the small little things that make me smile

• wandering around marina square when shops are barely open, and crowds not in
• doing window shopping alone!
  
• that bowl of 皮蛋瘦肉粥 from marina sq's pick and bite!
• having the nicest view that looks toward my alltime favourite scenery from the esplanade library at the reading corner
• listening to a jazz concert at my fave place - the esplanade
• walking into the esplanade cd shop and listening to the cds on sale there
• the lunch set at inchiban boshi that is simply salivating - chicken cutlet with cheese, SASHIMIIII...
• having a long good nice chat/catchup with roo (:
• pigging out on chocolatey icecream at haigendiaz
• pass by max brenners and think about how me and kailyn shared a totally sinful fondue on her birthday last year
• tim replying my sms in the middle of the night when he's at aussie [2am there, 12mn here]
  

and finally..

• sharing good and fun times with the library team while we pack away books in a small corner of ymca :)
  

that's good for me. :)

late at night.

only hearing noises of the whirring fan in the room.
seated in front of a brightly lit screen amongst the darkness.
the occasional chirpings of the bird outside who is having insomnia.

attempting to make full use of the 10-2am 2x but failing desperately.
wanting to help di with his work, but brain failing to work.
the depths of physics attempt to drag me into the whirlpool, but i've near but forgotten all.

the random blog-hopping to find out what others have been up to.
the same ol' stuff the same ol' routine.
whats new, till you can get out of singapore and take a breather.

staring at the screen not knowing what to do.
supposed to, and a want to sleep. but the brain is unwilling.
feeling restless, feeling tired but not tired.

the blinking cursor prompts me to type more.
the white page beckons invitingly.
i stare blankly at you, and you stare blankly at me.

the clock chimes 2.
its time to sleep.
or at least, attempt to.

goodnight.



you come and ask me concerned questions.
why are you doing so?
what is the purpose of you asking?
why are you always asking but not taking any step further?
it has been a near 9, 10 months? i dont know.
i really dont know whats up with you.
and why you are doing all these.
does it matter, or does it not?

tired.

everything seems to be a tiresome chore now.

getting myself out of bed.
getting myself to finish my books.
getting myself to clear my table.
getting myself to start on grey's anatomy.
getting myself to get sodiume to lvl 71 before sunday.
getting myself to complete and finish up the ludi quests.
getting myself to answer emails/smses.
getting myself to do some exercise.
getting myself to give tuition.




all i wanna do is to ....
i dont really know actually.

ps: i hate failing my scrolls. i absolutely hate it detest it. how much millions have i wasted on failed scrolls? BAHHHH HUMBUG. -.-

teaching

teaching has been a major part of my life ever since i stepped out of mandatory education. and for the past 3 years i've been teaching at the same place, that has almost become a 2nd home to me. almost.

and today was the first time i ever felt the heaviness of leaving my teaching position, all thanks to a fellow TEO who insisted on throwing a pizza party. we sat down at the pantry area, with a couple of teachers and were just talking about our experiences in school, the students whom we meet, the staff who guided us through the problems and mistakes we make..
the lessons we have in class, the hearts of the students whom we have touched *hopefully* and the many fun times we share in the staff room, eating, snacking and playing the fool. getting to know fellow colleagues better through various events and happenings..

somehow, despite the many horrible incidents i've seen and met in class with some students, it hasnt seem to deter me much from the passion for teaching. its always a challenge to walk into class and attempt to teach a class of noisy mischievious kids who refuse to sit down and listen to you. and then when their attitudes evolve and change for the better, to those days when they can go "cher why liddat? cher explain more lei.. cher i like your teachings, cuz i can understand!" to those days when they whine and say "cher dont go, i dont want to change teacher!!!" you see them grow, you see them want to learn, you see them mature.
those are the things that make you want to go on, want to see them grow, want to see them mature.

it has been a long 3 years ever since i started down this relief teaching route. albeit its only relief teaching, i still get to see my kids grow. from the original naive cute sec 1/2s to the current mature notsocute anymore sec 3/4s.
had the honour of going in to see 2 of my favourite classes today to do some relief, and it felt real good to see them again, catching up with some of them, seeing they becoming more hardworking and mature. the kids in 4t1 have really grown and come a long way, from the social studies time i had with them when they were in sec 2, to the english periods we had in sec 3. really, the feeling this morning was simply amazing.
and then of course 2e2 kids are simply adorable, to me that is (: the funny thing was, as i stepped into the class the class was rowdy, saying that they have been waiting for me to come in. i was wondering how they knew i was gonna relief them, until i realised their councillors in the class are incharge of the morning relief everyday. -.- no wonder la.
and the funniest thing? i went down to dabao food for lunch and saw penny&shuqin along my way down. knowing that i was going to their class later for classroom cleaning, i told them that. penny was soo excited. -.- and when i went into the class, before they greeted me i said this. "in case you guys have forgotten my name, im ms teo." the class giggled and pointed to the board. apparently these words were scribbled on the white board "ms TEO weina is coming later! :) " fantastic.

