on revising for stats and financial accounting. whee. cos i have stats and financial accounting tests after term break. officially i have slightly more than two weeks. but i still have to take into consideration the amount of meetings and outings im having throughout the entire break. this coming weekend is entirely gone. saturday morning i have badminton, then tuition, then my maternal grandma's birthday. then sunday i have paternal grandma's birthday and meeting kailyn in the afternoon to shop and chill :) after that i have OG chalet :) whee. haha and i need time to study. yeah.

sometimes i feel fine. sometimes i feel as though i lead a screwed up life. sometimes i dont know what the heck im doing. sometimes i feel happy.

im damn sleepy. super sleepy. and tired. walau see what financial accounting is doing to me. bish. i wonder how the rest survives. haii. maybe im not cut out for accountancy. i dont know. shrugs. damn tired. my brain is shutting down on me. and im still waiting for LTB to start soon. as in LTB meeting. sian. sian sianer sianded. if only joycez doesnt have class now. yawn. then she can come and entertain me. and we can crap and gossip. wahaha.

i have a bad headache. a throbbing one ever since FA just now. walau. deadz. sian sianer sianded.

sometimes i dont know what im feeling at all.
at certain times i feel as though i still miss him. sometimes i feel as though i've forgotten all about him. sometimes i just dont know what im feeling.
maybe i shouldnt go blog reading. i dont know. shrugs. especially the med fac people's blog entries. blame it on the links. but on second thoughts i can choose not to click on them too. self control self control. haii.

a friend of mine was telling me he might be breaking up with his gf. i was stunned initially, then cautiously asked how long the relationship was. 2 months. i merely told him to think about it carefully before doing anything. and shrugged and told him that single life could be fun too. is it really that fun honestly? i mean, i took the past one month to pick up the pieces of my life and to move on. the previous month before that was spent sad and upset. slowly im eradicating him out of my life. but is it possible for complete erasure? i dont know. shrugs.
dont worry, im fine. but i was just thinking about the stuff that my friend was telling me. frankly speaking, i was amazed he told me that. cos im not THAT close to him. or maybe its different for guys. such that they can tell this sorta stuff to anybody. i dont know.

but i shall heed his advice and stop msning so much. heh.
the morning's spree of blog reading has rendered me -numb-. i dont know.
i think the word "idontknow" is my most commonly used phrase. argh.
but i know im fine, so people dont worry. its just this occasional thing you know. heh.

my stomach is growling and im raring to go for lunch.
hardly listening to the presentations. sorry comns101 mates.
trying to read my econs notes at the same time.
having econs mid term later.

and after this test...
its PARTY time. :)
OG chalet.
LTB bbq [lets not push this anymore steph!]
visits to NUS/NTU [ruoling, the visit to your room is long overdue!! and xinxin venus, i wanna eat the japfood stall again again!]
firdaus's birthday party on 091004 [he's chanting this next to me while i blog]
time to relax.
watch mamma mia? [gab and yy, are we gonna watch together? mm yy can get wy to come along too. and.. heh. ]

i want my long awaited break. and my stomach is growling. whineee.

my cousin [i.e. the bride] and me :)

my nephew and alfred :) 

mass yam seng session 

popping the champagne :) 

my three aunties :) 

my niece and my pink face. due to the red wine. wahaha. 

my aunt and me :) 

my naughty nephew 

it is hard to find people who can truly enjoy big band music, live jazz. guys and girls alike. so far, the only guys who enjoy big band and live jazz are gab and sam. as far as i know. mm sigh. girls a plenty, there's fishball, kailyn, ruoling [i think]. who else? i love big band music. pardon me for being in this jazzybandy mood. im currently listening to buble you see. oh sigh.

recently i've taken to listening to the nineties boy band music. dont ask me why. im tired of hearing the black rapping hiphop music on perfect 10. it may seem refreshing at the beginning of the rap/hiphop era, but now, gimme a break. im back to listening things from backstreet boys, nsync, micheal learns to rock, all-4-one, etc music. currently playing on musicmatch is "25 minutes" by micheal learns to rock. mm sigh. dont ask me why i've developed a sudden liking for them. im addicted to all-4-one's "i swear".

sigh oh sigh. i feel OLD. for a nineteen year old.

tireddd.

whoa for once i look forward to the day tmr when i get to stay at home and rest. for once. i mean, the past two days feel as though it has been the weekend and somehow i keep thinking tmr is monday. mm. [reminder: to those who are lost and drifting in outer space, tmr is a sunday, a day when you're supposed to sleep in late and wake up at an unearthly time of 11am in the morning]. damn shacked since yesterday night. or maybe afternoon. i dont know. shrugs.


friday:

honestly friday was a fun day for me, even when it seems like eons ago now. wow. seriously i feel weird. heck. had stats in the morning when i had a stats quiz that resembled vaguely like a science/definition quiz. i felt cheated. how the bloody hell can you give a stats quiz like a science quiz asking me for the cornerstone of distributions? urgh. disgusting. wahaha. then had LTB meeting when we were fooling around trying to get our skit done in the proper manner. MARTIN YOU ARE FREAKING SKINNY. haha. point taken. he's so super skinny such that he could squeeze into elaine's mum's floral dress. [yes to all present, martin is cross dressing.] i cant foresee him with a mop as a wig. with his paper boobs. *faints with laughter on the floor* then spent the rest of the meeting time watching happy tree friends with some of my LTB mates. boy aint i becoming more and more morbid. the sheer amount of blood coming out from the creatures of happy tree friends thrills me more than anything, to such an extent i squeal with morbid laughter and nothing more. im madd aint i? wahaha.

brought the LTB group down to bukit ho swee and had a short meeting with mrs quek for about half an hour, discussed some stuff and wanted to join them at tiong bahru plaza for ice cream but gab was late. heh. so i had to wait for him and when he finally arrived, he was drenched. in his own pespiration. wahaha. we went in and talked to mrs quek for even a longer time than before. talking about the current kids united, to NS life which gab is stuck in now, and to ghost stories in camp blah blah. we left when mrs quek became engaged in a phone call. in any case gab's BMT friend was waiting for him outside the centre. they were meeting up for some catching up considering his friend disrupted for med. mm. managed to convince them to drop by venezia for icecream first. yummy. i got my dark choc ice cream :) yummy yum. sat down at bk and chitchatted for a while before i left at about 4. it was interesting to find out how gab's friend knows plenty of my other friends too, some close, some acquaintances. mm the elitist world is too small. but sometimes, i feel more comfortable in this small world where everybody is on the same frequency [more or less]. oh sigh.

reached home to dress up for my cousin's wedding dinner at orchard hotel. goodness the cocktail party was such a let down. :( stood around sipping SOFT DRINKS. urgh. and munching on peanuts. blearh. but one good thing was our table was damn near the stage where they cut the bridal cake and did the yam seng. cos its my cousin's wedding mah. she was soo pretty last night. but she's always pretty :) just that the radiant glow of being a bride made her glow with a vibrant light. made me started thinking about weddings and marriages [not that im keen to start one NOW], about things like when i wanna get married, settle down for a family but not giving up my career at the same time. i wonder if that's possible. i wonder. thought about the famed chinese saying "marriage is the graveyard for love". i wonder if thats true. mm oh wells. the highlight of last night was the red wine. wahaha. downed three and a half cups of red wine before the other half was taken away from me. got a little high and tipsy [BUT i can assure you i aint drunk yea?] and i swear my entire face was burning hot. especially my ears. wahaha. i sure cant hold my liqour yea. hee. alfred's face wasnt any better. he was entirely red too. wahaha. and he's rightfully underage [cmon he's only 14!] and he drank 3 cups. whee. wahhaa. to joyce and gab, my msges made sense right? this shows that i aint drunk. whee. and can anybody tell me which has a higher alcoholic content, red wine or beer? hee thank you. wahaha. reached home at around midnight and effectively conked out at 0030 in the morning. what a nice sleep red wine can induce. whee.


saturday [i.e. today. duh]:

im still trying to remind myself today is a saturday and not a sunday.had badminton session in the morning. weisi's boyfriend joined us for a while [dont ask me why he was here] before gab turned up. yea. badminton session was great but i sat the last 10 minutes out cos i was damn tired. must be because of last night. but then the three of them had to tell me they all slept later than me cos gab was playing comp games and fishball and wy were on the phone with each other. wow. hahaha. chilled out at fishball's place by playing cards and watching teenage mutant ninja turtles on the tv. grin. lunched by the poolside eating in fear of the table being blow away with our macs food. and one thing: never ever order macs home delivery. you will end up with soggy fries. yeacks. wahaha. went for tuition in the afternoon after that from 2-6pm. damn tiring. cos its 4 hours straight. and today was my first session and i nearly fell asleep on one kid. oops. but the girls are relatively guai and easy to teach. kang rui is a tad more talkative than dephne but i could tell dephne is more focused and easier to teach. yeaps. cant wait for my pay. whee. and now im home. shacked. tired. yawnn. i just wanna flop onto my bed and snuggle up and read a book, then sleep. nitex people. yawnn. its gonna be one homely day tmr.


when i wanted to watch mamma mia on 031004, nobody wanted to watch with me. but when im not free on 031004 cos of something very important, everybody wanna watch mamma mia suddenly. whats wrong with everybody? humph. unfair.





have you ever met someone of the opposite sex who gave out positive vibes about himself and you feel as though you wanna get to know him more?
i did. yesterday. first time in my life.
mm how interesting. hee.

im all dolled up ready to go for my cousin's wedding.
today was fun fun and more fun at bukit ho swee, meeting up with gab. will go into more details tmr. :)
meanwhile, im off for today. whee. :)

oh no...
ruoling says i type in chunks. oops. hem i shall paragraph it like a GP essay next time, putting the topic sentence in front of each paragraph, to save time for ruoling.


and the song. dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui.
i've received feedback from people regarding the song.
joycez says it makes her miss hwachong.
gabriel says its his favourite song.
now bing says it makes her feel sad.
well i miss hwachong and felt that this song is the most representative of hc songs.

should i keep the song up or change it?
you tell me.
sniff sniff.

the planes saved chip and kim. the united airlines saved them by a harrowing 18 minutes. bullocks to the chartered cab by colin and christie. muahahaha. im feeling soo soo evil. :) the 10.15am flight to dallas on united airlines. three cheers to them. hip hip hooray! :)

currently right now colin and christie are wayyy in the lead, getting back to the airport flying back to dallas texas, whereas brandon is stuck with nicole on the biking thing AND chip and kim are still in the cab on their way to the slide/ride place. meaning chip and kim are LAST.

HOW ON EARTH DID THEY MANAGE TO CATCH UP?!?!

CHIP AND KIM WON THE AMAZING RACE!!!
[read this from a webbie. cant stand the suspense anymore. hee]

CHIP AND KIM WON!!!

and amazing race 6 is starting on 021004!!!
ahhh i love the amazing race.
CHIP AND KIM DA BEST.

kay fine. im madddd...

sometimes i feel as though im losing grasp of reality.
and slipping off a cliff. hanging on just by a thread.
oh im so tired. so so tired.


if only somebody can just pull me up. and hang in there together.

all of a sudden i lost the knack for blogging. for a while. dont ask me why. i simply have nothing to say.
ooh just one thing.

joyce, i'll be here for you. promise. and dont stress kk? if not, lets stress together :) but i'll stop you from killing yourself. :) *BIG HUGS*