its the small little things that students do, keep you going. :)
thanks kids! :)

LUDIBRIUM!

ludi ludi ludi ludi ludi~~~~~
wednesday 24th may ludi patch woooooot - info taken from mod wai's blog. (:
im expecting a long downtime, so i planned my meeting to be on wednesday afternoon! *hiakshiakshiaks*

sodiume is huff-ing and puff-ing her way to lvl 70.
she is struggling at lvl 68, 70% at the moment.
she thinks its more fun to play with xiaoliang, her new found pet while Oomps is away on holiday. >.<
she misses Oompa. she wants Oompa and rambly to go exploring in new found places in ludi after the patch is done! she wants to wander into ludi dungeon where all the powerful scary monsters are.

pardon the maple talk. getting a little hyped up over hitting 70 by the end of the week hopefully, and the long awaited launch of ludibrium! meanwhile, its back to mega chionging to see if i can level by tonight. 30% is not difficult. 30% coupled with bride@18, so u think u can dance & superband IS difficult. damnit.

senseless rambling.

maple story
sodiume is 1.5 lvls away from dk-hood! i better lvl her before gametime being down next wednesday for the patching of ludi. i think the patch should come out on next wednesday. argh my days are so packed now i dont know if i can get her to lvl 70 before i leave for shanghai!!! urgh. any nice FRIENDS out there wanna help me play? 2pm - 2am 2x exp timing, so no worries about it going tough [yea right my ass >.< ] im sure for those who have no inkling wth im talking about, you should at least know im talking about maple. yea maple story. I WANNA BE A DRAGON KNIGHT!
plusplus i hand itchy, went to change her hair. AND colour. but i like lei =P she has the metrosexual hairstyle now and i think sodiume is very funkaayyy! hahahaha. now i hand even more itchy, i feel like getting a pet coupled with item and meso pick up. but hor, going broke le! :( howwww.

yea yea me thinks ruoling is right. im a maple freak >.< hahahahaha. doesnt matter aint it? :)

was looking at ruoling's pictures of rambly, and a number of them had sodiume in it. its amazing to see how all of us have grown, wielding different weapons at different stages, wearing different clothes and hairstyles.. we've all come a looong way. a really long way. sigh. and as we all slowly grow up, matters of the heart become more complicated. oh sigh. sometimes i really prefer crapping and playing with online friends, things are alot simpler there. but when real life friends come into the pictures, many things have to be taken into consideration >.< but im damn glad for rambly's existence! :) as usual, she's like a godsend to sodiume in maple, just like how her owner is a godsend to me in real life! love ya ruoling!! :))

21st birthday
wheeeee wheeee wheeeee i've more or less planned out what im gonna do and im quite excited about it! now all i gotta do is to contact the people involved [invited] and cross my fingers/toes/hair/arms/legs to hope that they are free that day! the date is rather weird, but i guess thats the nearest date im available to my birthday! i hope everyone will enjoy themselves that night! :)
and oh regarding presents, i would really appreciate it if you guys ask me what i want. i will prefer vouchers, but please ask me where the vouchers should come from. :) so that there wouldnt be any overlaps and stuff like that ya? i really dont have anything tangible in mind right now, except for vouchers which is as good as giving me real money. but yea i want vouchers. from a couple of places. sms me to ask me about it :) i look at how ruoling enjoyed spending her vouchers yesterday and im envioussss! hahahaha.

for the first time in my life, i am going to spend my birthday overseas. ohmygoodness. in a village somemore. first day of official sai-gang work somemore. woooooooot sweet :)

shopping!
yesterday went shopping with ruoling and i got a nice beady necklace! and then we wandered from bugis to town and had mudpies from coffeebean along the way :) yummmmy nice! saturdays should be spent like that, nuaing in the morning, meeting people for lunch to discuss about admissions into smu and then meeting friend for shopping and dinner :) we went to the icon also, but we finished touring the place in less than half an hour? hahahaha. nothing much there la really.
wandered around town, went to borders to look for cd while i looked at the travel guides for shanghai. i want to go fuzhou lu and bring lotsa chinese wuxia novels back! and and we had oyster meesua for dinner. niceeeee :) in between we were popping into 7-11s asking for sale of maple ppc and there were none! >.< conclusion: town 7-11s do not sell those cards. sobs.


conclusion for the entire day: rgs girls are irritating. but we like being irritating. MUAHAHAHA.

slacker. bummer. whatever.

okay okay fine i admit i've been a tad lazy.
okay okay fine but my internet browser hasnt exactly been working to my liking.
its like, i can get to the yahoo website and thats about as far as i can go. and today i finally resolved the problem by doing all sorts of nonsense to my lappie [aka MAJOR CLEANING UP].

shrugs. i also dont know whats wrong with my lappie >.< all i do know is that, when i checked sch email i nearly fainted of a heart attack. *faints* imagine, during school holidays you still get flooded with emails. *faints again* nonetheless most of them are regarding the upcoming shanghai trip so i shant whine too much. so much unfinished business! and i simply cant come up with a teeshirt design lars. damnit i suck at teeshirt designs. im racking my brains, i really am! :(

thankfully though my browser has been having some problems by its own, im still able to go on msn, maple etc. but i've been appearing offline due to the amounts of complaints i get from being AWAY and not replying. hello, away means im not at the comp/msn/whatever, so who says i gotta reply when my status is AWAY? -.- stop being such asses lar. wanna find me, go maple and find lor LOL. sodiume is at lvl 68 le *beams* 2 more levels to DK-hood! yipppeee! i become a dragonknight before i leave for shanghai! hopefully i can hit lvl 75 before i go shanghai. >.< and ludi is coming out!!! yiiiiipppeeee! :D more maps, nobody is gonna fight with me for maps in elnath any more! shooo shooo all go to ludi to train! muahahaha.

last weekend was a real blast, coupled with movie-watching [poseidon - titanic w/o romance], one full day of fun at sentosa with ruoling and lifang, and of course the birthday celebrations at mind cafe for ruoling! frankly speaking, sentosa trip was my favourite day! not that i dint enjoy myself thoroughly at ruoling's birthday [i did i did! and so did monstar and yaya!], but i cant help but feel disappointed at some people. especially what ruoling told me during maple yesterday while we were chionging training, rambly to lvl 47 and sodiume to lvl 68. oh sighs. i guess time will be able to prove effectively which are the friends to keep close to you [ruoling is a keeper!] and which are the ones who will eventually drift out of your life, to such an extent you dont really give a damn if you meet up with them anymore. shrugs. shant be too bothered la. afterall, this is small as compared to the growing up before uni started at the tender age of 19. :)
even if friends are periodic, i must say i love the friends who i have now! met up with yy and jt yesterday, and we had fun at coffeeclub! for once i left coffeeclub bloated. >.< urps. cheesy cheesy chicken macaroni good and nice! :D

my 21st birthday celebrations WERE giving me a headache before ruoling's birthday celebrations. for these 2 weeks i was debating if i should have a big get-together or have small separate cosy ones. i've decided and im not saying. no matter which kind i have, im gonna make it small, nice and memorable. so dont be surprised if you aint invited, because the targetted group i currently have in mind will not exceed more than 10. there you roughly have an idea of how big a group im gonna invite and if you are gonna be invited.
im rather tired from school and am glad for today's off-in-lieu for polling day. its nice slacking around the house in the morning, catching the finale for amazing race even though i woke up half an hour late due to me refusing to get out from the nice blanket covers in my bed and having a chance to laze around before getting up for cake as breakfast. there's gonna be meeting tonight, which means i wont get to know who was booted out from AI tonight. i think results should be out on the internet by now. lemme go be a spoiler muahahaha. wooooot Elliott Yamin was booted out tonight! so effectively we have taylor hicks and katherine mcphee left. pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease let taylor win. i really dont quite like katherine you see. she has powerful vocals but i simply just dont like her. 就是看不爽, you know? LOL.

and oh oh oh im so in love with the dance reality show, so you think you can dance!
me thinks jamile is such a hottie *swoons* in fact me thinks baldies like jamile and chris are oh-so-hot. hahahahaha.



fine fine, enough crap for today.
one resting day today, before one last day of school tmr and then tis the weekend again! hoooray!

A special email from ruoling :)

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: phoebe poon <ruoling@gmail.com>
Date: May 14, 2006 3:24 AM

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are friends periodic?
 

definitely. but as with all waves, periods can be long or short. :) hence involving frequency. i guess u could argue that as frequency increases, people get tired of each other and therefore the period is shorter. but there's also a theory that meeting up regularly helps to keep the overall period longer. hahas. :D
                              XXXXXXXXX

why do i like being alone sometimes?
 

because u are not a stuffed toy who does not get to choose what she wants to do? or its just because the grass is always greener on the other side. when u're having too much fun u want to sink into solitude. when u're alone u just crave for fun. ^o)
                              XXXXXXXXX

wouldnt the world be simpler if there are no relationships? 
 

of course it would. but we would then be just animals. like, JUST animals. complexity is the beauty, sometimes.
                              XXXXXXXXX

why are 21st birthdays so important?

 

because there was a Mr Twantyfirz who was a rich guy and threw bombastic country wide parties on his birthday every year. Thus the christening of 21st birthdays as the important one.