ahhh. class 95 is soft rock weekend today!! :) i simply love soft rock. whee. they are rock, but not hard rock metal. nice to soothe my feelings. it has the same effect on me, like jazz. ahh. i so wanna chill out this weekend but i have been playing too much le. ever since thurs till today sunday. was out on thurs watching movie, fri was spent mugging FA only, and sat was MAF, and of course sunday was badminton day. i like badminton days. whee. in fact, i love badminton days. :) had a fun time playing badminton just now at jurong east stadium with gab and fishball. wenyu dint join us cos he's having the fly. mm take care dude. was analysing the way fishball and gab played badminton. gab likes to make us sprint all over the courts, chasing the shuttlecock. and fishball would prefer to remain in her position to catch the shuttlecocks [but she is always able to hit them, no matter which angle the shuttlecock comes in from. heh.] fishball's hits are usually hard and fast whereas gab varies his shots all the time. it could be fast and hard for a while and then he would change it to something soft and near, making us run near the net to make our shots. but fishball has a higher accuracy than gabriel, which is pretty much obvious. wahaha. as for me, im easily distracted. by anything. happenings on the other courts, things whirling on my mind [like today] and of course, a rumbling stomach [like today too!]. heh. i lost entire focus in the last 5 minutes and i took myself out. spare myself the agony of watching the shuttlecock fly between fishball and gab. haha. and fishball's mum makes wonderful mooncakes!! ahh. the snow skin white lotus paste mooncake we ate today was heavenly. sheesh. was telling fishball her mum should go sell food in a canteen. it would definitely be damn popular cos her mum really can cook. yummy yum. :) then we spent a whole 4 hours having lunch and chatting at the same time. talking about anything under the sun, from army life [of course gab was leading the conversation here ;)] to cars [like what kind of cars we would wanna get. i still want my mvp. or volkswagon beetle.] to school [i.e. smu when i start complaining about the lack of likeminded people in here and me awaiting for the guys in my batch to get out of NS asap and join us here at smu. and trying to convince gab to come here even though my complaints.] to travelling around the world [i have a sudden urge to tour europe. but no monies. and gab was talking about his trip in aussieland. and me and fishball were talking bout going london for a week odd next year with joycet and coincide our return with junhui's return to spore. she can even be our tour guide there! i wanna tour europe and absorb new cultures.]. whoa. it was such a fun conversation. ooh and we were talking about clubbing and pubbing. obviously we'd rather pub than club. and we wanna go to a nice pub where we can simply drink, chill and listen to jazz. ahh bring me to a jazz bar. now! i want a drink to soothe my nerves. ooh i want. get me away from this stressful life.

NUS is having their term break now. NTU has finished theirs. mine is coming in two weeks time. i simply cannot wait. i want holidays [what may be lack of it, i dont quite care]. im simply dying le. sometimes i feel as though im on the verge of cracking, especially when i get moody for reasons obvious. i wanna go back to NTU and eat their nice nice jap food. and ramnik's hostel western food. i wanna crash ruoling's lecture and turn her room upside down. venus is saying she wanna organise a stayover. a mahjong bridge stayover. i want all of them! ahh. we can go for midnight movie [provided we stay at venus's place ;)]. i just wanna play. whine. i wanna do so many things. so many so many things. after MAF yesterday, i wanna be with my friends again. i wanna be back with 02S33 and my interact exco. oh goodness. miss them so so much. and the entire atmosphere at hwachong. you had to be there to know what i mean. you feel the warmth. the energy. the friendliness. everything. everybody.

met ruoling at clementi at 4 plus yesterday to buy stuff for MAF. hee we both spent about $10 odd each on things we bought for the entire class, stuff like lanterns, mooncakes, DURIANS [yea we bought the 3 for $10 durians and they were good kk.]. had a fun time walking around buying stuff, getting distracted in big book shop, and for a while clothes when i was trying to find nice bottoms [im running outta bottoms le!!]. made it to coro by 530 and we were there waiting for people to come. met wenhui and mok while waiting outside prince. mok has slimmed down! and wenhui still looks the same. wahaha. in fact mok is becoming good looking le [kor its a compliment. take it. :) ]. and me and ruoling became so bored we decided to play fei ji qi on the landing on the steps between prince and ke ai ji. wahaha. the people who were waiting for seats at ke ai ji were laughing at us lor. for being so boliao. shrugs. its even more boliao to stand there and laugh at people dont you think so? heh. people slowly appeared one by one, sijia zhangqing, yanlian, eileen, wilbur, xinxin, jason teo, yijian and qianwen. ate at yong chye and goodness i love the horfun there. its just damn bloody nice. walau. i miss yong chye too. haha. reached hwa chong at about 7 plus when we made a beeline to the third floor so that we could see the light up, both for the fire ball and the central piece. damn nice. i must say the 31st council is good. they put in alot more effort as compared to the previous years. yea. then went back downstairs to class bench to play with sparklers, lanterns whilst taking pictures here there everywhere. ate durians played bridge. mass song session in the central plaza with juniors and grandjuniors. i love singing the hwachong songs with my friends. s33 linked up in one circle [02, 03, 04] and we sang our hearts out, jumped our hearts out and had loads of fun. left only when the security guard switched off the wing lights which was at about 10 plus. wanted to do mass dance but weisiang wanted to take picture with seniors. but the whole event was good enough. enjoyed myself there, being myself and with my friends. such a major event every year where everybody gets together. where everybody gets high. when we play bridge, as usual. yisheng had this face of incredible look when he found us playing bridge at the class bench. :) im proud of being a bridge addict. :) im proud to be part of 02S33.

something i would like to do now.curl up in bed with a book and have class95 on the radio.









you can hurt someone who cares for you alot by ignoring them. tried and tested.

maf was fun.
shall elaborate when i have the time.

the beautiful fire works.  

light up across central plaza 

ruoling and me :) 

us + maria and jingwen 

mok and me :) 

class girls with lanterns :) [note xinxin's light died out] 

venus acting cute!! self taken picture :) 

i finally get the chance to sit down in front of my computer at home and have a proper blog entry. heh. been real busy these few days. and i mean real busy.

gave the PCP bbq a miss cos i still have Asoc day meeting tmr morning. plus MAF in the evening. and initially i thought i had comn serve in the afternoon but apparently after yy reminded me to check my mail, it has been cancelled for some weird reason or rather. in fact, it has been shifted to 091004 and the program remains the same. mm interesting. hehe. so im gonna use the time in between the meeting and meeting them to mug econs, with the mid term test coming in less than 10 days time. and when FA is barely over. oh sigh.