                              XXXXXXXXX

why do i miss that blue one eyed piece of shit?
 

awwwwwwwww. *grin*
                              XXXXXXXXX

为什么我会记仇？
 

因为所以香蕉蚂蚁其中必有道理。

                              XXXXXXXXX

为什么我总喜欢独自一人在宁静的深夜里胡思乱想?
 

因为安静，所以没有嘈杂的事务干扰你。内心的声音也变得大声多了。
                              XXXXXXXXX

为什么我会想念它？
 

用上了"它"，应该是指monstar吧。 因为he's cute and charming!
                              XXXXXXXXX

为什么事情总要这么复杂? 

 

因为不复杂就不好玩了。

                              XXXXXXXXX

为什么我常在自己周围设立一道很厚的墙?

 

因为闲着没事干。

                              XXXXXXXXX

你认识真正的我吗? 
 

我怎么知道？！我只知道我蛮喜欢我认识的你。  :)

                              XXXXXXXXX

你又是谁,我认识你吗?
 

:| you mean the previous question wasn't for me?
                              XXXXXXXXX

do you know me? do i know you?
 

oh okay. so u're just translating. damn.

--
"just-keep-swimming...just-keep-swimming"

fuzzy wuzzy

are friends periodic?

                              XXXXXXXXX

why do i like being alone sometimes?

                              XXXXXXXXX

wouldnt the world be simpler if there are no relationships?

                              XXXXXXXXX

why are 21st birthdays so important?

                              XXXXXXXXX

why do i miss that blue one eyed piece of shit?

                              XXXXXXXXX

为什么我会记仇？

                              XXXXXXXXX

为什么我总喜欢独自一人在宁静的深夜里胡思乱想?

                              XXXXXXXXX

为什么我会想念它？

                              XXXXXXXXX

为什么事情总要这么复杂?

                              XXXXXXXXX

为什么我常在自己周围设立一道很厚的墙?

                              XXXXXXXXX

你认识真正的我吗?

                              XXXXXXXXX

你又是谁,我认识你吗?

                              XXXXXXXXX

do you know me? do i know you?






深夜里,思想特别多. 怎么摸索,也摸不着自己到底在想些什么.
我想,我需要独自一处的时间,处理思绪,养好精神.

wheeeeeeeee!

am at ruoling's place, with 2 of them playing maplestory while im slacking and ruoling went to change. we're gonna set off to the minds cafe soon! :D:D:D

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to yaya&ruoling
happy birthday to youuuu!!!

tired but happy!

been out for two consecutive nights, having tons and loads of fun!
its good to take my mind of marking scripts and mapling once in a while.
and today was burn-my-pocket day! cash outflow > cash inflow. >.<


more updates tmr night when im at ruoling's place.
wooooot holy sweet! i see ruoling szeyi and lifang for three consecutive days!
more more more more more~

headache

when you see something like this, you get turned off immediately. what happens if you continously to see more of workings like this?!?!?! you die of a headache.
thats what is making me so hot-headed now. THIS is irritating me. students, please dont do this to torture your teachers. >.< 

giving up.

i give up. i hereby officially declare that blogger hates me. both my lappie and home pc. argh forget it. i simply couldnt stand the messy formatting that i deleted the entry. thanks to oomps dar for helping me though :D cant help it but im a sucker for nice neat formatting. hiakshiaks.

im sleepy im tired. im perpetually sleepy AND tired.
and im pissed. like really freaking pissed.


what happens when you get pangseh-ed too often?
do you...
a. feel like a louser?
b. feel like a reject?
c. feel like an idiot?
d. all of the above?

especially when the person related has a long history of flying your pigeons dated back to the stone age?
would you feel dumb believing in the person again and again?
some people need to be given a taste of their own medicine in order for them to know how we [aka the pigeons] feel. the sight of them make me puke. urgh bleah.

'nuff said. anymore i really need to go puke. i feel nauseous. URGH.

stupid blogger

pardon me for the totally nonsensical formatting in the previous post. i deduce from this incident that blogger hates me. or at least that particular post, it refuses to publish that post nicely! im damn irritated. i saved my entry in a text file and asked oompa to help me publish it using his comp, and finally it publishes! with a screwed up formatting. its okay dar, i'll fix the formatting myself.

meanwhile im tired sleepy and drowsy. im outta here.

busy busy.

i've been busy hectic busy. too busy to blog.
shall update you guys another day.

but meanwhile, exams have started and i've started marking. hurray!
lol.

links!

my blog is now open to links, so if you want me to link you, tell me via msn or tag me!

meanwhile, goodluck to all students reading for your exams! :D
and to mrpeh: i am not a blur queen! GRRR.
i'll make you teach my ntech kids next time again! LOL