had an interesting day today. ponned class for the first time in uni life. *shhh* and she had to choose of all days to return our assignments. damn. was talking to some of them online when steph told me she's 'taking attendance'. oops. told steph to help me take my assignment back. AND. steph and jason told me they couldnt find my assignment after class. panicked and emailed my prof immed. and when i saw her coming from haven, i "cornered" her and asked her about my assignment. to realise that she said she gave everything out. msged people to ask if anybody had collected my assignment for me. [to be frankly honest, i dint think anybody would have, at that point in time.] so when yilynn replied saying that she took for me and passed it to elaine, i was touched. seriously touched by that small action. somebody realised that i wasnt there. heh. thanks girl *hugs* two people made my day today. huiling and joycez. thank you gals *muacks* met huiling for lunch and she bought cake to share. how sweet of her. *whee* and had fun teasing joycez in front of her friend yanlong [who so happens to be from hwachong too, but condemns hwachong :( ] and just plain crapping with her. i felt soo truly myself. laughing madly and nonstop suaning her, instead of me keeping my comments to myself half the time in school. such a wonderful feeling. and me and huiling have decided to learn malay together after she finishes her jap course. whee. haha.

oh roo! i brought the hwachong windbreaker to school today and it kept me warm from the strong aircon wind in the library. i have an inclination to attract aircon too i realise. heh.

went out with ruoling xinxin and venus to watch terminal yesterday. ooh terminal was funny. downright funny. and it was not bad. not worth $8.50 but $7.50 yea. its a good stress reliever. hee. now im waiting for jason to tell me if dodgeball is good. he's watching it tonight you see. [although i know i have the movie in my lappie.] had a nice time talking to them, crapping, suaning xinxin [my favourite pastime is to suan people. but it must be the right people. people like joycez, xinxin and even fishball. just that fishball wont retaliate. she'd just smack me. haha], ganging up with venus to bully xinxin and yea it was a nice and simple night. the most unforgettable part was when we bought the icecream mooncakes at swensens. venus, did you send the complaint email to swensens management? ooh people btw, if you wanna buy icecream mooncakes from swensens, please do not go to PS swensens. the service is horrible [except for the nice manager who accepted POSB savings card] and if you see a woman called maggie serving you, avoid her at all costs. fine i sound damn bitchy now. ah what the hell. she did it to us first by giving us such sucky service. shant go into elaboration or my blood will boil. urgh. just. avoid. it. yeacks.

the entire class is going back for maf tmr!!! i mean, me ruoling xinxin venus eileen elsa sijia yanlian zhangqing wilbur [?] dewen [provided he decides to come] are going back! meeting at 6 at coro, eat dinner and slowly take a nice walk back to hwachong where we eat mooncakes, play with sparklers and lanterns. and do the mass dances. whee. i simply cannot wait. seriously. ahhhhhh.

havent been blogging much i suppose. only for one day. expect nothing from me until sunday. or maybe tmr morning. cos from today onwards its gonna be busy busy busy. yea. plus plenty of hmwk to finish. argh.

im damn tired after the 4 hour long meeting.
but at last, everything is done.
finally.
gonna skip bachelorette and go sleep.

see ya dudes and dudettes in less than 12 hours time.
yawnnn.

currently at the clubhouse listening to free music. cos martin and dom are practising "more than words" with guitar and vocals damn nice :) while steph and i are using the laptops for self entertainment while listening to them. basically chilling out before we start LTB meeting at 4 all the way at Evans later. walau damn far la. and billy is in charge of our dinner, i hope the food at evans is better than food at haven and bistro. im damn sick of haven and bistro food le. wahaha.
im boreddd.

tmr got LTB presentation. argh. i wonder how it will go. i hope it will turn out alright.
i do realise when im bored i turn to blogging. hence making people reading lotsa crap. wahahaha. sorry people. wahahaha.

kk maybe i should stop. yea. get down to work. shall go read FA first. to make up for tonight's meeting.

ahhh im in school at a bloody early time. oops. the bus was freaking early la. ahhhhh. reached school before 8am la. aiyoh the bus was super fast. took me only half an hour to reach nj. and another 10 minutes to reach smu. and coincidentally after i stepped into the sch building it started raining. hehe. how coincidental.

im tired. super tired.
later got emergency meeting for LTB. *prays hard* i hope everything goes well. it would be nice to work with yik and beyond again. she sounded soo cheerful yesterday when i talked to her. so nice. yea. but working with her would mean changing the entire presentation, layout and our vision blah blah blah. so having marathon meeting later from 4 - 8pm. there goes my wishes of mugging for FA today. gotta bang on tmr le. argh. help. and thurs morning and afternoon. before i meet ruoling xinxin venus sijia [wonder if eileen yanlian and elsa coming along] for terminal and dinner. whee. boing. this is the thurs event im talking about. roo i know maf aint on thurs :) and gary i know we're supposed to be using thurs to major mug FA. oops.
gotta pia gotta pia.

and i cant wait to start organising the Asoc stuff. Kathy emailed me le. im doing programs with her. :) while gary is doing logistics with alvan. but big problem is both of us damn busy this week. all because of FA. awww. hahaha. but somehow i hope i can cope with the extra organising stuff. especially when econs midterm is in two weeks time. sighhh.

i loveeee this layout to bits. this is sooo apt. so apt in describing my feelings now. soo soo apt. my goodness. i lovee this layout. though green aint really my colour, but i did read somewhere before saying that green helps people to relax and destress. which is good. very good. cos i need to destress.
sighhh.

eventful sunday.

whoa what an eventful sunday.
at the same time, i have the bracelet junhui gave me on my wrist. sigh. prolly by now she's in thailand waiting for her transfer flight to heathrow. mm. sent her off yesterday at the airport in the morning and yea, glad that we could send her off at the airport. tears dint roll, but they were brimming in our eyes. it would be a long 3-4 years for her there and i'll miss her. miss her for being herself. oh sighh. close friends for 7 years. and she's now on the other side of the globe. sniff sniff. oh sighhh.


and then went down to esplanade to watch my sis's chorale concert. it was a three in one thing, having CHIJ sec, TJC and RVHS. fell asleep halfway throughout the concert during the CHIJ section, cos i was seriously damn tired. but i slept for a longer time than fishball who slept for only 3.5 hours and woke up late. yea. hahaha. coincidentally, met lixiang on express 502 on the way to town and talked to him about anything, from uni [since he's coming to smu too :)] to primary school and then silence followed after. this is the first time i had a long conversation with him [partially because he was only getting off at plaza sing while i was getting off at the esplanade.] heh. he seems to have changed quite abit i suppose. my mum thinks he looks good. erm. okay la. and he was commenting he met alot of the primary sch people in NS. hmm okai. and when i asked him if he still kept in touch with yanlian, he said he was busy. mm. casual brushoff? shrugs. none of my business anyway.


currently alone in the gsr. gonna mug and then i'll be chased out of the gsr at 2 cos we only booked it till 2. maybe i'd go seek refuge at the library which is always noisy. i think mugging at the gsr is alot more efficient. for one, it is definitely more quiet. alot more quiet.
yeaps. better start mugging soon. shant procrastinate le.

still at fishballs's place. decided to blog my final entry for tonight using her lappie. hee. her lappie looks and feels exactly like mine. wahaha cos its a T42. whee. yeaps.

as usual enjoyed myself thoroughly tonight. ate pizza at fishball's place, played badminton, playing cards and watching tv at the same time. its like normal chilling out at friends place. yea with wenyu and gab as usual. they turned malay for a while just now when we're talking about singapore idol. i like tonight. simple yet fun. :) i just hope we dont seem to be imposing on fishball all the time. we're playing bridge now. and we're watching tv as well. and im here blogging. wahaha.


kk i think enough of my entries. i blogged three times today! argh. wahaha. i should stop blogging so much. hee. this is the last time you will hear from me. but of course i'd be back tmr. definitely. wahahaha. im madd. but of course i usually turn mad when im with my friends nowadays. grin.

yy's house :)

blogging with yy's laptop at her house using her wireless modem now. wheeeeeeeeeeee.
and she's bathing. oops. waiting for dinner to come. i.e. canadian pizza. and going to play cards soon. :) wahahaha. this is soooo fun. and i gotta wake up real early tmr morning to go send junhui off. sniffsniff.


whee. i think fishball is coming out. hem. oops. :) eh i dont hear any noise again.
wenyu and gabriel are talking about drinking in the army. somebody actually gets drunk on liquor chocs. ooh wow. wahahaha.

hee. thansk you people for the flowers. thank you for cheering me up knowing that im down. thank you guys for being such wonderful people. thanks :) *hugs* i bet martin and steph were the ones who came up with the idea. no wonder they had the cheeky look on their faces when martin brought in loads of chips and drinks into the GSR. hem. hem hem. hahaha. plus the flowers was the surprise. though i must admit, i found it peculiar when steph asked martin where's the flower when we were halfway through doing the presentation.
yo people, thanks sooo much. :) im smiling, and its coming from my heart. :) :) :)


today is my sister's 15th birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!
coincidentally its on september 11. wahaha. everybody will remember her birthday. heh.
she missed out on her jaychou cd. cos there was miscommunication btw her and my mum, which led me to think she's gonna get her jachou cd from her choir friends and hence i got her a cake instead. :) awwww.
anyway hope she enjoys her birthday :) whee.

schedule [for the next week]
110904 - badminton
120904 - send junhui off. go watch rv chorale at esplanade.
130904 - sch until 645. :( comn meeting from 1 onwards.
140904 - sch. FA meeting after FA class.
150904 - LTB meeting after LTB class. end at 1500.
160904 - town with ruoling xinxin venus. the terminal + dinner.
170904 - LTB meeting. FA quiz at audi at 600pm. BBQ + stayover at aloha changi with PCP mates.
180904 - MAF :) + comn serve

[busy busy busy week] but it's gonna be fun. i cant wait for 160904.
miss ya girls.

sunflower from my LTB mates. thanks :) 

me and my sis. and the cake i bought for her :) 

had an outing last night that made me appreciate my old friends even more. made me realise how much i miss my friends dearly. and i figured that i wont be able to find friends like these anywhere else.


had dinner with shuhan ling wanyu yahui and junhui. it was sorta a farewell dinner of sorts for junhui since she's flying off on sunday. it was nice, sitting at crystal jade talking to them about uni life [more like complaints] and then wandering around the shops buying neccessities, and then sitting down for family fondue at anderson's. time flew and was nicely spent. really. even when i've met junhui and wanyu recently, it was really nice talking to shu ling and yahui. reminded me fondly of the memories we spent in rgs 1/6, 2/6. miss those carefree times terribly. the times during netball carn [hey yahui, i still keep the photo of you me ling and junhui framed up in my room :) wonder if you'd remember]. the times in lit class sitting at jap like tables. the times in chinese class in 2/6 fighting for huang laoshi's attention. the times we had painting murals in lit class. boy i bet the class is gone after quan left. our wonderful beautiful murals. oh sighh. the rgs girls who were under brian quan should remember him and his funny antics for lit lessons. ballads and everything. hahaha. nice to sit down and talk to them. a time when i can finally be myself. truly. i count myself lucky to have such wonderful friends. pity that yunde couldnt join us. de, your absence was felt. sniff.


i look forward to badminton sessions. i look forward to gatherings like this. when i can be myself and behave in an unrestricted way. i can be who i want to be. somehow or other, i cant seem to be myself in smu. i feel weird. out of place. like i dont fit in. nobody with the same level of frequency. nobody whom i can really talk to. those whom i can talk to, are not with me. they dont even have remotely similar timetables as me [yea huiling yuan joycez im referring to you guys]. oh how i'd wish time can go back to rgs or hcjc. cos i miss all my friends dearly. yanlian misses me alot alot too! [haha lemme be ego for a while, but that was what she msged me yesterday :) ] girl i miss you tons too. and ruoling. xinxin. venus. sijia. eileen. elsa. even the guys [yea jinyang dewen and wilbur, though wilbur doesnt say much. i miss my exco too. fishball sya gab jiahui wanjun xinyi xinyi dephne pk [yea both. and joyce, dont puke. somehow i think i'd rather spend time with xinyi than some folks in smu here. ] i miss my juniors too. mei. 03s33 people. interact junior exco. people like pansy. wendy. chris henry [though his ego self i crap easily with him]. i miss crapping with people. of course i miss my sec sch class mates, 403/303/206/106. everybody.


i wanna be myself. but i have no room to be myself. hence pardon me if i request to meet up with you guys once in a month or more. thats cos i miss you guys plenty.
sometimes i'd wish i have a proper class to bond with 5 days in a week. somehow i might feel more at home. more comfortable. *shrugs*
im tired.
and i should get cracking on my brochure. no more procrastination.
and i dont want sunday to come. cos i dont want junhui to fly off to the other side of the earth. i'll miss her terribly.

us six at anderson's :) 

bourne supremacy

can anybody find me the two books? bourne identity and supremacy? and any other that follows after? hee. sudden interest in the books stemming from the movie. grin.


bourne supremacy was good. for car chase lovers like me anyway. it resembled alot like the italian job, just that in italian job, it was a team effort thinking and planning. in bourne, it was only jason bourne thinking and planning. and the car chase scenes were fantastic. though its a wonder how he managed to survive it all after the tremendous bangings and knockings by cars and trucks alike. and matt damon is cute. no doubts about that. hee.


all in all, its worth a $7.50 watch. now i await the arrival of dodgeball and the terminal. whee.

argghh.

can somebody save me from this shitload of work. it just dawned upon me that i have tons to do, inclusive of my project work, plus assignments to hand in. im on the verge of breaking down. soon. arghhhhhhhhhh.


*breathe in* *breathe out* tons to print, tons to do. finish comn studies assignment by tonight [which i havent started], finish the last bit of stats by thurs [which should be easy to finish up], finish my brochure [which im only 1/3 through. if firdaus/minyuan/ivan happen to stumble upon this *sorry*] by friday because i have a meeting on friday, get in touch with the 9 organisations we sent out proposals to [by now only 2 replied me so i have to wait or call 7 more up], mug for finan acct cos there's a quiz next friday, finish up FA presentation qns [or at least try to do] so that i wont go through next lesson blur as a sotong, read up on econs so that i wont try and fake my way through again. by tmr, i will have to start editting video for a leader i've known for LTB. arghhhhhhhhhhh. *cowers* *is there anymore?* *racks my brain*


i wanna cry. life in smu aint as easy as i thought uni life would be.
sometimes i'd rather go through lectures and tutorials, not having to worry about participation cos i havent quite mustered the courage to speak up in class. i'd rather mug shitload work than to be worrying about things like projects and participation. im not as strong as what everybody thinks.
sometimes i think, i'd rather be a nobody than try to be a somebody when im failing terribly. i cant even cope.


i feel like a timebomb, about to explode any minute.

monday entry. again.

yea i know its my monday blues entry again. but for today, i dont have any blues :)
surprisingly. yea. hee. everything feels great today, even my mood improved after our comn project discussion meeting just now. somehow we work great. efficient, yet fun and light atmosphere. and we are truly efficient. just that now i have to figure out how to finish my brochure by friday considering ivan has finished his letter of intent and i am only one third my way through the brochure. arghh. anyway. everybody's getting stressed over projects. yicui was saying that just now in comn class too. herm. maybe they should cut down on the no of projects given to us per sem. argh. next sem got 4 projects also. acks. biz law, bgs, as, ct. and that is not including one more module that im gonna bid for i think. humm.


just came back from a nice distraction outside. whee. i like it whenever it happens. hum. hmm. i shouldnt be thinking so much. yawnn. i wonder what i should be doing now. i should be mugging or working on my brochure. yeaps i should go start work.

msn. icq. whatever.

i spent an increasing amount of time on msn. less on icq. blame it on the wireless connection in sch, my laptop, boring lessons, and the increased number of users of msn in my network. anybody anything but me. in fact there's a much higher chance of finding me online on msn than icq. blame it on more people using msn than icq. hahaha. hmm i realise i have a pattern for chatting online.


if i go heyy, it would be when im talking to casual friends or acquaintances. if i talk to those whom im much closer with, i usually go "boo!" and in return they go "ahh" for the fun of it. ask roo. and ruoling. and tim i think. wahaha. naturally there are exceptions. i use "yo" on wenhui cos he does that to me too. and he uses icq. either that or i havent gotten his msn contact. i think i use boo on mok. these are the only two people whom i talk to on icq. unless he comes online. which is quite rare nowadays. considering his situation. mm. i use *cookie* on ruoling sometimes [internal joke yea? jc friends would know. :) ] when i talk to students i go "heyy" and the next sentence would be "hows school?" as usual. cos i wont know what to talk to them too. unless im talking to jaz, my gan mei. heh. jaz short for jazreel. lalala. msn alot nowadays not for the pure sake of chatting online, but usually i try to grab my smu mates online and talk to them about the projects that we're doing. yea. beats trying to look for them in school since we're online on msn half the time. yea. and i talk to roo quite often on msn too, when i see her online. ruoling is always busy, the busy girl. and i hardly see xinxin online. *pouts* which leads me to think that talking to these busy people in person is alot better and easier.
some random ramblings anyway for meself. *ponder*


hii gab. finally tagged me on my tagboard. though he admits he's a big fan *paiseh* wahaha. i suppose this blog is a good [no wait, i think "very good"] way of getting to know me better. for those who are reading and you guys barely know me [be it you guys somehow never talked to me before or you guys are my smu mates] you will more or less get to know the real me [albeit i dont show all my emotions in here] be it the manner i think, the manner i speak [someone once commented the way i talk online sound exactly like the way i speak in real life. do i?], the manner i behave in virtual world. heh. just that i dont go "wahaha" as often in real life. yeaps. and for those who know me alot more than just a casual friend, this blog updates you on my life nowadays considering the fact that i dont see you people as often as i would like to. i suppose this blog is a good outlet for me to vent my frustrations and emotions, as well as sharing my happiness. although i think i've been doing the former alot more i think. yea. do i sound crappy? i think i do. but feel free to read my crap, cos this is exactly what is going on in my mind currently. yeaps.


for once i feel as though im at peace with myself. must be because of the way i was woken up this morning. a wonderful beautiful start to a nice sunday. i wonder how long this peacefulness would last. hmm. i wonder.

finally home.

yea im home. after one long day out in school and playing badminton. yawwnnn. now im really tired. thankfully not alot of people online to chat as well so there you go. bet i'll have an aching butt and aching arm tmr. right arm to be specific. yawwnn.

today's meeting in sch was productive. we managed to find the information we wanted. just that we slacked off in the afternoon. were supposed to be studying but somehow we ended up watching each other use the comp, crapping, and watching each other fall asleep. i dint :) weizhong was the first one to fall asleep and gary did so after that. wahaha. oops. somewhen in between a guy and a girl crashed into our unbooked SR. i only knew the guy who was zhimin, but i had absolutely no idea who the girl was. but she started talking to me like old pals so i started talking to her too. after that she went over to talk to gary and i was talking to zhimin. after they left, i turned to gary and asked him if he knew them. gary was like, "i only know the girl, jiawen." and i was like "i only know the guy, zhimin." dotz. which led me to wonder if jiawen was in child@st11 but i dont think so lei. weird huh. the weirder thing that happened today was that i actually met the hillgrove BB and GB people in SMU today!! wahaha. they were at botanic i think. then i saw them near the road outside biz lobby. whoa. i was like, why on earth do these people look so familar. and claudia and jaz [my gan mei :) ] were like "MS TEO!!" and everybody turned and looked. and choruses of "MS TEO"s followed after. *embarrassed* hee. they can still remember meee! whee. both the boys and the girls. and the 2E1 girls were blowing kisses at me la. aiyoh. *paiseh* and i kena-ed teasing from the two guys after that. gary and weizhong were like "ms teo.. ms teo" yeacks. wahaha. so coincidental. sooo sooo coincidental.


had badminton after that at bukit gombak sports stadium after that. wah the hall was hot and humid and stuffy. but i had a fun time as usual. we played rotational 2 on 1 since wenyu couldnt make it today. but he made it down for dinner. went bali thai for dinner. acks. the thought of me saving some money flew away. wanted bk for dinner actually, but somehow they wanted slow food instead. oh wells. at least the food at bali thai was not badd. and after that as usual our round of bridge and daidi. somehow im very thankful for the weekly sessions. at least i can finally be me. me myself and not some facade that i put on in school from time to time. it gets quite tiring sometimes. the constant contact i have with my sec sch and jc friends keep me alive and sane. it pulls me to ground level. and stops me from losing my true self. and im thankful for that. thanks dearies. :)


and yea tie, i agree with what you say. currently my guy friends are always on the lookout for pretty girls in smu [which is aplenty i hate to say. and im not included definitely.] and the thing is they are attached. take today's library incident for example. i was in the copier room with weizhong and a vaguely pretty looking girl with thick makeup [but weizhong thought she was chio] walked in to use the copying machine. he got excited when the girl taught him how to use the copier machine to staple papers together. and he gave me an excited nudge when he walked back. heh. plus. the pretty girl, eileen, in all his classes [i think they share the same timetable]. gary thought she was chio too the first time we had econs class [which was the first time gary saw her]. mmm. guys are always on the lookout. wont the girls feel insecure? i dont know. if my bf were to be constantly looking out for chioer girls, i would too. unless im the one going "oei there got chiobu" and im pointing in that direction asking him to take a look [more like wanting to hear his comments about the girl]. which was what i used to do yea. haha. ironic isnt it. but if he were to be doing it behind my back, i'd feel insecure and uneasy. maybe its just me. cos i am an insecure girl. that i know. i need constant reassurance and companionship to know that i aint alone and i aint as bad as what i think. i know i need a jab of confidence intake cos my confidence level is at an all time low after the break up. breaking up does weird things to you huh. oh wells. things will pass as time passes i suppose.


i need to concentrate and focus on my work. stop thinking about wanting to play. but i wanna watch movie.
i wanna watch 13 going on 30. i wanna watch a cinderella story. i wanna watch the bourne supremacy. i wanna watch the terminal. i wanna watch dodgeball. i wanna watch garfield [ i think. but its definitely not a $8.50 show like what i was trying to convince gary of. he wants to win the 1.5m garfield plush that GV is giving away. and he did say last time that he definitely wanted to watch garfield with me. oh wells. a broken promise due to unforeseen circumstances. :( ]. i wanna watch plenty of movies but i dont have anybody to watch with me. i dont wanna watch it alone. believe it anot, my last movie was the village [spidey aint counted cos it was my second time.]. which was how long ago. one month? urghs.
i wanna watch mooovieeee.

tireddd.

currently in one of the seminar rooms [no we dint book] mugging and reading up on the econs stuff we found in the lib today. now there's a confusion because the question i copied is different from what gary copied. a difference of the word "worker". if its "foreign worker policy" or "foreign policy". if its the former, i can throw the FTA bunch away cos its putting me to sleep. ahhhhhh. its so dry. we are soo bored here. i think weizhong is asleep. i think, from the looks of the paper covering his face. we're in pretty comfy positions, with the chairs lying all over the place, one person to each row of the seminar room. and we dont seem to be much bothered by the amount of readings we gotta do after our research in the lib. argh. bidding for time till badminton later. its almost like a countdown to me. i cant wait. and hopefully burger king for dinner later.
yawnnnn. someone give me a bed. nowww.

in sch lib.

currently in sch doing econs project. dropping a short note to reenergise myself.
its freezing cold in here. blame it on me wearing tee and shorts. but i still have badminton later. whinee. and im overloaded with information on singapore's FTAs, foreign policies and unemployment rates. drowning in books. and gary is looking for more books still. arghhh. im bored. i believe everybody can tell right? yawn. i cant wait for the week when i meet ruoling, the PCP people and finally there's MAF. i cant wait. simply cannot wait. whee.

l.o.v.e.

had a sms conversation with a friend of mine today after i had a joke played on me this morning during stats class. [it wasnt quite funny considering my current emotions. blearh. but it wasnt his fault. blame it on my friend's friend who grabbed his phone and played with it, using me as the joker. why me, till now i still dont understand. guys of our age who disrupted still somehow have the mentality of 15 year olds. that is, i presume, my friend's friend disrupted just like him and him too. i think im the only one who understands the above rambling.]. the sms conversation went through the usual of him asking me if i was better [yes thank you] and then the kidding of trying to matchmake me blah blah blah. he mentioned that guys are usually on the lookout for the opposite sex. which led me to wonder why. animal instinct to notice the prettier ones immediately? the hunger and thirst for couplehood? i dont know, but i wonder. do girls do that too? i dont think i do. at least not in the past 19 years of my entire life. the occasional gawking at super cute and shuai gys [think wilber pan]. but no, i dont invite guys to come and chase me [not that there were any]. im the passive sort, and i dont go around looking for love. instead, love gotta come find me. but he thinks that people look out for love [i.e. couplehood] either consciously or subconsciously, directly or indirectly. and i dont quite agree. wont that mean every guy would be eyeing at every single girl, checking out if they are suitable to be their life partner or something? wont schools be in chaos with catfights and fistfights if everybody were to behave like what he said? mm. i dont know. *shrugs*



some food for thought i suppose. why dont you come and tell me what you think. as in, people reading this.




L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one i see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can


Love is all that i can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you



L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one i see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can


Love is all that i can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you


[a particular all time favourite song of mine, by Nat King Cole.]

a conversation.

a conversation between me and gabriel on sunday night.
took me a while for it to strike me and i found his words quite true.

frozen stone: ha izzit...hm...you yy n yuting are all aluminium with a layer of aluminium oxide.. ha figure tt out!
-- a few sentences later ---
frozen stone: well i believe women..once hurt...become like aluminium with a layer of al oxide.. get e drift?
-- a few sentences later ---
frozen stone: jus protective layer..
frozen stone: a women once hurt becomes more protective.. n being more self-protective n somewat hostile..she's ugly in tt sense.. but one fine day..some foolish guy will fall in love with this ugly girl..cuz he sees the real beauty hidden under this protective side of her..


honestly speaking, i think i understand and agree with what he says. it may seem profound, but it is true. to a very large extent.
i wonder when the next foolish guy would come along. i wonder. *ponders*

meeting.

report on meeting. heh.
went back to school today for a while in the afternoon for comn101 project. which was relaxed and fun. and we were efficient sia. damn efficient. got out exactly what we wanted and delegated work in about 1 hour odd time. whee. and the atmosphere was nice, with firdaus ivan and minyuan. ivan arrived half an hour late. now whats the stereotype about girls being the ones who are perpetually late? grin. but i still think we are good. really good. yay. meeting again after comn class on monday to look at the drafts that we're gonna do. over lunch again i suppose. yawn. tmr still got LTB meeting. saturday still got econs meeting. and sat evening having badminton. maybe i'd plant myself somewhere in the afternoon and mug. then i'll make my way down to bukit gombak to play badminton [and have an aching butt and right arm on sunday].
the meeting was nice in the sense it kinda distracted me from something else. yea. but im glad for the noon call. thanks.


i cant wait for week 5 to come. meeting ruoling for movie/dinner. meeting the PCP people for bbq. and there's maf on saturday! three days continuously. whee. but i do know that there would be frantic meetings for projects. and frantic mugging for midterm papers. like stats and econs.
speaking of which, i shall dedicate the night to intense mugging for stats. saw ivan carrying the stats book just now. mm. wonder what the quiz would be like tmr. mcq? no idea. wahaha.

projects.

whoever said 5 modules was alright? why on earth did our seniors advise us on doing 5 modules a semester?!?! arghh. i cant complain. i have no right to complain because i was preassigned five. to think i wanted to be preassigned five. now i dont want to. im getting stressed like gary. we're both stressed over econs. stupid econs. wait till joycez and yuan do it next semester. but hey chances are they might be in the same class. lucky girls. well at least i have weizhong gary and nicole. plus elaine siying and a few other girls.


somebody save me from the projects pleaseee. i have four major projects. i take my words back about having a slack timetable. now i know why the hell i have a slack timetable. the remaining time is for us to go DISCUSS about our major projects. what the hell. look at it this way. i just had LTB meeting this afternoon. tmr afternoon i gotta go back to school for comn101 project [thankfully i met ivan as i was walking out if not i was about to msg firdaus asking him about comn101 project]. friday after stats i have LTB project meeting again and on saturday morning i have econs project. and the cycle will repeat itself all over again. AND i havent included FA project. which is only coming in week 11. i.e. the week when i would be chionging my econs project [if we havent finished it by then] and my LTB project for the major presentation. arghhhhhh. now i understand what joycez is feeling. whine.


4 major projects.
most urgent one - comn101 project. presentation in week 7, theres only four of us working on a problem and trying to solve it with the fantabulous language we are supposed to include. note my sarcasm. thankfully they are nice people. ivan is for me to bully, as of what elaine says. hehe.
most major one - leadership teambuilding project. we have a few presentations for it. proposal presentation in week 4. martin luther king presentation in week 6/7. final CSP presentation in weeks 12/13. in the meantime we're supposed to run our CSP. and we havent found an organisation!!! argh. dammit.
most headache one - econs project. we dont know how to start. and we dont know what to include. dammit, we dont even know what our focus should be. what the hell can we do with one statement? we aint geniuses you know.
most _______ one - FA project. fill in the blank later. alvan says its an easy project. we just need to spend more time on the packaging. oh wow. one week for us to figure out the answers to the questions he's gonna give us in week 11 and to package it as nicely as possible. according to alvan, his group made the presentation like a film roll cos they were doing their project [allocated] on cathay. oh wow. what if gantinhua gives us something like creative? we make speakers and sound cards for him [i named creative cos the speakers are right in front of me.] what if he refers back to haw par? anyway. we're a pure girls group [with one lone guy who got thrown here cos he was one of the last few to join the class since he bidded for the module] and that should work us some advantage since we heard that he likes girls. grin. hopefully not a perverted one. wahahaha.




think im going madd with my meetings and projects. stoned out for the last half hour during LTB just now. sorry pals [i think only jason reads this *heyy*]. one thing to thank for, these people are nice to work with. with monkeys like martin and billy making us laugh half the time, and the knowledge of my og pals with me in econs project, and easygoing people in comn101 group, plus yixin elaine and jialing to feel comfortable with for FA project [never quite talked to changqi since he joined in late], i look forward to meetings sometimes. it translates into companionship. something which i miss terribly. oh wells.
gotta go bathe le. maybe i'll continue later.
so much for my rants on my projects.